posted March 16, 2014 12:55 PM            

My dream:

Comparison to my natal:

Comparison to his natal:

posted March 16, 2014 12:57 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:

Are you kidding me?

LOL You don`t have very light blonde hair (with a slight streak of red) and sort of luminous (jadegreen I believe, but could also be a shade of blue) eyes though, do you?

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posted March 16, 2014 01:00 PM              

And how it overlayed YOUR ASC-DESC-axis. No does not surprise me at all?

posted March 16, 2014 01:03 PM              

LOL

Fits really nicely, though I seriously doubt it is YOUR story, unless you got stuck between two dimensions, without knowing, that is.

posted March 16, 2014 01:04 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:

LOL

Fits really nicely, though I seriously doubt it is YOUR story, unless you got stuck between two dimensions, without knowing, that is.

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Ha!!! Ummm, nope..don't think so...

posted March 16, 2014 01:21 PM            

So, I'm listening on straight Shuffle today.

This started playing at what I now realise is the time we met, 20 March 2010. Can't recall last time I heard it. I had been looking up photos, of which, yes, there are several of him. (All right, a bit more than several. If it exists across the past 8 years in digital form, I likely have a copy of it. Somewhere.)
http://youtu.be/Et5FySx9Eqc

It was their 'we're older now, so let's try our hand at Adult Contemporary'. Heh. I rather liked it. I've also just now noticed the title of the album they released: 'Never Gone'.

And, since I prefer HQ where possible always, this happened to be the channel that had the only one. And ... holy God, WTF.

I was just about to post a photo which will reassure you without any doubt, Ceri, that we're Twin Souls, (as in from the same Oversoul, so to speak) because THAT shot of you in the black is SO my look. Almost to where it's become synonymous with me! Heh.

And, of course, that shot is from the Fiona screen test photo-set. Of COURSE. So, seeing it was on THAT channel just kind of ...

Good lord!

posted March 16, 2014 01:27 PM            

Ceri, what an accomplishment and transformation. And yes, I do know what an accomplishment this is. (Jace's initial appearance in my dreams prompted me to care enough about myself again to lose about eighty pounds. Still working on it myself.)

What I especially noted, very strongly in the first and last photo, is the resemblance we all noted when you posted the comparison photos. I see it even more in these two photos. My favorite is the one of you in the black. Gosh, the resemblance is just so strong.

Tgem, your dream brought me to tears. Straight to the heart. Lovely.

Indigo. WOW! I was still absorbing Ceri's words about her own experience and yours is apparently the same experience. (Well, similar. The guys are different, LOL!)

I'd like a little of that myself...

posted March 16, 2014 01:51 PM              

"You - and every part of you - mind, body and soul - is READY."
Yes, I feel the same way. I am ready. Of course still a little anxious of the unknown, but that is part of my personality, this nevousness will never change.
But it will not hold me back anylonger.

Sometimes I feel like a racehorse before the shutter opens. lol
Not that I really plan on going onto a race.
Seems the centaur gets stronger inside of me.

§I had been looking up photos, of which, yes, there are several of him."
Yes, me, too.
Stumbling across his, and Jude`s and the first two who really got under my skin. I never realized how much Jude resembled one of the first two though. lol

"as in from the same Oversoul, so to speak) because THAT shot of you in the black is SO my look. Almost to where it's become synonymous with me! Heh."
Really?
That is pretty cool.
Probably not thta surprising though.
BTW did you know that your Sun-PLuto falls onto my DNA? And your IC is conjunct my NN-Neptune-ASC-atlantis.
Oh yeah.

BTW if we are from the same oversoul, then Fata and Mr SAg must be, too.

Actually Fata`s Sun is exactly conjunct Mr Sag?s Moon-MC and also conjunct his ASC. They also both have Mercury and Moon in SAg. and both have angular Saturn.
I jut thought that was intersting.

Mr Sag`s 12th house ruler Uranus is actually conjunct Fata`s Saturn-MC exactly. Maybe they were having a apst life parental relationship somewhere down the line.

I should be really jealous though. Your Venus-ASC is conjunct Mr Sag`s Mars-Jupiter.Tightly. LOL

"While I KNEW yesterday we had a MAJOR shift - something has DEFINITELY changed. Begun. Started. Something's new."
Yes, it did.
That is what the reviewing was for I suppose. Wrapping up, before moving onto the next phase.

Yesterday was the premiere of Artus btw. lol

posted March 16, 2014 01:54 PM            

But kudos anyway. You remind me that I need to exercise.

posted March 16, 2014 02:03 PM              

Moon on 26.04 Sag conjunct ASC on 26.16 Sagittarius!

What the...!

