posted August 29, 2016 12:21 AM            

Actually, the Venting thread in SPITR, is getting to be as long as this thread, and has a MUCH MUCH longer 'waiting' time to see downloaded.

I know that LL-Faith and I are more careful in her threads (DivDiv) to not overload with smilies and pictures, and that thread is much smoother now, too.

The chart for the inception of THIS thread, was a good one.... I'd like to continue a while longer with this one, if I may?

Another reason, is that I've thought about the number of posts I have in this thread, and I might want to go back to crop some early-early posts some day.

That might be important-- Especially, if I land a successful job somewhere where my Employer may wish for me to remove or tweak some of what I've said... I want to remain sensitive and fair to their needs, if I somehow represent them and their valuable image, as well as respect my own free-expression too. I am very willing to work with people, regarding that issue.

I've tried to do a little light editing and crops on posts I've done a few years ago, and the original seems to come back.
... (I understand how it does that, after being here a while now, and the experiences I had on the website I blogged in before coming to LL.)
... I was a bit miffed/sad that the good editing and revision work I had done didn't take?, but, that's okay. I'll live with it for now.

I have been thinking about opening a new thread to continue along some of these themes, sometime.

Trying to decide how to split these threads within threads up, is like trying to file astrology information-- they all interface and relate. A lot of duplication can happen, and that takes maintenance. This thread has managed to form its own kind of weave and integrity. AND, I love using it to reference transits I was having with the themes going on in my life. I think it's cool for other astrologers to follow too--- the ones who know about me--- because it's evidence of "how" some transits work in certain kinds of charts. ... So, I'm adding to the more scientific research efforts for astrological transits.

I think some people like what I do with weaving asteroids from my chart or other public charts, into some real stories... That may add knowledge to some asteroid-researchers finding a way to extrapolate meaning from 'the rocks' in space? I realize it doesn't work with every chart. Some of mine are quite uncanny.

I have some LL'ers who let me know that they read this thread, from letting me know in their own threads. Sometimes they'll come here and leave a comment, or smilie, to let me know they've been here. (I've appreciated that very very much.) I just have the feeling that they want to let me 'hold space' here, and not disturb the energy and pull it off too much. (I thank you for that, too...)

Please feel free to leave a comment when you want to, though, too. Nice to see a smilie or quick comment from time to time, always.

I am also aware that I have readers who are not registered here, who are part of the wider reach of spiritual communities on the internet, and who let me know (in their own subtle way) that they read. (Thank you also for that-- you all mean so much to me!)

I'm so thrilled and fulfilled to know that I have a Voice, and it is Heard and Makes A Difference. That is Joy to me to participate in this way... (What a privilege and honor.)

Sometimes I'll post in other sections at LL, but don't always feel I can have my full say.

This thread allows me to introspect out loud, and hopefully to the benefit of each partaker. It allows me to 'be myself' while having the latitude to do more "extended versions" of posts I would do others in other LL sections, that might get overlooked there. Threads finish quickly around LL. And when a bunch of people pile up on one thread, well, some voices get lost among the pages and pages of posts... But those threads ARE interesting, too.
..Here, I get to layer my thoughts, build the material, and feel as though I have most of the pieces of my soul together, in one place (or a couple, around specific threads in less-active sections of LL)--

Here, I can be as deep, serious, or silly as I want. I can release my deepest thoughts... Express my faith more freely.

I've mulled over and I'm trying to do here, with self-expression. Wanting to feed people from my soul--

In a way, I am STILL massaging the theme of Good Performed By One (and I have also subtly BECOME such a 'one') including my work here as being a Strategy for helping many others. Raising different awarenesses, and perspectives.

I hope with fondest wishes, that some part of your humanity has been touched. That you felt something maybe you never did before, learned about another person's life and what it's like to be in (my) their skin. I hope it has expanded you ... and that you'll leave and always come back a better or more satisfied person, in a way that you weren't before.

I hope some of you yourself better... That those who struggle with esteem issues, might find you've improve your own self-esteem while I worked with these issues, myself. (And vidders outside of LL-- I am sooo incredibly Grateful that you ADDED to my life in some of the lowest times... and I was able to help others, in turn.)

I hope that you who feel alone inside yourselves don't feel like you're AS alone and all by yourself in this world-- because you virtually connected with my energy here. I might not be able to see you?, but I sense, and I care.

