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Topic: Twinflame Astrology: Techniques, Investigations, Validity
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IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted February 25, 2014 02:46 PM
Huh. Apropos of nothing, and not quite derived from any theory with a logical basis, I noticed something. But first things first. Oh, Ceri, Lunar Goddess of the Solar Chart: • Can we progress Helio? Should we? And, if so: • Can we progress Helio composite? If yes, this is intriguing to me. Now that I know only latitudes are considered in Helio, and they're not included in the composites at all, I've only the straight longitudinal placements with which to work. In our Helio composite, we've seen how his 2° ISIS-OSIRIS conjunction (5°17 and 7°17 VIR) and my 26° CAN and 11° LEO OSIRIS and ISIS respectively, making no aspect, have come within 9° of each other - 23° (ISIS) and 16° (OSIRIS). Granted, that's 9°. I was curious about general aspects, so I progressed it to the Blue Moon this past Valentine's Day. My H-ATLANTIS is almost to where my natal Tropical is. And: ISIS @ 28° 25' OSIRIS @ 25° 42' Barely 3° apart. And! • Progressed H-Comp ISIS is on REGULUS. • Progressed H-Comp OSIRIS is nearing it. In my progressed Helio: • My ISIS and OSIRIS are now 9° apart. Like the regular Helio composite. • His ISIS and OSIRIS are separating; 5°. • His progressed ISIS is on my Tropical ASC (10° VIR 21). Also, in the composite: • SATURN, PLUTO, and ATLANTIS are lining up at 27° LIB as they are in the Tropical. Something about it all felt like a ticking clock. I started investigating more seriously. Here's what I found: • the first major change is H-KARMA-DESTINN conjoining over his H-ATLANTIS @ 18° SCO. • It will remain conjunct, within less 1° orb, until 2080. (Well, that's 100 years after my birth, so, I quit there. Heh. In 2080, curiously, they go to 0° SAG with JUPITER.) But let's continue. • on / around 2024, OSIRIS hits REGULUS (28° LEO 34). They're now 2° apart with ISIS leading in 0° VIR. • in 2030, the EARTH-MOON progresses to 11° CAN, and ISIS and OSIRIS are conjunct 1° with ISIS leading. • in 2036, on his birthday, ISIS and OSIRIS conjoin in 2° VIRGO, on his Tropical VERTEX. PSYCHE and EROS square off in AQU and TAU. VENUS conjoins REGULUS, and hits our T-COMP MC. (ISIS-OSIRIS conjoin the T-COMP MC.) I remember seeing Newsroom and thinking, we're going to be older. I even started saying, 'I don't think Lane and Fiona are in their 30s. I think they're in their forties or fifties. I think THAT's when we'll do LACHESIS.' So. Can we use ISIS-OSIRIS as a timer? I know that it begins to separate again after 2038. But KARMA-DESTINN never do. I'll be 56. And, in the words of MacKenzie McHale, 'even more hot.' 😉 For those who haven't indulged in Sorkin's latest, and our private (okay, not so private) obsession - probably because they're SO Lane and Fiona, we can't help but relate - and love them: http://fuckyeahmackenziemchale.tumblr.com (It's the Mortimer and Daniels shots which are Will and Mac.) Good God. We ARE Will and Mac. Sigh. Unsurprising. 'Hate' each other for years over misunderstanding and broken hearts, hurt, hurt, hurt, drive everyone bonkers, and then one day - ONE BLOODY DAY - it all stops. Because HE got a clue. Heh. I can wait. Hm. ISIS-OSIRIS, and maybe even KARMA-DESTINN as a timer. I rather like that. IP: Logged |
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posted February 25, 2014 02:47 PM
quote: Originally posted by tgem: Honestly, regardless of whether he's a TF or soulmate...it is just impossible for me to believe ANYONE could replace him...or the love I feel for him. I have absolutely ZERO desire to look for/have a relationship with anyone else...he's it...he's the one. We're just too similar...like we were made for eachother. I'd personally rather go the rest of my life alone, because the chemistry between us was so powerful.
