posted April 22, 2021 01:04 PM            

Earth Day!

ON EARTH DAY!!
How blessed it is to be in orb of my
Venus Taurus RETURN in H5taur,
with Moon traveling through sign of Virgo for next few days.

Natal Moon Virgo 24.56
partile-conjunct
Natal 1184 Gaea {Earth} Virgo 24.30. H(9)leo --

I'm so proud of US President Joe Biden having just-signed an ambitious goal for our Nation to reduce Carbon emissions (pollution) by 50%, by the end of this decade.

Taking Care of The EARTH,
Honoring Our Beautiful Mother-Provider.

(music) Earth Song (Frank Ticheli, lyrics)
{Sing Around The gloBe, virtual choir, Jun 20, 2020}
[3:40] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEiICaDm4fs

posted April 27, 2021 01:03 PM            

I have two posts I wanted to add for Earth Day.
One of them involved a Gemini .
{For those readers who don't know, Pearlty is my Gemini Sister.}

There was a prominent Gemini that died recently.
His funeral was full of songs and scriptures that were about God, and Nature, and this Beautiful Earth.

Prince Philip (Duke of Edinburgh) UK
Prince Philip, husband of Queen Elizabeth II in the United Kingdom.

It was days before Queen Elizabeth's Birthday at 0-Taurus. Days before her birthday, she was draped in grief, mourning her husband's Death. She was married to him for 73 years.

She said 'Grief.. is the Price you pay, for having Loved.'

I love Queen Elizabeth so deeply.
*Heart* Sensing her grief.

Both the galante Gemini Prince Philip AND The Queen made FIRSTS, in their incorporating use of the internet in their modes of Communications.

Saw an article where Queen Elizabeth had communicated using E-mail, during a time when E-mails hadn't yet-been used so ubiquitously in the regular world.
*thumbsup* ..

QE SR Chart 2021
In the Queen's Solar Return Chart 2021 (April 21), her SR chart matches her Natal chart almost exact! ..

She has her natal Vertex Virgo 0.20 {on Royalty Fixed King Star Regulus, which in recent years left 29 Leo and entered into the female Maiden sign of Virgo}. Her SR Vertex IS 29.24 LEO, harkening back to Kingly Regulus, and her Prince.
. .
SR 2021 features a conjunction of 4595 Prinz Leo 3.44, with 29391 Knight Leo 3.54 .. in her Marriage House.
.. In her natal chart, she has 29391 Knight 1-Virgo conjunct her Vertex {fated meetings} in her Natal 7th House (marriage).
. .
Prince Philip was having his Mars Gemini Return at his Death.
. .
In her SR 2021 chart, his natal Mars Gemini is at the ending of her 5th House -- as Her Romantic and Creative partner.
. .
The Queen has natal asteroid 4451 Grieve at 5.28 Taurus.
Venus is the Taurean Queen's Sun Ruler.
Both Venus and Mercury (Prince Philip's Sun-Ruler for Gemini) were linked together and 'present' near The Queen's natal Sun degree.

There are many more aster-Communications evident in their Sky Activity involving both Queen Elizabeth's and Prince Philips chartings.

'Written in the Stars'

I had done a printout of transiting sky bodies at the time of his passing. As I reviewed those 8 pages, I began to weep for the Beauty! I had spent time analyzing their multiple sets of charts, and I felt as though I was reading their Personal Love Letter-- to each other.
(As an astrologer I could deeply see that Story in Code, written in star degrees! I was Moved to tears by the Love Story that unraveled --
Invisible ongoing Communications between these two Lovers, two Devoted Life-Partners, .. of 73 Years.

So significant too, was the approaching National Feast day--
St George's Day is celebrated each year on April 23.

Story of St George evolved over the centuries into a single conglomerate symbolic adventure of a Hero-- A Noble Knight of Valor, A Protector. Was deemed The Patron Saint of England.

Queen Elizabeth's Knight, Prince Philip, had his funeral and interment in St George's Chapel on the grounds of Windsor. During the ceremony his casket/coffin was lowered down underneath the floor of the chapel, and joined coffins of previous century of Rulers over England.

Transiting 3854 George {significant to the lineage of The Royal Family} was accompanying 'the Sun' during the funeral in late degrees of Aries. Queen Elizabeth's Father was named George. The Sun significates 'the Father'. Her Father was there in spirit, with her-- as though joined in starry consolation.

The Regal Geminian Prince Philip has both his Moon and Ascendant in Royal sign of LEO. He was also to have HIS Venus Taurus RETURN in orb of the Queen's Birthday, a few days away.

The transiting asteroid that represents "The Goddess of Funerals and Corpses" was in his H12, respectfully in-waiting and wide-conjunct his Moon Leo 15+. She remains there, to slowly move across his Ascendant Leo during the Nation's official days of Grieving.
. .
Transiting Chiron in Aries 9-10+ had entered his own 8th House {of death}.
Prince Philip's Chiron was receiving an applying spectre to 'his own' natal Chiron in Aries 13+ in H8.
aka Chiron Return

As her Consort in Life, and as The Queen is The Sovereign over all British lands, it is so appropriate that one of Prince Philip's name-asteroids resides at 22+ Scorpio, standing conjunct alongside Queen Elizabeth's natal SATURN rx Scorpio 24+ which conjuncts her MC {H9 side}.
. .
Again, it is so eerie to see her SR 2021 Chart's MC at 24+ Scorpio to be within the degree of her own Natal MC 25+ Scorpio-- for emphasis.

Prince Philip died as her Progressed Mars Aries 25+ was 'present' with the full mix of these Sky Activities upon it, in approach to her natal Sun Taurus 0+.

Asteroid for "Funerals and Corpses" was touching the Queen's own natal Leo Moon (intercepted) in her partnership house, H7 Cancer.

In their Progressed Composite Chart..
Their Ascendant is sign of the Royals LEO 29+ (which now was the Queen's SR 2021 Chart's Vertex, Meeting with Fate).
They have a prCompo'Mars Gemini 27!!!, in its Return, e.o. 10th.

JUPITER Aquarius has been prominent in those charts!
The transiting SOUTH Node is conjunct P'Composite Jupiter Sagittarius 11.37.

"The Goddess of Funerals and Corpses" is 7.15 conjunct JUNO (Marriage asteroid) at 7.58 Aquarius.
..
Transiting Pluto in Capricorn was in their P'Comp H5 and on the Vertex Cap 27, H5 -- quincunx their Progr-Comp SUN 28.02 LEO H12 on ASCENDANT 29.40.

