posted November 07, 2016 09:03 AM            

(And I can hardly wait to move out of HERE, too!seriously@!!!! *grin*)

Some people are bothered by the advent of Christmas decorations on display way BEFORE Thanksgiving? But I say, right now, BRING IT ON!

Stress-relief song for election-depressions and anxieties! whoooahhh sheeeshhhhhhhh LOL

posted November 08, 2016 06:15 AM            

(music) Star Spangled Banner (Francis Scott Key, national anthem lyrics) [1:43] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IeIyubV-shA

God Bless America...

posted November 08, 2016 02:22 PM            

I live in Florida, and I am (for this election and past elections) mostly a Democratic voter, and Hillary Clinton supporter.... (I vote 'for the best person').

MOSTLY and MORE than that... I am an American, and I take Citizenship seriously.

I believe in EVERYONE having a Chance at Life and Wellbeing, and that those who need a hand, legitimately, NEED to be given that hand.

In the news here the other night, another (political party) 'business owner' who has NOT paid their employees for labors performed--- in fact they regularly LIE to prospective customers. Long story short... these persons are now NEEDING to go on 'food stamps' (and possibly unemployment).

For me, the 'straw that broke the camel's back' was Trump's calling war-hero John McCain a LOSER for being "captured" then TORTURED by the enemy.

He disrespects woman (and I am familiar with and have heard coarse "locker room" jock-mentality speech) --- AND Trump never gave us his Tax-Returns to reveal any 'conflict of interests' internationally as well as domestic.... Americans are being asked to vote BLIND there.

BUT WHEN!!!! Trump said he had no respect for McCain, Called him a Loser----

When he MOCKED people with disabilities then OPENLY LIED and said he hadn't--

When he called men and women who Serve in the military as WEAK or LOSERS for being wounded (body or mind), or for getting "captured" by the enemy and tortured, --- then at 'that point' (and others) I feel DEEP concern about his character, and, right now, his ability to make good choices for ALL Americans.

I also think that ANY of the churches who have been telling congregants they are under spiritual moral condemnation and penalty of conscience (sin and mortal transgression) IF they vote (for Hillary or Dems), should have their tax-exempt status be SUSPENDED. They are deliberately interfering with the freewill election process.... forcing people (who genuinely love their and want to obey their authority figures) into an unfair dilemma IN this country.

*Thanks for letting me VENT...*

grrrr.... just harried and sickuvit!!!
(PLUS, the sonics here have been 'Unreal'!!!!! for DAYS NOW. 'I don't feel good', and this undermines MY ability to make wise choices for myself. I need help with finding a place I can live in and NOT be continually harassed by sonic agitations that make me feel sooooo sooooo sooooo sick-- it didn't stop until 4 am last night/a.m., and began again just an hour or so after getting up this morning. My body is WEARY. I cannot 'judge' my work-ability WHILE feeling soooo crud. .... *throwing in towel, with anguish today* ... Beam Me Up Jesus!!!! ---- This was my prayer on my walk this morning, and on my bed at night.

If I'm to keep body and soul together, and DO Good Works any more, I need help..... I need Healing sooo bad. I feel terrible right now. I don't know where to 'choose' to live.... I have turned thought after thought in my head.... and have NO concrete real idea right now... EXCEPT 'surviving this moment' each moment, each day, each beat.

The ONLY thing I know, is that I HAVE to have my Peace and HEALTH in my BODY or I am NOT good for ANY kind of work... volunteer OR paid.

posted November 10, 2016 04:27 PM            

As the astrologers predicted accurately, Hillary Clinton DID Win...... the "Popular" Vote.....

HOWEVER, because the people don't elect the president in our country, the Electoral Political College CHOOSES our next president, by a winner-takes-all sifting and shifting kind of process. Donald Trump.

This struck at the CORE of my past pain regarding issues of the Worth and Value of women and girls.

And I want to say how MUCH I admire Hillary Clinton and Barack Obama.... CLASSY people. The Peaceful Transition of Power. What can 'The Donald' LEARN from this..... ?

He's got a LOT to learn. I bet he might be feeling a bit overwhelmed at the actual MAGNITUDE of the responsibility of that Office. He really looked a bit overwhelmed to me sitting with President Obama. He is very lucky that our President right now is a Gracious Man, with a Spiritual Soul and HIGH Values.