Stuffed 12th house.

in 12th

Jupiter-Mars conjunction (1 and 3)
Mercury-Sun conjunction (8 and 10)
Neptune-Venus conjunction (20 and 21)

- NN on 29 Leo on Regulus trine SPIRIT on 28 Sag on the ASC-MOon-conjunction

- SPIRIT on 28 Sag quinkunx ALMA on 28 Cancer
Sabian of ALMA
A Greek Muse Weighing Newborn Twins In Golden Scales

- AMOR - DSTINN conj. on 7 Libra exact, on MC on 09 LIbra

- ATLANTIS-Pluto conjunction on 21 LIbra exact (your Sun - my DNA, Mr Sag`s and your Pluto, my Sappho-Musa-Cassandra and whatever else)

° Psyche on 24 Pisces in 3rd trine uranus on 23 Scorpio in 11th

posted March 16, 2014 02:06 PM              

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Originally posted by MorpHnStorM:
Ceri, you do look lovely, and I must say there is an obviously good/positive vibe about you in all of them (no matter how you might have actually been feeling when the photos were taken)...

Congratulations on your transformation

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Thank you.

NOw with enough distance I can actually see the positive vibe youare talking of. However, I used to be VERY defensive, I think I am at least slightly more open now, and I am definitely trying on opening up even more.

posted March 16, 2014 02:12 PM              

"Jace's initial appearance in my dreams prompted me to care enough about myself again to lose about eighty pounds. Still working on it myself."
Wow! And contratulations.

It is really huge, right?
When I was getting this certificat from WEight Watchers, where it said that i had lost over 80 pounds. Oh my, that is quite a number to see it written like this!

"What I especially noted, very strongly in the first and last photo, is the resemblance we all noted when you posted the comparison photos. I see it even more in these two photos. "
You think so?
That really makes me smile.

"Gosh, the resemblance is just so strong."
To be honest when I first met him I was shortly considering if he might be some long lost cousin or family member, someone failed to mention to me or I forgot about.
I suppose something must have given me that impression.

"I'd like a little of that myself... "
Maybe it will happen now.
For me it happened when I let go of expectations and just going with the flwo.
Well, I will post a chart later on, for the second occasion, because quite frankly that was even more gobsmacking, cause I was just so awake, and the endorphine rush afterwards, one could get addicted to that. lol

posted March 16, 2014 02:14 PM              

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Originally posted by summerlite:
Amazing transformation Ceri.
Though if i may say, consider more fitted clothes. I feel more comfortable hiding my flabs underneath bigger sized clothing. But sometimes you need better fitting clothes to boost that confidence needed.

But kudos anyway. You remind me that I need to exercise.

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Thank you.

Well, the clothes were a little big, but my fitting ones are all in the washing mashine. lol
SEriously though, it is just now that i even consider wearing fitting clothes and not some kind of tents.

My attitude is changing as well. I notice that I actually like being photographed and seen.

I suppose you can`t hide that Sun on the GC forever. lol

posted March 16, 2014 02:19 PM              

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This SPIRIT-KAALI-conjunction again - I wonder maybe this is a pattern of this, for me?

posted March 16, 2014 02:26 PM            

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:
BTW Indigo,
I was making a multicomposite of yours, Fatas, Mr sags and my data.

Moon on 26.04 Sag conjunct ASC on 26.16 Sagittarius!

What the...!

Stuffed 12th house.

in 12th

Jupiter-Mars conjunction (1 and 3)
Mercury-Sun conjunction (8 and 10)
Neptune-Venus conjunction (20 and 21)

- NN on 29 Leo on Regulus trine SPIRIT on 28 Sag on the ASC-MOon-conjunction

- SPIRIT on 28 Sag quinkunx ALMA on 28 Cancer
Sabian of ALMA
A Greek Muse Weighing Newborn Twins In Golden Scales

- AMOR - DSTINN conj. on 7 Libra exact, on MC on 09 LIbra

- ATLANTIS-Pluto conjunction on 21 LIbra exact (your Sun - my DNA, Mr Sag`s and your Pluto, my Sappho-Musa-Cassandra and whatever else)

° Psyche on 24 Pisces in 3rd trine uranus on 23 Scorpio in 11th

lol that was def. intriguing

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I was JUST going to do that! I was thinking, 'I need to make a multicomposite ... can I do that on Astrodienst?'

posted March 16, 2014 02:31 PM              

24-25-26 Aquarius, and your DNA ties into it neatly.

LOL I just saw our multicomposite has also an ALMA-JUNO-conjunction on 28 and 29 Cancer.

posted March 16, 2014 03:22 PM              

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Originally posted by Ceridwen:

Cutting him out of my life and heart, it doesn`t work anymore. Not without ripping out my heart completely. He is too much entwined with this.
Of course I will hae to think of a way to move on with my life, as he does with his, and not spend a life on dreams that will never come true.
I donīt quite have an answer to that part of the puzzle, but time will tell. For now I am just going with the flow, and I intend to continue that way. We will see.

