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Lexxigramer Moderator Posts: 8811 From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion! Registered: Feb 2012
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posted August 27, 2022 07:28 AM
This morning to add insult to injury🤬🤬🤬 I was awakened by VERY LOUD Groundhogs whistling 🤬🤬🤬 The entire family stomping and running and jumping on their hind legs to stand on the lawn furniture and climbed up the shrubbery by my bedroom window and glaring at me right next to it shredding off pieces of it by my bedroom window🤬🤬🤬 They smell awful to boot🤬🤬🤬 they are ripping and tearing and now digging deep dens all 7 of them now not just one🤬🤬🤬👽👽👽 and pooping on what was left of my tiny garden🤬🤬🤬So I am supposed to think this is cute⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😢 Why⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️🤬 So freaking sick from the high dose steroids and double chemo intravenous port infusions😢 and now this crap again at the first light of day to ruin my day yet again coming from stinking evil invasive loud groundhogs continues🤬🤬🤬🤬 Crying screaming in pain to boot😢🤬 So freaking exhausted👽 Rant over for now😢 IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer Moderator Posts: 8811 From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion! Registered: Feb 2012
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posted August 27, 2022 07:32 AM
PS replies to aquaguy91 and Eternal Energy on previous page.IP: Logged |
Eternal Energy Knowflake Posts: 1758 From: Registered: May 2020
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posted August 27, 2022 11:22 AM
Dear Léxi, I consider you a friend and I am really sorry that you felt angry and annoyed. I can tell you in all honesty that neither me nor AquaG had any intention of hurting you. I know I can only speak for myself, but I really believe that AquaG is a fine young man, kind and understanding and I doubt that he would ever want to hurt you. Now, if you look closer at my last post there, you will see that underneath I am trying to address as much as possible to both of you because I consider both of you good and gentle hearts. In other words, by using AquaG's word of 'fluffa', I acknowledge and respect and feel happy for him that those videos with those creatures managed to bring a smile on his face during that painful period of his life. And then, by telling straightforward that you have such a sweet heart that you could never really do any harm to those creatures, well, I believe you can understand how I feel for you. We all have our own, special and unique way of expressing ourselves. Misunderstandings and disappointments in life come and go. But no misunderstanding and no disappointment is stronger than us. They are not important. The most important is we, in the here and now, and how much willing we are to rise above them and be there for one another, keep trying for one another. With anything each one of us has. A lot or little, it makes no difference...IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer Moderator Posts: 8811 From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion! Registered: Feb 2012
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posted August 27, 2022 03:01 PM
quote: Originally posted by Eternal Energy: Dear Léxi, I consider you a friend and I'm really sorry that you felt angry and annoyed. I can tell you in all honesty that neither me nor AquaG had any intention of hurting you.
I totally understand dear friend💙 Let me clarify a few things for you please💙😢 I was and still am extremely cranked up on super high dose steroids by port intravenous infusion along with other meds, plus a real ones too that cause me to become easily all freaked out and dingy and worse 👽😢 Feelings of suicide ramp up hard and deep in my sense of is this life worth this crap and groundhog shhite too⁉️🤬😢 Worse yet are the blessedly brief murderous flashes ugh👽😢 So was and have been right after the weekly infusions far more emotionally volitle than my usual self. There is nothing to stop these side effects unfortunately👽😢 Are you knowledgeable about the effects of steroids known as roid rage⁉️😢 Here is link about it😢 ##### One cannot sleep and the hyper causes unbearable spikes of brain and nerve pain a Never within n and put😢👽 Seriously at those times one does feel like killing oneself is the best and only option😢 However my intelligence and ointeloect and knowledge of medicine and human anatomy helps me keep holding on because I know it is possible to survive all of this cancer crap etcetera 💙 quote: Originally posted by Eternal Energy: [B] I was I know I can only speak for myself, but I really believe that AquaG is a fine young man, kind and understanding and I doubt that he would ever want to hurt you. Now, if you look closer at my last post there, you will see that underneath I am trying to address as much as possible to both of you because I consider both of you good and gentle hearts. In other words, by using AquaG' very word of 'fluffa', I acknowledge and respect and feel happy for him that those videos
Again I tend to agree with you for the most part💙 A few issues do cause communications problems though I believe this is not nnpart a problem he and I have communicating,; I am on one side of the Autistic spectrum 👽 and he is more on he Asperger's side of the spectrum👽 To reach each other is hate to say it night onto impossible because we speak very diffetent emotional language based on the Autism/Asperger's Spectrum😢👽 I try with him but it rarely gets through to him that I am not the enemy👽😢 Seriously were I young and single and not disabled I would ask him out on a date and try to be his friend and more if possible💙 I do not hate him💙 We both are afflicted with the Autism spectrum troubles👽😢 It sucks to say the least👽😢 The videos bring him joy so that I get but they make me want to puke as nd do what to get farmers do and kill them all with professional groundhog equptment🤬 after what these creatures have done to ruin so much in my life to date🤬 Yes they use dynamite and cyanide smoke boms and even bulldozers out in the field so to speak👽 These creatures cause millions or more of more damage in this country everywhere they go🤬 And never have liked infantile words like fluffas and bae and other moronic words folks see as cute ugh ugh like tinkle and nappi etcetera 😜 Bleh gross ugh👽🤮🤢 quote: Originally posted by Eternal Energy: [B] those creatures managed to bring a smile on his face during that painful period of his life. And then, by telling straightforward that you have such a sweet heart that you could never really do any harm to those creatures, well, I believe you can understand how I feel for you.