I got my Obamacellphone working again. ... Went to two social places in town. An office worker at the Senior Center here in town got it to reboot. During Hurricane Matthew I had plugged it in to an outlet that was loose and the plug had fallen out and drained my phone out. I got the charge back UP to 100%, but the phone would not reboot. I had called the service numbers, and they hadn't responded.

While in town, I was going to go to the small business place to ask questions, but I was soooo bummed out, in soooo much pain from the wound of the election result, that I went down to the Legal Aide Society to offer to "volunteer" there in exchange for training.

I explained how I am a woman who had been basically displaced. I needed to learn to update my office skills, and to test myself. I also explained how the earplugs they saw in my ears were there because I have a neural-condition (atypical migraine that can't be medicated or treated) that causes sensitivity to 'certain kinds' of sonic environments (certain kinds of woofers, bad compressors, diesel equipment) gained from being in bad housing and not having enough economic self-sufficiency to be able to relocate. (The women there seemed very interested and very understanding about the situation. I was given a card with a number to call to start volunteering.)

I had started my convo with them, discussing the shock and painful wound to the feminist spiritual soul.... Then I made a really really bad piece of humor, but they DID enjoy it....
I said in my metaphorical ~weird unfunny yet making a clear point-- that it's like the Statue of Liberty herself just got her ***** grabbed!!! and shoved by a vile man. Crying, from the truth in my soul!
(I know some people who enjoy my sense of humor, and accept me "as-is." ... and some of these are even Republicans, who were soooo turned off by the vile social comments continually made by this man who is suppose to 'represent' the Kindness of OUR people!)

I feel that we took a step backwards in our Spiritual Evolution. The White Supremacists KKK, racists, and misogynists having their field day. Even some of the churches condoned this behavior. The 'hidden voice' that Trump spoke for were NOT those who were suffering hunger, and pain, but those (mentioned) who are soooo filled with HATRED of other people, and demonstrate a complete LACK of compassion.

And I'm not proud of the fundies..... I SUPER hope that I am not associated with those. Jesus is a Brand, and not representing the Christ message to ME.

I have been considering more about relo to some of the Blue States and areas of this country, to support that energy, and BE supported by them. I need and want a SERIOUS Tangible Group Hug right now.

{{{{{America!!!!}}}}}
Beautiful and Stronger TOGETHER!

Take Beautiful Care of ONE Another's Soul!!!!! You are Cared For, Cherished, and Loved very much.... And Remember, You Are Not Alone.

Calling on the Soul of THE GOOD in People-- Everywhere.

posted November 10, 2016 09:59 PM            

Quote: Cohen died on November 7, 2016 at the age of 82. (LosAngeles?)
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Leonard_Cohen

...

(music) Suzanne (Leonard Cohen, from "Live At The Isle of Wight 1970") [4:14] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_56ep729TE

(music) Anthem (Leonard Cohen, London 2008, lyrics) [9:33] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=48AJBXs5dNc

(music) Hallelujah (Leonard Cohen, London) [7:19] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YrLk4vdY28Q

....

ADDED---- copy paste from Yellow Wax Forum

(music) Show Me The Place (Leonard Cohen, lyrics/poem) [4:10] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WCtoVoE5Mm4

Slave... It has a mystical meaning, the whole thing.

Words have multiple meanings.
In this case, I glean the Higher.

SHOW ME THE PLACE

Show me the place, where you want your slave to go
Show me the place, I've forgotten I don't know
Show me the place where my head is bend and low
Show me the place, where you want your slave to go
Show me the place, help me roll away the stone
Show me the place, I can't move this thing alone
Show me the place where the word became a man
Show me the place where the suffering began
The troubles came I saved what I could save
A shred of light, a particle a wave
But there were chains so I hastened to the hay
There were chains, a lot of chains
Like a spade
Show me the place, where you want your slave to go
Show me the place, I've forgotten I don't know
Show me the place where my head is bent and low
Show me the place, where you want your slave to go
The troubles came I saved what I could save
A shred of light, a particle a wave
But there were chains so I hastened to the hay
There were chains so I loved you like a slave
Show me the place
Show me the place
Show me the place
Show me the place, help me roll away the stone
Show me the place, I can't move this thing alone
Show me the place where the word became a man
Show me the place where the suffering began
~Leonard Cohen
http://www.songtexte.com/songtext/leonard-cohen/show-me-the-place-7395f695.html

posted November 11, 2016 12:37 PM            

While I was analyzing Trump, Clinton, and USA's chart, I also was keeping an eye on the natal event chart for the Teaparty.

