posted June 23, 2013 10:59 AM            

I knew there was a reason I feel a connection to you..this "alikeness" must be the reason for that

For me, all my passions came together which is so strange as I always felt that I did all these off beat, crazy things but none amounted to much. Then, they came together in my calling.

Be open to this happening for you. We will look at your chart some more, though! xx

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posted June 23, 2013 11:11 AM            

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[b]Ami I have been told that I have a real talent for writing and peopls say the feel moved when reading my letters, stories and poems. But I dont have the will or the courage to write as I feel I wont be any good. I also feel that the story and tha characters I want to bring to life are locked inside me.

The time has to be right. I have found my passion. I am truly, truly happy with the work I do. It combines all my passions--astrology, psychology, spirituality and natural health.

I had to go through a horrible shift in my life from the death of my son. At that point, I did not care how I looked or if it was weird to do what I do. I just wanted to do what I was created to do.

Without that horrible shift, I would not have found my calling. I am not saying YOU have to go through this level of sorrow but I bet that you have to live life more and experience more before your characters can speak. That is my feeling on it, anyway

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Its so strange that you say this...you have been through the dark night of the soul Ami

I think its happening in bits and pieces ro me...I don't know if I would ever have the courage to go through what you did. Nothing can compare with the loss of a child it goes against nature and the cycle of life. I cant even begin to imagine what you had to deal with

Its easier for me to feel pain than any other emotion. The last time I was really truly happy I was 10. I felt loved, popular and admired. But I was a child then so i guess I didnt know much then. There is emptiness inside me. The universe does not hear me

posted June 23, 2013 11:15 AM            

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Ok--it is not TR. It is your Progressed Sun which is conj Chiron which is more intense. i think this is what is going on--in a nutshell. your sense of sefl is coming face to face with your deepest pain.

However, lets see what basics you have in your charts that underlie this, if you want.

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Im happy to go with what you think is best Ami. But strangely I don't want to take this "thing" lying down anymore. I want to rise above it. I want to be happy and fulfilled. And then I want to say "ok whats the point do your worst"

posted June 23, 2013 11:18 AM            

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[b]I agree Ami..but what is it that would suit me best? There are many things I would like to do? Work with animals, be a travel writer of sorts

If money were no object I would travel the world telling the stories of people that I encountered and looking for the threads of humanity and wisdom that lie within all of us

I knew there was a reason I feel a connection to you..this "alikeness" must be the reason for that

For me, all my passions came together which is so strange as I always felt that I did all these off beat, crazy things but none amounted to much. Then, they came together in my calling.

Be open to this happening for you. We will look at your chart some more, though! xx

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posted June 23, 2013 12:13 PM            

Its easier for me to feel pain than any other emotion. The last time I was really truly happy I was 10. I felt loved, popular and admired. But I was a child then so i guess I didnt know much then. There is emptiness inside me. The universe does not hear me

Yes, this is the dark night of the soul. I went through it before I lost my son. I was molested by my mother so I had to shut down to survive. I am just finding my voice now. I use my pain in my work. I use my healing in my work. I could not do it if I had not gone through the pain, I don't think.

You have the same configuration with the ASC and Chiron that I do. That shows you can bring your pain out into your life and use it--the trine.

One of the weirdest things is that I learned about Nessus/deja( the asteroid of abuse and victimization) by making a huge fool of myself. Now, I use that knowledge all of the time. Last week, I had a woman going through the same thing. I seem to be someone who writes about this and helps people with it but I went through a terrible time to get here.
Maybe, that is how people get wisdom, not that I have that much but I have some.

Randall has a great deal of wisdom and he said he got it through pain. That helps me to realize this.

We will work on your chart until it reaches it's natural end. That is how I like to do charts and it is a privilege to do yours

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posted June 24, 2013 10:10 AM            

Bring it out means to show my vulnerability? I present a tough face to the world, men especially don't treat me like I need nurturing and protecting

I'm scared to show my soft side lol, I think people may take advantage

Today the lady at work next to me mailed me to ask me to lend her some money as she was down to her last cent. She said she was embarresed to ask me verbally. I gave her more than I thought she needed and told her I did not want it back. She started to cry...but I think she gave me more than I gave her. It felt good to know that someone has that level of comfort with and trust in me to ask such a favor - she picked me over all the others in the office. And she is a very proud woman, not someone who would I this just because

So I guess it's like Randall said....count my blessings. ..

