posted October 02, 2024 02:15 AM            

Let’s see how much the composite chart reveals!!

posted October 05, 2024 03:08 AM            

At first glance, I notice the Sun conjunct Venus, and Jupiter conjunct IC. Those are very sweet.

Moon in first house is good too, emotions are easily displayed. But it could also get a bit overdramatic, especially with the square from Jupiter who likes to expand things. And then…dang, that Mars square Pluto. Things definitely can escalate, head to head power struggles. And Saturn square Sun and Venus… loyalty but it could also feel restrictive.

Saturn is also lord of the 12th house, and of course also conjunct Neptune. Putting someone on a pedestal will lead to disappointment. So sweet in the beginning, but was it just a dream? Lies, deception and gaslighting are possibilities. And with Mars in 12th house too, something is up with this theme.

Probably very sweet and dreamlike in the beginning. You might be very creative together. But with some control issues that might get worse over time. Also, possibly when things go south, a very dramatic display of emotions, and disappointment when certain truths are discovered about the other. And with Mars square Pluto, there’s always a risk of violence, but it could also be related to addiction (12th house), education or religion (9th house), or material possessions or talents that generate income(2nd house).

posted October 08, 2024 06:48 AM            

So we met in high school & fell in love madly in love it definitely felt like a fairy tale! Fast forward we first broke up due to me still having feelings for a guy from my home town and this started a vicious cycle that lasted 2 decades!!

I keep trying to write this in ends up being way too long. How do I summer 20 years of chaos?! 😂

I will just say this, it started off like a fairytale, and turned into a nightmare very quickly. He ended up on drugs, moving back across the country, getting even further into drugs and street life. I thought being young, maybe this was a phase he would eventually grow out of, and we would be able to eventually live happily ever after. At this point, I was best friends with his sister, and very close with his parents and family, so, even though we weren’t technically together, he was very much still a part of my life, and I was very much still a part of his.

Fast forward as his drug addiction got worse so did his decision-making and he ended up getting a girl that he barely knew pregnant. And this forever change the trajectory of our paths. Over the years, he tried to convince me many times that that was a mistake, and he wished it was me, but I knew a baby wasn’t some thing I could ever get past so I completely remove myself from him emotionally.

He eventually tried to be with a girl to do the right thing and they started a family. It was toxic and dysfunctional, and he always felt like he ruined us. It took me a decade to truly get over him. I felt like I got robbed of the person I was supposed to be with, just because he got lost in the streets and started making bad decisions. looking back now I know life happen the way that it needed to but during those years that was the hardest time of my life especially being so close to his family. I had a front row seat of his whole life with this other girl. Many years later, we eventually started to become friends again after I forgave him, for all the hurts, the lies that he put me through. I realize I liked him better as a friend than anything else. But eventually, even that he messed up lol I tried to support him through his toxic marriage through his ongoing drug addiction that only got worse over the years.

He is now currently going through a divorce, and we tried to be friends again for the first time genuinely be able to be friends now that he was no longer going to be married. But toxic cycles are hard to break and they continue to try and work things out and that affected our ability to be friends and I got tired of our friendship being contingent on his relationship status. He’s recently tried to confess so much love and apologies for me in hopes to get our friendship back and even one day more but I told him I was over him 10 years ago. He’s about 10 years too late. All the things I felt, and had to heal during the time when he was playing family man with this woman he’s just now feeling the repercussions of all the decisions that he made and how he let me go, and he regrets it every day. To this day, I am still very close with his family. They really are my family as well. I grew up with these people since I was a teenager.

My relationship with him shaped my life the pain I endured at those early years, completely molded me into the woman that I became. I loved him very much a very deep, unconditional love. I don’t think I’ll ever experience again in my life. But unfortunately, I finally got over him and even to this day, even though he’s a lot better, he still struggles with addiction, and all the baggage that he has acquired in his life I could never get past so I knew inevitably we would never be able to be together again.

He is now finally, for the first time truly processing that I am the one that got away in the mess of his life that he made. He always says no one loved him the way that I loved him and how he tried to find me and other people, but he never could.

All in all this relationship is one I’ll never forget. He will continue to be 1° of separation in my life forever because of the Thai’s that I have to his family. We don’t live in the same state, so it’s easy to Live separate lives.

I remember the days when I thought I would never get over him and to think that there was ever a time where he wanted to be with me so badly and I told him no it’s not some thing I ever thought I would see happen. That made me realize just how much I’ve grown.