posted February 16, 2021 02:04 PM            

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posted March 29, 2021 09:09 AM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
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I forget why... it’s usually an expectation to blame for

Today, going on a few days, I’ve felt depressed, mostly listless, or ennui. I would like to feel cherished; the type of apparent effort laden in devotion to a cause. Adopting an animal isn’t possible at this chapter of my life.

posted April 04, 2021 10:54 PM            

Here it goes...I am considering getting the COVID vax. Because I am having a very high profile year.

But I'm the kind of person that likes to think about it first. I want to consider what vax would be best for my body type. I'm not even anti-vaxing. It's like with people on the opposite extreme of anti-vaxing, you can't even have a conversation with them like "I need to think about more, I do plan on getting it"

I am pro choice currently on this matter. But I am just over people being in my business, like have you done it? are you vaccinated? Did you do it yet?
I tested positive in November with really no symptoms. And the wedding planning and moving faster than planned.

I hate how stigmatized people are for not being for forced vaccines on others. Being stigmatized having a question having a concern. Obviously misinformation is not good. But being hostile for someone having a question or concern. I'm so over it. I don't even bother telling certain people I want to look into my options more, because I should just do it.

posted April 05, 2021 08:17 PM            

@Stawr Seems these days are anything but easy.

posted April 11, 2021 11:01 PM            

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This is what gets me about the friend who pushed me to join a Facebook group about potential side effects from the vaccine. I feel like she’s just waiting for something to happen to my dad, and nobody seems to be happy that he’s fine. I’ve been told that it’s going to kill him, or that he was given a placebo, so his own experience doesn’t count.

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I shared good news with her, and she was all concerned, and urged me to join that group. She managed to finally scare me, when my dad got his first shot. I don’t tell people who talk about having reactions to it, that they’re lying, but when they hear good news, they shut it down, and tell me that we’re a part of an experiment, that he isn’t going to be fine, or that if he is, it’s because he wasn’t actually vaccinated. I will be honest if I’m vaccinated, and have a reaction. If anyone says “I told you so” I will tell them where to go. We think for ourselves, we aren’t brainwashed sheep.

There are people who are so happy to get vaccinated, that they’re taking selfies. I saw someone I met on a natural health discussion list (for pets, back in 1998), mocking them, asking if we’re taking pictures of medical records now. She shared a picture of her test results for things like vitamin D.

posted April 12, 2021 12:17 AM            

(Ugh that's like when I sat by a Catholic lady on a plane who told me my dad is going to hell for not going to church anymore.)

People's views and beliefs on the vaccine are driving me up a wall. I got mine on Thursday...and people were driving me NUTS leading up to getting it. Weather they were for or against it, or I didn't get the right vaccine out of the 3 ughh. I feel slightly more sane now for it being done. No one has to pressure or convince me of something anymore because it's been done.

posted April 14, 2021 03:51 PM            

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I think this is what put me over the edge, and just had me shutting down for a while. I think I’m still going to be quiet for a while. I posted this in Spider line, and that Facebook group.

I shared good news with her, and she was all concerned, and urged me to join that group. She managed to finally scare me, when my dad got his first shot. I don’t tell people who talk about having reactions to it, that they’re lying, but when they hear good news, they shut it down, and tell me that we’re a part of an experiment, that he isn’t going to be fine, or that if he is, it’s because he wasn’t actually vaccinated. I will be honest if I’m vaccinated, and have a reaction. If anyone says “I told you so” I will tell them where to go. We think for ourselves, we aren’t brainwashed sheep.

There are people who are so happy to get vaccinated, that they’re taking selfies. I saw someone I met on a natural health discussion list (for pets, back in 1998), mocking them, asking if we’re taking pictures of medical records now. She shared a picture of her test results for things like vitamin D.

I’m going back to watching Gilmore girls, and starting more seeds. It’s bothering me, just talking about it. I’ve been depressed for other reasons, I’m not mad at anyone. It’s just a reminder to avoid certain topics, even if I have good news, because it won’t make a difference.

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That's messed up of your friend to be saying things like that. Idk her..I am guessing she means well, I doubt she is actually trying to worry you, in her mind she likely believes for some delusional reason that she is being helpful. Like probably at least half of the population she has alot of distrust in the vaccine & the faceless scientists who slapped it together. Understandably too. Powerful groups have already abused and broken the trust of pretty much everyone on some level. We have every right to fear this potion & clearly i am not the only one who feels that way. I am sure her heart is in the right place but her mind...not sure where it is but definitely not the right place. She seems unbelievably tone deaf. I don't know how to actually talk to those kinds of people. They don't understand reason & our one sided conversations get real old real quick. I had a friend from childhood who is this type of stupid. Rage inducingly stupid.

