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Originally posted by Colourful_Cosmos:
My ex-boyfriend is the divine masculine runner I am the divine feminine chaser for. He does not fully (yet?) realize "why" we are a part of each other's lives, even after 5 years of being broken up. I had ended our romantic relationship with very ego-based misperceptions and a decision I strongly regret. I say he is the runner, because as of 2022 he finally moved into a cheaper place he was on a waiting list for (since 2015). It was in that moment of him telling me how long he waited: I realized in most timelines, we were never going to live together nor remain together past 2022. One of my romantic needs is to be domestically settled down with someone (Venus Cancer). But even if we tried harder to make life more affordable to support each other, the pandemic would have torn us apart.
Since 2021, I have been spiritually realizing why I have the medical conditions I do, what I've missed out on and why it's a good thing I did, and most of all I have new clarity of why my twin flame journey is as it is.
We met in a dream 2 months before meeting in-person in 2012. In the dream there were past life themes of an arranged marriage and engagement gifts. I saw his face, his suited body and slightly slouched posture. I also teleported in the dream, to Egypt. I saw people going into a temple or pyramid (stood so close, hard to tell what it was).
My twin flame is an Egyptian Arab descendant born in Canada. He and I were always meant to meet, is what I believe. I guessed his name correctly, too.
All my life I have been fascinated with Ancient Egypt. Through my school years, I studied world religions, world history, and the traditional journeys other cultures have. It was as though I had been learning about my twin flame for years before we met.
I outgrew so many racial prejudices, so much ignorance about how other religions are the same in essence as the one I was brought up in (Christianity). I became a better version of myself. I then miraculously found him as soon as I began college in a city faraway from home.
We fell in love deeply. Our first kiss was electric with a spark of light between our lips. Being in his embrace made me feel so at peace. We laid together often, listening to soft metal/rock and beautiful trance music, feeling like we are in our own world. We communicated a lot and often.
He and I suffer from mental health issues, but he slowly overcame his. My own self-healing journey is beginning now, with my Saturn return upcoming. Even if we may never be romantically together again, he is my mentor. He is my muse for loving and living. Being with him taught me how to love somebody else with any mental health condition. Being with him taught me it's okay to have the conditions I do. He really is my twin flame, because of that profound growth, that I am only processing now.
I began writing poetry again, after I reunited with him as just friends in 2022. I was grieving the loss of two family members, so I needed him. I had 2 romantic dreams of him before we reunited as friends, in 2022. Coincidentally, the dreams happened after he broke up with his 2018-2022 girlfriend. I believed he was missing me and turns out I was right.
After months of visiting him sparsely, I feel head over heels again. Unfortunately, I am in a relationship with someone else I came to deeply love since 2018. I feel karmically or fatefully bound to this partner. It's complicated only for me, but I am being as mature as I can be about it. I will wait to be with my twin flame forever. His friendship and care for me is all I really need, until he chooses to come back to me. We talk and text daily (I thank the stars for his Moon conjunct my Mercury).
We scored 54 points on IQ's Soul Mate Calculator.
Lindaland
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