I kept seeing 'good fortune' for that chart, but somehow my mind kept throwing-it-out as not-applicable because this was "supposed" to be a struggle between the umbrella of Republicans versus the Democrats.

Like biological cell-division process, there have been in ONE cell, TWO kinds of Republicans evident. They have had a split-identity and personality.

Before the inception of the Official TeaParty AS its 'own separate identity,' there HAD BEEN the working between the two parties 'across the aisle.'

When the Democrats won the last series of elections (Obama), the "Obstructionists" met and 'Taking Solemn OATHS of Allegiance' they proceeded to undermine the working government of a new president and congress. They formed and organized a very small yet potent entity in the Republican Party, with "intentions" BASED on Willful NON-Cooperation.

It takes the American Spirit of COOPERATION (taking turns being heard and listened to and considered) between two debating parties, sifting through information, to make our kind of system work to the Benefit of ALL.

The TeaParty became its own identity.

Now, with the election of Trump (and his list of potential choices of Cabinet Members, gently, IS THIS becoming more clear in the evidence??

I am PRO-America... and I WANT Trump to Succeed--- BUT ONLY if he is for ALL, ALL, ALL Americans. Will choices being made now refute that promise he made?

Will 'The Love Quotient' move UP or down in this great country of ours???? CAN you, WILL you Establish and Maintain that for ALL humans here...

Questions.....
HAS the TeaParty now "over-ridded" the Will and Identity of The Republican party as-we-once-knew-it to be?

COULD those Obstructionists have now 'become' the "New Republican" Identity, and the former Republican Party lost its grip along with the Democrats?

Now, is it 'the Obstructionist Government Party' (OGP), instead of the GOP that steps in ready to rule?

They NOW demand for everyone to come into alignment WITH themselves, using for legitimacy the gracious words of a defeated Obama-Clinton.

What they want from America now?...

Is for America to Work Together FOR them, and not to engage in protest and Obstructionism, same as THEY had?

Do they even "consciously" REALIZE???? that they are asking us to do something that THEY themselves were NOT willing to do?

"Do as I SAY, not as I DO.... "

meaning,

Don't imitate my behavior, but now, obey my instructions...

New role models and rules of a newly created society? How will they handle this? ARE there ANY Humanitarian Hearts within that party.... (and I say that with suspense, and lurking fears).

You all KNOW I believe (with many Americans) in Kindness, Tolerance, and Unity. We must Love one another.... But will they do the Human thing?

(So sorry... I am still in shock, and states of processing it. I NEED to say the things that I feel. Every Hope, and Every Base Fear.... it blends in with too many sonics in my environment right now-- I feel 'rawness' inside my body).

If I cannot Express my Hidden-Voice of America, how else can things be made Right again for me (personally), and to PLEA for the USA.... {{{ALL Voices Matter!}}}

CHART DATA
(from articles I read several years ago)

TeaParty (male energy)
Monday, January 19, 2009
2:02 pm 20:02 UT
Chicago, IL 87w39 41n51

placidus-trop-geo

Sun-Juno "CAPRICORN 29+ degrees" H8capr (stellium)
----Reminder, 29+ Capricorn is a potent degree in USA Chart
Moon Scorpio 19+ H6
Ascendant Gemini 25.22
MC 0.07 Pisces
NN 9+ Aqua H9
Saturn-rx Virgo H4

asteroids were important too------
(I won't be able to dip into those... too much sonic interference here--- TOO strong.)

Oh! and .....

Happy Veterans's Day

And years and years ago when I was a blogger in another website back in 2007/08...

I ALWAYS included the family, and ESPECIALLY the 'Little Girls' -- coz I was one of those, with a dad who had a life-long service in the military, and who would get called to leave family behind during times of keenest crisis and danger.
{{hugs to the children of vets, today! }}

May we ALL Live In Peace....
Love is the Answer

posted November 13, 2016 08:40 AM            

I appreciated how one astrologer was saying that with Spirituality, many in the community had thrown out the baby with the bathwater.

We are starting from scratch in many ways. Just remember, FreeWill doesn't mean that everything must go to hell in a handbasket. The Will to do GOOD is included in FREE WILL.