I'd better stop with that--
for the more one looks AT these charts,
the more that gets revealed.

Sooo Amazing. So Wonderful.

And so,
I would like to Honor the Queen..
and send my deepest condolences on the Death of her Prince.

And my Heart goes out in Deepest Sympathies to those British who Devotedly Love them Both.

*~

Queen Elizabeth
- http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Elizabeth_II,_Queen_of_the_United_Kingdom

Prince Philip
- http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Philip,_Prince_(Duke_of_Edinburgh)

*~

The Funeral of The Duke of Edinburgh
- http://www.royal.uk/funeral-duke-edinburgh-0

"The Royal Family"
youtube channel
- http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCTkC3Jt91QkqNAE4FGWkEIQ

*~

What Prince Philip's Funeral Tells Us About Who He Was:
'Meaning' Behind Prince Philip's Funeral.
(article)
Town & Country, by Victoria Murphy, Apr 17, 2021
- http://www.townandcountrymag.com/society/tradition/a36148275/prince-ph ilip-funeral-meaning-significance/

I know that COVID-19 had RESTRICTED the kind of Funeral Service that would have been LAVISH --
They had to make accommodations, DEEP comprises, in a Responsibility of Care for the Mourners who would have congregated en-masse to pay their respects to a Man who loved much, and DID much for his Country.

It was reported that HE himself designed the plans for HIS OWN Funeral.

Soldiers in Wait
I LOVED how the Soldiers stood outside, all postured at attention-- with elbows and arms bent in such a way as to symbolically invite his/their Queen to Take His/Their Arm of Strength and Support-- same AS he HAD in Life, and now, as a vision from the other-world-- sending a code of his Love and Support to her from the nether-realms.
(SUCH a Beautiful Image... *tears* )
(What a HEART he has!)

*~

The Order of Service for the funeral of Prince Philip, Duke of Edinburgh, in full
CNN, updated Saturday, April 17, 2021
(Day of the Funeral)
- http://www.cnn.com/2021/04/17/uk/prince-philip-funeral-order-of-the-service-int l-gbr/index.html

I love that article by CNN.

They go into DETAIL, providing the Words spoken over his family, his coffin, and with the words to the Music that Prince Philip himself CHOSE for his Funeral Service.

ALL the songs Prince Philip chose? ....
Were appropriate for EARTH Day Celebration (Apr 22) held Globally.

Our Gemini Prince in Good Timing ... CARED about The Earth.
He was an Environmentalist.
This is my favorite song from his Service.
PSALM 104.

LYRICS, are the quote of PSALM 104
yt notes say
The Duke of Edinburgh requested that Psalm 104 should be set to music by William Lovelady.
. .
Originally composed as a cantata in three movements, it was first sung in honor of His Royal Highness's 75th Birthday.

. . . LYRICS . . .

My soul give praise unto the Lord of heaven, In majesty and honor clothed;
The earth he made will not be moved,
The seas he made to be its robe. Give praise.
The waters rise above the highest mountain,
And flow down to the vales and leas;
At springs, wild ***** quench their thirst,
And birds make nest amid the trees.
The trees the Lord has made are full of vigor,
The fir tree is a home for storks;
Wild goats find refuge in the hills,
From foes the conies shelter in the rocks.
My soul give praise unto the Lord of heaven,
In majesty and honor clothed;
The earth he made will not be moved,
The seas he made to be its robe. Give praise.
O Lord, how manifold is your creation,
All things in wisdom you provide;
You give your riches to the earth,
And to the sea so great and wide.
You take your creatures breath and life is ended,
Your breath goes forth and life begins;
Your hand renews the face of earth,
Your praise my whole life I will sing.
My soul give praise unto the Lord of heaven,
In majesty and honor clothed;
The earth he made will not be moved,
The seas he made to be its robe. Give praise.
. .
William Lovelady (b. 1945)
Abridged and arranged for choir and organ by James Vivian (b. 1974) with the composer's permission
Words from Psalm 104, adapted by Sam Dyer (b. 1945)
The choir sings

(music) Psalm 104 (Funeral Choir)
[5:25] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CALiGDlLADE
Psalm 104 from the Book of Psalms of the Bible.
This psalm is understood to be a Hymn of Creation,
in all the fulness wherein God has created it -
it speaks of animals, plants, waters, skies, etc.

OTHER SONGS
are found on youtube channel called
Brit Brit
"Prince Philip Funeral Service"
- http://www.youtube.com/channel/UCqIOK495zpDdTXOP12U3lHA

______________
:WORDS:
THE FIRST LESSON
Ecclesiasticus 43: 11--26
Read by the Dean of Windsor
{quote}
Look at the rainbow and praise its Maker;
it shines with a supreme beauty,
rounding the sky with its gleaming arc,
a bow bent by the hands of the Most High.
His command speeds the snow storm and sends the swift lightning to execute
his sentence.
To that end the storehouses are opened,
and the clouds fly out like birds.
By his mighty power
the clouds are piled up and the hailstones broken small.
The crash of his thunder
makes the earth writhe,
and, when he appears,
an earthquake shakes the hills.
At his will
the south wind blows,
the squall from the north and the hurricane.
He scatters the snow-flakes like birds alighting;
they settle like a swarm of locusts.
The eye is dazzled by their beautiful whiteness,
and as they fall the mind is entranced.
He spreads frost on the earth like salt,
and icicles form like pointed stakes.
A cold blast from the north,
and ice grows hard on the water,
settling on every pool,
as though the water were putting on a breastplate.
He consumes the hills,
scorches the wilderness,
and withers the grass like fire.
Cloudy weather quickly puts all to rights,
and dew brings welcome relief after heat.
By the power of his thought
he tamed the deep and planted it with islands.
Those who sail the sea tell stories of its dangers,
which astonish all who hear them;
in it are strange and wonderful creatures,
all kinds of living things and huge sea-monsters.
By his own action he achieves his end,
and by his word all things are held together.

_______________________________________
I had done research for Earth Day,
and found materials that link Psalm 104 with ancient Egyptian hymns sung around the time of Moses.
Really magnificent!

When I get (reprieve from sonics) time, I will put that post back together. (I had it ready, but, too much interference stopped my posting.)

posted May 13, 2021 07:08 PM            

Jupiter in Pisces
Transiting Jupiter entered sign of PISCES
in this locale at 6:36 p.m. EDT. LL-time.

Jupiter changes signs every 12 Years.

