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Topic: mind-blowing sex -- what aspects did you have in synastry??
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IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 29, 2014 08:10 PM
quote: Originally posted by I'm so cappy: I'd be more interested in Priapus-Eros
BML conjunct PRIAPUS, 0°. It's not about EROS, in my experience. Touch PRIAPUS, and -- holy God -- it's ALMOST too much to bear. Almost. We also have EROS quindecile EROS, which is very active. His PRIAPUS is technically 3° off of my EROS, too. I wish I had more experience with the aspect to gauge how it operates. IP: Logged |
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posted July 29, 2014 08:26 PM
Interesting... Her priapus 1* exactly my Venus. My priapus is 0* on my own Pluto, 9 Libra. IP: Logged |
Delilah423 Knowflake Posts: 689 From: Registered: Aug 2013
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posted July 29, 2014 09:04 PM
Okay, I'll play. Here are a few:His Sun square my Pluto (1) His Venus trine my Pluto (1) His Mars trine my Pluto (2) His Pluto trine my ASC (0) His Mars conjunct my Eros (1) My Mars square his Psyche (2) Vesta conjunct Vesta (1) And my favorite :-) Lust opposite Lust (0) IP: Logged |
IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 29, 2014 09:18 PM
Aspects that I'd say are of relevance, (in order of mine and his, respectively):SUN sextile VENUS (3°30) SUN conjunct MARS (3°) SUN conjunct LILITH (3°) SUN opposite NYMPHE (4°) SUN opposite MOON (3°) SUN opposite BML (1°) SUN trine LUST (3°) SUN trine EROS (3°) SUN sextile VENUS (0°) MOON square VENUS (0°) MOON semisextile MARS (1°30) MOON conjunct NEPTUNE (3°) MOON sextile PLUTO (5°) MOON quincunx EROS (3°30) MOON quincunx NYMPHE (0°) MOON quincunx MOON (2°) MOON opposite PLUTO (1°30) MOON sextile PSYCHE (2°) MOON opposite BML (1°30) MOON conjunct PRIAPUS (2°) MOON square NYMPHE (0°) VENUS contraparallel MARS (0°45) VENUS sextile PRIAPUS (0°) VENUS conjunct PLUTO (9°) VENUS conjunct PSYCHE (3°30) VENUS sextile PLUTO (1°30) VENUS square URANUS (0°) VENUS trine NEPTUNE (2°) MARS conjunct ASC (4°) MARS conjunct PLUTO (0°) MARS conjunct BML (0°) MARS opposite PRIAPUS (1°) MARS square NYMPHE (0°) MARS trine PSYCHE (2°) EROS opposite APHRODITE (0°) EROS opposite ADONIS (0°) EROS quindecile EROS (1°) EROS parallel PSYCHE (1°) EROS conjunct PRIAPUS (3°) EROS sextile PSYCHE (1°) PSYCHE trine BML (2°) PSYCHE trine LILITH (2°) PSYCHE sextile NYMPHE (3°30) LILITH conjunct VESTA (0°) LILITH conjunct BML (2°) LILITH conjunct PLUTO (2°) LILITH opposite PRIAPUS (3°) LILITH square NYMPHE (1°) BML opposite NYMPHE (2°) BML square NYMPHE (2°) PRIAPUS conjunct BML (0°) PRIAPUS conjunct NYMPHE (3°30) NYMPHE square NYMPHE (2°) NYMPHE opposite PLUTO (2°) LUST conjunct ASC (0°) My 8R (MARS) isn't very involved, but his 5H and ARIES points all overlay in my 8H. His 8R (MOON) is heavily configured, both natally, and synastrically. The natal configuration: MOON (5H) opposite MARS (10H) square MERC (8H). I have a few points which hit it dead-on: My PLUTO, BML, and SUN are opposite his MOON, conjunct his MARS, and square his MERC. My PRIAPUS is conjunct his MOON and NYMPHE, opposite his MARS and LILITH, and conjunct his BML. The square NYMPHES also figure, being that mine overlays his 8H, which squares his in his 5H, which is conjunct his MOON (8R). They're very active. And, again, the most significant point -- outside of the aspects -- is to where the focus is being placed: his 8R 5H, his 8H, my 8H, and both of our 12H and 9Hs. Most fascinating sexual relationship I've ever had the privilege of experiencing. And it's just the beginning. IP: Logged |
ail221 Moderator Posts: 7119 From: Hanging Gardens of Babylon Registered: Feb 2012
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posted July 29, 2014 09:20 PM
