posted September 30, 2024 01:27 AM            

Ps. Currently I feel like I have I am ready to move on from this but I’ve felt that in the past 😂 but I will say this time it’s really not rooted in hurt or anger I just feel like the situation has gotta old! We’ve been stuck repeating the same cycle for awhile and honestly I’m just bored of it now! 🤷‍♀️

I am blue inner Planet A he is outter Orange Planet B
Our synastry chart [IMG] http://imgur.com/a/s589ol9 [I/MG]

And for those can’t can’t read like I will place our placements and house chart below

[IMG] http://imgur.com/a/kT257uC [I/MG]

Our composite which has no Sun and inner planet aspects! 😂 when I learned what that meat I think that finally helped me let go because I really knew I was fighting a losing battle! We are not meant to have anything!! Lol

posted September 30, 2024 07:16 AM            

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Originally posted by AquaMoon323:
We’ll have a ton of synastry Saturn aspects so it’s really just the worst! 😩 my Saturn conjunct his moon conjunct my asc in my first house. Sun/Saturn aspect moon/Saturn aspects mercury/Saturn aspects just Saturnian mess!

Then we have a bunch of synastry Pluto aspect! Sun/Pluto both ways asc/Pluto both ways Mercury/Pluto Mars/Pluto etc not to mention the drended Venus opposite Pluto exact in the composite 🤦‍♀️😩😂

Then my moon in his 8H his Mars (with Mars opp mars aspect 🤦‍♀️ and Jupiter in my 8H (with Venus square Jupiter)

Just to name a few things lol but yea composite is weak no real inner planets aspects. But yea it’s been a ride it wasn’t always toxic that started last year once I really started to let my guard down (I didn’t react well to the heighten vulnerability 8H things I’m sure) idk I feel like my moon in his 8H got activated lol

And not to mention we are both a little bit of a mess natally as well!! He has Venus square Mars and Venus in 12H and ima also a mess I’ll just say Venus Square both Uranus and Neptune which that alone spells hot mess express 😂 but yea it’s been quite a ride with him

Ultimately our timing has never been great. When he was open I wasn’t and when I was open he wasn’t and I feel he has feelings for me still but he just won’t express them which to a certain extent I don’t blame him I’m a bit flighty so I’m not exactly the safest place to land lol our intense sexual connection has kept it going this long but even that now is starting to feel a little dull without any real emotional connection.

But physically we rly are so affectionate with either other is that way I see the Venus Taurus in composite but yea we just can’t get of the ground and now I’m kind of done trying. 🤷‍♀️ at least for now!! Lol it’s always to be continued with him! Time has taught be not to say anything for certain lol

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posted September 30, 2024 11:49 PM            

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Originally posted by AquaMoon323:

OMG do you know me?! 😂😂 Yes! There is a very toxic tie because of that! He is a person that has always let me come and go as I please and that kind of free stability is ideal!! It’s definitely how the dynamic has been for a LONG time. There is also this weird loyalty and acceptance we have for each other. It’s like when someone see the worst of you and still deals with you you feel closer because you know you can’t get away with that kind of behavior with everyone! Lately we’ve had issues because I feel like he just doesn’t express his emotions anymore and the lack of clarity and communication makes me very unsettled in the dynamic we have. I like the freedom but I just want to know that the bond is solid and he doesn’t vocalize that and I think subconsciously I’ve started to get that reassurance through bad behavior! It’s like I will do so many things to push his buttons just to see if he’ll ever actually leave me alone!! We’ve been through a lot I have a post about Saturn handcuffs that captures some of the events in real time. But yea I actually just unblocked him last night to check on him due to a storm we had recently and as usual he welcomes me with open arms wanting me to come over as if nothing happened 😂 and a part of me loves how irrational I can be with him even though I have it actually does bother him maybe more than he shows. But I told him no and sent him a song song later which he laughed at and then I told him I was now putting him back on my block list and I’ll check back in at the next natural disaster 😂 and I blocked him before he could respond so I’m sure he realizes he’s blocked. So yea I go this to him because he’s acts like he doesn’t care so fine I’ll treat you like you don’t care 🤷‍♀️

But it’s all just getting very boring now! Without any emotional stimulate or desire to do more then just have random sex I just need more excitement! These days the only excitement I got from the situation was drama! Arguing and had making make up sex and I’m just tired of arguing because that’s old now too I want a new stimulate!!

I don’t know exactly what the lesson is here I’ve really been trying to figure it out! Maybe I need to learn boundaries? Maybe he needs to learn how to communicate and mature emotionally? Idk but he doesn’t seem to have any desire for growth and change and that why this will never be healthy.

So for now I’m just done with it!

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posted October 01, 2024 02:22 AM            

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Originally posted by LilyIris07:
I don’t even know what to say 😂 - maybe put another man on your roster? 😂

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posted October 07, 2024 09:15 PM            

I know what that relationship was liiiiikeeee….

That south node / sun combination keeps you trapped in the past, and it’s going against the north node/moon conjunction. It’s keeps you from developing the moon traits your soul wants to learn.