My manager told me today that he has confidence in me but that I seem to have none in myself

I think he is right. The stuff I have been though has done that. So I guess that my options are run or rise

posted June 24, 2013 06:43 PM            

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I posted a loong reply but maybe it didnt take...I will check in later. I must say how touched I am Ami that you are helping me ...I know how busy your are and how sough after you are for your skill

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Aww Thank you. I was coming back to see if you responded. You are so sweet. I am in my garden but will come back when I come out lol

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posted June 25, 2013 08:10 AM            

I think your path is similar to mine, not that you have to go through the exact things but that you do have to go through your dark nights of the soul. Then, you will bring wisdom and light to others.

It could be a rite of passage kind of thing. I don't know. I never wanted any of my painful experiences. I wish I could take them all back. However, God is using them for His purposes and that is the best use of the Chiron wound.

I feel that your walk will be like mine

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posted June 25, 2013 08:12 AM            

I never felt like I found my true passion until now and all of them came together, too.

When I got my masters degree in counseling, I liked it OK, but I thought a lot of the field was pure bogus--the study of the id by the odd.

The people who were counselors were more messed up than the patients. It seemed like a fraud and so I never did much work with it but got into holistic health

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posted June 25, 2013 08:16 AM            

An assistant did everything with him, like a right hand man. He was a homeopath, psychologist, did nutrition, acupuncture, energy medicine--on and on--and a lot of weird,a amazing things with energy medicine.

I was in the room with him for all the patients and took notes and helped him with what he needed.

This put me on the holistic health path but it was not my heart's goal. Nothing was until Astrology and then I could put them all together.

I say all this to say that I think your path will be like this. Follow your heart and it will come together!

I will look more at your chart later, too

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posted June 25, 2013 11:42 AM            

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I feel like your ultimate career will be like mine in that it is a blending of all different things that seemed like they would never go together. Just follow each of your passions. I was very gemini like in that I had a million jobs and a million passions. It never seemed like they would come together in a career but they did.

I never felt like I found my true passion until now and all of them came together, too.

When I got my masters degree in counseling, I liked it OK, but I thought a lot of the field was pure bogus--the study of the id by the odd.

The people who were counselors were more messed up than the patients. It seemed like a fraud and so I never did much work with it but got into holistic health

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You have given me a lot to think about here Ami...I like what I do as a career but I don't love it. I used to be a high school teacher once and in many ways I feel that I turned my back on my true calling for a bigger paycheck

I could relate to the kids, support them and inspire them
I too studied psych but found that the only one that resonated with me a bit was Jung. I wanted to counsel people but thought that there really was not a theory that could do justice to the human psyche.

I made the most impact on the kids who were different. The ones who were wiser than their years, the misfits, the ones who stood out as different and were therefore marginalized.

I left all this for the corporate dog eat dog world and I feel like I have sold my soul

posted June 25, 2013 11:47 AM            

I feel that you need to follow your bliss. It may not make sense in the short term but it will come together in the long term.

I think God created people with certain tasks that are perfect for them and they are naturals here.

I think Randall is a natural mentor.

I am a natural astrologer, I think.

You have to find what is your natural fit.

What do you think it is? You described it before but try to put it into words again?

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posted June 25, 2013 11:48 AM            

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Last night, I had you on my mind, Nat. I do that with people once I connect with them. I kind of feel things for them.

I think your path is similar to mine, not that you have to go through the exact things but that you do have to go through your dark nights of the soul. Then, you will bring wisdom and light to others.

It could be a rite of passage kind of thing. I don't know. I never wanted any of my painful experiences. I wish I could take them all back. However, God is using them for His purposes and that is the best use of the Chiron wound.

I feel that your walk will be like mine

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I'm scared....I have been through so much already....I don't want to go through anything more...I have been sexually abused, been hurt thrice in love, lost my parents and some people very close to my heart, been retrenched twice in the recession and come to terms with the fact that I will never be a mother.

posted June 25, 2013 11:50 AM            

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This was God. I applied for a job right out of grad school with one of the top holistic health doctors in the world, at that time. I walked in and he said he was waiting for an assistant and I was it.

An assistant did everything with him, like a right hand man. He was a homeopath, psychologist, did nutrition, acupuncture, energy medicine--on and on--and a lot of weird,a amazing things with energy medicine.

I was in the room with him for all the patients and took notes and helped him with what he needed.

This put me on the holistic health path but it was not my heart's goal. Nothing was until Astrology and then I could put them all together.

I say all this to say that I think your path will be like this. Follow your heart and it will come together!

I will look more at your chart later, too

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