A society runs with less stress when people decide to adopt positive traits and role modeling as 'the norm'.... From the Chaos, CAN come forth Good. Tried in the fires, we can come forth as Gold. We have to CHOOSE to Do Good. Just because everyone else chooses lies, cheating, robbery, etc, WE ourselves have to decide IN ourself 'what' we want to BE.

When people can trust each other, there is soooo much more Peace.

When people Love each other and put faults on the backburners, knowing that we are indeed HUMAN beings, then Love is like a Beautiful Oil.

I've been stressing so much over all these 'decisions' I'm supposed to be making when I CANNOT 'see' what I'd be getting into.

I have to dial that back now, and deal with my REAL body's stressor, which IS that I'm feeling tortured (pain) from sonics I CANNOT escape. Even when I go out shopping, IF the trigger is there, I am constantly at the edges of agony. I live deep deep deep deep down inside me, knowing that I HAVE no other option. Every day, Every Day, Every Day, I deal with this acute problem that will be HARD (for me) to find a way to cure. I HAVE to be in an environment free from what's over-the-top here... It's all falling into 'the same'.

I keep hearing messages that I have to pull myself up by my OWN bootstraps.

If I could have, I would have done that by now.

The reality is that NOT all people can be and do it 'the same'.

I am in a marginalized group in society, and may become further so now. The Light Community will lose me because I 'can't' do it the same as the entrepreneurials that basically make up the system.

I am very different. I'm basically a supportive background person. Many persons throughout my life have used my talents and materials to make themselves money. (I am not singling out any persons in my spiritual-aster community saying this. It's the pattern of my life which has haunted me. I know that many of you have found that you have to 'charge money' from people because they won't 'give' to you otherwise. ... If that be true for YOU, then gently, the same as not been applied to my own efforts and talents. ... I could right now do the 'delineation' of that in my chart, with asteroids too..... Chiron played a huge part, and my relationship with lack-of-nurturing towards me in my life is a story well spelled out. ... I was a person of Potential that other people delighted in, but never fed.

The electrical-sonic things here and their effects on my body's nervous system is real. There is NO cure or medicine for it. It's a condition that is based on things in my environment, that when they are diminished, cease to be a problem and I grow more productive..... But recently, the offending triggers have multiplied, and I am just overcome every day, every day, every day.

I grab 'the moments' (sometimes only minutes at a time) when there is lessening of problem, and I try to cement those times in my memories so I can draw on this for memory of body comforts.... but those are fewer and fewer now. I honestly don't know where this will lead.

Yes, I will try not to give up my faith that I WILL have a Good Future ahead of me... but I cannot do that for myself. So, it's the thought that counts... and gives me the will to survive for one more patch of moments.

Okay..... rm is chomping at the bit to get at his computer here. I have to go. He's been staying up to wee hours of the morning (he's been out of work without pay since e.o. October). He'll be flying out to see his family for the whole week of Thanksgiving. ... It will be good for me to be and feel a little bit extra Peace, if the 'hood cooperates.

I've had thoughts of posts, and I hope I'll be able to re-gather these thoughts and compose again maybe later.... but I'm not sure.

I'll Stay Positive, and continue to try to add to the Collective Peace when I can inject good energies into it.

...

posted November 15, 2016 07:35 AM            

quoting wiki..

Gwendolyn L. "Gwen" Ifill
(September 29, 1955 – November 14, 2016)
She was an American Peabody Award-winning journalist, television newscaster, and author.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gwen_Ifill

(topic) Gwen Ifill, co-host of 'PBS NewsHour', passes away (USA Today, Nov 14, 2016) [1:17] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Os_6jvdP4E0

(topic) Gwen Ifill discusses Queen Latifah playing her on SNL - EMMYTVLEGENDS.ORG [1:10] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-qwT6wb6wX8

posted November 16, 2016 08:22 AM            

Had a really Beautiful phenomenal-type day yesterday. I remember having tapped into that energy long long ago and I can't even reach back into 'what' timeline that was... It just 'was' and I tapped it again for almost the whole day yesterday.