Lol to be quite honest, that is exactly the way I feel about Virgo guy. I know to some it may seem delusional but... That's just the way it is. Actually I've never even been in a relationship with anyone before. Never even touched a guy. I did find out about him when I was 13/14, and after that I had no desire to start something with any other guy, even casually. It was just out of question. I just saw it as a waste of time, nothing would have come out of it anyways... I mean I did have crushes and all but nothing serious. For some reason it just really made me feel uncomfortable and disgusted to even think about being close/intimate with anyone else. I guess its because I am highly sensitive, so I've been very reseverved and guarded about who I let into my "circle" lol. But with him, I feel as though he can easily access "all of me", my deepest most hidden parts that I don't show anyone else. And it doesn't even feel like intrusive at all... Very natural infact, like its just supposed to be that way. Hard to describe lol Its crazy that I feel so open towards him. He himself hasn't been in a relationship since he was 13/14, so its been about 10 years since he's single. He isn't the type of guy to engage in anything casual either. Were both monogamous. 😉 I find it interesting how me and him have lot of the same views, morals and values when it comes to a lot of stuff. Maybe its just cause we have the same birthday and were both Virgos or I don't know lol. IP: Logged |
IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted February 25, 2014 02:57 PM
quote: Originally posted by Lavender CrystalSwan: Lol to be quite honest, that is exactly the way I feel about Virgo guy. I know to some it may seem delusional but... That's just the way it is. Actually I've never even been in a relationship with anyone before. Never even touched a guy. I did find out about him when I was 13/14, and after that I had no desire to start something with any other guy, even casually. It was just out of question. I just saw it as a waste of time, nothing would have come out of it anyways... I mean I did have crushes and all but nothing serious. For some reason it just really made me feel uncomfortable and disgusted to even think about being close/intimate with anyone else. I guess its because I am highly sensitive, so I've been very reseverved and guarded about who I let into my "circle" lol. But with him, I feel as though he can easily access "all of me", my deepest most hidden parts that I don't show anyone else. And it doesn't even feel like intrusive at all... Very natural infact, like its just supposed to be that way. Hard to describe lol Its crazy that I feel so open towards him. He himself hasn't been in a relationship since he was 13/14, so its been about 10 years since he's single. He isn't the type of guy to engage in anything casual either. Were both monogamous. 😉 I find it interesting how me and him have lot of the same views, morals and values when it comes to a lot of stuff. Maybe its just cause we have the same birthday and were both Virgos or I don't know lol.
Maybe you feel free of your obligation to your ex husband, tgem? I don't. But I figure I will by my 40s, honestly. It all depends. I'll know. And don't freak out if you two don't marry first, Lavender. I'd check and make sure with iQ you're fated to marry FIRST and fairly young. That way, in case he does marry someone else, you don't lose faith. Oh! And for those paying attention 😉, I noticed in the progressed T-Comp, our KARMA-DESTINN conjoins exactly at 4° SAG in 2036. 2036. 😉
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posted February 25, 2014 02:58 PM
Well, I wanted to continue that story of our "chats" a little (if you can even call it that ). The thing is I sort of liked him on stage (but not so I would develop a crush on him, he did not fit my "actor-type" anyway, he was much too real for that), but when he was stepping through that door and his look fell on me. Holy crap! I didn`t really think that moment, but I was NOT prepared for that. Had I expected THAT, I would nver in a million years had gone there in the first place. Jeez, I was so happy I was leaning with my back against a wall, afraid my knees would have wobbled so much that i couldn´t stand upright on my own otherwise.
And my knees never wobble. Never! In fact I think I was doing nothing, but just staring (or nicely put: looking) at him for a few moments. There were also several much younger women, very trendy, very much make up, pretty, much much prettier than me for sure, and much more "visibly receptive" and totally fangirly, totally gigggly and into him. I was nothing of that sort. Much too old to be at a stage door (and have not even done that sort of thing so often, maybe 2 or 3 times before him in my life). Fat (and in my case that was true, not talking about one or two kilos too mch here; hey I have lost 40 kilos, and am STILL overweight, so you can guess how I looked like. Actually i have a picture somewhere taken just days before) and just so not prepared for that kind of thing. lol Fish out of water.
