posted April 05, 2019 10:10 AM            

I’m not even an A student in the class. But I’m knowledgeable ask questions in class. Can usually put good time into looking things over.

People would come up to me and ask questions before class and I could usually answer them.
I was fine with it, since I could hold a conversation with most of these people outside of helping them.

But then these other two girls...ask me stuff...and can’t hold a conversation about anything else. So it got insulting territory for me. Like they are entitled to me helping them.

Like if you need help that bad, talk to the actual professor or get a tutor.

My boyfriend does not get why I’m bothered by this!

People just coming up to me for help, and not taking time to get to know me....well they have no idea or care what I am going through.

And yeah I was going through stuff most of the month of March. I couldn’t look over stuff for class as much and study.

I would usually go to class a little early to look over stuff. One girl caught on to this. And sat in class early.
She could not go two minutes without asking me something. Yeah I was annoyed, I came there to help myself not her. And since you don’t take time to get to know me....you have no idea that this is the only time I have to look this stuff over and you are ruining it for me!

I was so ****** I forgot my headphones.

Then the day of our second exam, she did it again. As if she was waiting for me for hours rather than use her own brain. I gave her a look like “ugh not you” I think she picked up on that social cue. Cause she attempted to be polite about me helping her.

I shut her down. Told her about my personal life, and said I won’t be helpful to her.
She said sorry, and I said nothing back to her and continued to study.

She got the picture. She stopped showing up to class early. So she has the time but only choses to use it if she thinks she can get a free a tutor. Me! I do work a half day on these days, and try to get my butt out of work and get my butt over there to look things over before class.

After the second exam I vowed to not go to the classroom to study anymore since it got ruined for me.

Last time I studied in the cafeteria.

Yesterday I spent 4 freaking hours at SOS. So my study plans were cut short. I did just go to class. I can talk to other people that showed up early. We talk about other things and help each other out.

Then uuuhhhhgh, that girl and her friend show up 10 minutes early.
Her friend looked into my eyes and I looked back at her like what are looking at? You are friends with that girl that treats me like a free service. So please don’t talk to me.

And yes out of the several other people in the class asks me what she missed last week.

(Let me just stop what I’m doing) I was not very friendly about it, but I told her what pages in the book we went over.
Then she says “anything else” in a that’s it, that’s all you are going to tell me? Tone.
On the inside I was like “am I the effing spokes person?! Anything else, why yes how about you ask the professor when she gets here AND GO F()CK YOURSELF!!!

posted April 15, 2019 12:32 AM            

Also, people who claim to be my friend but love to say stuff like, "well how does that affect me and what I'm doing right now?" when I tell them about something that bothers me. Maybe I'll say those exact words when you come to me in the future crying about something. Maybe you just initiated the end of our friendship.

Do onto others as you would want done to you. It's pretty simple.

posted May 02, 2019 10:22 PM            

A while back I really snapped that it’s not how I want to spend my free time. I just want to be at my own place doing my things. It is not a vacation for me at all.

Bf said it’s fine and that if I don’t want to go, I can stay home and that he will just go.
However he is holding the laundry over my head and how much laundry I could get done there.

posted May 31, 2019 02:33 AM            

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Originally posted by StubbornVirgo:
My dog died. Second dog to pass away in less than 9 months from each other.

2019 is shaping up to be a hard year.

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posted May 31, 2019 06:02 AM            

More sad news. A good friend of mine is in hospice and will probably pass soon. Her cancer came back very suddenly and spread to her brain.

posted August 05, 2019 02:25 AM            

I broke my rule and got another dog to keep my youngest dog company. I adopted a chihuahua from an animal rescue.

posted August 05, 2019 03:05 AM            

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Originally posted by StubbornVirgo:
I still like talking to you on here, teasel, even if we have to agree to disagree from time to time.

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posted November 02, 2019 04:23 PM            

Scorpio is my 6th house. This time of year I notice a pattern of work becoming unbearable.

Mental health relapses with smoking. I can’t handle not smoking. Though I can cut back and go days sometimes. But I could at least not smoke in my car. I reached my breaking point and have smoked in my car a few times lately.

Oh also! I realize that Scorpio squares my Aqua Leo energy. I have Leo ic and s. Node. Aqua mars, mc, and north node.

I lose my temper at work this time of year. And mc would explain why I don’t look as good at work. I had a parent openly compare me to other teachers in late October.

I really needed this day to my self to process my life and emotions. I realize that switching jobs will not solve my problems right now, or relocation. Because I am still in school and that is part of problem with my job. Being expected to take so much work home with me as a student.

I will have to see how I feel when the school year is over at the earliest. Or see how I feel when I’m done with school.