posted July 04, 2024 12:42 AM            

We were together for 4 years, forced the breakup 3 years ago because he's in some weird universe, absolutely horrified of having a child, thinking of himself, being a man-boy and thinking I guess that he'll find someone 10 years younger one day, after 40. Yet we are best friends, he cannot imagine a better partner than me, I'm the only one he ever loved (in his limited way) and he is attracted to me today as much as he was 15 years ago. I've been just watching him learning hard lessons and making stupid decisions with other women because he has no clue what he's doing. Otherwise, he’s the most intelligent person I know, stable and mature… just way behind when it comes to relationship stuff.

How the hell did we and up in bed again - I said I was done and my door has been open for someone else to show up! Like done done - I said many times I have 0 interest in him and I want someone completely different.
Sorry, I need to vent

But yeah, astrology wise... we have Sun+Moon opposition, same Moon sign, his Moon (his Desc ruler) on my Asc, my Moon in his 7th, his Mars on my Moon, opposite my Venus, Venus+Pluto and Mars+Pluto contacts, his Asc in my 5th house, my Asc in his 7th, great Saturn and Jupiter contacts to personal planets... Moon trine Neptune... my Sun on my Desc and he is a Leo, my Desc in Aquarius, ruled by Saturn, and he is Capricorn rising. And more. I mean, how much better can a synastry get. Our composite is rough, especially for the Moon. But we have Saturn on the Asc, and Sun, Mars and NN in the 7th house, Venus on the Desc (6th house). No wonder we can't cut ties completely.

Universe, if you hear me, help! Can’t I have a great synastry with someone who is better for me!

Synastry - I am in blue, inside

Composite