But anyway, he came down the stairs (I didn`t move at all I think. I couldnt.), and the girls were talking to him, and he managed to answer to them and never taking his eyes off me; actually the girls had to walk a bit backwards, because well he was moving forwards. Eventually he focused on them, though, cause anything else would have been rude. I hadn`t even uttered a single word. Was busy trying to find back my balance, when he suddenly stood right in front of me (he always does that "appearing" out of nowwhere as it seems), and pressed an electronic camera into my hand (the girls wanted to have a pic with him), and said to me: "You take the picture." Definitely remember-worthy first words. LOL Well, I stared flabbergasted at the camera in my hand, and back up at him (since when do musical-actors overtower me so easily?) and said totally baffled: "I do?"
He grinned and repeated: "Yes, you do." My problem was that I had never had to deal with an electronic camera before (yes I am THAT backwards. lol) and it was inevitable that I would make a complete fool out of me, if I hadn`t already, but anyway, according to my memory I managed. Probably he had to explain to me which button to push though, do not remember that so clearly.
So yeah, that were the first words we ever exchanged.
My encounters with him certainly have a little of a comedy-feel sometimes. lol However, I found back into my role, my mode of acting. And that is analytical, intellectual, distant. Which is the only explanation how i could pull that off, I was in scientific mode. That was just research, nothing personal.
Besides i knew how I looked, and I knew what or how i was not. Actually it might have been just weeks before that, that I had with clarity realized that I am totally out of the game (had always been actually) and that while I can be a good friend, loving sister, supportive daughter, understanding teacher, love and romance is not in the cards for me in this life. Hey, I hardly even identified as a woman. I identified as a mind, that could walk around. And he comes along and acts like he cannot see that? Like I am not above it all, not a Vulcan, but I don`t know almost like I was a woman? LOL It disbalanced me. Totally out of my comfort zone, so I tried what i always try, get back to the intellectual analytical safety, and that is the level I trie dto talk to him. I said "tried" to, cause apparently he operates on a bit of a different level. Or what should I think of him, suddenly sniffing my hair (or the air around it) and persisting that he must have smelled a certain fragrance, despite my repeated denials that this is not so (I was telling the truth, no fragrance, just freshly showered). I can tell with certainty that NO man ever before or after had ever started sniffing me within the first 10 minutes of meeting. LOL
I suppose that must be just because he is such an extravert, instinctive person. But you can see on what a different level he is operating, nevertheless I managed after several interruptions - No Patrick, I am not wearing this fragrance. And no Patrick, that is not my phone number in your pocket- (apparently someone had put their number into his pocket, and he found it there, having his hand in his pocket, and was asking, well, not only me, but pretty much asking around, and again knocking me off balance.)
Anyway, so eventually I got around asking him about his birthtime (asking him if I could do his horoscope, because I wa curious), and after a few bad ascendant-jokes (even his bad jokes , and he knows a lot of bad jokes, are kinda cute. lol) he said that he didn`t know his birthtime.
So I was just starting to say my goodbye and leave quickly (and find some hole to die in of embarassment, because by then I had realizd what the heck I was doing there). But he told me to "not run away and wait a couple of minutes", said hello to a colleague that passed us, got out his mobile, called his mum and asked her about the birthtime, and somehow manoevered me then into a corner, away from the crowd, and explaining me something about his smartphone and his website or I don´t know what. To be honest He was standing REALLY close and somehow it disconerted me. NOt that I did not like it, nothing in my life has ever felt that thrilling and yet natural to me. But rationally that should not be, and I thought I should give him a little more space (my Aqua Moon is not one for physical proximity usual, so I don`t know what was happening there), but I suppose he didn´t exactly mind the proximity. Anyway, of course everything went downhill from there, really I mean. Yes I made that damned horoscope, and yes I sent it to his website. B
But it was one of these Mercury-rx times, I should have known better. Just the day after sending the horoscope my email account crashed, or at least I had to give it up.