Aspects under 3 orbs unless otherwise mentioned Venus/Mars DW square & wide opposition with his Venus contraparallel my Mars Mars trine Moon Mars opposite Pluto wide at 4 but contraparallel under 1 Mars/Mean BML DW Asteroid Lilith square Pluto Dw Eros/Moon DW Eros/Mars trine exact and 3 DW Psyche trine Mars exact Eros Trine Venus Eros conjunct Vertex Asc trine Mars exact Eros square Priapus exact Psyche Square Priapus exact Priapus square mean bml exact Priapus/Venus DW Trines Lust opposite Lust 2 Lust trine Priapus Samadhi conjunct mars exactIP: Logged |
IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 29, 2014 09:20 PM
quote: Originally posted by Delilah423: Okay, I'll play. Here are a few:His Sun square my Pluto (1) His Venus trine my Pluto (1) His Mars trine my Pluto (2) His Pluto trine my ASC (0) His Mars conjunct my Eros (1) My Mars square his Psyche (2) Vesta conjunct Vesta (1) And my favorite :-) Lust opposite Lust (0)
Our LUST are quindecile. 0°. Seriously. So are our EROS, but that's 2°. Isn't MARS-PLUTO a trip? Are you MARS or PLUTO, Delilah? IP: Logged |
IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 29, 2014 10:31 PM
Curiously, how many of these are configured with the 8H or 5H strong?Would you say the 5H prominent synastries are more indicative of animalistic, carnal, 'lusty' sexual relations -- with the 8H being more soulful and transformative? IP: Logged |
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posted July 29, 2014 10:50 PM
Venus rules both of our 1st and 8th houses. Mars rules both of our 7th (co-rules 2nd) Uranus rules our 5th houses Which we have Venus/uranus conjunct and trine. Not getting into it very deeply Lots of 12th!
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KarmicMoon Knowflake Posts: 611 From: Moon, Milky Way Registered: Feb 2014
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posted July 29, 2014 10:58 PM
This thread inspired me to go searching for the birthday of this guy I dated. We only dated for about four months (because we were going to kill each other with all the Pluto, lol) but it was GREAT while it lasted. Here are a few stand outs... Sun cj Moon Sun cj Lust Sun sextile Pluto Moon cj PLuto Moon cj Uranus Moon sq Eros ASC cj Pluto Mercury/Pluto DW (dirty talk) Venus sq Uranus Mars sq Venus Juno cj Pluto Mars sextile Pluto DW Jupiter cj and sextile Venus DW BLM cj and oppose Jupiter DW Priapus cj Uranus Priapus trine Priapus Priapus sq Eros Priapus trine Lust Nymphe trine Moon, Vesta and Eros Nymphe sq Lust IP: Logged |
IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 29, 2014 11:20 PM
Anyone else got PRIAPUS in tight aspect to BML? For me, that was the switch. My PRIAPUS is in my 8H, opposite my 2H stellium of SUN-PLUTO-BML. I was completely 'invulnerable' in regards to sex (for reasons) and it looked as if I might always be. ... Nope! He was in total denial of his sexuality; monastic in terms of the way he remained solely devoted to work and completely celibate. Somehow, I'm the first to come along and alter that course. Change the game. Break the pattern of denial and repression. PRIAPUS conjunct BML, 20° ARI. Right on his nMOON, which, being in his 5H and his 8R? Whew! I think my EROS on his PRIAPUS may have something to do with it there, too. For me, it's the PRIAPUS/BML=MOON opposite MARS-LILITH conjunct PLUTO-SUN-BML. Because it's his 8R that's in his 5H, that's overlaying into my 8H, being conjuncted by my 2H planets which overlay in his 10H. The more I look at it ... it makes PERFECT sense how we ended up in this bizarre, unconventional, totally transformative and illuminating relationship. IP: Logged |
IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 29, 2014 11:38 PM
quote: Originally posted by DeepFreeze: Venus rules both of our 1st and 8th houses. Mars rules both of our 7th (co-rules 2nd) Uranus rules our 5th houses Which we have Venus/uranus conjunct and trine. Not getting into it very deeply Lots of 12th!
