posted June 21, 2013 04:41 PM            

As an additional bonus; can you find why the simplest tasks seem so difficult, in so much as I find it difficult to maintain even the barest level of survival.

As for the first, my first time with a broken heart led me to the hospital after an overdose. The doctors have no clue as to why I survived, even to this day. No clue. (Funnily enough, I hold a horrible record. The person with the most toxic liver levels who still survived.)
The second time, I locked myself in a basement for three months and refused to leave.
The third time, I packed everything I could fit in my car and took off without any idea of where I was going.
This time... well, I just lost my jobs.

Maybe I'm mentally disturbed? lol But, I swear, this only happens when a very specific set of events take place. I try to avoid those events whenever possible, but... my heart leaps on them like an idiot, and it just can't be fought.

So... fix me please?
See if you can look at the chart, see where the problem lays, and when those events happens, suggest alternatives based on the chart layout to sidestep the destruction?

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posted June 22, 2013 01:39 PM            

You have one of the most painful aspects in the chart. That is moon/Chiron. It is close. This shows great pain at the hands of a woman and great pain with your own emotions.

You have it in the 5th house which is the house of self expression and ROMANCE. This may be why it is activated when relationships end.

Whatever house this Chiron/Moon is in, it would be hard. I do think we have the clue as to why relationship break ups trigger it, though

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posted June 22, 2013 01:42 PM            

I have another friend with Moon/Chiron conj the MC. His pain is shown to the world in that he is very obese. He had a lot of pain with his mother who was an invalid he had to nurse while he was in high school.

He never made it in a career--10th house. He feels like a loser in society( 10th House) so maybe 10th house issues trigger him.

I am just speculating here about him but you told us what triggered you and that goes to the 5th house--romance. How does this sit with you?

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posted June 22, 2013 01:44 PM            

Your hard aspects are hard so we will discuss them

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posted June 22, 2013 01:45 PM            

I will describe where I think your real pain is coming from.

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posted June 22, 2013 01:48 PM            

If it is not in the 12th,it would be in the House of friends and hopes and dreams.

This area would be really shaken up.

However, house aside, you have a very hard aspect to your Moon/Chiron and that would be an opposition to Uranus.

You would find it hard to settle down to routine. You would find it hard to settle down to intimacy with one person. Maybe, you are sabataging your relationships. You mentioned sabotage on FB, so you may be doing some of this. I suspect you are.

Getting emotionally close is really hard for you. It brings up pain!!!! This is because of Moon/Chiron

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posted June 22, 2013 01:51 PM            

My conclusion would be the Moon/Chiron as the root of your problems.

The only thing that helps Chiron is service in the area in which you are broken

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posted June 22, 2013 09:35 PM            

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This shows great pain at the hands of a woman and great pain with your own emotions.

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Getting emotionally close is really hard for you.

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It hasn't always been that way though.

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I wonder if your Uranus is in the 12th. Do you feel you have a really kinky side you can't let anyone see?

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The only thing that helps Chiron is service in the area in which you are broken

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I'm going back home. Right now I'm in the middle of no where and don't know anyone... I decided to go back home a few days ago. Can't exactly provide service in any area if I'm not willing to step out the front door. At least back home there are people.

I skipped around the sabotage topic because honestly... I just don't know.

Thank you so much for taking the time to look at it. I wish the answer was easier to deal with than Moon conj Chiron. I think I may have known the answer and I was just hoping a praying for it to be something else... something easier to work on.

posted June 22, 2013 09:38 PM            

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