His website crashed as well. So I have no clue if he ever even got it in the first place. But anyway yes, that was it for the first meeting.
And afterwards things got even weirder
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IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted February 25, 2014 03:08 PM
And this has been the soundtrack for my research this morning: http://youtu.be/_Bw2VakWenk Did it grab you as it did me? It begun playing when I found the progressed ISIS-OSIRIS conjunction. IP: Logged |
Gabby Moderator Posts: 8906 From: Registered: Sep 2012
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posted February 25, 2014 03:10 PM
quote: Originally posted by tgem: " I wonder if it's him that's needy and twin flames cannot be together until they both have learned to stand on their own and have their own identity so they don't lose themselves to the relationship? Id always thought he was the strong one of us, he's got the great career, money and prestige...I'm just a little nobody that struggles to get by...but I'm happier than he is in my lil simple life! I seem to have answers he doesn't! Maybe I've been wrong maybe he's the weaker one and covers it up with all that other stuff?"IMHO that's EXACTLY what it is!!!! I've read way too much that says TF's cannot live in a co-dependant relationship! You have to be whole on your own. Happy being alone, completely Independent...otherwise it won't work...remember "they" (whoever they are) say TF relationships are not normal relationships..so you can't put them in that category. Meeting my guy through me out of my co-dependant marriage and now I'm doing fine on my own (other than missing him of course.). He, however, is still married and I TRULY believe it's based on security and obligation. Until one realizes who they really are, balance their female (emotional) and male (ego/independence) side, it won't happen. One has to be balanced. Also, it is about unconditional love and keeping the heart chakra open...maybe that's why we, as females, might have the harder job of waiting (as we try to master keep the heart chakra open and feeling unconditional love. JMO
Thanks, that makes a lot of sense! So my path isn't to try to fill his place it's to love him no matter where he's at, and allow him to grow on his own so he's strong enough to be in a relationship without losing himself! I just need to focus on myself and stop thinking I need a man because it's politically correct and let go of how it looks to everyone as they wonder what is wrong with me that I don't even want to find someone! I've been working hard on myself for a long time but I know there is more to come, it gets better everyday! I'm so glad I finally said something, I've kept this all inside for so long and told no one! It's kind of odd and humiliating to love someone who's not around! 2 songs that I've dedicated to our relationship... "Brandy" by Looking Glass Theres a port on a western bay And it serves a hundred ships a day Lonely sailors pass the time a way And talk about their homes Theres a girl in this harbor town And she works laying whiskey down They say Brandy, fetch another round She serves them whisky and wine The sailors say... Brandy, you're a fine girl, you're a fine girl What a good wife you would be Your eyes could steal a sailor from the sea Brandy wears a braided chain Made of finest silver from the north of spain A locket that bears the name of the man that Brandy loves He came on a summers day - bearing gifts - from far away But he made it clear he couldnt stay No harbor was his home Brandy used to watch his eyes As he told his sailor stories She could feel the ocean fall and rise She saw its raging glory But he had always told the truth Lord he was an honest man And Brandy does her best to understand At night when the bars close down Brandy walks through a slient town And loves a man who's not around She still can hear him say She still hears him say.... "Only have Eyes for You" The Flamingos My love must be a kind of blind love I can't see anyone but you Are the stars out tonight? I don't know if it's cloudy or bright I only have eyes for you, dear The moon may be high But I can't see a thing in the sky I only have eyes for you I don't know if we're in a garden Or on a crowded avenue You are here and so am I Maybe millions of people go by But they all disappear from view And I only have eyes for you
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posted February 25, 2014 03:12 PM
quote: Originally posted by IndigoDirae: Maybe you feel free of your obligation to your ex husband, tgem? I don't. But I figure I will by my 40s, honestly. It all depends. I'll know. And don't freak out if you two don't marry first, Lavender. I'd check and make sure with iQ you're fated to marry FIRST and fairly young. That way, in case he does marry someone else, you don't lose faith. Oh! And for those paying attention 😉, I noticed in the progressed T-Comp, our KARMA-DESTINN conjoins exactly at 4° SAG in 2036. 2036. 😉
Heehee I have already done so and he has confirmed it for me. Besides, he said he didn't wanna marry, unless he found his soulmate/true love 😉 lolol EDIT: I don't hold any expectations though. I just strongly feel there won't be anyone else.. Plus I myself don't want to marry... The only marriage I believe in is marriage of the heart IP: Logged |
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posted February 25, 2014 03:17 PM
he helio progressions are moving soooooo slow In the 6 years or so Destinn and Karma moved about 2 degrees, that is all, so I think orbs would need to be really tight for helio progression.
