posted May 22, 2017 01:23 PM            

Rm is home all this week, and I have my Volunteer Job tomorrow... yay!

I have had plenty to say. I really SHOULD keep a notebook of thoughts. Sometimes that's not convenient, but I'll trust that the Right thoughts come back to me at the Right times.

posted May 22, 2017 01:41 PM            

Happy Birthday, Cher!!
http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Cher

(music) I Walk Alone (Cher, awesome montage~~ what a Beauty! ..) [3:24] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0M63iD5Bg2I

posted May 22, 2017 10:40 PM            

Quote:
On 22 May 2017, an explosion occurred just outside the Manchester Arena following a concert by American pop singer Ariana Grande.

The incident happened around 22:35 BST (UTC+01:00), causing at least 19 fatalities and approximately 50 injuries.

The incident took place at the end of the concert, part of Grande's Dangerous Woman Tour.

Grande was not hurt during the incident.

end/Quote
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2017_Manchester_Arena_incident

...

Explosion

Time: 22:35 BST (UTC+0100)
Date: 22 May 2017
Venue: Manchester Arena
Location: Manchester, United Kingdom

Coordinates
53°29′10.19″N
2°14′22.80″W

posted May 23, 2017 11:11 AM            

Moon in Taurus in my 5th House now... approaching Venus.

I had an hour to spare before the bus, and instead of chores, I chose to come here to relay my thoughts.

There was a song that played in my head. It's about a man I can love.

I don't "crave" a relationship at all (as some suppose). I don't "crave" for love at all. (Somehow, that word seems to lack dignity.) I don't have emotional addictions to men. Won't be manipulated like that. There was someone who had been interested in me (in decades past), who 'played' that kind of card to try to date me. I immediately recognized his tactic, and inwardly found it despicable. I don't do players.

My Venus is Taurus in the 5th House Taurus. She has a Scorpio Saturn-rx energy across from her in the 11th House. My Capricorn House is the 2nd House. I have Taurus on H5 and H6 cusps (with Sun Gem); I have Libra on my Midheaven (with Neptune-rx). Stellium in Cancer H8... Vesta Cancer trines Saturn Scorpio.

That matters ONLY if you are into astrology. My Human Personage is Larger than just-astrology.

I am a Person FIRST. I might attract a partner who is or maybe is NOT into some of the interests I have.

I am a spiritually-oriented person. I have a Christian Heart and orientation. I have an international kind of vision or inkling. I embrace Diversity.

My Venus, my Person, has Dignity and boundaries. Someone who loves me, will love me from the deepest parts of INSIDE. He'll be quietly proud of who I am (not core worth based on what I do). He'll admire me from afar. ... And I will have the reciprocal quiet resonance that same way with him. Always in that hidden Tune that vibrates and communicates in those layers.

When a person knows me, it's easy to read 'where I am' by my face. Even if I wear my feelings deep inside, it's hard for me to totally suppress and hide what's going on with me with a sensitive and subtly observant person.

I do need my private spaces. Time to reflect and sort inside me. And I welcome direct conversation always, about the state of my beingness. And I would want my Other to reciprocate that to me.

I want someone Tolerant and Kind-Hearted. A person with quiet Magnanimity and a Large Spirit. Someone peaceful and gentle; strong and sure about who he is, with room that lets ME be who I am, how I am. I take responsibility for my self. I want a Genuine, Gentle supportive person, filled with Loving-kindness.

There was a song that India Arie had done that described her wanting a 'man who loves music, a man who loves art-- respects the Spirit world and thinks with his Heart'... I always hear that echoed line. It fits my soul.

In that song, it sounds like she 'craves' the love and would do anything for it-- including being open to abuse? ... That's NOT me.

I would want someone who has his financial act together already. Someone secure with overflow. Someone who doesn't mind spoiling me... I deserve some of that kind of treatment. I don't abuse it. I'm conservative about money-- no matter how much I have. And I LOVE to Give and help others where I see a need that would be Excellent for me to seed into.

