posted December 23, 2016 05:11 PM            

I just got your email, and wrote you one back!

I'm going to post the Beautiful Songs you sent me in the email, so I can share them with the rest of my Friends.

Thank you sooo much. So sublime... I soaked-in every tiny bit of it. Sacred. Absolutely Gorgeous!

And thank you to the vidders out there (and podcaster! LOL) for being so Inclusive, and Honoring ALL the Holidays, the HOLY Days.... So Blessed thank you sooo dearly... My Heart is Filled with Gratefulness including all of you in my Arms-Space right now.

Ready??? ... Laughing!

(music) Oh Holy Night (Céline Dion-- superb!!!!) [5:18] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MHdx77aAvkc

posted December 24, 2016 08:18 PM            

(music) Eight Days of Hannukah *dancing-dude* (children, lyrics) [3:08] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_J9eENUHVU

(music) Chanuka, Oh Chanukah (sung by Theodore Bikel) [3:33] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxH0xF84h_0

If you want the historical discussion...
(topic) Hanukkah (Sacred Calendars, Rabbi Mendi Lent, with Prof Tom O'Loughlin, UoNottingham) [5:43] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjJVWagbgl0

(music) Light One Candle (Peter, Paul, & Mary, PBS Holiday Concert) [3:42] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=StB_ehpZyN4

posted December 24, 2016 10:12 PM            

(music) Lullay My Liking (Gustav Holst, madrigal singers) [3:04] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mw81DCQ3HhI

(music) I Saw A Fair Maiden (Peter Warlock, Allegri Singers) [4:32] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hKciQyi5tBI

This piece is written to mimic colliding echoes in the room.

(music) This Little Babe (Benjamin Britten, from A Ceremony of Carols, OP 28, perf by Chapman University Women's Choir) [1:50] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eKPg_XPzZfQ

(music) There Is No Rose of Such Virtue (perf by Sting) [4:04] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rve0jrDOAec

(music) O Magnum Mysterium (Morten Lauridsen, Kings College) [7:20] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q7ch7uottHU

posted December 25, 2016 12:24 AM            

(music) Adeste Fideles and medlies (Andrea Bocelli) [11:41] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=41jx96xpbho

posted December 25, 2016 01:14 AM            

...

(music) Little Jesus, Sweetly Sleep (Anthony Newley) [3:34] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5gWrh-FFmfA

(music) Sussex Carol (Choir of New College Oxford) [2:07] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z08pfxHHJk0

posted December 26, 2016 11:01 PM            

It was Lovely, in its own way.
The 'hood was good yesterday.
I'm still in-recovery from some OTT sonics from days before.
Sorry I wasn't around... (except for posting songs, which I hope people enjoyed).
And I'm a bit light headed right now, so bear with me.

Processing......

Families, Christmas, New Years.

AND ~~ would you believe, an anniversary day?

I got married (ex2) on THIS day, Dec 26, back in the early 90s. ....

It's obvious how I'd never even anticipated the chances of ever getting divorced -- (in either marriage).

I woke up yesterday, Christmas morning, with a quiet initially-unemotional great emotional frozen pain that gradually crumbled and caved into stoic tears. ...
Maybe I've not processed the full extent of catastrophic losses I've had where Family was concerned. Abandonment issues?

I can barely believe I'm at the age that I am now... and the far away whispers of what got left behind in those years. *Silence*

Always... Everything is 'as' it should be. Losses which hurt, looking aptly like the artwork to 3 Swords... through the Heart.

So... the near-brush bizarre "accidental" email I had recently with bro2? was a real bizarre twist. ... Never heard from him again. Or any of them. I had given him my current address in that email too.
..

Like I said in a previous post... it was a cruel twist of fate? Perhaps explained by Chiron's Wounding Healing influence through Pisces in my correspondence house, H(3), opp'ing my Moon (feelings, reflected pasts right now). Served to inform me how much healing I had, and didn't have still, over the loss of my real family decades ago. ...

*slow breath.... family-foo and wedding-2*

*Stillness* *crickets....* *stars*
A welcomed Gentle Background of Imaginative Innersound

Thanking God, Inspirers, and Angels for the Help and Prayers given forth over Christmas to give Strength, Courage, Solace, Support---
to Heal Broken-Heartedness.....

I didn't think I'd be able to post today... Honestly I really didn't feel well at all.

<snips paragraphs before posting... asteroid delineations>

So... Easy does it... for this period.
God Preserve me, and Heal the biology.
... This too shall pass!

Need some serious rejuvenation and restoration....