I hope that many have felt my Prayers and healing flows through the ethers. And I was glad to join with others who pray, too.

I hope you read and feel touched by Love, and that you Love yourself better, which helps you see the world in a different light. You spread it that way, you know?

Because subtly or overtly, I hope that my writings and songs here, using snapshots of my life, HAVE themselves performed the 'Doing' part of doing Good for and inside of Others. So glad that I've built relationships, and helped increase Love and bonds of Fellowship among those who work To Do Good (whether one on one, or groups)...

O my.... song, Heal The World, Make it a Better Place, for me and for you, and the entire human race.

I'm just ~thrilled.....

My Soul is enthralled and so honored to Be of Service to you.

posted August 29, 2016 05:22 PM            

Lasting peaceful goodnight to you... thank you, so much.

posted August 31, 2016 01:11 PM            

I see that her children are following in her shining example as Humanitarian Hearts working at making a Difference in this world.

Both Prince William and she with Cancer Suns and Sagittarius Rising charts....

And Prince Harry with Service Virgo Sun, and Builder Capricorn Rising, and a 4th House earth Moon.

(music) Candle In The Wind (Elton John; Princess Diana Tribute Version, lyrics) [4:10] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QUTr3YgKzb8

ADDING.....

A few days ago, I saw an article on the web, where Prince William was comforting a child who had lost his parent. Prince William was quoted as saying to this boy that he misses his mother every single day...

If I can forward some Comfort and Love to Prince William today?, then I leave a link to this video that was created FOR him, as a Love Message from his Mum...

Prince William... YOU are Loved.

(music) I Will Remember You (Sarah McLachlan, pictures of Diana & William, 15 yrs) [4:55] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E933_yLlSK4

This video also includes Prince Harry... YOU are also very hugged, and so Loved.

Thank you, both of you, for Serving...

(music) Adventure of a Lifetime (Coldplay) [5:09] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S1NoP-xLm6w

posted September 01, 2016 02:42 PM            

Rm had Solar Return today, but calendar date is tomorrow.

He's still on staycation. We wanted to go to Lake Eola, for the solar imprint... then, go to nearby donut place. But with the storm, and TV arrival today, our plan changed.

So, our TV is much smaller than what we had, but personally?, I like the smaller version better. ... Larger screens are nice to for fireworks, and nature & Space? but this is just fine. It can be converted for hooking up to the internet later with purchase of a special piece. So... Can look forward to that!!

I'm just glad to have moving pictures again, that are not just 'in my imagination'.

Sending out resonating-ripples of Love, and Peace, and Equanimity, and Deep Deep Respect to All.

...

posted September 02, 2016 12:51 AM            

to my Rm!! (his Solar Return was yesterday)

posted September 04, 2016 10:18 AM            

Adventure ... in the Spirit of God

posted September 07, 2016 12:26 PM            

Well... Rm is back to work now. The 'hood was pretty bad over the weekend (sonics). I'm going to look forward to moving from here some day... This is like having a loose wire on your battery connection in a car, and all the juice gets drained out. This has been longterm now. It's as though I operate 100% on only 20% of what I could do? ... But I'll give myself 'that' much credit.

I've got errands to run later...

Every single day, I'm doing posts in my mind and heart alllll the time.

And it's like what Maga said the other day, about an almost telepathic connection with people in Consciousness.... You trust that everyone heard, and about how much 'easier' it is to be in the 'abiding' and sharing through energies, rather than suddenly realizing that materials need to be written down for sight-communications (and hearing, if you're a vidder-skyper person).

I look forward to a day where I am not here locally, but here virtually. I would look forward to being able to be a part of a conscious-community, learning whatever skill needed, and to participate in growing our Conscious Garden.

I am still in confusions about 'where'....

I notice too, that even though I can consider myself to be pretty bold?, I am actually and equally extremely biting-shy. Especially if I have a kind of crush on a person... It's like I'll shrink way way way back, rather than being upfront and exposed.

So, IF I am having 'connections' in the energetic fields with someone, they had better be BOLD enough to reach out of the ethers and make that tangible contact with me. IF you want that... I put it out there right now.

So, I can't gauge my abilities right now, until I'm OUT of this vortex here. The sonics are kryptonite. I know I do soooo much better when not being drained like this. But again, I want to avoid overstating or understating what I can do.