Nevertheless around this time we have pr composite Psyche on 23 Pisces exact square pr composite Eros on 23 Gemini (helio of course), and pr compoiste Destinn on 23 Leo. interesting
However in my own helio progression I have an almost exact conjunction of Venus and Jupiter in helio.
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posted February 25, 2014 03:20 PM
Today, I was talking to my bankassistant (about how to save more money), and she had plastered a postcard onto the table, that I couldn´t help but see directly when I sat down. There was a sentence on it: "RISK IT A ship staying in port is safe. But that`s not what ships are being built for." IP: Logged |
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posted February 25, 2014 03:21 PM
quote: Originally posted by Ceridwen: Today, I was talking to my bankassistant (about how to save more money), and she had plastered a postcard onto the table, that I couldn´t help but see directly when I sat down. There was a sentence on it: "RISK IT A ship staying in port is safe. But that`s not what ships are being built for."
LOLOL I love that. IP: Logged |
IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted February 25, 2014 03:22 PM
Gracious, how apt. 'She’s his heart, his war-torn country that he’ll come home to rebuild, passport in hand and flag clutched proudly in his fist. The haunted hallways of his childhood, shadows passing under closed doors and muffled screams and crying children—he buried it far from his skin and wandered aimlessly for decades. They’ve built their homes, their native lands, in each other.' Penned by one only known as simplyprologue. It's 12:21 here. Let's think on that. Simply. Prologue. And all breathe. IP: Logged |
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posted February 25, 2014 03:22 PM
quote: Originally posted by IndigoDirae: And this has been the soundtrack for my research this morning: http://youtu.be/_Bw2VakWenk Did it grab you as it did me? It begun playing when I found the progressed ISIS-OSIRIS conjunction.
Yes, it grabbed me totally! BTW you should check how long the Isis - osiris-conjunction needs to get exact. I have the suspicion that either it was in the past (usualy Isis is the faster one, right?) or it will take a long time until it perfects.
I was so surprised to see how slow my Karma and Destinn were progressing.
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posted February 25, 2014 03:25 PM
Awe Ceri!!! You need to resend it, with a cute little note about how his chart was so amazing it overloaded your computer and it crashed(or something stupid like that,lol) ..you didn't know if he received it! But wanted to make sure he knew you hadn't forgotten about him! Mines first words to me at the very first moment I ever saw him was "Do you just hate me or something?" Lol!
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posted February 25, 2014 03:27 PM
No, I was wrong Indigo. In your case osiris is the faster one. Still you will need to be patient
It will be in under one degree orb in 20 years from now (though it will then stay in orb for like forever I think. lol)
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posted February 25, 2014 03:30 PM
quote: Originally posted by Gabby: Awe Ceri!!! You need to resend it, with a cute little note about how his chart was so amazing it overloaded your computer and it crashed(or something stupid like that,lol) ..you didn't know if he received it! But wanted to make sure he knew you hadn't forgotten about him! Mines first words to me at the very first moment I ever saw him was "Do you just hate me or something?" Lol!
LOL we have funny first words. Actually, the first words *I* said to him, thinking about it and ripping it out of context, were "I do", though Is aid it with a big questionmark. LOL No, can`t resend it. First of all I don´t have it anymore. In the meantime I shredded at least 3 labtops. Also, this has been 6 years ago!
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posted February 25, 2014 03:30 PM
quote: Originally posted by IndigoDirae: And this has been the soundtrack for my research this morning: http://youtu.be/_Bw2VakWenk Did it grab you as it did me? It begun playing when I found the progressed ISIS-OSIRIS conjunction.