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This just really speaks to me.

Yes, cutting them off would be of no use at all..
It will only result in more pain and torture for us in the end.
Why do this to ourselves then?
Why not just surrender and enjoy the whole experience for what its worth?

But of course.. Easier said than done right? lol.

I guess for me, it will take a bit of time to surrender and accept whatever "this" is again.
I am in somewhat of a denial mode right now. lol
But I won't beat myself over it. Why should I? I don't deserve this... Its just not fair.
Here I am feeling all theme extreme emotions for him and he doesn't even know I exist. He could care less.
He's out there living his life.
While I'm here, sitting in this prison I created for myself and longing for the impossible.
Why me though?! What kind of a cruel game is this?

posted March 16, 2014 03:24 PM              

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Originally posted by MorpHnStorM:

@ LC Swan, it's ok...the pain and doubts..it happens from time to time, but it will pass...

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posted March 16, 2014 03:40 PM            

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Originally posted by Lavender CrystalSwan:
I don't know if it will this time.
Because the truth is I haven't even met or talked to this guy face to face, like you all have.
So I don't know if this really is real or just a crazy fantasy that has crossed the line...
Lol I really do feel I have gone mental, because of him.

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My thoughts exactly Lavender...I'm ready once again to throw my hands up...I feel like I've gone mental..totally crazy over someone I haven't spoken to in 2 years and not seen for a year. I feel I've made up this imaginary fantasy in my head and honestly if any of my family or friends knew how far gone I was about this...they'd do an intervention and throw me in therapy for sure. You're right...it feels like a cruel joke the universe has played on us...why me??!! What in Sam Hill did I do to deserve this? At least you've been told he your TF for sure. So that helps rationalize things a bit...I have no such proof..just hunches...I think that's the worst..the not knowing...cuz I don't have anything concrete to back up my bizarre life-altering experience.

posted March 16, 2014 03:43 PM            

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Originally posted by Lavender CrystalSwan:
I don't know if it will this time.
Because the truth is I haven't even met or talked to this guy face to face, like you all have.
So I don't know if this really is real or just a crazy fantasy that has crossed the line...
Lol I really do feel I have gone mental, because of him.

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I would agree with you, Lavender, but there's something to iQ. There's a reason he is as he is. He's here to help - and he knows that. I can feel it, too. When I, y'know, allow my logical mind to shut it for two seconds.

There's a reason a confirmation comes to us - for whatever reason. It's going to affect the way we proceed further, and THAT's the point, I think.

Imagine how you would've felt had iQ told you differently. I know I certainly have.

It'd be a VERY different story today, wouldn't it?

So the confirmations come to us for a reason. They guide us to go in one way over another. It undoubtedly changes things.

Like Ceri says. It's about faith. Something I'm learning to have - after 33 years of life. Heh. It's not easy. But I think it's going to be worth it.

posted March 16, 2014 03:44 PM              

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Originally posted by Lavender CrystalSwan:
I don't know if it will this time.
Because the truth is I haven't even met or talked to this guy face to face, like you all have.
So I don't know if this really is real or just a crazy fantasy that has crossed the line...
Lol I really do feel I have gone mental, because of him.

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Isn`t there a possibility to meet him, even just seeing him live?

Though not my twin, if anyone had told me 9 years ago that I would actually see Jude Law live, I would have laughed scornfully.

When I started to feel the connection to my guardian soul, it was only because of a picture an his voice. Yet looking at his picture, hearing his voice, I swear I heard a loud bell.

But he was gone, disappeared from the face of the earth. Being 15 I had the advantage to be fearless when it came to plunging myself into believing in a dream (yes down the road it hurt and caused me so much pain, but also healing) - I never, then, doubted the truth of this connection, that him and me would cross paths.

Of course later on the doubts nearly killed me and the selfhatred about having been so blind, so dumb, so trusting, so I don`t know what.

And yet in the end I DID meet him, 4 years after becoming aware of him. Just like I saw Jude 4 years after becoming aware of him - mmh, seeing this, maybe those 4 years are a bit of a pattern. lol

Okay in the case of JUde I did not talk to him. But I DID talk to my guardian soul, not in much depth, but oh well, just wanting to say, even if you don`t expect it, it CAN happen.

Well, in the case of Mr Sag it curiously was differenly, and as a matter of fact I think he was the first to become aware of me. He suddenly just appeared right in front of me and startled me.

I did dream of him before, but I did not know it was him. That was decidely different than with Jude or my guardian soul.

posted March 16, 2014 03:52 PM              

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Originally posted by tgem:
Ceri! Your transformation is incredible!!! Wow...yes, you should be so proud of yourself!! Great job👍👍👍

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