My Heart feels smooth, and so deep.... And
My Head??? (humor) can really use another dose from that bottle of tielonols!! LOL.

There's a lot to discuss----
{*mouths the words... Call Me*} LOL

Great BIG Hugs all around....

Of COURSE I want the A+....
Member of *glutton for punishment* ROFLMAO.
Graduated *** Laude from 'Over-Achievers Anonymous'??

*In It to Win It* ....
Sending out Prayers of Healing to those who need some of that right now.
And, needing a bit of that ping resonated back here too.
*Holding Hands*

Doing okay though, otherwise. Staying Forward.

I managed to post this.... http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/237021-2.html
.. Talked about Christmas...
Page 1 has my Family Christmas Party Memories too.

Song I posted there...

....

"It's not the things you do at Christmas time, it's the Christmas things you do all year through."

(music) The Secret of Christmas (Bing Crosby, lyrics) [1:47] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9NB0TLX2mrQ

LYRICS

Oh, It's not the glow you feel, when snow appears
It's not the Christmas card, you've sent for years
Not the joyful sound, when sleigh bells ring (ring ring ring)
Or the merry songs the children sing

The little gift you send, on Christmas day,
Will not bring back a friend you turned away
So may we suggest the secret of Christmas

It's not the things you do at Christmas time

But the Christmas things you do all year through.

posted December 27, 2016 11:23 AM            

(music) Sing We All Noel with Lyrics - French Christmas Carol (Noel Nouvelet fr) [2:32] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ir4_ut925CM

(music) Do You Hear What I Hear? (Mormon Tabernacle Choir) [3:17] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r5ypTV90sTI

........

(music) (Everything I Do) I Do It For You (Bryan Adams) [4:16] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGoWtY_h4xo

(music) You're Having My Baby {{?omg, LOL!!!}} (Paul Anka) [2:40] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8QN6p66AtDc

(music) Gabriel's Message (Artisan) [2:02] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AcMwmCcRxXA

Lyrics

The angel Gabriel from Heaven came,
His wings as drifted snow, his eyes as flame;
"All hail", said he, "thou lowly maiden Mary,
'Most Highly Favoured' lady." Gloria.

*angel* May we Each and All find we ourselves Impregnated by a Shared and Wonderful Dream. A Common Dream.... For an Uncommon and Peculiar People.

posted December 27, 2016 07:47 PM            

(music) Tomorrow Shall Be My Dancing Day (arr. Rutter, Winchester Cathedral Choir) [2:47] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jRitP2EB9QA

Pertaining to the Topic of Good Performed...

Queen Elizabeth made this video greeting for Christmas. My Heart was incredibly Touched! ...

I wanted to come share it here with everyone.

God Bless You Queen Elizabeth!

posted December 29, 2016 11:22 PM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by Randall:
Hoping LL has a quiet New Year's compared to last year.

---

Oh my, yes! The whole site came crashing down. I remember that, Randall. We learned the value of virtual family and connections during that time.

You were so brave.... coming to 'that moment' when you thought that a decade and more of the work you'd done had vanished, completely, and you had an Acceptance about it.

Then! ... LL felt like after a power outage, where people are running around with flashlights and blankets. Trying to find the light switches, get a little kindling going to warm up the place by little conversations asking if everyone and everything is okay.

We wound up having to open forums through each other's saved links. Then one would open another... Lighting one candle after another. .... Scary, and ~Wild!

Thanks for hosting us a fine home here, Randall.

Oh, I want to send a greeting to a cyber friend.

Hurray to another member of the "29" Club!
Wishing you ongoing Good Health, Luck, Love, and Great Success over this new year.
(Thank you for your vids! And you're still so Beautiful! ..)

posted December 31, 2016 02:52 PM            

(I am soooo blown away-- that I actually can 'feel' the astrology, sooo accurately at times, WITHOUT truly understanding it with my head.... till afterwards?! LOL)

I had been working at trying to look at my own chart to understand some of what's coming up for me this year.

I had been in some despairing of Cardinal Grand Cross energies that have already been being triggered... Then, I saw that I wasn't by myself in all this. I already knew that I am having generational 'elder' transits... like some of my friends have had. But whoah, it's affecting other generations too.

{{yes, and thank you... t Saturn in H1 is a physical house... hugs!.. so much appreciation}}

It 'seemed' like a sheer accident that I fell into that post. Now, I realize had important that was for me-- getting in touch, splitting it all open.

And (laughing) there I was, casually looking somewhat over my chart transits, SEEING the Pallas connections in my chart.... natal and transit.