Wow, I like it!! Yes, It grabbed me to!
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posted February 25, 2014 03:33 PM
quote: Originally posted by Ceridwen: LOL we have funny first words.Actually, the first words *I* said to him, thinking about it and ripping it out of context, were "I do", though Is aid it with a big questionmark. LOL No, can`t resend it. First of all I don´t have it anymore. In the meantime I shredded at least 3 labtops. Also, this has been 6 years ago!
I am sure he doesn`t remember that.
I love your first words to him, I think they are perfect!! What do you mean you don't have it anymore? N who cares how long it's been? Does he make eye contact with you when you go watch him perform? My first words, after staring at him trying to recover from what felt like lightening hitting me I finally said, "No, Im pretty sure I don't hate you!"
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posted February 25, 2014 03:36 PM
quote: Originally posted by Lavender CrystalSwan: Heehee I have already done so and he has confirmed it for me. Besides, he said he didn't wanna marry, unless he found his soulmate/true love 😉 lolol EDIT: I don't hold any expectations though. I just strongly feel there won't be anyone else.. Plus I myself don't want to marry... The only marriage I believe in is marriage of the heart
Hm. Not to throw another wrench (I do this for a reason, you know. I'm not sure what it is, but something; I'm too compelled to go all mother-hen on this; odd, for me) but did you check with iQ if your monogamous relationship is also intended to be faithful? Some are bringing in lessons of betrayal. Even the most evolved men cannot completely thwart their biology and psychology. The fact you're both lacking relationships concerns me. Too many fall prey to the fantasy of 'and we we're each other's only', which simply does not play in reality. I was supposed to be his first, actually. But ... complicated. We each waited quite a long while before engaging in sexual activity, and he's only been able to approach it casually. (Why, may have to do with me, and that's hard enough to consider.) If all is as it should be, then continue along your path. Get readings if need be to assist with timing. If you're coming to LA within the next few years, there's someone I feel you might need to meet. Her name is Crystal, 😊, and I stumbled upon her when trying to ignore the signs to pick up LACHESIS again and reconnect with him. I just happened upon her card yesterday. Hardly coincidental, I think. I suppose I'm saying, we can lead ourselves into a tricky place when our feelings become too dependent upon another. I'm surprised that neither of you are to have relationships with others beforehand. But, then again, perhaps it's a thing to do with your lacking SNODE and KARMA ties. Is that natal? If so, perhaps neither of you do have any such karma or soulmate relations to resolve in any way. He doesn't; I do. Consider both fate and reality, and try and make both work best you can. 'Practical destiny', I suppose. Ooh. Rather like that one, too .... IP: Logged |
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posted February 25, 2014 03:40 PM
quote: Originally posted by Gabby: Does he make eye contact with you when you go watch him perform?
Yes. No. Yes. LOL Yes, usually he does. But then sometimes I feel almost deliberately ignored. lol And I only had the horoscope on my computer, and when it crashed,... And after 6 years, it might look a little stalkerish and pathetic, don´t you think? IP: Logged |
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posted February 25, 2014 03:41 PM
quote: Originally posted by Ceridwen: Today, I was talking to my bankassistant (about how to save more money), and she had plastered a postcard onto the table, that I couldn´t help but see directly when I sat down. There was a sentence on it: "RISK IT A ship staying in port is safe. But that`s not what ships are being built for."
Nike asteroid. Just do it. IP: Logged |
Gabby Moderator Posts: 8906 From: Registered: Sep 2012
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posted February 25, 2014 03:43 PM
quote: Originally posted by Ceridwen: Yes. No. Yes. LOLYes, usually he does. But then sometimes I feel almost deliberately ignored. lol And I only had the horoscope on my computer, and when it crashed,... And after 6 years, it might look a little stalkerish and pathetic, don´t you think?
No!!!!! If he's your twin flame...he's looking for you! You still remember his birth time n place?
