posted October 21, 2012 06:55 PM            

I will put my Sedna article up. She was betrayed so, so badly by her father. It is a painful story. Did you have terrible betrayal by a man?

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posted October 21, 2012 06:57 PM            

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posted October 21, 2012 06:57 PM            

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posted October 21, 2012 07:07 PM            

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posted October 22, 2012 12:23 AM            

No I don't feel a compulsion to abuse others - yes I have lived with a lifetime compulsion (until my beautiful awakening) to abuse myself.

You're a sweetheart. Be at ease and speak freely. I am very comfortable with my chart. I know there's some fairly dark stuff in there. Like Mars/Venus gem 17. Like Sedna, Lillith, Ixion, Nessus... The saturn/neptune t-square on the moon. The nodal/vertexes t-square on the sun. Also some yods, whatever they really mean. Some nice things too if you look for them.

My life has not been easy by many people's standards, but I chose to incarnate with my perfect chart for a reason, so I am content it is serving a beautiful soul-evolution purpose for me. I've made peace with many lifetimes. Yes you read that right. ;-)

I lived as a victim through 7 abusive stories in this one life alone. I have no doubt I have capacity for harm - we all do - but the fact is that I went through some quite horrific abuse as a child (5-7) where I learned what it felt like to be threatened and abused on all levels - psychically, spiritually, emotionally, physically - This gifted me with extensive strength and compassion not because I survived but probably because my parents are wonderful souls (thank you Sun trine Jupiter and Sun trine moon, eh?) who also taught me by example about how to love selflessly. They are both healers and live to serve.

My take, is that I have been my own worst enemy... Now I am my own best lover. This is a beautiful thing! Love is transforming.
<3

BUT as you know - Still - I attract 'em. The dark ones. The psychos. The recent sociopath that landed us in a refuge. He begged me to abuse him back. Implored me to. It was the weirdest experience but told him I will not do that. Only yesterday another one buzzing around. I shut the doors faster now. What is that about Ami Anne, I would love to understand...

Much love,

- Curious Bull

posted October 22, 2012 01:05 AM            

I missed that question - sorry - Yes, monumental betrayals have been felt. Betrayals more of absence, neglect and some too of violence. However, to this Taurus what felt most monumental was the disloyalty and betrayal of the love. By men and also by women.

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Originally posted by Ami Anne:
That way, we can have our own thread. WOWSER. I just saw a big thing. You have Sedna in exact conjunct with the Sun.

I will put my Sedna article up. She was betrayed so, so badly by her father. It is a painful story. Did you have terrible betrayal by a man?

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posted October 22, 2012 07:17 AM            

Also, your Dejanira's probably touch in a very close way. Perhaps, he has a strong Algol. See if you can put Algol in. I think you may have another Fixed Star aspect going on, with him, too.

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posted October 22, 2012 09:17 AM            

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posted October 22, 2012 10:59 PM            

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posted October 23, 2012 12:28 AM            

Thanks for your patience and your continued kind interest in me and this relationship. I'm learning so much from you! Now I know what to look out for so there isn't a next 'bad' time and this is good for working out how to identify a great match too. Yay! <3

I have included 2 synastry chart links -
2 because I couldn't fit all the conjunctions on one chart. One has sedna and Ixion, the other has the fixed stars.

I don't know how to paste these in like some people do. Is the photobucket link ok?

There are 8 sets of close conjunctions between us! All listed below. I didn't even start on the grand trines etc. Would love you continued insights.
http://i1295.photobucket.com/albums/b626/CuriousBull/CuriousBullSynastryChart_zps9e923f5b.jpg
http://i1295.photobucket.com/albums/b626/CuriousBull/CuriousBullSynastryChart2_zps4c675ac4.jpg

8 SETS OF CLOSE CONJUNCTIONS:

Conjunction Set 1:
His chiron 13 Aries

My chiron 14 Aries
Fixed star Alpheratz 13/14 Aries

Conjunction Set 2:
His Sedna 2 Taurus

My Sedna 2 Taurus

My Sun 2 Taurus

Conjunction Set 3
His Saturn 5 Gemini

My Saturn 5 Gemini
Fixed star hyadum 5 Gemini

Conjunction Set 4
Fixed star Rigel 16 gemini
My mars & venus 17 gemini
My IC 18 Gemini

My Nessus 18 gemini
His Nessus 20 gemini
Fixed star Bellatrix 20 gemini


Conjunction Set 5
His vertex 2 Leo

My vertex 2 Leo

My South node 0 Leo
Fixed star Talitha 2 Leo

Conjunction Set 6
His venus 22 Leo


His Sun 25 Leo

His Juno 25 Leo

His Eros 27 Leo
My moon 28 Leo
Fixed star regulus 29 Leo

Conjunction Set 7
Fixed star Vindemiatrix 9 Libra
His Black Moon lillith 8 libra
My dejanira 10 Libra

His uranus 11 Libra

Conjunction Set 8
His Ixion 4 Scorpio

My Ixoin 5 Scorpio

My Black Moon Lillith 6 Scorpio
Fixed star Khambalia 6 Scorpio

Conjunction Set 9 - Questionable (5 degree orb)
My Asc Pisces 19
Achernar Pisces 14
His Asc Pisces 9

posted October 23, 2012 08:42 AM            

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posted October 23, 2012 08:16 PM            

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posted October 24, 2012 06:45 AM            

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Originally posted by Curious Bull:
OMG - I just did my synastry with my father and see his Nessus is conjunct my Sedna/Sun. His mars conjunct my mars/Venus/Nessus.

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The synastry with your parents can be the most enlightening of all. IQ started my healing process by doing mine with my mother. He has been my angel because he told me about my life, straight out, no holds barred. He was the first person to do that.
I model my form of Astrology on him in that I am always as honest as I can be. That honesty can save a life, as his did to me.

I may not be right for everyone as a result of this stance but only honesty with save a person. There is enough pablum to go around in this field and in the world *sigh*

Yes, put up you and your father's synastry on a new thread and we can look at it.

I am not as with-it as I, usually, am because my whole house is getting re-modeled and there are lots of workman and noise around me.
Today, I hope to set a laptop up in another room, but you want to look at all these synastries as they will answer your life questions.
I will be back. I would like us to go slowly with this, as it is a project more than an event

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posted October 24, 2012 08:31 AM            

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posted October 24, 2012 09:19 AM            

Like this around my sun/sedna?

Sister's venus (taurus 0)
My sun/sedna (taurus 3)
Sister's sedna (taurus 3)
My mothers North node (4 taurus)
My father's Nessus (4 taurus)
Brother's chiron (taurus 4)
Brother's sedna (taurus 5)
Brother's mars (taurus 7)
Brother's venus (taurus 9)
Mother's nessus (Taurus 11)

posted October 24, 2012 06:43 PM            

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