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Lexxigramer
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From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion!
Registered: Feb 2012
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posted August 27, 2022 07:28 AM
  
This morning to add insult to injury🤬🤬🤬
I was awakened by
VERY LOUD
Groundhogs whistling 🤬🤬🤬
The entire family stomping and
running and jumping on their
hind legs to stand on the lawn
furniture and climbed up the
shrubbery by my bedroom window
and glaring at me right next to it
shredding off pieces of it by
my bedroom window🤬🤬🤬
They smell awful to boot🤬🤬🤬
they are ripping and tearing
and now digging deep dens
all 7 of them now
not just one🤬🤬🤬👽👽👽
and pooping on what was left of my tiny garden🤬🤬🤬So I am supposed to think this is cute⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️😢
Why⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️🤬
So freaking sick from the high dose
steroids and double chemo intravenous port infusions😢
and now this crap again at the
first light of day to
ruin my day yet again
coming from stinking evil invasive loud
groundhogs continues🤬🤬🤬🤬
Crying screaming in pain to boot😢🤬
So freaking exhausted👽
Rant over for now😢 IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
Moderator Posts: 8811
From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion!
Registered: Feb 2012
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posted August 27, 2022 07:32 AM
PS
replies to aquaguy91 and Eternal Energy on previous page.IP: Logged |
Eternal Energy
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posted August 27, 2022 11:22 AM
Dear Léxi, I consider you a friend and I am really sorry that you felt angry and annoyed. I can tell you in all honesty that neither me nor AquaG had any intention of hurting you. I know I can only speak for myself, but I really believe that AquaG is a fine young man, kind and understanding and I doubt that he would ever want to hurt you. Now, if you look closer at my last post there, you will see that underneath I am trying to address as much as possible to both of you because I consider both of you good and gentle hearts. In other words, by using AquaG's word of 'fluffa', I acknowledge and respect and feel happy for him that those videos with those creatures managed to bring a smile on his face during that painful period of his life. And then, by telling straightforward that you have such a sweet heart that you could never really do any harm to those creatures, well, I believe you can understand how I feel for you. We all have our own, special and unique way of expressing ourselves. Misunderstandings and disappointments in life come and go. But no misunderstanding and no disappointment is stronger than us. They are not important. The most important is we, in the here and now, and how much willing we are to rise above them and be there for one another, keep trying for one another. With anything each one of us has. A lot or little, it makes no difference...IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
Moderator Posts: 8811
From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion!
Registered: Feb 2012
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posted August 27, 2022 03:01 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Dear Léxi, I consider you a friend and I'm really sorry that you felt angry and annoyed. I can tell you in all honesty that neither me nor AquaG had any intention of hurting you.
I totally understand dear friend💙
Let me clarify a few things for you please💙😢
I was and still am extremely cranked up on super high dose steroids by port intravenous infusion along with other meds, plus a real ones too that cause me to become easily all freaked out and dingy
and worse 👽😢
Feelings of suicide ramp up hard and
deep in my sense of is this life worth this crap and groundhog shhite too⁉️🤬😢
Worse yet are the blessedly brief
murderous flashes ugh👽😢
So was and have been right after
the weekly infusions far more
emotionally volitle than my usual self.
There is nothing to stop these side
effects unfortunately👽😢
Are you knowledgeable about the effects of steroids known as roid rage⁉️😢
Here is link about it😢
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One cannot sleep and the hyper causes unbearable spikes of brain and nerve pain a
Never within n and put😢👽
Seriously at those times one does feel like killing oneself is the best and only option😢
However my intelligence and ointeloect and knowledge of medicine and human anatomy
helps me keep holding on because I know it is possible to survive all of this cancer crap etcetera 💙
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
[B]
I was I know I can only speak for myself, but I really believe that AquaG is a fine young man, kind and understanding and I doubt that he would ever want to hurt you. Now, if you look closer at my last post there, you will see that underneath I am trying to address as much as possible to both of you because I consider both of you good and gentle hearts. In other words, by using AquaG' very
word of 'fluffa', I acknowledge and respect and feel happy for him that those videos
Again I tend to agree with you for the most part💙
A few issues do cause communications problems though I believe this is not nnpart a problem
he and I have communicating,;
I am on one side of the Autistic spectrum 👽
and he is more on he Asperger's side of the spectrum👽
To reach each other is hate to say it
night onto impossible because
we speak very diffetent emotional
language based on the Autism/Asperger's Spectrum😢👽
I try with him but it rarely gets
through to him that
I am not the enemy👽😢
Seriously were I young and single
and not disabled I would ask him
out on a
date and try to be his friend and
more if possible💙
I do not hate him💙
We both are afflicted with the
Autism spectrum troubles👽😢
It sucks to say the least👽😢
The videos bring him joy so that
I get but they make me want to puke
as nd do what to get farmers do
and kill them all with
professional groundhog equptment🤬
after what these creatures have
done to ruin so much in my
life to date🤬
Yes they use dynamite and
cyanide smoke boms and even
bulldozers out in the field so to speak👽
These creatures cause millions or more
of more damage in this country
everywhere they go🤬
And never have liked infantile
words like fluffas and bae and other
moronic words
folks see as cute ugh ugh like
tinkle and nappi etcetera 😜
Bleh gross ugh👽🤮🤢
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
[B]
those creatures managed to bring a
smile on his face during that painful
period of his life. And then, by
telling straightforward
that you have such a sweet heart that
you could never really do any harm
to those creatures, well, I believe
you can understand how I feel for you.