So--- Lifting this up to the Universe. To God, whom my Life is Devoted to. He's my Father in Heaven... and looks after whatever beaux like Saturn balances my Venus.

Again this morning (I swear there's an anointing under the water in my shower! LOL)-- I thought about that Humanities Camp I went to for a weekend while in Jr High School. They had a music, a drama, and a dance/movement module.

In the movement/dance module, we had to partner with someone and come up with an original routine. That routine, that Moment, IMPRESSED me with so much wisdom about Leadership and Independence, and Interdependence for my whole life.

(My partner and I got special praise in front of the large numbers in the mega-sized class. We weren't as showy and spectacular as some of the pro's kids were who attended. But we did this assignment exactly-Right for this teacher.)

Aside--- We need to CONTINUE Funding these kinds of programs for Children.... The funds for professionals to come and do this program for us were humanities grant-based (I remember that). That Grant-money spent ON this program enriched my Human Experience my whole life long... It 'taught' my young spirit many many many things that could ONLY be 'caught' by participation in that program.
{ty to them for having done that for us}

Romancing and Dancing the Dance of Life
Singing with Beauty from the depths of Soul's Experience.

(music) The Man I Love (George Gershwin; scene from Scandal of 1920 - The Adventures of Young Indiana Jones, lyrics below) [3:29] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DBl_qf9AXWM

posted May 24, 2017 08:01 PM            

Forgot to ADD the part at the end where it says this:

*** ***
This was a fictitious man ONLY.
There were no specific individuals intended in my thoughts, or in mind, during the creation of that post.
It general-energy only.
***********************

I spent the WHOLE day in the 'thickest' and most-wholesome energy. I liked yesterday very much.

Work was FABULOUS, again! ...
I had my two Gem-Suns with Gem-Mercurys approach me individually yesterday, who think I am spooky and have a gift!

That scared me. I was just 'being me' and being interested in the people I'm with. That's all.

My boss (w Cappy Moon) is in an adjunct office. She came to converse with me. She's the one for whom I had done a mini-explanation of her natal chart.
Without knowing 'her life' I had accurately described some adverse circumstances about her childhood relationship environment.
.. When she told me one of her daughter's sun-sign, I did an air-ballpark-calculation set to the boss's chart and said some things. (They weren't palatable I thought at the time, as I sorta cringed saying it.)
.. Turns out, that she was able to apply what she heard me say, and considered the information while on a vacation-visit with this daughter-- they had a 'break-through' in their relationship. It went to a new level.
.. I didn't only go by the astrology. I spoke my Heart to her about mothers and daughters needing each other too and showed her a perspective of that (a la Jakes).
.. She sincerely thanked me for helping her with moving a difficult relationship forward.

When I thought about it as I went to sleep, I wanted to cry. Sooo mysterious-- I can feel so insignificant oftentimes, yet, I was there and alive to help Make A Difference for them. I never would have known it either, had she not thanked me with deep sincerity (stood almost misty-eyed as she emphasized). How often do people come back to you and say you made a Difference?

It feels special from time to time when a few of my LL'ers do that. Takes me by surprise. Smiling to myself-- I'm grateful that they're grateful? LOL. A loop of gratefuls, willing to be 'there' for each other.

Means that something in the World was Right-- for even the smallest tiniest sustained moment of time.

Right moments - They exist.

Wishing you Rightness in your World--- and GREAT Peace. *Heart*

posted May 24, 2017 10:02 PM            

Happy Birthday, Debra Silverman! (May 24)

wooo woot!! Crossing threshold into a New Decade!!!

Wow! Ain't that ~amazing! You Made It!!!!

posted May 25, 2017 11:07 PM            

Had a great day today, with Rm at his Award Presentation. Will describe another day.

posted May 26, 2017 04:44 PM            

No really. Goodness, and Graciousness... describes the superlative energies that I've been experiencing since just before the NM Gemini. Wow... Sometimes it's like I just want to keep crying? haha... but HAPPY tears, grateful tears, deep rooted wonderful tears in realizing just how GOOD God is, how Good the Universe is to me.