I see many things in the world falling apart right now-- just before I signed on to LL, there was an article about ITT going under. That's a tech-computer training place. A place of education... I feel sorry for those students who spent all that money expecting that they would be able to fulfill their plans, their degrees-- now, left in a lurch, without completion in their education, yet having had to PAY for it.

The other day, I did more studying on the Chart of the USA.... and considering the candidates.

Asteroids around the USA Moon Aquarius ARE what is telling..... Also, the position of very very slow moving transiting asteroid having to do with Capitalism (doesn't have a name, only number and alpha 'BU'), is in Virgo H(9) in USA Chart. The USA Chart has its Neptune in Virgo, next to the asteroid Swindle. ......

The students at ITT, being Swindled in the House of Higher Education. They had Faith (Neptune) that their finances (BU) would carry them forward in their career in life.... But THIS might have been a Swindle...

Yesterday too, I listened to a long SALES info article of a person who is in a position of gaining a LOT of riches, based on these swindles going on with (asteroid) Banks Pisces (tChiron there to transit USA position... This happened before (stock market plummeted), and that's how I discovered the position of this asteroid in the USA Chart.

Those interested?, also check asteroid Gold Libra, and asteroid Silver Cancer-- near USA Vertex/P.ofFortune- conjunct asteroid Hypnos, sextiling Neptune-Swindle. There are also other financial asteroids, very very telling in the USA Chart (sag-ASC).) People, they say, are soooo forgetful of 'what just happened to them'? Hypnos! They are easily manipulated?

Also, there's another asteroid that deals with Dissociation -- ability to separate 'good practical sense' from 'what's really going on'... That transiting asteroid is a very very slow mover too, and natal is in USA H7, and the transiting body has reached the USA Sun Cancer. USA? Can't discern and pin-down what to do? Who to vote for... that would ACT in EVERYONE's Best Interests?

Near the USA Moon Aquarius H3 (Tribe), there is asteroid Pallas (warrior, strategist). Then an asteroid having to do with some Liability there (lack of good judgement? or, carelessness going on in some levels? ...

~Like, I asked my little brother who was working on the lawn-mower, 'is this the spark plug?' And AS I asked, I touched it! zzzzapppppp!.... uh, ~yeah. Find out what it is about first, THEN implement that plan?

The Moon itself, has Good Neighbor asteroid Misterrogers in pretty close conjunction. I feel that 'this' is the People-choice. The Good-Citizenship that a MAJORITY of persons automatically express here.

The American People, are people of such Good Will. Their interests NEED to be protected! All the shenanigans going on right now in the politics--- We deserve to know what's Right!! God? Give us Discernment.... Who's your choice, Lord? What is Right???

Just from some of the initial research I had done.... When Women made History (Klio and Hatshepsut asteroids were activating in the USA Chart, especially with its North Node LEO).

I want to make it clear, that we will ALL have to Cooperate fully with WHOMEVER gets into office. Too much OBSTRUCTIONISM.... That builds Karma!, btw.

(ITT students--- I feel for you!!! All these so-called universities going belly-up and ripping people off??? That's not Right! ... Serial Bankrupters???? BE responsible! That's NOT fiscal responsibility??? If you make a bill with People, you PAY it. NOW?, you have to pre-pay everything, and IF they don't provide you what they say, they run... Leave YOU paying for THEIR lack of responsibility or GOOD Service.
*If you make a promise to the People, you fullfill that ~thang!! (asteroid tOrcas, in USA H(9). haha LOL*

I don't mean to leave out the other candidate on purpose... What I DO want to say, though, is IF we are heading for possible trouble in the USA finances?, I feel uneasy about Bankrupters, and their Choices. Business is a TOOL for prosperity. Handled irresponsibly?, has a chain-reaction of ruining a nation, rather than Building Dreams FOR The People.

Maybe I need someone to sit down and explain that me more clearly to me?

.... I hate all this 'Branding' and the truth being twisted in language and meaning underneath it.

Voting language NEEDS more Clarity... Voting YES, NEEDS to be Yes. 'Yes, we have NO Bananas??' is NONSENSE, and trickery. This needs overhaul.

Contracts with Hospitals and Medical Care should NOT require a lawyer to read it to you, should you be in an emergic situation!