TRANSITS (for all)
Jupiter will turn retrograde 2.11 Pisces on Sunday June 20.
Re-enters Aquarius at 29.57 on Wednesday July 28.
Stations Direct in Aquarius 22.19 Monday Oct 18.
Arrives in Pisces 0+ again on Dec 29

Have a Beautiful introductory-experience of
Jupiter through the Sign of Pisces over this next month.

In ancient astrology, Jupiter rules sign of Pisces.

(music) Music For A While (Henry Purcell 1659-1695)
Soprano Mireille Asselinm lutenist Lucas Harris - Toronto 2018
[4:17] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OLqrx2sUxeY

- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Henry_Purcell

posted May 14, 2021 01:06 PM            

Rm just got a note from the landlord that the rent is going up almost a hundred dollars, and that discounted amount is 'ONLY-if' he commits to a year's lease.

I was able to 'stay' here because they had an arrangement set up by his going month to month, instead of Lease. He's been here since 1995. One of the longest tenants the landlord has.

I cannot 'sign' the lease because I cannot make sufficient income. The social security check I get doesn't qualify either. Even if I had a job it wouldn't draw-in 'what' I needed for cost of living-- There are COSTS involved 'with' having a (very low paying) job (that people don't normally think about).

The small fixed income I HAVE been receiving, goes OUT to medical COPAYs and to cover any Medical Costs of living that is 'not' covered by Medicare policies. Those 'other' voucher-type insurances like to 'tease' people that those costs are covered with them?, when in actual-reality, its very sparse (Rm has one of those).

He too, might have to get himself another roommate to 'pay'? He DOES NOT want to live IN this very-small place, with someone else. Doesn't want the interference. (I was a special case??..did all the chores. He hates cleaning. LOL)

Looks like I'll have to prepare for Homelessness. (unsheltered)

I don't even qualify for price at staying in a shelter. Some people think it's free? Nope. And, you're not even guaranteed a bed every night. It's a fight to get in, and my-color is not-preferred as shelters here 'legally' must give major priority to people of color. Shelters are already overcrowded.
{The shelters are 'violent' anyway. Here, they double as 'the halfway house' for folks coming out of jail. .. and Sex perv.. (female) got to 'lewdly gawk' at me while I was in the shower each day. I left there because of her.}

The places I used to 'hide' (to get sleep) in former years of homeless on the streets, are gone now. The govt/workers have been cleaning those out and erecting barriers.
. .
My sensitive body will be exposed to 'the elements'... Will probably 'succumb' because of 'that' body sensitivity. That life is SOOO EXHAUSTING.. and filthy-dirty.
.. I can barely 'think'.....
Pluto is retrograde in my Capricorn 2nd house,
and will be ON TOP OF the asteroid of 'nature's elements' Ceres rs 25+. Ceres can also be a 'death' asteroid.

I have my core books.
Will have to try to find a person who will keep these. .. maybe

Helps with the decision I had to make whether to throw away all my Journals and Writings.
No place to keep those.
Can't afford storage.

Will have to decide on a smaller suitcase-size wardrobe?

(I'm going to hate being on the streets and 'identified' as homeless (suitcase is a 'tell'~~ I used to keep things in storage, and change-over to fresh clothes for the day from my unit. There was a laundry-mat next door to the units, and I'd keep my clothes as good and clean as I could get them.) I had been homeless 4~5 years, and people couldn't 'tell' I was "one of them".
Wow.. Some ladies would sit on the bench next to me at bus stops. Would comment about the homeless-- and NEVER guessed my own situation. I took care of myself, best I could. .. It's a terrifying life.
..
God! That's a horrible life, as there are sooo many HATERS.
People in this town HATE and despise poor people.
There was a legislator who once proposed that the Homeless all receive Lethal Injections-- act of mercy? ... omg

Will have no way of being able to participate in internet social groups. I couldn't afford a Cellphone that connects to Internet. The one I have is 'just' for emergency texting.

Wow... Can hardly believe it's here?

Eclipse to Sag and Gemini .. Sag Ascendant is 11.30. 5-degrees Sag in my scorpio 12th.
The eclipse-Sun 5+ Gemini- is in orb of my Gemini Sun 7+, in the taurean 6th House.

Transiting Venus in Gemini NOW -- is 6.49.. Conjunct, and almost ON my Sun's Degree.

Transiting Moon is now void and at 25 Gem, almost to conjunct my mSN 27 and Mercury 27+ Gemini H7gem.

Transiting JUPITER entered the (Pisces Interception) part of my 3rd House .. Neptune has been there too.

Transiting SATAN at 13+ Aquarius in H2 and square my Venus ALL YEAR and into the next. Will even be in Saturn square Saturn.

URANUS.. is 'blocked' by Saturn?? I wouldn't have thought so? Uranus is ON my Venus for my SR 2021 chart.

My SR 2021 Cancer Vertex H8 is SAME DEGREE as Natal Vertex 24+ Cancer H8 .. for the next year.

All I can say right now, is, that I'm probably about to lose my biological LIFE.

I had BEEN Homeless before, on the streets. (no car)
THAT LIFE is completely biologically EXHAUSTING.

I already feel like vitality has slowed down, and body feels sick'crap' every day from *sonic*.

It'll be off-the-charts bad for my body probably by end of June.

posted May 18, 2021 01:06 PM            

Manager knocked on the door at Noon.
He told Rm that he is going to 'need' to Sign a Year's Lease from now on. No more short-term stays in these apartments.

Heard Rm ask whether I would have to leave then?

Manager said, NO!! She can stay.
That we both can stay 'even though we are Biden Supporters!!

Yeah, he and his maintenance guys fly trumperflags, and go to his rallies.

I've enjoyed doing political 'banter' with the guys... yeah, and it ends WELL. No 'fights'. More tongue-in-cheek, with Grins!

I enjoy the banter.
Doesn't mean I 'reject' people who don't think like I do. .. It 'adds' to the spice of life!

So, the Manager added that IF I would have had to sign the lease, that the Rent would have gone UP even higher-- ~an extra 250 on top of the 100?
.. {I'm pretty sure the Owners of this property 'know' I'm here; they made an allowance for me to be here. I am 'known' by them, and they approve. They are saving my life! My 'life' would be in jeopardy should I have to face homelessness. They have a Heart!
.. I used to have a Lease and pay rent to them in mid-2000s. They had done all the background checks. -- When the Volunteer position I had did 2nd-level criminal checks on me, I cleared those too! I used to be 'Bonded' in another State for working for companies involved with the Banking industry.}

Our geo-area and subject of rise in 'Housing Costs here in this City' was on the World-Wide "Nightly News" program last night.