There are soooooo many ways I could approach this post right now. And I'm kind of leary at trying to choose one way over another... because REALLY, It's ALLL so Beautiful! ALL of it, ALL of it. The pain of all sorts, the realizations like a Kaleidoscope... Thing is? It's all the same lens. The particles are just politely 'adjusting' themselves in magnificent and curious ways.

Just before I set to writing here, I looked up the degree asteroids that transiting Jupiter-rx/sd Libra is halting and turning on today...

Amaterasu.

So anyways... rm decided last minute to tell me that they 'allow' people to come to the awards ceremony. I said, Is that an invitation? He said yes. So I went to support and Celebrate his incredible accomplishment. There have been times here, where I told him how MUCH I admired the way he kept plowing, every day, to go to work. And to have held down that job successfully for 20 years!

I've been 'with' him, supporting domestically, medically during some years, and I've been a cheerleader for his atmosphere-- encouraging him as he'd go out everyday, and debriefing him at home at night. (My Jupiter Cancer in his 2nd House. My Ceres Capricorn on his P.o.Fortune H8. I've been really looking over our charts-- it's been amazing. So much potential there too?... but he doesn't know or appreciate what he's had in me. He's been basically unconscious... while for me, I've been shaking off and trying to get into an equilibrium from the nightmare I had lived. I've been taking good care of him.
.. We had a "conscious" conversation earlier today. He expresses his desire for what he wants to do after retiring Oct 1. (I've kept after him a bit, reminding him to have 'some kind of interest' set up for himself to walk into afterwards. Stressed the importance of him to keep his body 'moving' and healthy. ... He says 'he knows' as his response all the time, but maybe only 10% of the time does he take some of my really good common-sense advice.)

So I was saying how impressed the Board of Directors were with him at the ceremony. He gave his interests as cooking and woodworking.
.. I've watched him make his own sandwiches here-- he has an artists' fine touch with food he makes (Venus-Cook conjunct in Virgo H4).
.. He has asteroid 'Wood conjunct Industria (can be used as indicator of vocation or work-- he began his 'hire' for this 20-year job with Industria-Return)' 1+ Leo H2cancer, trine MARS Sag 3+ H6scorp,
trine Pallas Athene rx 5+ Aries(ru-Mars) (patterns) (Cusp of H11/10).
.. When he RELO'd to this town, it enhanced his ability to be himself and enjoy long employment.

Oh! there I go delineating again. Will stop that!! LOL

Just to say that I think a hobby of woodworking projects (and, making photographicable beautifully-crafted finger-sandwiches or desserts) would be 'supported' by his chart .. AND!, he could make a small business out of doing this. He could enjoy what he's doing, AND make a few dollars on the side to help support his pleasure.

I had been telling him that. ... He stopped me. He said that I'm always trying to think of ways for him to draw money through business ventures, and he "just" wants to enjoy himself. I said, you can STILL enjoy yourself, and after you've made a few objects (wood), after a while, you can 'sell' these.. like during holidays? ...

I kept pressing it? ... but/and noticed myself in the communication. I paid attention to what he noticed unconsciously.

It's true. ..... I helped my first husband start a company "just in time" for a surprise layoff. WE had our business already set-up. I had done all the research, and we started a corporation (just because it was 'my husband's dream to do so, and I said 'I can do that for you'). The company he had been working (as temp) hired us directly-- even making an exception to their rule that they only hire small businesses with 10 or more people employed. In that marriage, I had made a "receptacle" for receiving funds, for us future-dreaming of making money.
(my Jupiter Cancer 8th was sextile his own Virgo Stellium.
btw... Rm is also a Virgo sun 9+ and Venus 28+)
My Venus Taurus H5, trines Karma Virgo H(9)Leo, trines one of my P.o.Marriage Cap e.o. H1 Sag.
My P.o.Success is On my Sun Gemmy.. mixed with asteroids that have gone from Abundance to terrible betrayals (I had suffered).

