posted August 28, 2014 11:50 PM            

(music) Glorify Thy Name (Leonard Tucker) lyrics [3:36] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ASsgLJElbWE

posted August 28, 2014 11:54 PM            

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Love,

posted August 29, 2014 12:37 AM            

quote:

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Originally posted by Ellynlvx:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTSc4hBdCd0

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(music) Theme from Love Story (1970) Francis Lai [3:27] instrumental....

Yes Ellyn... I 'got' the ref the first time ... {{hug}}
(And thanks for the artwork... amazing!)

Loving detachment. To love, through thick and thin... He knew he would lose her in the end. And he loved her.

Okay, getting down and REAL here-- ouchy!*

The deepest healing I would need right now would have to do with love and trust of others, on a very grass-roots mundane level. Saturn-rx opp Venus, Scorpio Taurus, 11th 5th. Cappy 2nd, Libra MC.

My feelings run very very deep. Oh yes, I'm a deep romantic... I feel at very deep depths. On a mundane coarse lower-level, I can love and flirt and be all showy-romantic, but when someone starts to "touch" the real me, I have to know and understand what the Other is intending. Is this just "for show"?? (Leo nat ruler of 5th)... Don't go there. Don't lead me down roads making me think its genuine, when it's not. And it's really really OKAY if it's not. I'll just play-along...

Don't mess with my heart when you're not 'for real'... I don't mind. If someone makes overtures to me, the boundary has to remain firm and very clear. I'll flirt, be romantic-acting... but I need to 'un-breakey my own heart' when it comes to earthly matters.

I almost responded to the 'afraid to love' LL thread. No, I'm not afraid to love. It's just that I love soooo deeply that it hurts.

I don't want to be 'used' ... I'm not a trophy, or a competition. I'm a human who has been despicably used. Right now, I would not go into a relationship that I don't think would 'make it' for the long term... I'm the long-term, ONE man type... I have a dirty mind but I like clean hands. Don't think I could tolerate an 'open' relationship. Old fashioned? YEAH~~ Well so whaaat?!! It's what I Value. Single is better... that's how I feel right now. I'm very picky about the hearth (Vesta Cancer 8th trine Saturn-rx Scorpio) and harem (my H-11!...lol). Juno-rx Scorpio, trine Mars Cancer 7th!! voila!! *grin*/

"Love Story" -- I would NEVER want to feel that I was a 'burden' to them, which I has been my 'experience' --- Twice! (Gemmy 7th cusp)

Song for 'Saturn Opp Venus'

(music) No! No! A Thousand Times No!! (Betty Boop Cartoon) [6:15] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wnJb2kCg0M4

ADD 1:57am edt

I am willing to receive healing from the Universe for this area of my life. I trust in the goodness of God's Plan for my life.

Just thought I'd be clear... Wound is sensitive and big. There is Nothing Impossible to God. ... opening to new experiences (just, God, heal this pain I have... And heal the pains of others who are in the same "boat" and reading this post. Lord, Heal the Love, Take us Higher to love the low places of our pasts.)

(music) "Superstar" (Bette Midler, 1977, Burt Bacharah special Opus 3) [5:19] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRRcAWKSgZg

posted August 29, 2014 02:14 PM            

This past week I've been experiencing sooo much synchronicity! Been finding unique articles, and reading out-of-the-box materials that have been completely resonating with video mentioned below.

For the past few days, I've "lived" that 'conversation,' never having seen the video. I thought I stood 'alone' in what I said, and how I felt.... But Truly, "not alone" AND Both.

I took strength and solace yesterday afternoon in the words of a book I pulled off my shelf. Took a break, pulled this certain book, and opened to a random page-- a paragraph in Stephen Arroyo's book on Astrology Karma & Transformation (c1978,1992, 2nd edtn, rev&expanded)... (p.109) about Pluto transits...

{In my chart, tPluto Capricorn e.o. my 1st House(plac) sextile my Venus Taurus 5th} {tJupiter cj pJupiterLEO, p'DescLEO. n+p'Pluto LEO n8th,p7th}

Quoting Stephen Arroyo:

"... PLUTO is preparing the person for the large-scale, profound changes to come later by eroding some of the foundations of the person's old lifestyle in advance of the time when major rebirth potentials will become evident. People tend to be more open to the new when they are in a 'condition of disorientation'. While sometimes painful or confusing, this can of course be a very fruitful experience. Although most of our educational training and cultural prejudices incline us to feel absolute terror at the thought of chaos, valuable lessons can be learned by adapting ourselves to whatever situations arise during these transition periods.
As Carl Payne Tobey writes in The Astrology of Inner Space, [I]""Never fear chaos, because out of chaos, something is always born. Instead of 'worrying' about a chaotic situation, I await the birth. When your mind becomes chaotic -- or when my mind is -- it is because it is 'impossible' to see 'the whole'.""
End quote.
{caps punctuations and bold are mine for emphasis and clarity}

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The video I refer to above was entitled "The Astrology of The New Age" with David Palmer "The Leo King" in an interview with Teal Swan "The Spiritual Catalyst") it was posted August 27, 2014 ... I hadn't seen it.