I am not someone you will ever find in line- or anywhere near the line to get vaccinated. I never even trusted those flu shots nor have I ever even thought for a second to get one & this vaccine is no different for me.

TBH I don't listen to anything any source has to say on this. There are more conspiracy theories surrounding this vaccine than there are stars in the sky. People spewing things they can only speculate, never prove. Then you've got the government giving a thumbs up with their big phony*** smiles saying "trust me..see i am getting my vaccine on live TV. Could be the covid vaccine..could be sugar water. The point is we know that there are enough of you that are stupid enough to take that at face value."

I stayed up for hours reading crazy theories of this vaccine getting myself all scared & jazzed up. My little sister works in Healthcare so she was able to receive the vaccine really early. The state she lives in was also one of the 1st to receive the vaccine. I don't think the company she works for that it was mandatory then but I think they either have or planning on making it a prerequisite but either way I was really worried when she got her vaccine, like I wanted to punch her. But obviously I am not going to start showing her all these articles & videos of these scary ideas. Who would do that to anyone let alone someone they care about. It's like the shot was already given. What's done is done. Where is the benefit in telling them they're going to grow a tail or that the vaccine programs us to operate as sleeper agents. Okay let me see where you have proof of this outlandish claim? None? Okay well can you at least offer some solution in case a tail should infact appear? No? Okay so what is the purpose of your crowing then?

So I understand the concern you have for your pops. Fear tactics can be used by anyone. You've got the conspiracy nuts using fear to sway the population away from government type entities who are the "enemy" & the nuts are the "friends" here to rescue us. The problem here is that you have the same group of easily impressionable & easily frightened people who are no longer mindlessly following the will that their government has for them. Now they are following a completely different will that an entirely new group of radicals has created for them. So just the same group of idiots just working for a whole new set of idiots is all.

Listen, you said it best with everyone needing to think for themselves. Your friend is a moron, thats one of the only actual facts in this story are A.) Your dad got his vaccine. & B.) Your friend is a moron. Those are the only definite variables you have to work with. Okay so we will start with the fact your dad got his shot. This action created a channel that allowed all the irritating nonsense words coming out of her mouth to flow directly at you.

So let's set up the equation & outcome.

DV(Dad's Vaccine) + FTAV (friend talking about vaccine) = UT (upset teasel)

Since the result we are looking for needs to be PT (peaceful teasel).

The first variable is DV & the only constant. So this means FTAV in this formula for PT has been corrupted. So let's take a look shall we.

DV being the only constant, it is currently safe to say that the AV(about vaccine) is in the correct place in the 2nd variable. Now we know to focus on the F & T.

Its kinda tricky but take a second to recall the lesson in chapter 4 regarding formulas with a single constant variable. When this happens to be a variable relating to a family concern, using F (friend) somewhere in the rest of the equation will usually give you the right answer.

The only time this doesn't apply is when the F in that equation is corrupted. It is impossible to use F in a family related problem that results in a hurtful outcome. That would contradict the word friend. A friend isn't going to do anything but try and help.

This situation the chic is the flawed variable. I don't think changing the F to an E (enemy) is appropriate since again I think she's just tone deaf. The moron factor was missing from the initial equation. If an M (moron) is added in front of the F so the equation is written like DV+MFTAV=UT A simple letter can just make all the difference.

So the good news with that is since the M corrupted that result, the UT isn't grounded in reality. You weren’t upset because there is any truth in her words, this isn't your intuition causing the upset. You are upset because you already feel enough anxiety of your own linked to this pandemic, we all are. you don't need more weirdos getting in your head making you worry more.

People are ridiculous it is hard not to laugh sometimes. You get the anti-vaccine group pointing & laughing at the people getting vaccinated. Yes just like a handful of 3rd graders do when one of the kids gets toilet paper stuck to their shoe.

Then the pro-vaccine holier than thou group who are 100% parroting what they heard through the liberal mainstream media.

Both those examples are the extremes no doubt but the point still remains that people need to get over themselves & use their own brains to formulate an individual opinion for once. Choosing to Get the vaccine or not get the vaccine is an important and probably not easy decision for everyone & we are all entitled to that.

I didn't intend to tangent off so hopefully u can make sense of my odd sense of humor. I've got a strange brain

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posted May 18, 2021 02:41 PM            

Seems there's frustrating visitors here, for the next month too Beeping alarms. Peace is gone. Ugh. I need to burn incense and meditate - if only I can get in that zone before more beeping.

posted May 18, 2021 10:41 PM            

My guestlist is 110.