The asteroids around my Sun also spell out incredibly, the 'crippling' effect of having been neglected (by parents) and not have been deemed worthy-enough to 'educate' about life, and the ways of the world.

My Sun degree is close to Fixed Star Aldebaran... that promises that if you stick to the rules and do things by the book (being honest) then honor and success may come.

My other P.o.Fortune Marriage (Woman) 15 Gemini ... has the name of the company my ex1 and I had a lucrative business contract with; I had attended Universitas (905) with that name as large benefactor; and I worked (administrative) for another Universitas that had this philanthropists name on these buildings and projects.

I'll NEVER forget how my butt was 'on the line' because of a coworker's terrible deceitful jealous treachery-- she designed a terrible downfall for me.
.. The VicePresident (boss) called me the night before and said you know, this can get you (and him) fired?
.. I got a Brilliant last-moment idea (that he doubted would work), which ended up being a WONDERFUL TRIBUTE and became a new tradition to Honor this man/family for their Generosities to the sciences and the arts.
.. Afterwards also, I remember how that jealous-conniving woman's relatives approached me with deep apologies, (they also worked for the Universitas). I had their unfailing allegiance and committed respect from that moment on (until Life had me let go of that job... in a really lucky way, 'just in perfect timing'. I couldn't imagine how much of heaven's Protection I had).

More meanderings? *gutter bumpers*

Heard a question.... Am I Procrastinating?

Actually. For REAL, no it's not conscious.

In reality, I've been doing soooo much incredible speeeddd healing and realizing over these months (and years).

I KNOW I have human angels working in the backgrounds for me. You have NO idea how MUCH you are participating IN that Healing. I've suffered massive abandonments in my life. Neglect.

I am 'just now' at nearly age 62, beginning to realize the TRUE and REAL impact of what deprivation and lack (and deliberate cruelty and abuses I can't speak about), undermined my ability to live a Successful life in adulthood. I wasn't even 'taught' correct things for my life-preparation bank. She had deliberately cruelly lied to me, gave opposite and incorrect facts-- just to be mean--- my mother's own later admission to me. And that hurt me emotionally too, when she told me that-- and I'm just coming upon that realization in 3D right now, in this moment.
.. I Protected her... by seeing the Ideal Mother Image in her through my Rosy Beautiful spirit and Heart.

There's NO reason to raise a Child in such deliberate acts of Cruelness.... Not a Child who had her Heart open, and JUST wanted to help everything be Okay.

That's one of the reasons I feel so sensitive and empathic with children (and adults) who have had neglectful cruel childhoods. There are many walking-wounded's in life. If you see that happening to Child, I PRAY that you make sure they will be safe.

Had a conversation with my neighbor the other day (the one with the little fashionista LEO daughter). She apologized for the tremendous fight they had next door the other day. I admitted that rm and I were ready to call the police on DV suspicions.
.. She had spoken with counselors who are giving her better-Parenting skills now. (I am sooooo relieved to hear that... I knew that she needed help with that.) I helped reinforce that 'this child' needs her the MOST right now. She signed up for being this child's mother... and it goes swiftly. The TIME she invests in parenting her NOW, will pay in dividends later-- NOT just for her, but MOSTLY, for this little girl-child, who is WATCHING the male mistreat her right now.
This little-girl is LEARNING 'how' a man is to treat her when she grows up?
.. She's gotta yank the 'slack' out of her parenting right now, and put that Child on the Front burner and Priority list.
.. She's been HIRED directly BY the company she was only temp-to before. This is Good News for her. (imho) She'll get better benefits (hopefully) and get herself ESTABLISHED enough NOT to be beholding to that man (not married to, but she says 'helps her out'? ... Like the song says-- "it ain't love if he's mean, Evangeline!")

*pulls self back to original intent*
I better not proof this, or I'll self-poof this before posting! LOL

I've not been procrastinating in deliberateness.

