posted May 20, 2016 09:17 AM              

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Originally posted by teasel:
I've been thinking about people here, even though I haven't been spending much time here.

Still not doing well, but I talked to an old friend this morning - younger than me, a girl who was like a little sister to me, when she lived here. We'd both had a bad night, and she told me that even though she's in therapy, I'm the only person she can really talk to.
http://themighty.com/2016/02/25-texts-to-send-a-loved-one-living-with-depression/

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posted May 21, 2016 10:16 AM            

No quoting, please.

Sometimes you can sort of have a little reincarnation if you have a certain reputation that you'd like to escape from. Sometimes reputation won't let you escape so it's necessary to "die" and come back as "John Doe".
Escaping all previous judgments.

posted May 30, 2016 02:22 PM            

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Originally posted by MillyX:
From now on, I'm keeping my guard up.

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posted May 30, 2016 04:11 PM            

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Originally posted by MillyX:
When a guy leaves you and comes back saying they made a mistake. You damn right you made a mistake fool , sit the f*ck down, know that the bridge that you burn you can never rebuild. You wanted some space so that's what you'll get.

You dug your own grave, now get in you're DEAD to me.

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posted June 01, 2016 09:46 AM            

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Originally posted by StubbornVirgo:
Sometimes I just type out long posts here but I never press "submit".

I wonder if I'm the only one here who does that?

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posted June 01, 2016 11:02 AM            

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Originally posted by StubbornVirgo:
Sometimes I just type out long posts here but I never press "submit".

I wonder if I'm the only one here who does that?

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posted June 03, 2016 09:40 AM            

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Originally posted by StubbornVirgo:
Thanks guys. Good to know I'm not the only one who does that.

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posted June 06, 2016 09:17 PM            

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Originally posted by StubbornVirgo:
Thanks guys. Good to know I'm not the only one who does that.

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posted June 07, 2016 11:59 AM            

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Originally posted by Elysia:
You guys...!
Just post already.

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Ok, ok. Twist my arm.
Please don't quote
Everywhere I look, astrological interpretations, personality type descriptions, and in my introspection I find that I am a mix of introversion with flashes of extroversion. Sometimes so much that it's surprising to others. I find this pattern down to my deepest self.
It's not that I desire to "be normal". I don't care what "normal" is and I don't care if I fit into it or not. However, this personality trait, or traits can be stressful and confusing. From a technical standpoint, it makes sense. I see in myself how it happens and I see it in my chart but it's sort of like one of those Draconic Chart things for me in the sense of, "What is it's purpose?" Why am I this way? What are the benefits? I haven't figured that out yet.
You might be confused and I sometimes forget that people are not in my head. I think, I talk, and I assume that others fill in the gaps.
You see, I can, and often do, feel selfless love AND hostility together. I have understanding and empathy, yet a lack of empathy also. It's almost as if there are two sides to me, so opposite. It's not even that they fight each other because I don't have issue 95% of the time on what to decide. There's a little right/wrong intervention that keeps me straight. Have you heard that story about the Native American? His grandson asks why some people do good and some people do wrong. His grandfather replies, "Each person has inside of them a good wolf, and a bad wolf." The grandson asks, "Which one wins?" The grandfather replies, "The one that you feed." It's something like that. For me, it's like if I choose to do "Wrong". If I choose to hurt, it doesn't feel as wrong as it probably should. It's very confusing.

posted June 07, 2016 01:20 PM              

*typing out response at supersonic speed before you erase and I lose my flow*

I get what you mean...
It must be hard, turning that gaze inward. Having that awareness. That whole post of yours should be quoted in a book somewhere, under the title ..'Why they speak of the 12th House in hushed tones'

Seeing the capacity for both extremes, co-existing - not negating one another (as we've been taught), can be overwhelming I'm sure.. Transferring control to that right/wrong gatekeeper might be harder than you make it sound..

Why would we be given all that darkness if we weren't meant to express it..? Or have a healthy way to deal with it. Yeah, the "what is the purpose" question. I think, the very fact that you *can* see it, and, to some extent accept & live with it..is part of the purpose. The higher purpose being, 'acceptance', of sorts... Of course, it baffles me too, and I can't say that that's *it* - but with theses things, the one thing I've noticed consistently is accepting and forgiving oneself gives some peace of mind.

^Don't know if any of that made sense...*sigh*...</EndofRambling>