One of the things that bummed me out in the past few days is taking off rose-colored glasses about my 'possible' renewing of bonds with my bro2. I took his email to mean that he wanted to be my 'brother' again, but, I have to take his non-response as he was ONLY 'informing' me of the shift he made from his website (no longer really active) to contact by a certain email for himself and his wife (2015 July-Aug(?) new marriage).
{So... that is quite depressing. I knew my blood-family is 'over'... I had an 'inkling' again... but it wasn't true. I guess that just really reveals to ME how MUCH I still ache to 'belong' to something that is warm and inclusive and nurturing. ... I Create better when I feel as though I have a womb. A sense of Care and 'Home' is vital to my being able to stay alive. ..)

So... I got my Volunteer Application IN to the Bar Association the other day. There's a section where you are asked 'why' you are applying. I stated the thing about wanting to 'test' myself, to 'update' my skills, to build relationships with people.

I also was really aware as I said, my (mission?) is ... To Care. And, To Support Caring Individuals who want to Care for others. (not my exact words, but close)

I'm feeling depletion again today.... sorry.

After I gave them my app (not an interview), I went down to my city's Main Library. O. M. G. !!!!! The changes they have made there in the past 3 to 4 years are mind-blowing amazing. They have a whole new resource center that is just for Technology--- simulators, Movie and Film production, computers for Creating and Editing Music and Films and Graphics.

I took the tour through the resource center. There was a man named 'Theo' (God???? LOL), creating using two screens, one of which was divided into sections, all hooked to his MacPro. His brother and he had created some music... (I think he was in the long process of making downloads.) He had me listen to a few minutes of track. My ear immediately heard a splay (like a Beautiful explosion)... and I said to him, when I listen to Soundclouds, I often would LOVE to reach for some dials and tweak those things and bring out even better sounds (temper the drumming a bit, is what I would have done to his).

We discussed History and music creation... Told him I was involved in the inception of initial project of using computers to create music ("GUIDO" Program at my college, 1970s; GUIDO named after medieval monk Guido d'Arezzo). We got into a discussion, and I was ABLE to give him a Valuable Clue that could open some portals of possibility for his Creating. ... And I FELT Valuable, in that moment. I didn't NEED to know 'how' all the gadgets worked. My IDEAS, the things I had been exposed to PRIOR is 'what' he could Step Himself with.

Sometimes I don't know what's in me, until I am 'in the Environment' of Creation. I am someone who comes alongside, then SEES what the possibility IS within 'what is created' or IN the Creation Process.

I give away my ideas all the time.... IF I had permanent KNOWING that my Housing was ALWAYS covered, and my Basic Needs are always taken care of..., THEN, I can walk the Earth, and CONTINUE being the BEST of Who I am.... Doing the BEST of 'what' I NORMALLY flow and do....

But 'that' is an ideal world that I am being denied? ... I Naturally Create, and it's so natural that others ABSORB me and I don't get the material benefits of it? ....

While I further explored the Library, I looked through glass walls, and saw that a class was being taught on Psychacoustics. The psychology of Acoustics.... What they are doing now, is finding ways to 'trick' the brain that it 'hears' differently than what is normal. They can 'trick' the brain into thinking something is Louder, by adjusting waves... compressions.

(ADD-- This makes apartment sound systems 'quieter' for normal mundane hearing... Better for people in General, but it is torture for 'me' specifically because I 'hear' ALL of it 'Loudly' perceived by my brain and nervous system, WITH palpable results IN and TO my body..)

I KNEW that what 'the problem'... I KNEW it.

They have some "inexpensive" sound speakers on sale at the nearby Dollar-type store. People in the 'hood are snatching up the deals, and making the walls of apartments FILLED with this 'junk' adjusted sound compressions.

I am NOT kidding people, or exaggerating here when I TELL you that 'my brain' is picking UP on these immediate and local compressions. What is 'tricking' some people's brains into thinking that they 'hear' "fuller" music? is causing a 'pain' reaction inside of me. Right now, I'm trembling and shaking, as they turn on their speaker systems for the day. .... I feel physically terrible, just really really terrible.

What a difference from yesterday afternoon's SOLIDNESS in seeing some of the things I 'am' capable of (and not present to, because I am not in the Creative Environment for it, and not in the right 'sonic' atmosphere to DO).

The home environment (sans refrigerator compressor on freaking shrieking alien steroids recently; and without next-wall neighbors with their Bluetooth systems ON) is good... but the 'little' bit of nourishing I get, is not enough 'replenishing'... and my body batteries are draining further, as well as the emotions I feel and the psychological scenarios that build limiting walls around me because of it. I cannot Create in the physical, without a better physical place to 'keep' my body well nourished (in all ways).