I've been working out the vestiges of 'this' relationship here? The Universe does a thorough work.

And yes, I've been afraid to step out because of being frightened that I might NOT be seeing things correctly. Then, if I imagine further sometimes I have that underlying past-experience of jumping from frypan into fire. Past mistakes, in launching out. ... I NEVER want to experience Homelessness again. I want the Security of knowing that whatever I do, my life is Covered by REAL people who really really really are invested in my Success. We've gone too far to fail now.

I guess there's a part of me that can Hardly Believe that others CAN CARE that MUCH, that they stay, and will see me through the straits.

I have a LOT to give.

~

I enjoyed the Kepler Class on Haumea....
I have Haumea ON Pluto Leo (same degree). The teacher said they have found that to be a marker of having had a traumatic childhood and past. I have sooooo many of those markers in my chart. I gasp at how accurately a natal chart can reveal those things. ... myGod myGod! How many people can be given that kind of Validity? When you've been through atrocious abuses in life, you wind up IN invisibility... even unable to ask for help-- because you're good at fakin' it till you make it?

I feel tremendous EMPATHY with those who have been 'through' so much pain.

You know... I'd read some articles about Survivors who had their lives pulled back together BY studying and getting to know their own chart.

It's startling. It's real. It's Possible.
I'm so grateful to those who have written all the books, do all the delineations and share them with us. I've found recently that I was able to 'help' someone else's life in tangible real way WITH doing that for them.

We BUILD Together... taking the work of another, and adding-to it, then Sharing.

(music) Never Would Have Made It (Marvin Sapp, lyrics) [7:04] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zzx0puJtLFI

Which-song, is PERFECT for me to end this diva-length post with.

Yesterday, AT the Awards for rm, before they started, I had introduced myself to a few of the higher-ranking suits there (even though I didn't 'realize' that these were 'important' people). I carried a good conversation with them, and they liked me. One of them was the SUPER-Boss. Rm's head of the whole company. .... They later came to where I was sitting, and INVITED me to be IN the picture of Rm receiving the reward, with the whole Board of Directors in the photo's background.

His name was called. They did a tribute to him. Awarded the Plaque. I was on the row where we had been sitting, taking photos with rm's camera-phone. Then they turned to me, and waved me to Come. ... I balked and said no. They INSISTED.

And IN that 'suspended moment'.... it was as though I GATHERED EVERYTHING my Beautiful Coaching Vidder-Friends and LL-Friends had EVER EVER TOLD ME.... And I AROSE with Dignity and Finesse from my seat. I stepped Forward, to Receive that Honor.

I was standing with some of the MOST influential people in the history of our state. Some people that the whole world saw a year ago... in News that hit the World, in the catastrophic events that had happened here.

I wanted sooooo much to approach these people, shake their hands, and TELL THEM 'how MUCH' I appreciated what they did DURING that tragedy. How Proud I am of This City, and how she pulled alllll the LOVE in her Heart and POURED IT OUT on those affected in the massacre that had occurred June 12. THAT was what LOVE was about. I saw THE BEST in them that I stood with my back towards in that photo.

Oh yes. I am a GRATEFUL Being. I remember Acts of Love, and Right-Acts of Being.

I treasure every Kindness that comes to me, and I store these like Jewels in my Remembrance Imagination-Box.

Elpis... 59 .. Fairy of Hope asteroid at Gemini 19.44 in my 7th House. The transiting Moon has just crossed it, and soon conjuncts transiting Mars on my 167 Urda (the poop 'of the past' that influences the present?)... continuing to release past hurts, past wounds. THIS is what is being highlighted right now? Cleansing from things that are former... in order to start with the New? *Heart*

So I STOOD THERE... in front of rm's friend-audience too. Inside me, taking IN 'The Moment'... Amaterasu (tJupiter Libra is stationing on) bringing her OUT of her cave (H10) ... Standing Proper. Receiving what the Universe "arranged" that day for me, through serendipitous steps. AND Bravery on my part.