Housing costs here are ROCKETING.
Building "Affordable Housing" has NOT been a priority here in the past decade with particular politicals in local and State govt.. so it's really very bad right now.

And too~~ these politicals haven't attended-enough to the State's Seniors (Elderly) living on low fixed-incomes from Social Security. I think that's part of the Biden Admin's agenda, in later months from now.

For right now, Biden is focused on helping lower-income Families. Families will be receiving an extra "300(?)" PER child in the household to help eliminate 'Child Poverty' by 50%(?)-- starts in July.

Giving them money for each child, will help parents with HIGH cost of Childcare so that the parents can 'work'. .. They are also trying to have higher quality Teaching starting at nursery-school levels.

Haha.. Even though the Manager isn't a Biden Fan, the Biden admin right now is helping families that LIVE in our apartments. Make it easier to afford the escalated Rents.

The Manager {and maintenance guys} feel that I am 'an asset' to this Neighborhood. .. I am friendly helpful and upbeat. I get waves as I walk by. .. I'm a little-kid magnet! The other day a year-old tot saw me-- arms stretched out for a hug or for me to pick her up. It surprised the mother that the tot started to run towards to meet me as I went by. She said that's unusual -- yep, they 'know' they are 'safe' with me. I've had generations of toddlers and young children run to me for Hugs in the past-- those parents saw, and approved.
. .
Had one set of parents who were grateful that their very young children were having a positive experience with me-- they said I was the 'first white person' that their kids had ever encountered. .. Wow... really made me stop and think!

Boston Fern and the Butterfly Bush
I had been thinking really hard about the beautiful planters I have outside the door. REALLY makes the property look great-- Curb Appeal. I thought I was going to have to find someone who would adopt the plants. Rm wouldn't have taken care of them, and they would have died.

Problem IS ..
that the *sonics* continue to make me feel 'so ill'.. so vile .. each and every day. .. I have to take pain-pills (low dose) to help dull the effects on my nerve-system-- turns metal-spikey sense to hard-rubber spikey sensations.

If I DON'T move out, there is 100% chance of not recovering from this. Also, once something happens to Rm's health, I will be within 2 to 4 weeks of homelessness.

The 'thing' I can do right now {which I was on my way to do before COVID hit} is to put self on the years-long list for subsidized housing. ,, Might entail some unsheltered time on streets. {Like I've said, the Shelters charge a FEE to stay there... (about equal or more than the amount the Rent would have been raised, IF I "income-qualified" for signing the lease.}

Rm.. IF I had a way to leave 'this relationship' I would have. Definitely.

And so it goes.
On one hand it's Good News today.

That 'shock' I got about homelessness being upon me .. took a LOT of deep emotional processing. It's really 'the worst' that could happen, and WOULD kill me this time. I'll be 66 in 11 more days for Calendar Birthday. This body would NOT fair well being exposed to the Elements.

At my age, Mother Nature would not be Kind to life in a Body.

posted May 20, 2021 12:34 PM            

Had been having trouble signing in to see my account. Kept making me change my password every time-- and NOW, that doesn't work.

PayPal
I signed up for my account with them back in February 2016. They went through some evolutions, but still, I was able to navigate my account. I use(d) that account to make small donations to 'starving artists' LOL -- token appreciation gifts to Astrologers and Card Readers that have been Inspirational and giving great advice. I also had been attending an online Church service, and used PayPal to give symbolic 'token' offerings.

So, in the past few months, I had TRIED to give donations, but they continually were NOT seeming to go through! I thought, ehhh, it's just a temporary glitch. I'll try to donate again, on a different week or day.

Decided to look up the phone number for PayPal, to talk to a 'live' human about this 'glitch' that keeps occurring on my account.

Worked with the person over the phone---
Tried some things with them until I couldn't get IN to see my account at ALL!
. .
My password would lead to a 'screen' that said to Enter my Mobile phone-number to continue. I had seen that before, and it let me skip the page and get into my account.

I don't 'own' a cellphone that connects TO the Internet. The physical phone is designed for 'emergency' uses. The Geek store I took it to said it 'cosmetically' appears LIKE a normal cell would, but you can't get past a certain point. It can't hook-up to the Internet {though it looks like it should}.

Sometimes I get unsolicited texts {and spam material} that have LINKS in them to click. .. I can't 'click' an url, and there's no way to 'view' internet materials, or even any 'pictures' a friend would want to send me.

I explained to the PayPal lady that I had been 'testing' the account until I could be confident on the 'way' that website works.
. .
I also had tried to sign up for a 'dot.me' account last year, which did NOT seem to go through. {That's a way of "receiving" funds.} -- Well, found out that the dot.me didn't work BECAUSE it wasn't associated with a Cellphone/Mobile-Number.

After a lot of waiting on line, and talks with supervisors, they said it was a New Policy that EVERYONE MUST own a Cellphone in order to use PayPal.

I was torqued!!

After I hung up with them, I realized that they have my working BankAccount Card. I can't get INTO my account to monitor activity. Not even the Monthly Statements.

Called my Bank yesterday morning, and asked them to FREEZE my Card. Can't use my Debit/Credit Card until they send me a New Card Number.

I looked into the 'cost' of owning an internet-Phone. .. Bottom-line? I don't have enough 'income' to afford the fees.

There are many business-purchases I can't participate in, Vendors, without owning a proper Cellphone. .. Can't call for Ride Shares {to go to doctor, etc} WITHOUT a Debit/Credit Card access THROUGH a Cellphone.

This is frustrating.

I had to 'let go' of my frustrations, and just say, OKAY. ... What I 'could' do, was to CANCEL that Bank Card associated with my Donations account.

WikiMedia and Wikipedia.. are going to miss me? .. They have a box to check whenever I make donations to others. Since they are good to me, I usually check the box to give them a Dollar.

For the next 10 days, I don't have a Debit Card.
Feels strange not to have that 'convenience' !!

Going with the Flow

posted May 22, 2021 02:22 PM            

(topic) The Definition of the Soul
(Oprah Winfrey, Gary Zukav, OWN, 1998)
[3:27] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=40lDcTKL4Uk

yt notes
"Spiritual teacher and author Gary Zukav defines the soul,
and his description is so beautiful that Oprah Winfrey starts to weep."

POETRY and SONG today.

Sea-Fever
by John Masefield

I must down to the seas again, to the lonely sea and the sky,
And all I ask is a tall ship and a star to steer her by;
And the wheel's kick and the wind's song and the white sail's shaking,
And a grey mist on the sea's face, and a grey dawn breaking.