In the mean time, I'm trying to adjust my waking times for times when the speaker systems are NOT on. This morning, they 'started' earlier than before.

RM is sending me 'energy daggers' almost ALL the time, even if he arranges 'fake' smiling. I SEE what is there, and I 'feel' the daggers of resentments almost all the time. That emotionally tears me up.... because I don't deserve that. And I know that he has said to me before for me to "just ignore him" when he is like that?, to not take it "personally"? ... But I can't seem to help myself with that. I DO 'feel' sensitive to energies, and it's important to me that I 'feel' emotionally protected in a space.

He says that he has NEVER complained about the 'amount' that I ADD to his life-- meaning the little bit of extra money it costs him to have me here....

But I am aware now TOO, that Debt Collectors started calling at 830pm last night. ADDing MORE Stress to the Homefront here.

Anyways.... He's chomping at the bit to get at his facebook here, then he loves to play computer games for hours. (They have these really nifty graphics whenever he wins.)

Yesterday on the bus back home, my Imagination Head exploded with Graphics Ideas from JUST having 'seen' the Resource Center here at the Main Library. I have all kinds of comparisons stories I'd LOVE to write about here, and the Stepping UP in History that we are ALL doing right now.....

What the Future Holds for US is MORE MORE MORE Amazing that we EVER could have Imagined or Thought of!!!!

My Ways are Higher Than Your Ways
-- God, The Author and Finisher of Faith

So.... MY Head went and Exploded all-Aquarius style yesterday... in Humanitarian AND Creation of ~Wild ~Wild Graphics (and charts!!! LOL), and musical creations and ~History, and........ and...... I better post my music, and make some breakfast. Then, get dressed and leave the building because the SONICS ARE INTENSIVE in my atmosphere right now. I don't know if I'm shaking from needing breakfast, or their sonics, or BOTH.

I KNOW the answer there is the Both.

And I heard about the Haunting-Energies... and I thank you for that... I feel genuinely afraid, ... for my life.

(Rm has placed himself in a 'bind' with his problems resolving in the way that 'takes away' his vacation that he already paid airline tickets to spend over Thanksgiving with his family out of state. He may be coming down to the wire of 'calling his job quits' first week of December in order to 'bail' himself out financially--- but that would shoot himself in the foot for the rest of his retirement years to his death.)

I can see rm's reflection in the frame monitor here... he is pacing, and want's me OFF the computer....

See you tomorrow.... God Willin'

So... from Mickey's Town here, and from Mickey Land's Excitement.... I wish you Joy in ALL your Creative Endeavors in Life! (Please, just remember me, and everything I Inspired within your Soul and Heart.)

(music) Night On Bald Mountain (Fantasia, 1941, Disney Theatrical Cut) [11:30] *Angel Clear*

Adding another note---
Back in the time they began to fill the air with WIFI, there were some people who have brain extended perception abilities to 'perceive' or 'hear' the WIFI that the WIFI companies began to take seriously and they applied the right 'filters' to make WIFI comfortable for persons like me. We are not generally known to the public, but the MERCY of these persons IN the companies HAD found ways to adjust it for us.
Now..... They are going to have to work on musical/voice compression waves that they put out en masse now.

I CAN do sound systems, and woofers. It DEPENDS on what kind of Compression Settings they are using. These 'modern' pre-set systems do not allow the adjustment by their purchasers...

In order to make things Convenient for all, they cause some harm to others.... until people like me are recognized and they make a new evolution of speakers with that compensated for.

In the mean time, I need a place where I am not exposed to these....

posted November 17, 2016 09:25 AM            

to survive
you have to have 'some' kind of value

To a regular business world person who can't see any Value... on pen and paper, black and white pages, I have no worth.

(music) Cold Song (Sting) [3:16] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AK1XP1HzAz0

{{{ }}}

(music) We Will Rock You (lullaby, instrumental) [2:53] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Oz6_jt5XqE

{{{EDITED -- oops, sorry. I didn't mean to post that, if you saw it. A lot of times I'll sit here and type up long posts, then crop out the inappropriate parts... at least, what I might think is inappropriate.
Things just seem too hard for me right now... At LEAST, the apartment feels good today so far... and we have Beautiful Sunshine pouring in through the front window. Rm is in much better mood today too...
Step by Step.... and needing to Rest is important too. ... Just feeling whelmed, and, I need a HUG!!