I think I only invited like 3 friends and a plus one option for them the rest was for fiancé's side and my relatives that made the cut.

I am feeling for a friend who is living off the grid in Hawaii.

A childhood friend who I haven't seen in 6 years but just got invited to her graduation party.

My friend's younger sister, I am going to their combined bachelorette party.

posted May 24, 2021 12:36 AM            

Ugh that one friend that wants to be in touch 24/7 if I'd allow it text me yesterday. "So, any new wedding plans?" Ignored! I talked to her on the phone for about 45 minutes on Friday. 110 guest list is not a big wedding when you have a big family. LOL Even if I could invite more people I wouldn't invite her.

I wonder what degree her Aries moon sign is in. I know Eris is currently 24 degrees in Aries right now. I have a hunch this could be an Aries Moon thing, but man the not giving up when rejected thing.

I am starting to realize that if I post fun things on FB it can make people feel left out. But this isn't high school anymore. I really don't see myself like that, because my popularity seems to fluctuate like my figure.

I almost thought I wasn't invited to my friends wedding, I was kind of bummed. But didn't make a big deal out of it. Plus it's a destination wedding. I didn't make it weird, and found out I'm invited.

posted August 16, 2021 06:48 PM            

The other teacher is being an assho1e though. I told her I had a trip planned in the second week of August and that's when she decides to email her introduction letter and such! We are the only 3 year old teachers in the whole school. Teachers here do not send out those letters THAT EARLY. But because she decided to do that, it looks bad if I don't do that. I don't think anyone really cares too bad....

On the surface I am coping well with my boss. She did not reprimand me or anything. Though I'm sure she feels a little crazy that they other teacher already wants to start the year and I am still living my best summer vacation life. But she did email and text me today to have all of that done by tomorrow. And I understand where she is coming from, but that is kind of crappy. Especially since all of us teachers are hourly and we aren't getting paid for this behind the scenes stuff.

I was very level headed. I did not get defensive or out of shape or become excuse McGee. I was just like "okay sounds good thank you" Getting too excusey with my boss makes her trust me less. My boss trusts me a lot more when I am just like "okay."

While that is shi++y that the other teacher did that. It's not on me...because a deadline was never communicated to me until today. This is the week that we typically start email communication.

It's just very inconsiderate. Knowing that these parents live in one of the wealthiest new money parts of the state(professional athletes live here and such) These moms do have diva fits sometimes. So this can make teachers and directors stressed sometimes if one of the teachers is out of the loop with something. And to do it that early, putting me on the spot of have less of a summer vacation or look bad and feel bad for still wanting to be in vacation mode.
Like if she wanted to do it early FINE. But couldn't she of waited to send out the email and just save her work? If I wanted to do it that early that's what I would of done.

posted August 17, 2021 12:40 AM            

It's really starting to get to me to be on a team w/ an over achieving one-upping teacher. Because then it becomes an expectation for me to do that too.

I should not have to be treated or made to feel like I am a bad teacher because I do not want to give my personal cell phone number to parents. I did decide to last year because in her letter she established boundaries of times.

But not only THAT she typed this whole thing about don't feel like you are bothering me if you text/call me after school hours. It's not an infringement on my time. Though my director kind of wants me to copy this teacher a lot, I do not feel comfortable putting that in my letter. What if I actually have plans after work? I like having a life balance and want to be in the present moment when I am with my loved ones, or just myself. Sometimes I do appreciate the text in the morning. But not so much the after hour texting. Though sometimes it is good to address an issue ASAP and not let it fester until the next day.

But I feel some kind of way...since she knows I am reading this, is she making a dig at me? I really don't have an issue with her compared to what I've dealt with in the past...but she is making her self so available. WHY. She's got to understand that this is way too much for other teachers...and how that expectation. It's not a contest, and you are not going to get a prize for spreading your self so thin.

I feel bad saying some of this stuff because we are suppose to be a team. I am not even back working really yet...and I am feeling so much resentment right now towards her and my boss.

My boss does a lot to make the staff happy compared to my last job...but her communication is like a guessing game...and because of that she will tell me to do things with very little notice.

Also I find this fitting w/ Uranus going rx. The day it went rx is when I discovered the other teacher decided to email parents a bus load of stuff a week earlier than the expectation.

I am not proud of what I am about to say but thank God my boss and this teacher are both retiring next year. I'm also on the fence about doing another year at this place.

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