Later on our walk around town afterwards, I asked rm IF I had done the right thing. Was it 'too much' that I had gone forward during HIS Award? .... (I DID spend 10 years of his 20 supporting him-- and I don't think he had ever really recognized and 'appreciated' what he had in a person like me, supporting him through these years.)

He said he was truly FINE about the way it went. He was HAPPY about it. And his friends loved me when they showed-off in 'guy ways' for me in their lounge afterwards.

Later, there was a News Item .... where a woman(mom) had supported her wheelchair son through college, and he was receiving his degree---- the college decided to GIVE that mom an Honorary Degree for having Been in his Support-person.

I had been doubting myself a bit. Feeling stingy inside for having been so bold as to accept their invitation and step-up to be recognized? ...

And the Universe was Beautiful and echoed the affirmative Yes--- That Moment was orchestrated 'for you'....

Thank you God!!! Just Thank You for Everyone in my life.

May we reinforce Good Connections for a Better World for ALL.

*posting without proofing*
May clarify and adjust later.

For Inner and Outer Children Everywhere...

posted May 28, 2017 03:11 PM            

And sometimes, what you 'think' is so tiny and small and filled with inner trepidations can wind up having been taking a Giant Leap, after all.

...

Find Courage.

God, place your Hand over my hand on that Archer's Bow.

posted May 31, 2017 02:25 PM            

I was working on a post in Astro2.0, discussing 'empathic' energies. I wrote for a bit, did some songs (of course)... then THIS happened!!!!

I cropped that post... 2:11pm, and I place it Lovingly HERE instead.

Congratulations to the Palmers...
Your Happy Joining is sending an Energetic Wake?

I don't know if it's just 'me'... feeling the transits, or 'you' making a wake!! But whatever it is, I Honor it today.

It's a SoulGroup Celebration of Happiness for two of its own?

Much JOY to you Both...
Much Happiness and Love. *Heart* *Heart*

Here is the crop-- inserted here instead.

___________________

Laughter and tears today... Feeling the Venus trine Saturn... with Venus approaching Uranus... So ~strange, saucy, and Beautiful! ~~~ Beautiful --- IN'deed!!!

..Here's THAT energy! The World NEEDS a Wedding Party! Bless you ALL.

(music) The Bottle Dance (one of the Wedding scenes, Fiddler on the Roof, movie, 1971) [2:57] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kHRe9qdfLsw

posted June 01, 2017 03:34 PM            

Thanks for being my communications relay person, Randall.

posted June 03, 2017 11:01 AM            

Remember.... That it is always about 'the Third' and not just about your selves. You Serve a Higher Purpose, doing it Together.

Congratulations to the Committing Happy Couple(s)!

What God joins together, let no one else come in-between to put asunder

Radical Protection for Unions

(music) Come Into My Life (Laura Branigan, Joe Esposito, lyrics) [4:42] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KqdROWS-ltA

posted June 03, 2017 01:11 PM            

(music) Wedding Song "There is Love" (25th Anniversary Concert) [3:33] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RrTfNTzAvYY

posted June 04, 2017 12:01 AM            

It's really been helping me to plant my feet astrologically. Amazing too is how some of the things I've been involved in are on-point to my chart. This adds to my confidence about looking at other people's charts. Practice practice practice, and some clarifying courses on some chart features (where I'm able to deeply really ground this), will help me feel that level of competency rise.

I'm going to have to find someone to help me get clear on doing FB's and yt's. I've found a few videos on yt, but, it would be nice to have a coach help me cross that/those thresholds. I'm sure that once I have my footing, I'd be fine.

Studying this is so exciting.

(music) Just The Way You Are (Billy Joel) [5:06] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vBZnGk1nAjw

posted June 04, 2017 06:48 PM            

Saturday, June 3, 2017,
starting at 21:58 BST*
Central London, UK

Latitude 51�.30'29"��N
Longitude 0�.05�'16"��W

*{British Summer Time (UTC+1)}

Quote... wiki

Three people carried out a terrorist attack in two locations in central London.
The attack began when a white van rammed pedestrians on London Bridge.
The van drove on and came to a halt south of the bridge.
Three men left the van and ran to Borough Market, where stabbing attacks took place in restaurants.
One witness reported that the attackers shouted "This is for Allah" and stabbed customers with knives.