Hey, now, 12H is hardcore in some regard. Nothing light and fanciful there. I have a theory. I can't recall if I rectified Masters' birth or not, but I highly suspect his and Johnson's synastry to be heavy 12H. Maybe I oughta open a thread on it. They've fascinated me since I begun my formal education in psychology. IP: Logged |
fireopal09 Knowflake Posts: 760 From: George Registered: Oct 2010
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posted July 30, 2014 12:10 AM
Mars sextile Sun Venus Pluto DW Venus Neptune DW Eros trine DW Mars square Mars Jupiter conjunct asteroid Lust Lilith trine DW Lilith,Lust,SN, Vertex, conjunct my ASC/Lust conjunction. My Sun and Pluto lights up Manfriend's 8th house.His Priapus conjuncts my Kaali. No point in making a bed as I will just tear it. ------------------ Claire "When going gets weird, the weird turn pro." -HST IP: Logged |
IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 30, 2014 12:19 AM
quote: Originally posted by fireopal09: Mars sextile Sun Venus Pluto DW Venus Neptune DW Eros trine DW Mars square Mars Jupiter conjunct asteroid Lust Lilith trine DW Lilith,Lust,SN, Vertex, conjunct my ASC/Lust conjunction. My Sun and Pluto lights up Manfriend's 8th house.His Priapus conjuncts my Kaali. No point in making a bed as I will just tear it.
Lotta physical passion, huh? I forgot about KAALI. He's got a conjunction of KAALI and RUDRA, though. Any MARS-PLUTO? IP: Logged |
Gabby Moderator Posts: 8906 From: Registered: Sep 2012
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posted July 30, 2014 01:24 AM
quote: Originally posted by IndigoDirae: Anyone else got PRIAPUS in tight aspect to BML? For me, that was the switch. My PRIAPUS is in my 8H, opposite my 2H stellium of SUN-PLUTO-BML. I was completely 'invulnerable' in regards to sex (for reasons) and it looked as if I might always be. ... Nope! He was in total denial of his sexuality; monastic in terms of the way he remained solely devoted to work and completely celibate. Somehow, I'm the first to come along and alter that course. Change the game. Break the pattern of denial and repression. PRIAPUS conjunct BML, 20° ARI. Right on his nMOON, which, being in his 5H and his 8R? Whew! I think my EROS on his PRIAPUS may have something to do with it there, too. For me, it's the PRIAPUS/BML=MOON opposite MARS-LILITH conjunct PLUTO-SUN-BML. Because it's his 8R that's in his 5H, that's overlaying into my 8H, being conjuncted by my 2H planets which overlay in his 10H. The more I look at it ... it makes PERFECT sense how we ended up in this bizarre, unconventional, totally transformative and illuminating relationship.
That's really cool Indigo, I don't pay a lot of attention to Priapus in synastry but, Wow...maybe I should! IP: Logged |
fireopal09 Knowflake Posts: 760 From: George Registered: Oct 2010
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posted July 30, 2014 01:52 AM
quote: Originally posted by IndigoDirae: Lotta physical passion, huh? I forgot about KAALI. He's got a conjunction of KAALI and RUDRA, though. Any MARS-PLUTO?
