posted July 04, 2024 12:47 PM            

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Originally posted by saronna:
I'm feeling better now not so lonely. I have boost juices and it helps me to feel better and listening to music and writing here.

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posted November 02, 2024 12:55 PM            

Have not replied here on your thread as my life is not happy or well.
Things have gotten much much worse in my and my beloveds lives😭😭😭

Going into my third year of chemotherapy.
Then.....
Doctors screwed up doing an EDG
and wrecked my neck and collapsed my head entire spine so now am having more partial paralysis and often cannot move my arms so typing or even eating is a real problem
They also screwed up and shoved the tube down my throat and twisted my neck and knocked out and broke 8 front teeth.
They further damaged my esophagus so eating is now take a bite then vomit take another then vomit until something says down
Have become very hypoglycemic which is dangerously low blood sugar due to cervical neck instability and a heart drug that damaged my ability to store sugar and also cannot digest food well so have to use a glycopen to inject intramuscularly glucose sugar to keep from starving to death or going into electrolyte imbalance or shock ETC.

Cannot sue any doctors because one must sign
Many forms agreeing to not sue them if things go wrong during invasive diagnostic tests or surgeries when one is under anesthesia 🤬👽😭

Add in other issues as others damaged my body in creepy ways such as visual and skin.....
The list just goes on and on 😭😭😭

This next issue is rather personal and graphic so be forewarned.....
but posting it anyhow.

On top of all the bad things wrong with my body much due to doctors and staff screwing up,
the cancer where a 7 pound tumor was removed
has led to me no longer being able to make love with my beloved my soulmate 😭😭😭
Seems that I no longer have a vagina👽😭👽
Yeah it has totally vanished😭👀👽😭🤬
Was hoping things would still work after surgery but is has been a year and a half and things have gotten much worse.....the scarring pretty much made my entire vagina pretty much vanish due to extreme scarring.
I can never have vaginal sex for the rest of my life 😭👽😭
NEVER NEVER NEVER😭😭😭
Even urinating ETC is a problem and often extremely painful😭👽😭
The abdominal/pelvic pain is horrible and not letting up.

I MISS HAVING SEXUAL RELATIONS WITH MY BELOVED😭😭😭

LIFE OS STILL WORTH LIVING BUT IT IS VERY VERY DIFFICULT.
I CANNOT WALK UNAIDED AND OFTEN NOT AT ALL.
HAVING TROUBLES GETTING INSURANCE TO PAY FOR WHEELCHAIRS AND RAMPS and railings and grab bars AND A VEHICLE TO USE TO GO TO Doctors AND CANCER CHEMOTHERAPY ETCETERA.

So yeah I am a wreck to say the least.
😭😭😭
The list is very very long and not going to post it all here.
No one can help me unless anyone wants to like give me a million dollars to make my life easier to deal with so we can afford the needed handicapped things we desperately need.

And on top of all the things wrong with me the hardest part in very very many ways is that my beloved has a terrible disease not caused by drinking or anything he did.
It is HEREDITARY 😭😭😭
His liver is failing and the doctors say he will need a liver transplant but they say they can not ever give him a new liver because get this.....
We are too poor and do not have the money to pay for help and the new liver🤬👽😭
So now on top of my problems we cannot find away to help with his issues.
They even say go get new friends.
Seriously how are we gonna to do that and .....ugh
Ask new friends to give us money ETCETERA....👽👽👽
Seems loads of money is the only thing that can help us get what we need to live better and survive👽😭🤬

So sorry to be all gloomy and doomy here saronns 💙💙💙
And teasel 💙💙💙

If you both can still walk and have all your body parts and can eat without choking and
Do not need diapers and can see okay enough and basically are not mostly bed bound then
Be thankful for what is good in your lives despite all that is lacking.
You would Definitely NOT want to trade places with us👽

Just wanted you both to know why I have not been posting much these days or telling about my into NG and now new nightmares and problems.
This post is enough to show why I am just not
coping well these days.
Doing our best but like today am both down in bed miserable near only noon.

Bless you both
Teasel❤️❤️❤️
And saronns❤️❤️❤️ and I sincerely hope
Both your lives improve or at least do not get worse.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I will edit this post if you both find it to depressing😭😭😭

posted November 02, 2024 01:02 PM            

And cannot afford to do a damn thing about
any of it👍🤬👀

posted November 06, 2024 11:55 AM            

Peaceful nevertheless...
and my middle aged son called yesterday to say happy belated birthday to me.

Still going to try and make my birthday feast
that my husband and I got the ingredients for.
However both of us too weak and too ill to do up any part of it all😭👽👀
so there it sits in freezer and refrigerator until we can get to it all.
Or freeze it all up and try later when we are not mostly bed bound.

I intend to survive to get to at least
age 105 and pass up my long long lived relatives.......

Hope you all have a great weekend coming up👍😎♥️