I must down to the seas again, for the call of the running tide
Is a wild call and a clear call that may not be denied;
And all I ask is a windy day with the white clouds flying,
And the flung spray and the blown spume, and the sea-gulls crying.

I must down to the seas again, to the vagrant gypsy life,
To the gull's way and the whale's way where the wind's like a whetted knife;
And all I ask is a merry yarn from a laughing fellow-rover,
And quiet sleep and a sweet dream when the long trick's over.

(music) "Sea-Fever"
(John Ireland song, lyric-poem John Masefield,
perf. by Robert Irwin, 1940)
[3:16] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCmEv0ug7R4

John Masefield lived from 1878 to 1967.
- http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Masefield,_John
He's a June 1, Gemini!

posted May 23, 2021 01:33 PM            

In the late 1980s, I was in my mid-40s. I was busy-- a full-time working single-mom with 2 children. I signed up for a correspondence school, waking up around 4 am to listen to classes on cassette tape, and studying until 7 am-- the start of my working day.

I studied on my couch, and on the wall across from me was a large poster-sized drawing of a Tall Ship. The sails were full, and brushed with soft watercolors.

I drew much inspiration from this picture. Visited a pier when the Tall Ships had visited in my geo-area for some weeks.

Looking at the Ship, I started meditating on 'what' a Ship does. She looks so grand, magnificent, glorious, strong and Beautiful, as she remains fastened to her moorings at the dock. Such a sight to see!

But the 'purpose' of the Ship is not to be tied and admired. Her work is to sail! To be on the seas, moving cargo from one land place to another, very far away.

There are storms that can come upon the seas, where she is made minuscule by raging winds, and swelling waves with a threat to capsize her. She is helpless and lost to the power of these waves and the winds.. But her purpose Stands. Even with her sheets tattered and torn from her masts, her humans onboard rely on her to keep them alive until the seas come into their Calm once more.

She cannot do nor be anything, to her own self.
She is a Vessel, with a Purpose to BE,
and to Serve.

(music) The Anchor Holds
(Ray Bolz, lyrics)
[5:54] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSAc5Z2lprk

What's ironic?
I have a fear of being on a ship, boat, raft.. on Water. I'd had an accident while diving into a pool when I was a child.

We had been doing 'mummy dives'. You go straight down, stiff body, feet pointed towards the bottom. We had contests with the other kids to see who could 'touch' bottom.

I went down. My big toe got (temporarily) hooked under the huge thick metal grate on the bottom of the pool. I struggled a few moments, and then my toe released...

It took what seemed like FOR~Ever for my body to reach the surface of the water. My lungs wanted to breathe sooo badly!! To take a breath!!!

That's when I became aware of a Woman's Voice speaking to me from 'outside' the inside of me. She was sooo gentle, so loving, so powerful. She told me NOT to take a breath yet. To wait. She'd repeat the message several times as I desperately 'want' to take that breath! She stayed, her presence remained 'with' me the entire time...

And you know how they say that your 'life' passes before your eyes when you're about to die?.. I saw a vision of my blue bicycle leaned up against my father's white garage wall. My bike! was my freedom, my wind, my life, as a preteenager. Loved that sense of 'going' somewhere.. 'getting' somewhere.

My head broke the surface of the waters.
My Uncle {a Cancer, water sign} had noticed!!
They helped fish me out of the pool.

Afterwards, I could barely watch even TV shows about scuba divers, or submarines. I'd subconsciously hold my breath! Yikes. I guess the 'trouble' I had had, created a sense of traumatization that remained with me.

I once had a small apartment ON a beach. I'd spend HOURS and hours watching the waves, while seated on the side of a gentle huge sand dune. I loved it. Spent some nights sitting there, just watching waves in the moonlight. The phosphorous flecks in the crests of breaking waves would produce what looked like lightning flashes within the waves. I'd sleep under a catamaran at nights, even in a rain storm.

There were dolphins that would come at dawn. Bathers (and morning yoga enthusiasts) would go into the ocean and interact with them.

What I really caught-full, was the gentle curve of the Earth against the horizon. We DO live on a globe racing through Space. I'd watch Ships, layer by layer, rise OUT of the horizon, and like magic, even disappear the same way.

And I had a healthy reverence and fear of the POWER of the Ocean. This very very deep and still powerful body, knew its boundary limits-- never going past a certain range, wetting the sands on the beaches.

How can something sooo IMMENSE, so 'viscous', be also gentle and able to easily prop a Ship upon its surfaces!

(music) Sailing (Christopher Cross, lyrics)
[4:17] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XdD3Qy5U2t0

posted May 24, 2021 02:16 PM            

My eyeglass frames simply easily gently fell apart-- they broke-in-half in my hands about an hour ago.

Thank God that the current gov admin, had shown mercy and sent relief-checks to lower middle-class and the poor, in recent months. Was to help those who were devastated financially from COVID all of year 2020.

I waited. knew the American Rescue money would become my supplemental Medical fund, to cover needs that Medicare refuses to cover. By will of some politicals, Medicare health insurance doesn't cover needed eyeglass frames and prescription lenses; no dental visits; nor will they cover hearing-aids, making speech better discernible.

I guess those lucky enough to have a loving family, would need them to pitch-in funds, for covering those needs for their Senior members.

Proper Seeing and Hearing allows the elderly to continue to stay brightly interacting in society, enjoying normal human interactions.

(just-silly) The Story of the Little Red Riding Hood
(Fairy Tale Story for Children, animated)
[2:21] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ba2hJM3DxG4

Eyeglasses
I had planned on saving money by only changing the 'lenses' and continuing to use the same frames for a while longer.
. .
Nope! Frames gave no clue of breaking down. They seemed good. The cracking was hidden.
Yikes, like the infrastructure?

Bought them 5~6 years ago.
I'm legally blind without them.
Good thing that I'm fine seeing up-close.
Am able to type on keyboard, read what I type, and see the books and notes that surround the keyboard.
Yep!! Keep going..

The Positives
* New eyeglass frames will create a different 'look' for my face.
* Had I not waited, and changed the lenses on current frames??, I would NOW have to pay MUCH more money! -- Would have needed to replace the frames AND the lenses!!! That's really expensive!!!
Saved maybe $800.00 on lenses. WOW.
{Past cost form trifocal lenses, with UV protection to avoid cataracts, and to cut out constant eye pain I used to get from too-bright Sun outside}
. .

transiting URANUS entered the degree of my Venus Taurus 12.37'52" last night around 10:30pm EDT.
(That was exciting, actually. I kept refreshing the website I use in order to 'capture' the moment Uranus changed from 11+ to 12+.)
transiting SATURN turned retro in H2 {money}, and is in 'square' to natal Venus.
Hey!!?? Saturn!! Did ~YOU break my glasses???