Yes I understand but seriously I rather
not be bored as that kid and of simpering fool who would want to not kill the destructive monsters off completely👽😢💙🤬
I know you mean and meant well by
those words but again please
understand that just like a disease
like Covid or Ebola or other
deadly epidmics and pandemics😳👽
I view these creatures as just
as nasty and wortless and dangerous
to humanity under various circumstances
unless they are being raised for poor
folks to eat💙
So think me evil but then think all the farmers and animals who had to be killed because they broke legs in groundhog holes and like me need a knee replaced because the same happened to me
and all the expensive repairs to home and other foundations even get this🤬👽😳
Airport runways😳🤬👽
Yes they can kill by their actions like when chewing our car gas and brake
lines through🤬😳 also house fires from chewing through our electrical lines 🤬😳👽
There are valid reasons some folks kill these evil creatures🤬😳
Sorry if that disgusts you but it is the truth just like the damn Canadian Geese and Lyme disease der who cause the beaches to be totally shut down before We ummer has a chance to o get going🤬
We have many lovely beaches but
they are only open due to our
cold weather for about 12 weeks
during summer with about 6 of
those weeks or more closed due
to disease carrying geese and deer🤬🤬🤬
So again think me cruel but when these creatures impact the lives of humans
in very negative ways it is far from
a thing to be tolerated ever😳🤬
You and aquaguy91 must live in
groundhog free places😎
Yay for both of you but I amd others
do not have that luxury😳🤬👽
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
[B] We all have our own, special and unique way of expressing ourselves. Misunderstandings and disappointments in life come and go. But no misunderstanding and no disappointment is stronger than us. They are not important. The most important is we, in the here and now and how much willing we are to rise above them and be there for one another, keep trying for one another. With anything each one of us has. A lot or little, it makes no difference...
I am and have been sincerely trying
All I can do is be often bluntly
honest but that upsets folks but
I am me and sugar
coating and cutesy cutesy crap
are not things
which I endorse👽Rant over and I
hope you understand where in I come
from here concerning the evil
groundhogs😳👽 Please ignore any typos and
weird autofills 👽
I shall fix after I go get more
prescription drugs from pharmacy💙 Oh here is the link about roid rage
which I had mentioned above💙
It sucks to need them but with
cancer and chemothetapy it is required to prevent sudden death from the treatments😳😢
I cannot take any of the drugs used to counteract the bad side effects due to
Asteroids because of my having
Multiple drug hypersensitivity syndrome
MDHS and other syndromes that make it impossible to prevent the nasty side effects on mind and mood etcetera
I shall find a better article but this should suffice for now💙 http://www.verywellhealth.com/steroids-in-cancer-treatment-2252521#:~:text=While%20you%20may%20have%20heard,have%20serious%20effects%20on%20mood. IP: Logged |
Eternal Energy
Knowflake Posts: 1758
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Registered: May 2020
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posted August 27, 2022 04:17 PM
I read the article you posted. Thank you, I understand better now. I don't know about this or that syndrome. I always liked looking at your heart and not at which spectrum you are. IP: Logged |
Eternal Energy
Knowflake Posts: 1758
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Registered: May 2020
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posted August 27, 2022 04:19 PM
Everything is going to be all right, Léxi.IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.♥is my Passion!
Registered: Feb 2012
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posted August 27, 2022 05:58 PM
Eternal Energy 
Thank you for understanding and
reading the link about steroids
I just posted
It explains in addition to being
Autistic as to why I do too
many freak outs
especially too often these days
with some doctors sayng
I do not have
long to live and others
just saying
Geesh we do not know but
it's bad
and the other gloomy pronosises👽😳😢
So meds make me go bonkers
and pain makes me go bonkers
And well it is not easy to cope with😢
At times like today
it was all driving my dear husband
to frustration and anger with me
because my hewring glitched and made
me talk too loudly
and then my eyesight and he had to
read things to me and help do many
other things other things other
folks do not need help with😢😢😢
and he is feeling bad from his
illneses today on top of mine
so he has every right to be out
of sorts at me and life in general💙💙💙😢
I often need help like a baby
and due to a vagus nerve damage
and a neurological glitch to
my esophogus
I often need Heimlich done to stop
choking from severe throat spasms
and I am unable to go!it without
help because then my throat stops
working completely and cannot move
at all so nothing goes down or up
without help😢👽
Not even going to detail the bathroom
help and help to clean up myself and
change clothes etcetera 😢👽And then deite my issues Im have
to care for him during his
many seizures😢👽 Do the added crap from groundhogs
is very unwelcome to say the least😢👽 As to the Autism it is a real
factor in my personality
kind heart or not💙
I do not communicate like normal
folks
because often they confuse me
because I
cannot relate to their humour
or their
outlooks on things the same as
I do😳😢
Always been mostly a loner
and frankly
I prefer that and only
feel comfortable
with the one on ones
like my beloved husband❤️😎
I can do okay with him and one
more person
if we both get on well with that
other individual 😎
That is rare however and to date
all sadly all of them have died in
just the past few years😢😢😢
Not all very old either👽😢
Long time friends too of durations
From 35 to 55 years or so knowing
each other❤️😎
So no more folks to hang out with
these days but each other,
my husband and I❤️😎
Yeah one person was 55 years old
died of liver cancer👽😢
Another was 52 years old Heriditary
Cancers😢👽
Another silly old git smoked
himself to death age 69👽😢
Another age 50 non Hodgkin's disease
that spread to his brain👽😢
Many more now gone from our lives😢👽
Not
Isting them all here👽😢 Pardon as usual any typos or strange
autofills 👽 Oh by the way ranting and rambling
is a trait of my type of Autism👽
I have great difficulty being short
and succinct in my communications😢👽 My mind just keeps zooming 24/7👽 IP: Logged |
Randall
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