posted April 20, 2012 10:18 AM            

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posted April 20, 2012 03:09 PM            

Some thing which stand out to me:

Moon quincunx MC when I have a loose conjunction in my natal chart. In terms of how this is playing out right now, I can actually see it. I feel like my family is not very supportive of my current career path and I feel like they will not be optimistic for me in the future, which is weirdly making me very indecisive about what I should do. I also feel that at this time, I'm sort of... uncertain about my career plans, due to my fluctuating opinions on one path, one school versus another. It's very frustrating and quite heavy. I'm very upset at the idea of having to make such a serious choice. I don't even know if college is what I want. So yes, I can see how this Moon-MC quincunx is messing with my head. Seems like my emotions are out of synch which is making me uneasy about my future plans. But it's understandable I think, since I'm at a difficult age in terms of choosing what you want to do.

How the hell did Saturn move to my 2nd house and Uranus con. Neptune move to my 1st...? OTL Doesn't that like, NEVER happen? Haha, only me... only me.

But anyway, I can actually see how that might fit into my life. I can come off as both poetic and eccentric to other people and that's caused me some pain in terms of making myself fit into society and really establish where I am going. But it has been a help in fitting in with that certain kind of crowd, and making my presence known wherever I go, and getting this sort of cool reputation as well. Notice the sextiles to the 11th house, the latter, and the squares to the MC and my 10th house Sun con. Mercury, the former. It's very difficult right now to wrap my brain around the idea of having a conformist career, and I often won't comply to authority... maybe it's from my 1st house Uranus square my 10th house Sun and MC?

Per usual, Mars is my 'problem child' and squares my Moon and Venus. And my Moon is also opposite my Venus, which is appropriate, since at this time in my life I feel sort of starved of genuine love and caring from others. At this time I feel particularly hostile against my mother, the most I have ever felt in my entire life... makes sense, I guess.

Also, notice that like 0 degree orb conjunction between Sun and Mercury in the 10th...? I guess I can't hide my obsession with getting published and becoming known for my literary and artistic works in this chart! Also, I seem to have had this aspect for quite a while... it's really given me the classic Sun-Mercury sharp tongue. And, during the time I've become a MUCH better writer, and have focused on becoming famous through my writing (10th house). Cool, right? I can't wait to see your progressions!