posted May 11, 2022 10:00 PM            

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Cranky Old Man

What do you see nurses? . . .. . .What do you see?
What are you thinking .. . when you're looking at me?
A cranky old man, . . . . . .not very wise,
Uncertain of habit .. . . . . . . .. with faraway eyes?
Who dribbles his food .. . ... . . and makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice . .'I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice . . .the things that you do.
And forever is losing . . . . . .. . . A sock or shoe?
Who, resisting or not . . . ... lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding . . . .The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking?. .Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse .you're not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am . . . . .. As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding, .. . . . as I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of Ten . .with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters .. . . .. . who love one another
A young boy of Sixteen . . . .. with wings on his feet
Dreaming that soon now . . .. . . a lover he'll meet.
A groom soon at Twenty . . . ..my heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows .. .. .that I promised to keep.
At Twenty-Five, now . . . . .I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide . . . And a secure happy home.
A man of Thirty . .. . . . . My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other . . .. With ties that should last.
At Forty, my young sons .. .have grown and are gone,
But my woman is beside me . . to see I don't mourn.
At Fifty, once more, .. ...Babies play 'round my knee,
Again, we know children . . . . My loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me . . . . My wife is now dead.
I look at the future ... . . . . I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing .. . . young of their own.
And I think of the years . . . And the love that I've known.
I'm now an old man . . . . . . .. and nature is cruel.
It's jest to make old age . . . . . . . look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles .. .. . grace and vigour, depart.
There is now a stone . . . where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass . A young man still dwells,
And now and again . . . . . my battered heart swells
I remember the joys . . . . .. . I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and living . . . . . . . life over again.
I think of the years, all too few . . .. gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact . . . that nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people .. . . . .. . . open and see.
Not a cranky old man .
Look closer . . . . see .. .. . .. .... . ME!!

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posted July 31, 2022 04:29 PM            

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Originally posted by teasel:
Yeah, I'm getting over covid, and hoping I won't end up in the hospital anyway. I've just read about a man who caught it two weeks ago, and just had his foot amputated.

I'm sick, too. I'm hoping my dad won't get it. I am freaked out over things in my life, and it's just likely going to get worse. So good luck to all of us.

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We caught Covid in January 2020
before it became news👽
Caught it from the biitch excuse
for a doctor
who refused to be my PCP any longer
when her gross negect led to my
having multiple rare cancers that
she said I did not need checked for
and that all was okay👽🤬
She just guessed and never examined me
not took me seriously 🤬
and laughed as usual and said
I was fat and needed to lose weight
so losing about 100 pounds
without trying in a very short time
and 3 years of daily vomiting caused
her even more reasons to laugh and
say shiite like well don't
eat so much🤬👽🤬
So because of her neglect and
medical blunders like her giving
me drugs that ruptured my
archilles tendons and
torn parts of them and
so we once to then I cannot walk
hardly at all🤬😢
And other crap,
I am kind of in medical limbos here👽🤬😢

COVID😳😢🤬👽
It was horrible to say the least😢
102 to 103 fevers with heavy sweating
and chills.👽😢
The hospitals refused treatment
unless one. actually could
not breathe😳🤬👽

We made sure to get vaccinated
since then
4 shots for both me and my husband.
With us both fighting medically
for our lives vaccinations are
things we dare not neglect getting.
A common cold could kill when
folks are severely
immunocompromised as we both are😳😢

Good thing too that we are
each 4X vaccinated now because
our anti-vaccers neighbors
who trespass have aLl been infected.🤬😳
Some very bad some just plaguing
everyone else🤬👽
So within like 10 to 75 feet f
rom our bedroom window for example
are at least lately,
25 people who do not care who
they infect🤬👽

We can hear them coughing and
HHabe seen them they spit loogies
into your yard even right
under our windows😢
Well one of them does.
Nasty hag who has also stolen at
least 3 of our Walmart grocery
deliveries🤬
Our Christmas feast one🤬
and oddly out anneversary feast one🤬
and then my husband's birthday feast🤬

As to the main crap going on in my
nightmarish life👽👽👽

I get different diagnosises and outcome projections from the
gynocological oncologists👽👽🤬

So the guesses are my odds of
surviving are not very high👽😢🤬
Projections range from 6 months
to 2 years with weekly chemo
plus extra toxic added every 3 weeks.
Then like 6 months radiation if
I survive the chemo.
Then extremely dangerous pelvic
and adominal just to below the lungs
surgeries.
Yep gutted 👽😢
I do not know whether I should
keep trying or not👽😢
Scared and lost and angry about
the DES given to mothers like
mine that causes the horrible
cancers I now have.🤬😢

I am going to keep trying until I win
or if it looks like I am not winning
then I shall continue considering
the best and legal way of planning out
my suicide 💙
or go to a state that has legal
euthenasia maybe💙

Weird part is the first jerk doctor,
a world famous one supposedly,
pretty much said I would be dead
before June this year's👽👽👽
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Apologies for the griping rant💙
I am not in a good place of late👽😢

Anyhow getting vaccinated is the only protection even if you avoid people.

I hope you 💙recover soon💙 and that
no one else gets infected from those who have it💙😢

Pardon any typos or weird autofills 💙
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posted September 11, 2022 11:02 AM            

Rant over 💙

posted September 11, 2022 11:09 AM            

Please pardon any typos or strange autofills 👽