Composite 8H Mars square Pluto. He told me that he was thinking about his son while mowing his ex wife's mother's lawn. He proceeds to tell me he could not remember the sex act (he is sober) which produced his son. This train of thought caused him to realize he does not remember any specific sex moment with his ex with whom he was with for 10 years. He remembers us playing during our first incarnation 20 years ago. He is sort of blown away by this revelation. ------------------ Claire "When going gets weird, the weird turn pro." -HST IP: Logged |
IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 30, 2014 03:14 AM
quote: Originally posted by fireopal09: Composite 8H Mars square Pluto. He told me that he was thinking about his son while mowing his ex wife's mother's lawn. He proceeds to tell me he could not remember the sex act (he is sober) which produced his son. This train of thought caused him to realize he does not remember any specific sex moment with his ex with whom he was with for 10 years. He remembers us playing during our first incarnation 20 years ago. He is sort of blown away by this revelation.
I'm actually not surprised in the least. It occurred to me that the times in which I'd had sexual intercourse with my husband from 2008-2010 blurred and ran together; the thing which stuck out for me being how I felt he was never present, and, as I'd become quite good with, I was simply manoeuvring as need be to get things done -- if you follow. (I've never had to rely upon a man's skill in order to climax.) I also never noticed how my husband and I were running two separate scripts in bed together -- until I began having intercourse with my partner. It taught me to pay attention in a way I'd gotten used to giving up. Does that make sense? I became resigned to the thought that sex could never be so mindful and truly attentive -- where the focus wasn't orgasm but connexion; that even a few sessions of technically bad sex taught me more, and was still fulfilling, than the technically great sex I'd had for two years. I can still recall, in sharp detail, each time. Only two run together, as they were very similar events. I can also recall a few times with my very first sexual partner -- vague, though. The emotional memory -- the feelings involved. I thought this strange, as it's typical that emotional memories are far more salient than those which lack that punch. It would seem, however, that even lacking passion and standard sexual gratification, they were still very emotional events -- and thus are salient. I wonder if they are for him, too. I haven't asked. We don't typically discuss the time before the last one, unless there was something distinctive. But the whole thing, the differences in processing, seems distinctive. I wonder if it's been as salient for him, too? I'll hypothesise that the second and third run together (the first will always be salient; it's primacy) while there may be a few features of the fourth and sixth, but the seventh is going to be the most easily recalled -- the most emotional -- the most salient. There were some passionate events in that one; that would certainly jive.
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IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 30, 2014 03:27 AM
quote: Originally posted by Gabby: That's really cool Indigo, I don't pay a lot of attention to Priapus in synastry but, Wow...maybe I should!
I would. I call it The Submission Point; frankly, BML (TBML) and PRIAPUS are a sort of Dominance/Submission Axis. You'd be astounded at how often the dominant-oriented partner (or, who's just expressing those dynamics) will have their BML heavily impacted. Conversely, the submissive leaning/expressive partner has strong links to their PRIAPUS. And when it's PRIAPUS and BML in aspect, it's rather kind of a lock. I'm a very dominant woman; I've naturally been this way all of my life. Not so with this man. With him, I'm inclined to explore my vulnerabilities and let down the guard I keep perpetually raised about me. It's ... incredible. Never thought I COULD feel this way again -- and to such an extent. (My Twin touched off of them; his BML is 4° conjunct my PRIAPUS -- and, his PRIAPUS is 2° conjunct my TBML); but my partner's is exact -- within 0°30.) It's fascinating to explore these points. Another thing that's interesting; we also have an exact conjunction of EROS and PALLAS; which opposes my APHRODITE-ADONIS. I'm not entirely sure what to make of that, but I can say that PALLAS' involvement makes sense. His is square my SATURN (5R) and ALMA-JUNO. And, of course, the EROS-PALLAS conjunction overlays from his 5H to my 8H. IP: Logged |
IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 30, 2014 03:41 AM
quote: Originally posted by DeepFreeze: Interesting... Her priapus 1* exactly my Venus. My priapus is 0* on my own Pluto, 9 Libra.