Yes I understand but seriously I rather not be bored as that kid and of simpering fool who would want to not kill the destructive monsters off completely👽😢💙🤬 I know you mean and meant well by those words but again please understand that just like a disease like Covid or Ebola or other deadly epidmics and pandemics😳👽 I view these creatures as just as nasty and wortless and dangerous to humanity under various circumstances unless they are being raised for poor folks to eat💙 So think me evil but then think all the farmers and animals who had to be killed because they broke legs in groundhog holes and like me need a knee replaced because the same happened to me and all the expensive repairs to home and other foundations even get this🤬👽😳 Airport runways😳🤬👽 Yes they can kill by their actions like when chewing our car gas and brake lines through🤬😳 also house fires from chewing through our electrical lines 🤬😳👽 There are valid reasons some folks kill these evil creatures🤬😳 Sorry if that disgusts you but it is the truth just like the damn Canadian Geese and Lyme disease der who cause the beaches to be totally shut down before We ummer has a chance to o get going🤬 We have many lovely beaches but they are only open due to our cold weather for about 12 weeks during summer with about 6 of those weeks or more closed due to disease carrying geese and deer🤬🤬🤬 So again think me cruel but when these creatures impact the lives of humans in very negative ways it is far from a thing to be tolerated ever😳🤬 You and aquaguy91 must live in groundhog free places😎 Yay for both of you but I amd others do not have that luxury😳🤬👽 quote: Originally posted by Eternal Energy: [B] We all have our own, special and unique way of expressing ourselves. Misunderstandings and disappointments in life come and go. But no misunderstanding and no disappointment is stronger than us. They are not important. The most important is we, in the here and now and how much willing we are to rise above them and be there for one another, keep trying for one another. With anything each one of us has. A lot or little, it makes no difference...
I am and have been sincerely trying All I can do is be often bluntly honest but that upsets folks but I am me and sugar coating and cutesy cutesy crap are not things which I endorse👽Rant over and I hope you understand where in I come from here concerning the evil groundhogs😳👽 Please ignore any typos and weird autofills 👽 I shall fix after I go get more prescription drugs from pharmacy💙 Oh here is the link about roid rage which I had mentioned above💙 It sucks to need them but with cancer and chemothetapy it is required to prevent sudden death from the treatments😳😢 I cannot take any of the drugs used to counteract the bad side effects due to Asteroids because of my having Multiple drug hypersensitivity syndrome MDHS and other syndromes that make it impossible to prevent the nasty side effects on mind and mood etcetera I shall find a better article but this should suffice for now💙 http://www.verywellhealth.com/steroids-in-cancer-treatment-2252521#:~:text=While%20you%20may%20have%20heard,have%20serious%20effects%20on%20mood. IP: Logged |
Eternal Energy Knowflake Posts: 1758 From: Registered: May 2020
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posted August 27, 2022 04:17 PM
I read the article you posted. Thank you, I understand better now. I don't know about this or that syndrome. I always liked looking at your heart and not at which spectrum you are. IP: Logged |
Eternal Energy Knowflake Posts: 1758 From: Registered: May 2020
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posted August 27, 2022 04:19 PM
Everything is going to be all right, Léxi.IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer Moderator Posts: 8811 From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion! Registered: Feb 2012
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posted August 27, 2022 05:58 PM
Eternal Energy ![](http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/love.gif) Thank you for understanding and reading the link about steroids I just posted It explains in addition to being Autistic as to why I do too many freak outs especially too often these days with some doctors sayng I do not have long to live and others just saying Geesh we do not know but it's bad and the other gloomy pronosises👽😳😢 So meds make me go bonkers and pain makes me go bonkers And well it is not easy to cope with😢 At times like today it was all driving my dear husband to frustration and anger with me because my hewring glitched and made me talk too loudly and then my eyesight and he had to read things to me and help do many other things other things other folks do not need help with😢😢😢 and he is feeling bad from his illneses today on top of mine so he has every right to be out of sorts at me and life in general💙💙💙😢 I often need help like a baby and due to a vagus nerve damage and a neurological glitch to my esophogus I often need Heimlich done to stop choking from severe throat spasms and I am unable to go!it without help because then my throat stops working completely and cannot move at all so nothing goes down or up without help😢👽 Not even going to detail the bathroom help and help to clean up myself and change clothes etcetera 😢👽And then deite my issues Im have to care for him during his many seizures😢👽 Do the added crap from groundhogs is very unwelcome to say the least😢👽 As to the Autism it is a real factor in my personality kind heart or not💙 I do not communicate like normal folks because often they confuse me because I cannot relate to their humour or their outlooks on things the same as I do😳😢 Always been mostly a loner and frankly I prefer that and only feel comfortable with the one on ones like my beloved husband❤️😎 I can do okay with him and one more person if we both get on well with that other individual 😎 That is rare however and to date all sadly all of them have died in just the past few years😢😢😢 Not all very old either👽😢 Long time friends too of durations From 35 to 55 years or so knowing each other❤️😎 So no more folks to hang out with these days but each other, my husband and I❤️😎 Yeah one person was 55 years old died of liver cancer👽😢 Another was 52 years old Heriditary Cancers😢👽 Another silly old git smoked himself to death age 69👽😢 Another age 50 non Hodgkin's disease that spread to his brain👽😢 Many more now gone from our lives😢👽 Not Isting them all here👽😢 Pardon as usual any typos or strange autofills 👽 Oh by the way ranting and rambling is a trait of my type of Autism👽 I have great difficulty being short and succinct in my communications😢👽 My mind just keeps zooming 24/7👽 IP: Logged |
Randall Webmaster Posts: 165311 From: I hold a Juris Doctorate (J.D.) and a Legum Magister (LL.M.)! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted December 05, 2022 03:07 PM
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