Deaths - 10 (7 victims, 3 attackers)**

**Updates get posted as facts of events unfold... see ref.

ref - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/June_2017_London_attack

posted June 06, 2017 10:41 AM            

I don't know whether to leave a blue-heart or a Red Heart.... Certainly, Angels are among us amidst so many sorrows.

Leaving a starHeart... We have Beautiful People still Doing Good all across this Earth.

.....

As for me? ... ohhhh gosh, just forgive me for a moment. I've been through ramparts. Going through and feeling the 'bite' in my nerves and down to physicalness dealing with surprise memories from my midteens to early 20s. Now THAT'S a surprise to me. When I've dealt psychologically with past memories, it was usually processing from younger ages. I'm shocked and feel extra vulnerable that I've Graduated??? And am up to dealing (physically-even) with one of the worst parts of my life. (I seem to associate 21+ Sag with this... for whatever reasons. Somehow 21+Sag is tied to Bliss and to what happened as a teen, as I chomped at my Sag-ie bit, trying to leave home and gain my independence from a gnarly home. ... Really, in a strange sideways way, this has been a significant degree. I can see asteroids around it, and quintile biquintile and trine positions to other asteroids that speak Large, and not small.
... And sometimes, it's as though I have no idea what I'm talking about... and I do, at the same time!! LOL

I have to get ready to go to my job today.
I couldn't take my shower yet because of *SONICS* going on. It was soooo engulfing my nervesystem. I (secret reveal again) was actually blubbering in tears, trying to make coffee this morning. The refrigerator compressor was extremely piercing and gnarly. We have a tiny kitchen. The sonics from both walls, from the jets overhead, from the night's shriek-y condensing units outside my bedroom window... My body is shivering almost... from being soooo tired, and actually (if I went there) it could really take me down, emotionally, if flowed that way.

But I refuse to Give Up!!! hahahahah sooooooo stubbbornnnn! and funny-hilarious inside me. Yes, I can be in a good mood, and suffering agony??? Wait a minute. Have I gone INSANE??????? ROFL!!!! Such a silly soul. It's all in my own crushed-in worry thinking.

Yes, I'm a worrier AND a warrior. BOTH!

Working on this post right now is SUCH a Blessing. Trying to think of things and create content that Helps the World know that it has a Friend? .... And here I am sometimes, needing some friending myself.

So Beautiful that there can BE these exchanges.

I have SOOOO MUCH TO SAY. But I have to get going... I am a PUNCTUAL person. So silly that I drive myself sooo hard to be ON TOP of everything all the time. Truth is? I guess that's where Patience and Forgoing come in. We are limited beings.... Unless! We share a Common Telepathic Com-line.

I was in the store grocery shopping, feeling pathetic yet positive, and this Song started playing. I'm going to leave you this song today...

Let it be a Message for Those who are suffering from things in the world right now. My Heart goes out to you!! *Heart*

And it was a Personal Message to ME from the Benevolent Universe, saying that "it's not over yet"... You have a Destiny and a Future, and it's BETTER than you ever could have thought.

(Promise, from my earliest and ongoing life-- prophets out of the blue 'genuinely' picking-up on these energies, telling me this at the ODDest moments. God has a Wild Plan for my Life, and I'm going to be Soooo Happy! *YEAH, Bring it ON*!!!! LOL. Not only am *I* ready... but *WE* have a Job to Do!!! on the planet. Let those Right Relationships come into Gear!)

I amuse myself... I comfort me, KNOWING for TRULY REAL that living-people exist who DO Care about me. ... in spite of silly myself.

Spreading Love from the Entirety of my Being.

Here is *OUR* Collective Message today....
From a Generous Caring and Benevolent Universe!