Do you feel as if you have issues with vulnerability? I think PLUTO could swing both ways there; you might even have an extreme response -- especially due to the issues involved in the house in which it's placed -- as well as what it rules. I think the fact his MOON/BML is on mine indicates how I find myself vulnerable to his shifting moods and emotional reciprocity. I also become a kind of ridiculous putty when he's showing a composed independence; never bullying -- just leadership and control. Not even seeking TO control: just being in control of himself, and so self-sufficient. It immediately incites me to be vulnerable to him; to allow myself to explore those extremes with him, and, astoundingly enough, to be physically (and especially) sexually receptive. Something I'm SO normally NOT. I don't have anything natally conjunct my PRIAPUS, though. It's hanging out all by its lonesome in my 8H, 2° opposite my 2H BML and SUN/PLUTO trifecta. IP: Logged |
KarmicMoon Knowflake Posts: 611 From: Moon, Milky Way Registered: Feb 2014
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posted July 30, 2014 11:01 AM
quote: Originally posted by IndigoDirae: Anyone else got PRIAPUS in tight aspect to BML? For me, that was the switch. My PRIAPUS is in my 8H, opposite my 2H stellium of SUN-PLUTO-BML. I was completely 'invulnerable' in regards to sex (for reasons) and it looked as if I might always be. ... Nope! He was in total denial of his sexuality; monastic in terms of the way he remained solely devoted to work and completely celibate. Somehow, I'm the first to come along and alter that course. Change the game. Break the pattern of denial and repression. PRIAPUS conjunct BML, 20° ARI. Right on his nMOON, which, being in his 5H and his 8R? Whew! I think my EROS on his PRIAPUS may have something to do with it there, too. For me, it's the PRIAPUS/BML=MOON opposite MARS-LILITH conjunct PLUTO-SUN-BML. Because it's his 8R that's in his 5H, that's overlaying into my 8H, being conjuncted by my 2H planets which overlay in his 10H. The more I look at it ... it makes PERFECT sense how we ended up in this bizarre, unconventional, totally transformative and illuminating relationship.
Indigo, With my TF His Priapus is at 26 27 Aqua opposing BML 23 42, Pandora 24 35 and Venus 25 32 Leo. Priapus trines my Jupiter almost exactly at 26 25 libra (expansion of the energy?) The Priapus/Venus is a DW as my priapus 6 47 Aqua conjuncts his Venus at 4 51 Aqua. His Priapus is also on my Vertex 29 39 Aqua. His Uranus sq at 23 47 Scorpio, my psyche at 23 22 Taurus. My BML/pandora/Venus are in the 12th. Alas, we have not had sex. Does past life recall of such an event count?
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IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 30, 2014 03:21 PM
quote: Originally posted by KarmicMoon: Indigo,With my TF His Priapus is at 26 27 Aqua opposing BML 23 42, Pandora 24 35 and Venus 25 32 Leo. Priapus trines my Jupiter almost exactly at 26 25 libra (expansion of the energy?) The Priapus/Venus is a DW as my priapus 6 47 Aqua conjuncts his Venus at 4 51 Aqua. His Priapus is also on my Vertex 29 39 Aqua. His Uranus sq at 23 47 Scorpio, my psyche at 23 22 Taurus. My BML/pandora/Venus are in the 12th. Alas, we have not had sex. Does past life recall of such an event count?
Nope. Sorry. Curiously, is this the one iQ said might be your Twin because of incarnating / reincarnating together so frequently? Unless you have the TF markers, I'm going to suggest -- IF other factors persist -- it MIGHT be your Guardian Soul. Have you seen that thread? Also -- he has AQU VENUS? Augh. I'm sorry. Kidding. Sort of. My Twin does. And MARS, EROS, and PSYCHE. It's certainly unpredictable! IP: Logged |
KarmicMoon Knowflake Posts: 611 From: Moon, Milky Way Registered: Feb 2014
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posted July 30, 2014 05:30 PM
quote: Originally posted by IndigoDirae: Nope. Sorry. Curiously, is this the one iQ said might be your Twin because of incarnating / reincarnating together so frequently? Unless you have the TF markers, I'm going to suggest -- IF other factors persist -- it MIGHT be your Guardian Soul. Have you seen that thread? Also -- he has AQU VENUS? Augh. I'm sorry. Kidding. Sort of. My Twin does. And MARS, EROS, and PSYCHE. It's certainly unpredictable!