(I just got off the phone with my insurance company earlier today, and I am sooo ticked off at the DOUBLE-talk... CLEAN IT UP!!! LOL)

Clinton's Moon is in Pisces, conjunct Fixed Star Markab..... meaning balance and steadiness while all around you is going crazy. Allows you to deal with pressure and keep calm and solid during crisis. .... Her Moon trines her Scorpio Ascendant.

I forgot some of the research I had done, but something about the USA Progressed Sun in Pisces now... There was some kind of resonance, with Clinton's chart.

IF--- IF!! we were headed for problems on the financial sectors for USA, the humane choice would be towards voting for live-people (Misterrogers). Money, is just an 'idea'... People are alive. You can be living next door to someone whose bank account just got virtually wiped-out, but you'd never 'know' that unless you were party to the information or 'idea'.....

PEOPLE are Valuable. When EMP's blow all the virtual worlds of 'idea' apart, what you have left is PEOPLE. And it will be the Good Heart of PEOPLE, who can see this nation through. And see the earth still stand-- after many many kinds and sorts of storms.

It's People, who Stand, Side by Side, lifting each other, working side by side, that will Stand in the End.

-- Where there is Love, We Will Stand.

Anyways.... I'm kinda a mess, yet clear. I could use some really really cool friends to stand in the gap of blindness here with me. I NEED to 'know' where to go... from here.

I have my bins with papers... It's my astrology interest. I LOVE astrology, and I can talk to just about anyone about it...AND, I can talk to a person of Faith who is interested in that subject too. haha, I just invited another soul to tune into The Potter's House internet church this morning. She was SOOOOO grateful to hear about it -- and!, she's a Gemmy!!!

I am SUPER-picky about churches, and pastors, and congregations. It's hard to sit in a church somewhere that is freakin' BORING. What's the point????? ohno... she's Looks. Sorry??? But that's THE TRUTH.

It's not because I'm church-spoiled?, I just KNOW Good Quality when I see and experience it. ... Bishop!!? You're the Top!

So, going back to what you said, Randall... I LOVE the notion that I can be ANYWhere IN THE World, and tune in to High Quality Music and Worship over the Internet. Someone in South Africa--- worshiping, England--- worshiping. Germany--- worshiping... All in One Accord (omg, that's not a car!! ROFLMAO 'old insider's' joke there).

I really 'shouldn't' allow myself to feel so overwhelmed or gloomy about the future. ... Again, right now, I am depending upon an offer to Touch me, so I can make some SOLID plans, for a fulfilling Future.

I need some outside assistance to do that. The sonics have been a problem.... I need for that problem to go away. I need to be protected from the over-the-top exposure to diesels, bass-woofers, etc. .... I LOVE my music, and woofers ONLY present a problem under certain circumstances (that I haven't quite all the way figured out yet). It's a puzzling thing. Puzzling reaction.

But, I have very Fine sensory system, that is FOR me. And when that is in good environment, it operates FOR Others.

And I can hardly Wait!!! yesssss, Bring it ON!!!

Posting here?? It brings me JOY!

*thanks for letting me vent!.. I DO the Best I Can, with what Understanding I have. I need me some Folk to 'splain some things!! LOL... *

posted September 08, 2016 04:44 PM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Randall:
Reading what you post here brings us joy.

---

Oh! What you said reminds me of THIS song...

(music) He Gives Me Joy (Reba Rambo, 1976) [3:43] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WJIT-Xnho2M

~ * ~ * ~ *

What a morning I've had. Strong...

I'll save details for the next posts.
~yo Maga?, I was literally Laughing Out Loud at your antic Vent about Time the other day. *Right ON!!!*
... Still catching my breath on that one. hee hee. You have a Mercury-Mars conjunction TOO? Ha!!! I love that aspect in people's charts. Explains sooo much to me! I think we're not clearly understood sometimes. We tend to climb onto those *soapboxes* occasionally and we make Great Orators!! Speechwriting...
(I have one of those conjunctions too, in disparate signs. Did You know?, it's a marker for people with sense of humor?! Oh yeah, Stand Up Comics, right??? Saying the sad sad things, serious things said in funny ways, that people need to hear for their lives.)

I like how you approach things... It's okay to Vent.

In general, I feel that it's not-okay to 'attack' people in a personal way, and you basically do a good job with giving information, having your feelings flow WITHIN your OWN field of energy, without spewing venom on other people.