BankCard
I'm still waiting for the new Bank Card ordered last week to arrive via mail.

Everyone
Enjoy your day--
Enjoy your Week.

posted May 26, 2021 11:45 AM            

quote:

---

Originally posted by Randall:
That song would be great for a werewolf movie.

---

Yes! haha

Randall, I appreciate you still keeping an eye out for people who want to communicate with me, through you (webmaster).

I am physically in *sonics* pain every.single.day. HAVE been for YEARS. I perceived that there were some folks that had been following my posts {outside of LL}.

They talked about a 'place to live' and a JOB where I could 'support' myself.

*crickets*

They keep offering, then don't ACT on it.
My *HEALTH* has been in jeopardy!!
My pain-doc had said to 'get the hell out of there' WHILE my HEALTH 'still' has the ability to RECOVER. That was over a year ago now.

I CANNOT relocate without 'an invitation', and 'a plan'.

Also, someone/people who are good problem-solvers, and can identify {know} outside resources easily.

Otherwise.... my life is crap. I'll be 'lost', and wind up in horrible places once more, where really, I would PRAY that The Lord TAKE my LIFE, and do it INSTANTLY.
(I don't want to wind up with severe health problems in the 'hands' of health-care system for whom my body-problems are 'too sophisticated' to handle. NO WAY. No relief. .. Relo, to good place, IS the beginning to healing this; and HAS been, for all these years.)

So Randall, I thank you for the Kindness of watching for folks that want to make an offer to me, using my LL-name in the Subject line.

Some of these folks have been aware of me for YEARS. Some already have my Contact Info as I'd been part of their email listing, or webinars.

Expanding Potential Fields for Inquiries ...

The other people (outside of Astrology) who think they could use someone with my talents and person-abilities, attitudes, good/excellent work ethics, (or have an interest based on my backgrounds), are ALSO welcomed to contact me.

I'm easily Trained.

Would very-much welcome the opportunity of learning a New Skill to enhance what they do. I want to work with a wonderful team of 'good people', who have great attitudes, who are there to support each other, in an effort to benefit and support 'The Work'.

I NEED a place to live that does NOT HARM my body, my Health. Once that bottom-most need for my life is covered, then I HAVE the positive potential of having 'a Life'. I deeply want my latter years, to be productive, and helpful to others. I want thriving, not barely-surviving and scared out-of-my-wits!

I have GOT TO get a place that does not HURT!! Right now, what my 'senses' {sensations of body} endure every single day is akin to a kind of torture. Being here, is sadistic.

Rm and I have NO 'bonds' of even friendship-- this has been a very light-acquaintanceship for YEARS the whole time I've served(?) for the past 14 years {June 1}. He signed a new one-year lease. He is 'happy & content' here. Me? I am in constant 'pain' here.
{He is also NOT a life-resource person to me, to help me "navigate" other parts of my life. It is a 'shallow' relationship. We don't 'talk' about life issues. He's 'all to himself' happy, and a recluse.}

I am a Hopeful person.
Have a great personality.
A cooperative person.
And, I Love to Learn.

*~
The folks that had said they were interested {and insisted that I communicate by "reading between the lines" rather than DIRECT are saying they want to postpone everything 'because the planets are retrograde' now. They want to re-open "offers" again in October--- when Jupiter goes Direct.
{Jupiter is my Chart Ruler, Sag Rising}

I HAVE a PHYSICAL Body.
It has been MANAGING pain, every single day.
Waiting until October?
October... means more DAILY PAIN, with disability, till it comes.

This situation is wearing out my BODY.
Just sayin'

Thanks again.

*~
Note: 10pm
{{And it looks like people are still not-ready. COVID really hit some. I'm just so worried re symptoms constantly, with this protracted stay, and what it's done? .. And COVID still affecting. Even though things are opening up, there is still much frenzy 'scrambling' going on re 'places' and ways of support. {Prices have JACKED up here}
I'm blessed to have a roof over head..
and yet, physically, it's sooo debilitating.
I just want things to work out for my life.}}

Sun in Gemini went into 6deg.
My Natal Sun Return occurs in 7deg.
7.50 exact on May 28 night.
Been playing with Solar Return Chart.

posted May 26, 2021 05:26 PM            

New Bankcard,
It has a new number to replace the one on-file with Paypal account that they have blocked me from accessing because I lack having a cell-phone that connects to internet---
. .
So. I received my new BankCard at noon yesterday.
Went back to the apartment and used my home's landline number to validate reception of the card, and coding my pin.
I know that they use fact of calling on home's Landline number as a way of identifying 'who I am'. (I wouldn't have been able to do that from another person or a business number, etc.)

New Spectacles
The first store I chose to visit, had a special 50% OFF I found the pair I want right away. Found a gold round-shaped wirerim, instead of the dark-color small rectangles that were giving me a darker look in my face around my eyes. I wanted a brighter lighter look!! hurray!!
The person who was my sales-guy was a VERY dashingly handsome and proper Asian younger man.
He said to me, Oh! You chose the same frames that *I* am wearing! .. at which point I took a longer closer look at his face.. In fact! He did. Told him I will remember him, because of that.

Remember, LOL!
I'm ~legally blind without my eyeglasses. To walk around my neighborhood I put on a pair of children's-sun-glasses. I wanted people to think I didn't notice them if they chanced to smile or wave at me.
I would not want to 'hurt their feelings' in case I couldn't return their smile or a wave.
Waves.. are easier to detect. I've been able to wave back! yay

$$ I got a FANTASTIC Deal! $$
Glad I didn't hesitate.
I paid HALF the amount of money that my now-broken pair cost me back around 2015~16++??!!

Won't be able to 'see' until they arrive at the store sometime during 1st week of June 2021.

For the Next Week, until they arrive,
Regarding the "visuals" of my environment--

I feel a sense of mild-creepy physical vulnerability, not being able to see the things that are "out there" in my surrounds.

The world visually seems softer, more graceful, and more blurry the further it goes! -- I've noticed this producing an internal 'effect'. I'm drawing more quietly within self. Softer, more 'inward' perceptions, than trying to get that tighter grip, and grasping all I can to "see" what needs to be noticed in this overloaded over-stimulating 'outside' world.

I barely notice words on signs anymore, even with eyeglasses. Too much!!