I GIVE Hugs, AND Give one for ME in the process....

It will be alright, be alright. }}}

ANOTHER EDIT?!! ... Somehow the paragraph I wrote offering consolations to Beautiful Gentle Persons who feel as I do today, disappeared too. ...

But I DO Hold Each One Dearly... Deep in my Heart. I Hold YOU up today in my thoughts, by my words and prayers...

posted November 17, 2016 02:50 PM            

I had sent a nice thank you note to the Volunteer and Training Coordinator early this morning, including the fact that my computer does not have the software needed to open Microsoft pdfs. (We can't afford it.)

She answered back saying "Good Morning {me}" rather than just the cold hardcore business-languagy salutation of to "Dear so and so" ...

Basically, she said she may not have clearly communicated with me initially.

She took the trouble of placing into the email all the information that would have been relayed to me in the pdf. (I had checked her volunteering website before giving them the application, and it did not say some of the things she now related to me).

I hadn't really mentioned that I have a handicap?, but she wrote that they are 'willing' to work around whatever handicaps a volunteering person has. Some volunteers work only an hour and a half a day, up to 3 and 5 hours. Some only come in to work one day a week, to more than that. What they ask for is the commitment.

This would be a good choice in order to get back into developing skills, and meeting and building relationships with people in the community....

I hope I don't "just" have my rose-colored glasses on again today, trying to interpret this new email.

I've been tossed to and fro within the astral community soooo many times now, for a handful of years now. I simply don't know 'what' to believe-in for myself anymore. ...

I need REAL and honest support right now. I need to 're-establish' myself in a better and Healthier place to live, or I totally perish. Can't do ANYTHING if you're not somewhere that 'supports' good health and living. I need that kind of restoration now.... I keep being stolen-from. Time is Money and Stockpiles of Money for some people are their true value. They can afford all the risks they choose to take.

Where your Heart is, your treasure also. You support what you Value intrinsically.

For me, I am a Gentle and Loving soul. I want to be with Like-Minds, and Like-Hearts. Truly Dedicated People.

I want Love and Acceptance in a Healthy and Supportive (and enthusiastic) human environment (home, and working).

I want to have solid established long term working people in my life. I need to inject more Pleasure and Fun in my life.

I CARE about what happens to me. I don't want to go around feeling depressed, defeated, constantly waiting and weighed WAY down, bowed too far in humiliations served up raw by life. And I know there are people who follow my posts here, who agree to what I just said. 'I deserve a Break today'(old McDonald's jingle??? omg LOL. I love having the Breakfasts served all day now, at McDonalds!!!) {{ }}

I have ADDED superlative Good Energies into the World-Neighborhood. I Deserve that Good be focused on ME now too...

I should NOT ever have had to feel this-degree of horribleness each and every day, wearing out my life-essences, while I poured into other people's lives here from my postings... (And, I actually should have received 'proper' and private-direct communications AT the time they were UP for discussions here in previous months and years).

I may not have a 'business-value' to some, but I DO WELL-KNOW my own worth when it comes to working in healthy, positive cooperative atmospheres and teams. That's something you might not be able to 'always' measure directly.... It's more of a Quality-Choice. An enhancement that some in the more draconic philosophies do away with as a value.

It's like the difference between hiring 'mean' and nasty people, and hiring-inviting the kind and more loving persons. ....

If all you're looking at is the business bottom-line, and aggressive behaviors (without conscience), climbing the ladder, stealing your products (of all and any kinds), while stabbing people in the back? then *snap* ~ain't cho'dawg here, booboo.

I VALUE AND PRIZE AND TREASURE being able to TRUST the people I'm with, to be able to rely on 'their word of Honor'...

I want to attract other people who want a mutual and honest trust-filled atmosphere to create in. I am a good person to have around in that kind of nurturing solid happy creative team-atmosphere. And for NOW, I need restoration healing and nurture for me.

*Shaking off dog-biting fleas from my luxurious Beautiful coat collar.*

I need a vibrant and healthy support-environment.

I'm a softer Gentler, sensitive Loving HUMAN Being. I deserve to be ELEGANTLY and RICHLY treated.....

I Am Valuable.