The Universe has its Reasons. I trust the Universe.... There are things I don't know, but the Universe "protects" me from. Might look negative to me, but it MUST be a positive--- The Universe loves me. There's something even Better for me, than that which I imagine. The Universe has a perfecting plan for my life.

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posted August 29, 2014 04:09 PM            

QUOTING ........ The Aspects of Saturn

pp 75-76 "... C. In the natal chart, Saturn symbolizes a point of great sensitivity, an area of life where one may strive to overcome limitation through a serious, thorough, efficient approach.
(Or the person may react by building a wall around himself in that area of life for self-protection, thus insuring that a deepening negativity will develop over the years.)
Saturn can indicate where feelings of inferiority, self-consciousness, or oppression afflict us.... However, if we accept the 'challenge of Saturn' to work at building a new structure and set of attitudes in that area of life, then Saturn's position can reveal where we can experience some of the deepest satisfaction in our entire lives.

p.78 Saturn conjunct, square, or opposite Venus:
Here there may be fear of closeness, fear of being vulnerable if one gives of one's affections too freely. In many cases, this can be related to one's early life experiences with a cold parent, but in other cases it seems to be solely a lingering karmic tendency from a past life. The person will often hold self so distant from others that he INSURES through such behavior that the loneliness he feels in the present will also be part of his life in the future.
In other dcases, the person seems 'to become determine to face all aspects of human relationship, especially love relationships, with great concentration and with a strong sense of duty and reliability.
But even in this approach to dealing with the problem, there is often evident a certain coldness or aloofness which still elicits rejective behavior in many cases.
In all instances of this aspect, the approach to giving, loving, and receiving with others needs to be redefined and restructured, and it seems to be the usual case that specific disappointing or painful love experiences are necessary to prompt the individual to re-examine this area of life more closely.

page 79 ... The test of time and experience can thus help us to develop a real, enduring confidence, based not on hopes, self-delusion, or ego-inflated notions, but rather on immediate facts. A remarkable inner strength can develop from Saturn's pressure, a strength that comes in part from knowing that we have done the required work, earned the results, and taken full responsibility for our own development.
...Although many books give the reader the idea that Saturn is invariably depressing and blocks all self-confidence, the fact is that the very configuration with Saturn [that denotes 'lack of confidence' in one's youth] is the same configuration that can indicate a particularly solid and unshakable confidence in later years. It all depends upon how we deal with the challenge which Saturn always presents in our lives.

{some marks of emphasis are mine}

ref.
Arroyo, Stephen.
Astrology, karma & transformation : inner dimensions of the birth chart / Stephen Arroyo, -- New rev. & expanded ed., 2nd ed. c 1978, 1992 by S.A.

(Thank you for your books, Mr. Arroyo. Bought this one in Oct 2009. So many years. Slowly slowly, I've been 'growing into' this book... with much much more to go. Like new beginnings here, as transiting Saturn now separates from conjunction (Second-Return) of my natal Saturn by 1.32 degrees today. My progressed Saturn stationed direct and going faster now. NOT aspecting my Venus anymore, except that she's water now later Cancer (lol!). Heart full of thanks and Love to you! {{ }} You are appreciated! )

oh, Saturn!....

posted August 29, 2014 04:34 PM            

I stumbled upon this video created by Alyssa Sharpe on the 'experience' of SATURN IN SCORPIO. I am deeply impressed by her courage, and the testimony she gives.

What a wonderful, wise, courageous and beautiful human being you are Alyssa-- inside, as well as out. (Forever Love to you... )

"Life happens, and you've got to live it!"

"Feel, and dive into the chaos."

(clip) Saturn in Scorpio: Letting Go of Control (Alyssa Sharpe, Apr 28, 2014) [12:42] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NWfu3NGTgxU

posted August 29, 2014 06:30 PM            

Yes. It's fun to imagine, and take journeys in the Mind, to refresh and enjoy the fancy. But in any and all roads, we have choices. Tiny shifts can yield great growth and progress. We can choose to live for the Best within our self..., the best we know how. People will come and go from our lives, ebb and flow-- and on the way we can make personally grave mistakes-- But I ask God's protection, and restoration for myself and anyone who may feel this way...

May God's Angels surround, guard, and protect us. May we become conscious of every warning, and have strength to make Right choices.