Ah.. yes, for a softer, more-gentle and Kinder World'.

posted May 29, 2021 02:01 PM            

(music) Another Trip Around The Sun #66
(Jimmy Buffett & Martina McBride)
[3:20] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RF5A-ethJek

(music) God Danced The Day You Were Born
(Andrew Lawrence, perf by Hot Soup)
[2:46] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XhAaOeypmsU

.
Was born on the evening of "Pentecost Sunday" -
Also known as "Whitsunday" (on the christian calendars)
- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pentecost

(music) The Zeal of God (lyrics)
[1:31] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2CAXQEaUok8

.
Born on weekend of America's
Memorial Day

(music) I Will Remember You
(Sarah Mclauchlan)
[3:39] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nSz16ngdsG0

- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Memorial_Day

.
These are my Sunset Years now ..
And, was born when The Sun had already set
below the horizon
on the day of my birth, my first breaths ..

(music) Even When He is Silent
(Kim André Arnesen, perf. Kantorei, Jan 2018)
[6:20] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MxFYTS1cpks

.
So.

It will be 'just another day' here, in the Neighborhood.
I will water my potted Butterfly Bush, and Boston Fern.
They're looking Healthy.
Butterfly Bush has gorgeous red-red blossoms being produced.

For the past month, I've had a little visitor, a toad/frog, jumping into the small pot of shamrocks I've kept alive for 4 years now. Yup, my little Night Visitor! Goes to bed inside the shamrocks when the Sun goes down.. soooo cute.

There's a plant nursery far up the street.
I may go there in this next week to buy myself either some potted marigolds {as natural mosquito repellent when opening my front-door}, or some red geraniums (to Celebrate). Guess I'll decide 'when I get there'.
.
(Want to wait to go up there after I receive those new eyeglasses, first.)
Ha! Reminds me of the first time I put on a pair of eyeglasses when I was 12yo. I had 'needed' glasses from age 8, but, my mother didn't believe me. She thought I wanted glasses because a classmate of mine had just gotten a pair.
I honestly couldn't 'see'... and, became afraid of needing them. In the line-up of vision-checks in the school, I would 'listen' and memorize what I 'heard' each student repeat.
My turn came, and they called lunch-break.
When the vision checks resumed, I had forgotten the answers. They sent a note to my mother... {I was so terrified of her.}
So -- First time I put them on, and went outside--
I was stunned~SHOCKED that Trees have Individual Leaves on them!!! LOL

When I'd owned my own house in the 1980s, every Memorial Day weekend, I'd plant some Beautiful Healthy red geraniums in a special round flower bed dedicated to them, by the end of the driveway in my front lawn.

I kept contoured-massed tulip flower beds that people would drive and stop by to see.

Squirrels played with them too! I'd see the heads of my peppermint-stripped pink ones being shaken-apart. The squirrels would lie on their backs, and pummel those. They wouldn't mess with any other color. Just the pink ones!

posted June 10, 2021 03:07 PM            

ITEM: Computer-generated LENSES ---
The eyeglasses made for me by the store are incredibly blurry and I can't see out of them.

Had to wait for the prescribing eye Doc
to get back from her vacation.

Finally got back. Checked my lenses.
Said the 'math' is good, both from her prescription and the math the store copied to make the lenses;
HOWEVER--

Problems can arise with COMPUTER MADE "progressive lenses."

The computer creates the progression, but NEEDS to be aligned correctly to where the person 'sees out' from the glass. They used to be made by lens-crafters, specially trained with this skill.

Had a skilled 'human' try to make those, they would have caught the mistake.

So I went to pick up some groceries afterwards.

As I grabbed a basket, the young person next to me helped hold things steady for both of us. ..

I noticed her big round gold wire glasses-- I said, "Hey! I just bought a pair like yours! Thing is? The prescription is off and I can't see when I wear them."

She said, "The same thing happened to me!"
Said that she put them on, and things seemed odd. She kept wearing them, thinking her eyes were adjusting-- and they hadn't. Bottom-line is that she was wearing glasses that she isn't seeing well out of.

I said, Take them back?
She said she has been wearing them too long to take them back.

I felt really bad for her.
Those are expensive!!
Perhaps her lenses weren't as complicated as mine? but certainly, I would have taken them back.

I'll be going back to the eyeglass store, and will choose another frame that doesn't have SO much glass to see out of. The progressive lenses will then have a smaller area view. It might help.

Also...
The frames will have a more 'conservative' look.
Yeah... The bigger eyeframes were trendy! *grin*

Back to being my conservative self!
Getting new glasses will take another few weeks. (frustrating)

ITEM: I have a Cellphone

Next door to the eyeglass place was an AT&T store. I had a question about my little (Obamaphone).

Went in to ask what it was I needed to do?

In the mean time,
Rm had walked into the store to ask question about problem with his account.

I came and stood with them.
Conversations ..
led to other conversations,
then SUDENLY --

the sales person 'showed' Rm
how he could ADD me to his account,
AND make his personal monthly bill ~$15 cheaper than only having himself there,
AND I got to 'purchase' a phone for $11.70!
Wha'????? OMG

MERCURY was (and still is) RETROGRADE??
Within the next 30 minutes,
I walked out of that store with
a 'Budget-ANDROID' cell phone!!!
Samsung A12 /aka Galaxy A12.
Wouldn't be good for my doing any videos, but lets me talk, text, and connect online.

My own Chart Transits were soooo freakin' making amazing connects DURING that transaction.

Harry and Meghan (God Bless!!)
were having their BABY at the same time.

Chart of Baby "Lili"
(matches my new phone, except has early Virgo Asc, not 29 Leo according to sales slip)

Baby Lili ~ Welcome Little One!!!!!!
BE a Force for GOOD!
Many Blessings!!!

- http://www.astro.com/astro-databank/Mountbatten-Windsor,_Lilibet

...
There's still a LONG way to go before I can USE that phone.
Have to LEARN it.
Also, need to take it back to the store so they can help me go 'further' with figuring out how to do SECURITY they require.

I don't understand what 'they' mean by the questions asked. LOL

Too much to say...

_______________
July 3, 2021 ADD
regarding Lilibet *Heart*
- http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum24/HTML/242933.html

(video astrology)
Meghan and Harry Welcome Daughter Lilibet Diana!
What the stars have to say…
(Carol Allen, posted June 11, 2021)
[13:46] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tw1J2caiTpc

posted June 17, 2021 11:07 AM            

Funny story about the eyeglass place---
I was choosing new frames, that had less glass to them.
Was trying on pairs, and really??? I couldn't make out what I looked like-- I need my glasses to see. LOL

Rm was there. The sales person.
I had 'choices' to make with NO idea which was the most appropriate choice for me. Rm was bleh.. Sales person held back her opinion saying they all looked good..