I had a job once, where I had to deal with subcontractors. Some of them would call to rage.... I never ever minded hearing their complaints. And, I HUNG UP, on one who used 'attack' rather than Venting. I thought I was going to lose my job. And my coworker tried to show me 'how' to hold that receiver far away, NOT listening, but occasionally saying uh-huh into the voice part of the phone. .... That's not right!.... What happened there, is that this subcontractor and I had a FANTASTIC relationship after that. Much celebration. AND, my boss prospered even more, because my subcontractors KNEW their boundary lines. They KNEW I would Always do a Fair Deal for them, and they TRUSTED my Time Shipments. Trust is very important. Tell the Truth, not lie. Vent, not Attack, will get you 'heard' and 'solve' your problem (when I'm there).

What you said about religion--- It's hard to write about clearly, but I want to put you into Full Assurance?, that I AM Clear and seem ON the same page as a small group of us... ~weirdly. ... I love it that you practice your own form of ritual and I APPRECIATE that you always acknowledge GOD. ... I have some posts to write, based on what you said about TRUE God, ... I've had the post in my head and heart for awhile, just, not the opportunity to write here. Thankyou for reminding me. I had STARTED that post, and abandoned it in the past. .... You guys know what I deal with here in order to get at computer, and compose.

I enjoyed Steve J's vid on 'Astrology and Religion.' Steve, Great Job there. I do UNDERSTAND what you're saying... Was going to post a response that morning, but got hung up here, with access to computer, and it slid by me.

Sam G and Sonja F, thumbsup.
Kisses for My Marieeee and Minnow. Great energy!

(As I've stated, we've been having internet dropouts here in the home. It's like ymail is nuts right now, and some websites are going crazy with vomiting ads which freeze computers... or at least, slows them down. Listening to Maga's vid took a really long time because there was pixeling, and those little blue tornado swirls around the yt page. ... just letting folks know.)

Some people are sending newsletters that do not fit my screen anymore...
And some people have been trying to solicit funds saying how ~hard they work at creating their newsletters, and can't afford to send free-batches of mail anymore.
Now, ... I had been in communication with that person a few years ago, and at least *I* recognized the Value of what she was doing with her meticulous documenting of things for all of us.
.... Letting this UK person know that your newsletters come in an unreadable font and size for me now. Can't read it. Seems only geared for tablets and phones (is my guess)--- what I have is (older-now) desktop.
(I like desktops... haha, bumped into a teenager who was sooo impressed that she met someone who ACTUALLY still uses one??? *eek* LOL)

... So, if I UNsubscribe/d to any of you, it would not be because I didn't appreciate everything you do. It's just that I can't visually see your valuable communications on my crt/monitor.

... Same went for another person whom I know reads this.

Couldn't see your website on my desktop. Sent you an email. No response. (You're a Gemmy~~ soooo, *tsk* you're Cool with me, ~WHATEVER you do!!! Sistah-hood!!! LMAO. You know, Jupiter is coming to our Air Elements... wooooo wooooo!!! Fun Time. Anyways, Love your work.)

Of course there are many I would like to thank. (And those I've thanked in the past....) Then there are the others.

Month after month after month of bashing my head in here, they gave up business-idea opptys with me.... Jupiter in the 8th of Other??? here. Sorry you couldn't do it.

... New People entering my life? (if the generals are true), perhaps some computer dudes might entertain the idea. But, not holding my breath on that anymore... Moot?, I guess.

... Like KRS said for himself the other day... I haven't wanted to give my idea away by talking about it too much--- It was way TOO 'simple'... and I couldn't believe that the astrological community was blind to seeing this. ---

One of my abilities (evident throughout my whole life), is to see talent in others, and 'dawn upon' how I can bundle talents (or information), and put some thangs into working order together....

But (if your 'general' applied to ME specifically??), and I Understand that a few people DO have to 'move on'?.... I'm not disappointed. I hope you'll feel very Happy with your New enterprises. ....

One person has been bringing up Fishing Pole Metaphors. Definitely, I'm into that.
~~ going on with that same metaphor.
... My dad and mom made sure all my brothers would be equipped with poles, fancy ones, took them out fishing, gave them pointers..... while I was home doing Cinderella-hearth tending, and cleaning up after them.

... I would 'overhear' some fish stories, even gave them suggestions that they were able to apply and use for their life, but even with that, was not 'let in' and made privy to the same level of worth and education.

I learned to fake it till I made it out really really really far.