Feeling sooo much gratefulness these days to Demetra George (and Dennis Bloch) for their amazing book about the asteroids....
BOOK: Asteroid Goddesses-- The Mythology, Psychology, and Astrology... of the Re-emerging Feminine. (Ibis, new edition, 1986, 2003)
haha, my book has been falling apart, getting unglued?! LOL. I think I've bought and dedicated much time to gluing and taping many pages and sections of it together, since the day I bought it, April 2, 2010! (scrawled note)

I spent much time trying to digest this book... I color coded much of it, colored pencils, glyphs. Then penciled underlines, which get erased and changed from time to time, depending on my stage of learning.

I could do a DIVA'S DIVA-Length post delineating ALL of what my Pallas Sagittarius H1 21.50 rx does in my chart right now. ..... My God My God My God! Thank you for the Gift of Astrology. Lord!!! I have challenges in life.... and You have splayed my Soul and its Journey through ALL of it.

Lord! Give me Wisdom... Teach me how to use the Gifts You give me, so I can in turn help others....

Lord! You have given me Gifts of Healing, Gifts of Fine Fine Fine Arts...... Teach me HOW, Lord. Use me as a Channel of Your Blessings......

Thank you for all the Beautiful Friends You have given me.... (The Beautiful ones who EVEN put up with my thrills and fantastical Imaginations and leanings.... God. You Are So Good to me.....)

Today, tonight, as the fireworks highlight the skies.... I will also be celebrating the notebook-background of lights that You gave us.

And I will Bless all my Inspirational resources... every single one of them.... those who are known or unknown-as-yet to me. All Things Work Together.... and I count (and have counted) it as a privilege to Serve You, Lord.. to Serve my Brothers and Sisters.

I am soooooooooooo humbled, that You have Chosen me to be Alive on this earth IN this minute, so I can be a Help during times of both Celebration and soooo much need.

Thank You for ALL You have provided to me Lord.

Please help ALL of us have everything we need to Do what you want us to do ... in the Coming year, and Beyond. Every one of us!

And I ask that God looks with Favor upon everyone reading this post. That your Body, your Projects, your monies and ALL RESOURCES will be Protected in the possible storms ahead, and may you ALL Prosper. Spirit Soul and Body.
(including... {Bishop, et al})

Transiting Jupiter in Libra just left degree of my Martir-Urgentia(rx) Libra-- (oh yeah, laughing at my own self).... trines Thalia Gemini 20.56 H7 {muse of comedy and fun} trines my Valentine Aquarius 20.40 ... awwww! LOL.

Transiting Jupiter Libra will be coming up to my Spica-Urania-Ambrosia (creative muse of astrology) conjunction at 23+ Libra, then rolls his jolly way backwards for a while next year.

Okay. I diverge, AGAIN.

I'll start a delineation storm if I'm not more careful here right now! (Had to snip away paragraphs here...)

Anyways....
Feeling a bit undertheweather physically too (*the ~usual*) {ty DS}.

And I'll probably need to (physically) recover after parties tonight and tomorrow, on Monday.

Then! I go in for my first day of training on my Volunteer Job on Tuesday Jan 3. *yay*

Chuckling -- She sent me a reminder of my scheduled time..... then added again, she looks forward to working with me and my sense of humor.
Maybe it was her way of checking in to see if Santa and the Muses of Christmas had brought me my wish?! ....
*checks mailbox* ..
Not even the personal New Year's hallmark greeting card I had been promised for Winning an astrology Prize (at the beginning of September) made its way to my door!
*said with a wink, and in Good Spirits*
*mercury still retros.... so, she's got extended time! LOL*

When Pearlty and I exchange cards, it normally only takes two days. This year? it took six days...

Well!!! Laughing... The transiting Moon in Aquarius has arrived ON my Part of Luck 9.03 and 881 Athene 9.49 Aquarius in H2capricorn. ... tPluto Capricorn still conjuncts my 1388 Aphrodite at 16.45.

With the transiting Moon Aqua conjuncting my 881 Athene 9.49 AND 7934 Sinatra Aquarius 10.23... tMoon about to trine with Jupiter Libra (trine natal 23 Thalia (Funny) Gemini 20.56 (communications, messages) trine natal 447 Valentine Aquarius (~kooky??? LOL), I thought I'd leave year 2016, with this song.....

(music) My Funny Valentine (Frank Sinatra, lyrics) [2:30] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Are-c0BLyIg

posted January 01, 2017 11:32 AM            

Wishing you All the best this upcoming year has to offer!!

quote..
"Lord! Give me Wisdom... Teach me how to use the Gifts You give me, so I can in turn help others...."