(music) We Will Rock You (QUEEN COVER; Lauren Flauding, in the style of a Lullaby) [2:29] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XnDiokAJvVk

Laughing.... Rock ON with your badself!!!

posted November 18, 2016 12:32 PM            

I'm excited about it. I know I'm good with people, and certainly, very understanding about some of the issues they face. Even if they wouldn't qualify for help, I hope I'll be able to give them Hope somehow.

I had volunteered on phones and reception desk for a church that did charity work in the earlier 2000s. I remember ALL kinds of people-- ones who were normal (not poor at all) and just in there trying to cheat the system for some freebies (like doing it for sport, shame on them), and the others who were genuinely in need.

Back to the Politics?! ...

I think many of my readers here may like this video... I think he actually compliments Americans in a side kind of way. We're Special People!

I think BOTH sides of the aisle will feel included (good way).

Very insightful.

posted November 19, 2016 12:31 PM            

{at soundmark 5:07}--
(humor)
... I DID have some consuming vision -- in the place where you have secret chambers of thought --
[it] involves re-establishing Theocracy and becoming a High Priest of a new invisible temple [for the purpose to] Dominate the World with a Compassionate Vision
.. But outside of that?, I just wanted to make a living, support my children, etc...
{my inflections added}

(topic) Leonard Cohen's Theories on Life, Democracy & The Future (MTV News, Full Interview June 14, 1993) [28:36] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IgTV0mEoiWU

Published on Nov 17, 2016
{copy paste, from yt notes}

In this full interview, Leonard Cohen discusses his theories on life, acting, democracy in the United States and the future.

0:07 Reaction to Leonard Cohen’s fan record
1:22 Do you think the music industry really underestimates the intelligence of your audience
2:40 Do you think there is any kind of change happening in the music industry
3:12 Leonard gives his thoughts on changes during the 70s and 80s
4:07 Do people like to think they are being experimental or revolutionary from time to time
4:45 what seems experimental in the 60s may be the norm in the 80s

5:08 what were your musical aspirations when you left Greece and came back here and move to Nashville

5:55 what that your reason for switching gears to a non-musical poet novelist?
6:34 what was your reason for going to Greece?

7:30 Leonard talks about his album, ‘The Future’ – is it about Nostradamus
9:00 Leonard explains how music makes his lyrics less dismal
9:55 Spirituality and Male/Female Relationships in Leonard Cohen’s songs
11:03 How do you relationships now affect your album ‘The Future’

11:44 Leonard explains ‘Closing Time’
12:30 Leonard Cohen hopes for his songs to live for a long time
13:30 Leonard gives his insights to his lyrics
14:15 Do you worry giving your meaning of a song possibly take away the meaning of the song to someone else?
15:15 Leonard goes deeper in to the meaning behind the lyrics for ‘Closing Time’

18:55 Everyone has to pitch in to make changes in the world and help each other out

19:54 Leonard provides a lot of input to his music videos

20:33 Do you always have some kind of concept that you want to do for the video?
20:53 Leonard talks his acting career

22:33 Leonard talks about his song ‘Democracy’
24:24 Do you think people love it and treasure it? [in regards to Leonard’s song ‘Democracy’]
25:58 Leonard talks about how he started as a guitar player but utilized keyboard mostly on his latest album
27:46 Leonard talks about his tour

/endQuote

I had a link of him reading his Democracy poem, but it was WAY WAY too dark and spun for a more Halloweenish kind of message.
It was morbidly creepy, adding a more-HD version of his bare-knuckle real observations of society.
It was good, but, I deleted that one before posting.

Here's the more "Positive" rendition?, and you can extrapolate the 'truths' in it for yourself, if you dare or care to think on the words, in light of their relevant meanings for the world today...

(music) Democracy {is coming to the USA} (Leonard Cohen, live in London, Aug 2009, PBS) [7:21] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vHI9BTpGkp8

posted November 19, 2016 08:59 PM            

I saw your post about 'God being In Control' in Lexxi's thread. Out of respect for her, I restrained breaking out in song there!

I recalled a gospel choir that did this song, and I just found it!!

This one is a lot of Fun to watch!! laughing ...

posted November 20, 2016 10:36 AM            

YOU have Angels on your side.

It was a terribly rough day here yesterday, and rough through the whole night last night----
I am in real need of Healing in my body.

But I'm HERE to Celebrate ANOTHER Glorious Day! Oh yesssss!!!