I could do amazing things, without realizing the amazingness of it. But *they* took my ideas anyway and created something for them-selves out of it....

So with Fishing Poles??, I've had mishaps.... didn't receive instructions on the manual! Besides, I learn better being 'shown' and 'doing', and look at the picture, rather than words in paragraphs.

I had an interesting afternoon yesterday.

I received a letter from my health care place that I hadn't acted upon the referral I had to get my routine mammogram. I was grateful for the RE-minder (haha mercury retro), called the referral expecting the 'usual' 2 to 3 month wait for the test.

But NO~~ Wow! I got an appointment for that-afternoon. ... I thought, oh no.... those buses are so screwed up, it takes (it does) about 2 to 3 hours to 'get' there (there, was only four miles away?).
... I noticed my neighbor was home. I gathered up MAJOR courage, and went to ask if he could drop me off (with it being soooo close by). He said he'd be GLAD to. *earthquake* LOL!!!!
... The procedure was sooo quick! ... haha, at one point she had my breast squashed and mashed flat as she could make it in this machine. Then!, and she says to me "don't move now," as she went behind her panel again.
My humor quotient was WAY up--- I said with a comical compliant voice, "~~Oh. You don't need to ~worry about ME going anywhere?, coz you've got me pinned-into this ONE-spot pretty ~tightly here?!" ROFL!!!!
Hey? You'll let me laugh at my own jokes, right? *laughing* ...
Yeah, it's "entertaining" to be inbetween my two ears sometimes! *grin* *roll*

And SO.... I said all that about my trip, in order to state a Reality that I'm dealing with in the real-world, at large.

As much as I would LOVE to HEAL from this physical-nerve condition I have now, with sensitivity to certain 'types' of equipment? ... I'm going to have to, at this point, say that I NOW have Limitations that I didn't have at the beginning/inception of this thread.

.... I DO notice that I am 'fine' when my work/living environment has an absence (or dulling) of these offending-items to my physical nervous system.
... IF/When I get a job, And/or choose a NEW place to live?, this Limitation will HAVE to be Considered now.
I am so willing to work, to write... to study, to learn new skills. AND, I can't go 'just anywhere I please' at any time, because of this limitation. It really makes me feel very sick, to the point of low-pain oftentimes.
I don't go anywhere without silicone plugs in my ears, and, sound-cancellation earphone, when necessary, in certain transitions (like, the bus, and waiting rooms?).

Unless I am healed of the fine-nerve condition (for which doctors say there is no cure nor chemical help), I'm going to have to declare this as Limitation or Handicap now. .... I toggled and healed from one kind of disability (trauma), and now, I have this other physical one to deal with.

What helped me truly ground and see and admit that, was the trip yesterday.

In the waiting office, the gnarly fan in bathroom was agonizing to me. I got up, and closed the door, and there was blessed relief. They had a TV on, that was a problem during a certain aired show, then not-a-problem during the next.

In the examining room, I was Perfectly Fine. There were things humming, that had NO effect on my nerve-system. Go back out to the waiting room, and omg, the fan-system, PLUS, some kind of AC motor in ceiling?

I could work?, but not with "certain" kinds of motors... I haven't been able to discern all the environmental match-ups yet?

I would need Special Considerations for these things now.
And, I don't know if I can, UNLESS I'm 'in it' and experiencing what's there. That would go for Work Environment or Living Space.

I TRUST that there would be some Beautiful eager band of folk out there, who could help 'fit' me into the Right Atmosphere for my working and for my Creating.
*in tears, joy, and sooooo sad to have to declare*

As many of you already know, I myself didn't take chances on just flying away, BECAUSE I had concerns about this.
I would NEVER EVER want to disappoint an employer by saying I can do something, then, have to back out just as quickly as I 'tried' to DO it?
That's not fair to you, OR to me. But especially me. I need a series of Wins, not losses. I want to KEEP confidence.
(And, I don't mind drudge work?, depending... I'm a pretty good sport. Have done lots of office-temp work.... Am open to different ideas too.)

I'm considered a Senior-age now, and they had early-retired me, even though I don't get full benefits of seniors for another 4 years. They'll probably keep raising that, too.

I Believe that there WILL be Others out there, WITH a Solution for me. I'm NOT ready to Quit my Life NO WAY. I feel like I'm 25yo... And IF I must say so myself, I'm pretty-goodlookin' for my age (in the right light, of course.. LOL). I'm Bright-Shiny, yes... I like that. I'm Bright-Shiniest WITHIN my Soul.... And I Love shining my Light out to and among the Collective.