Thank you for this 'open book' of stories, knowledge, and the outpouring of love you share with us. It is truly magical!

posted January 02, 2017 01:22 PM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by Pearlty:

Happy New Years Beautiful mirage!

Wishing you All the best this upcoming year has to offer!!

quote..
"Lord! Give me Wisdom... Teach me how to use the Gifts You give me, so I can in turn help others...."

Thank you for this 'open book' of stories, knowledge, and the outpouring of love you share with us. It is truly magical!

Saw your mention about the cards, yes it seems the postal service was slow this year, other people I corresponded with at Christmas said the same thing. Again, thank you for mine.

---

posted January 02, 2017 05:46 PM            

Going to have to make this brief---
end unit next-wall has his sound system WAY UP. This makes me feel really really sick. So, sorry, have to be dryer today in my communication.

posted January 04, 2017 10:18 AM            

I could just puke. If it goes there, I could crack some ribs? .... Woke up slowly and gradually to airconditioner outside just shrieking and DRILLING sonically into my head and ears. I feel miserable because sonics never cease-- back of apartment, then, front of apartment, has is its 'own' forms of torture. I feel exhaustion. Head is willing, but body feels weak and trembles from having tolerated all, being 'a good soldier' to it.

I got ready for my job yesterday in painful sonics when someone hit that Kryptonite switch... I went from a cruising speed of 8 (out of 10) down to a one or two of PRESSING myself to 'just get through it.' Just get through it.... one baby slivery step at a time. Live, one more minute. Every minute, a success... or is it really? ....

posted January 05, 2017 11:44 AM            

Some of you are sooooo Beautiful. You have no idea what your Support does for me. Every time I think I blew it, you're STILL there. Thank you for Caring so much, and for remaining faithful.... It's medicine to my Soul.

Thank you for the messages of having Self Compassion.

It's true... I carry MUCH more weights because of circumstances. And still, I press to keep myself UP to the same Bar of Excellence that I perceive 'out there' in you all. ... I want to be Excellent in all things.

And, I'm not perfect. (Laughing through my slobbery tears... oh no. That AGAIN??? Laughing uproariously.. ) Yes, so dealing with it? I have VERY high expectations of myself... and I need to remember to cut me some slack.

I need to increase pleasure in my life too... and I hope that happens when I meet some people. I think I'm just going to wait until YOU have contacted me?, and trust that the right ones call, or email.

Allowing the Universe to sort you out. I'm not connected to everyone like you all are. I've gotta give myself some compassion there too. Where I may be blind, you see.

I had composed some posts that I didn't submit. While working on those, it's like other wounds or events of the past that I completely hadn't ever considered before, was there was surfacing for me.

My God... There's so much of my life that was put on hold... for such a time as this?

I need personal caring relationships in my life. I need to feel like I Belong, and to heal more of who I am, and Be supported.

When I move from here, I might be a little worse for wear than I would have wanted myself to be. I'm going to need extra understanding with that. I am ALWAYS willing to try something good, something new (~depending??? LOL). I try to adapt. I DO need support, and maybe extra support in some areas, and I have a teachable spirit. Can hardly wait to meet some people-circles.

Like I said, I'm a bit exhausted-looking and feeling weakness in the body (do I sound vain?). Need to get myself on a program of sorts, for body, so I can have the strength I'll need for future ventures. It's hard for me to do that here... and I can't afford yoga classes or physical coaches. I've seen some things online, but it's not the same as having someone else's energy with you.

I've been through ENORMOUS hardships... and maybe still have very deep sorrows to process.

It's like a whole other part of my life is coming online for the first time. ... How did the decades just go by like that??...

And that deepest Inner part of me IS Excellent.

Needing to use the Pisces energies right now, for inner healing...

tVenus moving through Pisces trines my Mars Cancer.
tPluto Capricorn still in trine to my Venus Taurus.

{{God.... Please. Please just sort it out. Heal my life.}}

posted January 08, 2017 01:21 AM            

I realize some folks come use pages from this thread to track the results of astrological transits to my chart (for those who know my chart), and, to the effects of sky energies in 'general'.

Before deleting posts, I took a hardcopy of this and next page, so at least *I* have it, for documentation of the effects of transits.

*~
In one of the paragraphs {I removed} next page, I had commented and encouraged a certain person on youtube {whom I am aware reads my work}, who was having horrible problems with neighbors in her building, disrupting her ability to sleep {she looked haggard } and were interrupting her work-environment.
So horrible! I KNOW what she was going through, "physically."

By a few months or so later, she was given assistance to relocate. After settling-down in her new place over the next year, she is now recovered and doing quite-well for herself.