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posted February 25, 2014 03:48 PM
Also, after that first meeting (and a very unfortunate almost encounter), I went into hiding, hoping he would forget about it, and trying to forget myself. My hiding period actually lasted 2 years. If I run, I am stubborn in it. lol But in 2010 he was giving his first solo concert in a tavern, and it was the birth of a new project emerging for him (though he did not know at that time). I actually do not know what made me want to go there and see him. I had intended to never see him again afterwards, but though I woudl stay invisible anyway. Not seen. D` oh! What did I think? For real? It was a TAVERN, how many people are fitting in there (about 70 btw). lol Before the beginning of the concert, I was buying my ticket at the bar, and apparently he had just arrived, as I heard his voice in my back. But I did not turn around, instead trying to become invisible. But then I was pretty sure he would not recognize me anyway.
A few minutes later I planned on going to the toilet, also so I wouldn´t run into him accidentally in the tavern. So I went up the stairs, and I suppose you can all guess who had to pick that time, to leap down the stairs, right?
He actually stopped just a stair or so above me, greeting me with the warmest smile and ` Hello` I can remember ever having received, and actually sounded like he was happy I could make it to this occasion. AS if we had TALKED about it before, which I honestly cannot remember. I think it is just his way of being positive though. It just stuns me everytime. Does that count as a short talk? No I guess not. LOL But it is pretty impossible that he should recognize me from 2 years before. I mean, 2 years, and he is meeting so many people. I am sure I don´t matter. that much. IP: Logged |
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posted February 25, 2014 03:51 PM
I don't know... It sounds like you do!! How are you forgetting, your his TF just as much as he's yours?? How could he forget you?
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posted February 25, 2014 03:57 PM
Summerlite,My NIKE (307) is on 28 Cancer in my 8th house, conjunct his JUNO exactly.(and trine my own Valentine. lol) his NIKE is actually close by, on 2 Leo (conjunct my Priapus and exactly trine my AMOR composite NIKE is on 00 Leo conjunct DESC by just under one degree. LOLLOL
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tgem Moderator Posts: 5200 From: Registered: Jan 2013
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posted February 25, 2014 04:14 PM
quote: Originally posted by Gabby: Thanks, that makes a lot of sense! So my path isn't to try to fill his place it's to love him no matter where he's at, and allow him to grow on his own so he's strong enough to be in a relationship without losing himself! I just need to focus on myself and stop thinking I need a man because it's politically correct and let go of how it looks to everyone as they wonder what is wrong with me that I don't even want to find someone!I've been working hard on myself for a long time but I know there is more to come, it gets better everyday! I'm so glad I finally said something, I've kept this all inside for so long and told no one! It's kind of odd and humiliating to love someone who's not around! 2 songs that I've dedicated to our relationship... "Brandy" by Looking Glass Theres a port on a western bay And it serves a hundred ships a day Lonely sailors pass the time a way And talk about their homes Theres a girl in this harbor town And she works laying whiskey down They say Brandy, fetch another round She serves them whisky and wine The sailors say... Brandy, you're a fine girl, you're a fine girl What a good wife you would be Your eyes could steal a sailor from the sea Brandy wears a braided chain Made of finest silver from the north of spain A locket that bears the name of the man that Brandy loves He came on a summers day - bearing gifts - from far away But he made it clear he couldnt stay No harbor was his home Brandy used to watch his eyes As he told his sailor stories She could feel the ocean fall and rise She saw its raging glory But he had always told the truth Lord he was an honest man And Brandy does her best to understand At night when the bars close down Brandy walks through a slient town And loves a man who's not around She still can hear him say She still hears him say.... "Only have Eyes for You" The Flamingos My love must be a kind of blind love I can't see anyone but you Are the stars out tonight? I don't know if it's cloudy or bright I only have eyes for you, dear The moon may be high But I can't see a thing in the sky I only have eyes for you I don't know if we're in a garden Or on a crowded avenue You are here and so am I Maybe millions of people go by But they all disappear from view And I only have eyes for you
"I only have Eyes for You"......aww, that's my parents song!!! Married for almost 45 years...(tear) 💙💙 IP: Logged | |