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Topic: I do not want my life purpose anymore
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Loveher
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posted September 21, 2023 10:10 PM
  
I know my purpose is so big and can change the whole world to the better. I have ideas in my head that can help humanity. I see where the world is headed and I see a bad result. I know how to end suffering of people. I know that I can make a huge impact.Now I feel like I am angry at people and do not want to help them. I do not want this purpose anymore. I feel like this whole world can go straight to hell. Why would I care to help humanity if 50% of them choose to be hateful on purpose and spread hate, hate other religions, sexual orination, skin tone and all that labels crap. They know what they are doing is wrong and still wont let other exist in peace, why should I care about people who do not even want to be the change. WHO CANT HELP THEMSLEVES> I HATE IT HERE ON THIS PLANET IP: Logged |
VeronicaNicole
Knowflake Posts: 348
From: Who wants to know?
Registered: Sep 2020
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posted September 23, 2023 10:33 PM
Do you got alot of 12th house and/or pisces in your chart? Maybe some hard chiron aspects? I feel your pain and frustration... I really do. But we can each only change ourselves. Idiots are gonna be idiots it's just what they do. It's all they know. People don't like being told how to live their lives. We are a proud species by design and each need to figure things out at our own speed. There is no doubt alot of ugly creatures roaming the lands but there are alot of beautiful human beings too. It is pretty much a daily struggle for me not to become totally enraged by people's nonsense but letting it get to us isn't helping anyone, especially ourselves. You sound like your heart is in the right place but your mind seems to be focusing on all the negative. I am going through the same thing right now it sounds like but as long as we keep letting other people's choices dictate how we feel we are going to keep attracting it until we learn to handle it in a healthy way. There have been days where I have felt absolutely miserable, just a little ball of rage, and then some small but kind gesture from some random person like a cashier or something will totally snap me out it and remind me that being kind is all I need to do. You can make someone's day just by showing kindness. By someone being kind to me made me pay it forward and hopefully the next person paid it forward and so on. That anger it poison so try not to let nasty people get to you. Just focus on keeping your light on and we'll figure it out as we go. I hope this helped some, feel better <3 IP: Logged |
Randall
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posted November 24, 2023 01:47 PM
Have things improved?IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion!
Registered: Feb 2012
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posted November 24, 2023 07:33 PM
Stawr and I posted on your thread at
Sweet Peas In The Rain.
I do not know what we can do to help other than to wish you well and blessings and love be yours.💙❤️
I am not in a good place physically emotionally and financially so I am not the best person to help you👽
I deeply empathize being at wits end too.
I am struggling to hold on but honestly do not know how much more I can bear.
I am deeply sad that you feel this way but do not have any advice to offer.
Just keep venting here at Lindaland and maybe it will help you cope💙IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion!
Registered: Feb 2012
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posted November 24, 2023 07:36 PM
Moving a copy of this thread to Sweet Peas In The Rain where you may get more responses.
Leaving it open here too.IP: Logged |
Stawr
Moderator Posts: 8960
From: N. America
Registered: Nov 2010
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posted December 26, 2023 05:23 PM
I can totally relate to having moods of wanting to get off this "shizzhole planet" Yeah so many people are control freaks, when they can just mind their own business. Annoying people are obsessed with me. They are nothing but a social parasite beneath my shoe. I have to remind myself of that sometimes. I've been called to help students with "disadvantaged" parents for the first time in my 13 years of teaching. I've had students cuss at me, try to punch me, claw me, bite me, throw things at me etc. But I do not take it personal at all. As long as the adults are being adults that is all I care about. Oh and getting out of work on time. IP: Logged |
Stawr
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From: N. America
Registered: Nov 2010
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posted December 26, 2023 05:30 PM
I just noticed you posted this in September. A little bit before the eclipse in Oct. September is a blur....BUT October was a very intense and emotional time for me. It hit me hard that I needed to find another job. When I socialized with my friends I would have emotional breakdowns. Things didn't really turn around until November. I am so glad I have some chill time right now. IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion!
Registered: Feb 2012
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posted December 30, 2023 06:12 PM
Stawr💙
And everyone else posting on this thread💙
I can totally relate to all of your frustrations.😭💙Yeah October was very weirdly intense forme too. 👽
Some may be due to the many bad reactions to the new chemotherapy and other needed medications which unfortunately have wicked nasty side effects👽😭🤬 Hoping I can stop some of the new medications soon and resume my second year of chemotherapy 😎 Yes it is adults who drive me bonkers too.
Most frustrating is people in the medical community who keep screwing up on me in too many ways and causing much damage such as them causing both of my rotator cuffs because of how they pulled on my arms during tests now severely damaged in my shoulders due to tears so now I cannot use a walker or cane.
My hands barely function also. That led to more falls and now my knees are totally wrecked bone on bone grinding but strangely I cannot feel it but hear it loudly👽👽👽 and many other issues caused my medical screwups like the two archilles tendons which ruptured in my ankles that have totally wrecked both feet too,
Damn idiots and then they get on my case about weight gain and tell me to get out and walk and ignore the fact that I can no longer walk and am barely able to get to struggle crawling limping to the toilet most of the time, and ignore the fact that their medications make me very unsteady and nauseated and weak and more crap.
Yeah there are definitely times when I just think of giving up.
I had helped many people for many decades until the cancer hit me beginning in 2019
which doctors would not test me for because my symptoms were not clear and not causing much pain. Well I suffer from many neurological issues such as CIDP which is CHRONIC INFLAMMATORY DEMYELINATING POLYNEUROPATHY 😭
I was unable to feel the pain of the cancer as I am afflicted with severe nerve damage.
So now mostly bed bound and frustrated and do not have a handicap accessible home or anything to help and I miss going out and helping folks and being social.
COVID ruined things too and then wham the damn cancers hit, first skin then
Female cancer and surgery to remove a 7 pound tumor.
Most people do not care and will not help others.
When am I going to get pay back for all the numerous play it forward good deeds I have done for much of my 69 years to date⁉️ So yeah I can totally relate to both of you here💙😭
I wish there were a way to make things better for all. Anyhow best wishes for the new year of 2024❤️❤️❤️😎😎 IP: Logged |
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