I Make A Difference. (*bursts into tears*, thank you God!!!!! Oh, ~thank you God!!!! What an Awesomeness... to BE here. Let me be able to Continue, God. You know I love You, and I love the People.... Thank you for letting me get THIS far.... Now, Lord?, You make the rest happen for me... I Love Being Here... Don't let me lose This Mountain that I Praise You from,-- from the Bottom of My Heart, with the Depths of My Soul..... Yes Lord, Completely YES. My Soul says Yes.)

So........ I hope I didn't shoot myself in the foot, being that I AM a Transparent person. Sometimes I fear things that I shouldn't. Then sometimes maybe I miscalculate things? ... ~whatever. I am HONEST (to my own peril???, but then, I will allow others their own insight and experience and intuition as to what they need).

I am open to new directions, too..... AS I had said many many times over this past year.

Anyway, this is not a good time (chart wise) to be making clear decisions on things? But good for sorting details, what's true, what's not really there but was deception and staged-showcasing/marketing only. ... My Life is REAL, and I need Long-range plans for Solid life....

It scares me that I am as old as I am, without a Family that supports me. That was one of the hardest things to experience and Realize, in my ENTIRE existence... that I was deprived of this, with having SUCH a Family-oriented Soul.

And realizing truly, that my hero-dad, left me poorly equipped to deal with life, and the other males in my family didn't consider that their sister needed some guidance there that they COULD have poured into me, so I could pull my life together and have thrived. (Sedna Aries 4th).

What I was given from these, were Memories-- and I will perpetually suck the Good Juices from those, as I think my father would want me to, now that he has been passed. I throw away painful memories, for the Joy of those Moments whenever we had them... I've had many material things stolen from me, but, they couldn't touch the Love that was behind that wall of pain.... Thank God, Thank God, Thank God, for Preserving this in me.... *bows down, in gratitude* It was sooo hard to go through all that---- But I was Preserved, within my Depths. *Lord, let me only Bless, and never regret*

Let this post be my expression of fears, of things not-possible, so that I can MOVE With Possibility, of a Bright Future.

It was a pretty good day yesterday, afterall. I met some of the Kindest people out there.

Yes Lord... Thank You for a Kinder World.

Some people use Love, and Peace, as only part of their 'Brand'... *whispers* Not me. I'm the "real" deal.

Jupiter..... 29+++Degrees Virgo, about to launch into Libra.

I have these asteroids at 29+ Virgo--
9716 Severina

15809 1994 JS-rx [aka Khepera] 29.3' Virgo
{an important change that has been incubated for a long time..
In Egyptian myths, Khepera was the God of the Rising Sun... "to become"... Its symbol is the DungBeetle symbol of self-regeneration and self-renewal. This position Quintiles my Sag Ascendant whose degree is associated with Dawns;
and Quintiles Vesta Cancer, which NOW--- I have been experiencing my Vesta-Return WHILE writing this post in H8.}

Also 11400 Rasa 29.26 Virgo {ancient Sanskrit word for Beauty or Aesthetic}

3325 TARDIS 29.55 Virgo... The Time Machine!, haha, back-masting those Country-type Loss-Songs... joke-- I get my dog back, my husband back, my truck back ~~ you know?.

AT Libra 0.00'01" ...
I have h40 Cupido Libra. http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/232372.html

M87 Virgo Galactic Super Cluster 0.18'56" Libra
5023 Agapenor SD Libra 0.29'12" {Agape Love, Unconditional Love, Long-established Married Love}

Also these positions make these aspects...
Trine my Venus Taurus (AND, Venus is the Ruler of Libra),
Sextile my Jupiter Cancer H8,
Conjunct my Moon Virgo.
Conjunct my MC Libra 2.30.

tVesta is just a few arc-seconds from making Contact with Return degree at 17.25'39" Cancer
biQuintiles my Sag Ascendant.

tMercury-rx is ON my Moon Virgo.

tVenus Libra is IN my Quaoar, and H47 Poseidon. 11+ ..Quintile my Pallas Sag H1

tMars Sagittarius at 18+ is on my Aynrand, Quintile 7 Libra biquintile Uranus Cancer, biquintile Venus Taurus.
Conjunct Fixed Star Maasym... Strength of Character, tenacity.
Then! conjunct one of my Wellness, Spas, healing through relaxation of the body??? oh melt!!! LOL 19+ Sag.