At the finale of my life, may my soul have synchronized with its Higher plan.

posted August 30, 2014 02:50 PM            

These people do big collective parties at least 3 times a month. Nightly till 2~4AM (btw, you've seen me posting at those hours, instead of sleeping!! the computer is in a front-room) During the week nightes, they sit outside my window in fold chairs, drunk and expressing loudly until the wee wee hours of the morning.

Everyone else in the neighborhood is so afraid of them because they are belligerent aggressive violent people. Myself and other friendly neighbors had little spontaneous gatherings during the BLASTS these people put out, wondering what we can do. We have ALL run out of options with this 'group' of "families" (related). Then, nonlocal 'sordid-types' get attracted by the 'festivals' these people throw on a regular basis, and they crowd into our very small neighborhood of clustered apartments, and limited parking.

I have (with great bravery and Courage and Utmost-diplomacy, over and over again) approached them and ASKED them to PLEASE tone down their WOOFERS at least.... Music is fine, the shaker-woofer speakers are OVERWHELMING!!! This is a very small little neighborhood, and they IMPOSE themselves on everyone, like it or not! (There are people here who have to go to jobs, or church-responsibilities. We ALL need to "rest" ourselves before taking on tasks out in the community, supporting our own families, living our own lives.)

My "friendly" neighbors here have told me to be careful of approaching these because others know that they have connections to known violent groups. And they DO have guns they keep... (I've had interactions with the cluster of children that belongs to this family-group. The kids know where these weapons are~~ so innocent, they were very expressive and talkative one night when they 'should' have been in bed??? hello?! but the 'grownups' were having their fun, too drunk?!! to care?)

The main-woman (a mother) is sooo cold, ruthless, and VERY "hardened". I feel soooo sorry for her kids. They are NOT being raised well. (Pray for them...)

I was shaking today, not ready for a day with IMMENSE challenges with NO escape available.

posted August 30, 2014 03:13 PM            

So "hello" to Ellyn for referencing the word "Sweetheart" in the LoveStory theme ....

posted September 03, 2014 01:11 PM            

Transiting Ceres and 2365 Interkosmos (bridge between worlds) are conjunct in Scorpio on the degree of my 974 Lioba (dreams, dream child), 17744 Jodiefoster (mystical, 'Contact' Movie, Beautiful).

my placements...
974 Lioba-rx 9.9'49 Scorpio H-11
17744 Jodiefoster-rx 9.45'21 Scorpio H-11
2244 Tesla-rx 9.50'33 Scorpio H11
33 POLYHYMNIA-rx 10.00'56 Scorpio H11

ADD 2:13pm
How cool!! that transiting Virgo Sun conjunct asteroid 1021 Flammario (ardent, burning; setting the world on fire; "Mysteries of Spirit") are trine Pluto-rx Capricorn today and tomorrow.

Ready?!

(clip) Wormhole (Jodie Foster, Contact MOVIE) [4:41] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z8axMaBL4uo

(music) I Just Want To Be Where You Are (Don Moen) lyrics [3:40] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qrBYbjSg3kA

... Love enough for Everyone!

posted September 06, 2014 03:20 PM            

HOWEVER!!!! when my sleep is aggravated by backyard neighbors being all nasty and boisterously arguing and drunk, complaining and hollering in my bedroom window until the wee hours of the night-morning! (today, ...until just-before 6:00 AM!!!) During those times I feel a mix of despair and NOT like frigging being "nice"! arrrrrghhh.

But as ever, I 'default' to Good as often as I can. Keeping my equanimity is sometimes a minute-to-minute conquering ordeal in MY outer world to inner world.

Hey Spock?!! Where are you?????

(clip) Spock pwns a punk (StarTrek Voyage Home, the bus scene ) [:44] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gr82dZpCr48

posted September 08, 2014 06:43 PM            

Hey, Polyhymnia "rocks" this New Moon in Pisces!

Never ever Ever let those Turkeys get you down! Dance to the music!

(music) Castles Made of Sand (Jimi Hendrix) Lyrics [2:32] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LMGYAkUtKQw

(music) Fine By Me (Any Grammer) Lyrics [2:53] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-xNZzaLSguo

(music) Invisible Touch (Genesis) [4:58] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cK3N2DC3Fds

posted September 08, 2014 07:02 PM            

(music) Christ BE our Light [3:54] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=caA4sIXkD44

posted September 08, 2014 07:33 PM            

Christmas is so Beautiful! my Favorite time of Year!

(music) Bugler's Holiday! (Leroy Anderson) [2:31] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OkYcKfqFNmM

(music) Sleigh Ride *Instrumental* (Leroy Anderson) [2:49] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nuSl9PKx6M4