Yes, this is who IQ said was my Twin Flame. The markers are there. IQ saying he was only confirmed what my soul already knew. My husband on the other hand, I think maybe my guardian. So many SM markers with him but not quite a TF. Aqua venus-augh is right! However, Cap Sun, Virgo Mars and Aqua Venus COULD make for some interesting times if what they say about those three is true!
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posted July 30, 2014 07:22 PM
quote: Originally posted by IndigoDirae: BML conjunct PRIAPUS, 0°.It's not about EROS, in my experience. Touch PRIAPUS, and -- holy God -- it's ALMOST too much to bear. Almost. We also have EROS quindecile EROS, which is very active. His PRIAPUS is technically 3° off of my EROS, too. I wish I had more experience with the aspect to gauge how it operates.
His PRIAPUS conjuncts my BML on his SN.
composite PRIAPUS conjuncts EROS and DIONYSOS on IC, (trine Venus and opposite uranus). The visceral physical response I have to him, is unreal. STartling. I am not a very physical person, or so I thought. lol Well I guess I was wrong. Not that we ever did anything (so I do not even know if it would be good. lol) but the magnetism is impossible to ignore for me. Though I tried my best do do exactly that. my BML in Aquarius, hsi Priapus in Pisces. I try so much to stay or retreat into the aquarian detachment mode, but it kinda does not work all that well. lol IP: Logged |
IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 30, 2014 08:30 PM
quote: Originally posted by KarmicMoon: Yes, this is who IQ said was my Twin Flame. The markers are there. IQ saying he was only confirmed what my soul already knew. My husband on the other hand, I think maybe my guardian. So many SM markers with him but not quite a TF.Aqua venus-augh is right! However, Cap Sun, Virgo Mars and Aqua Venus COULD make for some interesting times if what they say about those three is true!
So ... they incarnate with VENUS AQU for the SOLE purpose of driving us completely bonkers. Okay. Good to know! Oh, and try VIR VENUS. Yeah. His MARS is quindecile my VENUS. Oh, that sexual undercurrent will NOT leave. 'Do you like oolong?' 'I love oolong time.' 'Wow. I didn't know your dust storm was so big!' ' ... That's my phone.' 'Your phone is on the table.' 'Oh, yeah? Well, it's 75° F in here, Miss It's A *** Nipply.' 'I am COLD, damn it!' ... Yeah. It's a compulsion, apparently. We just know now to NOT try and 'go there'. So you're married as well? Sheeeeez. It's a tough row to hoe. IP: Logged |
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posted July 30, 2014 08:44 PM
quote: Originally posted by IndigoDirae: Do you feel as if you have issues with vulnerability? I think PLUTO could swing both ways there; you might even have an extreme response -- especially due to the issues involved in the house in which it's placed -- as well as what it rules.
Vulnerable how? I know that with her sun, moon, and Jupiter in my 12th (Jupiter on mars, also conjunct mercury and asc) AND her Priapus on my Venus also in 12th. Vulnerable might not even be the right word. Exposed. Naked. I feel like she honestly sees me and understands me better than I do. It's mostly good in that she loves me despite what she sees. She sees all the good in me. But she sees everything. I have no secrets and I can hide nothing from her. It's refreshing to finally feel understood completely. BUT... it CAN be unnerving sometimes. Just feeling so exposed (vulnerable). I'm not used to that. But it's not perfect. I mean there ARE misunderstandings sometimes.
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IndigoDirae Knowflake Posts: 4120 From: Venice, California, US Registered: Jul 2011
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posted July 30, 2014 09:25 PM
quote: Originally posted by Ceridwen: His PRIAPUS conjuncts my BML on his SN.composite PRIAPUS conjuncts EROS and DIONYSOS on IC, (trine Venus and opposite uranus). The visceral physical response I have to him, is unreal. STartling. I am not a very physical person, or so I thought.
So, the BML feels it THAT viscerally, too? See, I thought that PRIAPUS was the one who felt the intense desire -- the visceral vulnerability and need to merge. BML does -- by your experience? IP: Logged | |