tSaturn Sagittarius is now one degree from touching my Ascendant once more... conjunct Fixed Star Rastaban {Impulsive, honorouable, good for Astrology, Government, Writing, sports(? ~nah! used to be), finance, the arts},
then 3154 Grant!!!! {humor... *minister's deep-voice* we beseech thee, o lord!!!!!, grant????....} (Oh, that's also a town in Florida here),
then 4325 Guest Sag at 12+, next to my Great Attractor 13+

Child of the Universe..... which conspires to do wild and wonderful things for me.

So! .... I'm going to post this without proofreading -- because I usually plucker and erase whole thing last minute.

This is the Song I found to describe the energies today... and INTO Tomorrow.

Rasa, Divine Dance.....
Jupiter TRANSITIONING, from earth green Virgo....
to Lighter and airy Yellow Libra.

A Haunting Performance, and Music....
*Flowers ready please???* Flamingo, poised. ~~

posted September 08, 2016 06:57 PM            

Giant envelope, Cradles, Mini-trines, Mystic Rectangles...

Ohhh Lord! What a Beautiful Cosmos You Have Made Us!

...

(music) Comfort Ye My People ~ Ev'ry Valley Shall Be Exalted (Handel's oratorio Messiah, Taiki Shima, tenor, 2010) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ZJaHJS6SX4

Laughing... *dancingGurl*

(music) Button Up Your Overcoat (Ruth Etting, 1929) [2:51] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6UliCMEdTFE

posted September 09, 2016 06:50 PM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Randall:
The doctor told you not to go anywhere?

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Thanks for noting and appreciating my humor, Randall!

A merry Heart :Heart: does Good, like a medicine.
--Proverbs 17:22

posted September 11, 2016 09:59 AM            

"Leonard Slatkin Conducts the BBC Orchestra on September 15 2001 in honor of those who lost their lives a few days prior. Visuals from BBC's 'Last Night of the Proms' and ABC's 'Report from ground zero'. " ...

(music) In memory of 11 September 2001 - Samuel Barber - Adagio for Strings, op.11. [10:30] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4PWdOoOQjI

posted September 11, 2016 10:03 AM            

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Found the youtube today... This was a Life-Altering word.

It was on BELIEF Systems.
What you believe about God?
What you believe about your SELF?

The endless loop of thoughts you say to yourself that cause you to REMAIN stuck (omg, *jawdrop* Was that was for ME?)

Please realize first.... that Jakes is addressing a congregation of "religious" people, who practice a certain kind of faith system.... So you'll have to 'get over' that piece, in order to derive and chose the TREASURES out of this sermon.

TRUST me, some of you that read my posts WILL love this message.... You all already say it! LOL

Certainly, those who know HOW to Extract Truths, can gain MUCH through extrapolating practical wisdoms from this gemmy's sermon.

To me, he 'parallels' some of the things that vidders, and the mundane inspirational people are saying.

What I really really liked is how RAW and REAL he got here... That's not "language" you'll hear spoken out loud in many circles. He has a way of saying things, in a way that people with these wounds can accept.

Talking about Real-life trauma that UNDRESSES reality... The kind that applies to people feeling so horribly damaged about their own image, and self-worth and self-esteem issues.

I INVITE you, if you extrapolate well.
IF you can get past the religious faith-system he comes from, you will find jewels for your own benefit, as he shares in this solid discussion of "ghetto" thinking around social problems-- it's a believing-problem. What you 'believe' about your 'self', becomes your 'cage' and limits you.
Need to get with people who think differently, so you can catch a different possibility.

I lay this here, as a gift for those who can relate...

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You are "in a Fight, WITH your OWN Imagination"...

Your War is IN your head, and may not be a reflection of Reality.

Change the loop -- Memories control your Future Dream. They FIGHT for you're Attention. Which one are you going to Choose for yourself?

When you Stop Dreaming, you start dying....

What do you Believe about YOUR SELF, and YOUR Life?

(topic) September 11, 2016 "Brought, by a Thought" (TD Jakes, at the Potter's House, Sunday Sermon) [1:24:44] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YaNAjGf7uio

posted September 13, 2016 01:33 PM            

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