Then from against the wall, in a chair near the door, I heard a woman's voice say that 'the 2nd pair I tried' is the one that looks best on my face. I pulled one out and said This one? .. She said, no the other.
I tried them again, and indeed! I saw 'how' it was the best choice.
. .
I thanked that person most-heartily!!
I've done that for people before-- Gave my open opinion to strangers trying to choose dresses, etc.
Told her that her input was what I needed to make a decision.

Sales person told me about a new kind of progressive that increases width of areas used by eyes for reading (at computers, etc). I went for the upgrade, since I am constantly in front of computer screens.
.. When you wear progressives
you need to turn your head to adjust focus. They say the nose has to point in the direction you want to see.
.. With these wider allowance lenses, all I need to shift is my eyes, not whole head.
haha, I had learned to 'do it through the blurry' all these years.
So, That's Good!

Got to the cashier counter.
4 ladies and a man.
Heard someone say the word 'Gemini'.
I asked, You said Gemini?
She says, Yes, I'm a Gemini!
Wished her Happy Birthday, and said she had an Eclipse for her Birthday this year.
Another said that She was Gemini too.
Then my Sales person said that SHE's a Gemini, with a Virgo Moon, and Virgo Ascendant!!
Well.... omg. That's all this section of the store needed to break out in a Gemmy Party!!
I shared that I myself was a Gemini with Virgo Moon.

So, there had been conversation about Trivia Contests. The Gem with Virgo Moon said her friends had categories-- one friend was science, another was history, etc. They designated 'her' as the broadly knowledgeable person on a Trivia Team.

At that point I said how important knowing trivia IS.. It's NOT trivial.
Told them about Tilly Smith, a young girl who saved many lives on polynesian island 'because' of a piece of trivia she remembered from her geography classes. Before a 'tsunami' hits, the waves on shore appear severely retracted, and remain like that for an inordinate-while. .. She told her town. They were able to 'prepare' for the hit, and it came. Saved Lives.

At that point, I noticed the faces of the gemmies!
ha.. They were all engrossed.
Then I said,
And THAT story.. is NOW an added piece for YOUR "trivia" knowledge.

They said, ~yes.. and we all broke out laughing.
Gave a mini-reading for the Scorpio member of the team, and she highly approved!!
The man was (most-obviously) a Capricorn, and I listed some traits of Capricorns. The women were agreeing.

Spirits were high. I greatly-enjoyed being with them. Reminded me of all the Gemmies that had worked at the Volunteer Office I did. It was Nuts!! Everyone wanting to talk, and talking fast, and going from person to person on the insertion of a 'comma',,,, Exhilarating!!

So once again, I was leaving the store.
The lady sitting against the wall was still there.
I said to her, and What Sign are You??
She said, Gemini! ... omg.
I waved at the women at sales desk,
made a BIG pointing sign at this woman in the chair. I hollered, Another "GEMINI"!
Everyone laughed.

We left the store.

Gemini's.. The Rock Stars of The Universe!

Everywhere: Happy Birthday my Gemmies!!

posted June 19, 2021 12:09 PM            

Here's another ..

A few days before that, I had to go to doctor office for the yearly blood tests.

The care staff had changed, AGAIN! There is a doctor shortage in this locale, and this 'clinic' I attend is actually for fresh immigrants coming to this country. The receptionist has a VERY hard time understanding English. .. In the past, I could NOT understand the nurse because her accent went WAY too thick. In person, I could stop her and try to clarify what she just said, but if she left a voice message on my phone-machine, it was not understandable.

I learned in the local news that our central counties have more spanish speaking people (per capita) than any other location in the USA. That was a surprise.

Even for that Volunteer job I had, they expressed the wish to hire me, shortly after I started; I was a good fit for them. But their funding had just been slashed-- draconically reduced. They needed to hire two native-spanish speaking people (because of demographics). Even with those newly hired women, they needed me as a coach for understanding nuances in English as second language. I learned to use English spoken in a spanish-accent with them, and some of the callers I screened for services. English spoken with a spanish accent does much to increase understanding. The neighborhood I live in has overwhelming spanish-speaking population, with many who cannot speak English at all. That was how I learned their accent.

So. Back to the clinic office.

The new nurse-assistant was going over my (electronic) chart. There was an intern-assistant there. She asked my permission to learn hearing pulses in the body. I said sure.

So, she "practiced" her medical things, while I was in conversation with the other person.

The Capricorn was on the computer talking to me, while the Cancer woman practiced her skills at hearing pulses in various parts of the body.

While I was speaking to the Capricorn, the Cancer had finished most of my body pulses, and now began to take off my left sneaker.

Instantly! I wanted to stop her from handling my shoe (it's dirty to handle). I wanted to interrupt the ongoing convo with the Capricorn, to remove my OWN shoes.

Something inside of me said, 'Let HER do this for you. Receive!'

I felt a rush of upsetness.
I mean, I SHOULD be removing my-own dirty shoes? ... But no.
Inside me, a firm Beautiful Voice said, "Receive."

I recalled a video of an astrologer like 9 years ago, where the person was describing that some people need to learn to Receive. LET people "DO" for you...

My inner radar (LOL) kept scanning her for 'reactions'. Was there 'ANY' part of her that objected to what she personally was doing for me?

Answer was 'not a bit'.
She did ALL with a very clean Heart intention.

She removed my shoe, then gently rolled the sock down to my arches. Pressed places in my ankles ..

At that point I stopped my convo with Capricorn. I remarked, Omg, You (Cancer) are sooo Loving. What you are doing has such Caring in it.

The Capricorn said, Yes she's a mother.
In the meantime, I had such reactions going on within me.

How LONG has it been to have had someone else touch my body in such Loving Service! Decades upon decades!!!!!

This was sooo Beautiful.
Somewhat overwhelming...

And I remembered... How Jesus had knelt in front of his disciples, and removed their sandals. Then he washed their feet, and dried them with a towel. (This was their guru!)

And I remembered... How Pope Francis made a practice of washing the feet of people who were considered the lesser-than in society, among members of the audience that gathered to see him.

After the Cancer woman did my left foot, she did the right foot.

All the while, I had resumed answering questions that the Capricorn asked--- and was lucidly aware of the person attending to my body.

Receive.
Receive.
Service ..
From someone with a Beautiful Heart.
Her touch (and Heart) was clean and of Service.
Not one small bit of her, resented the "Doing" of this for another person.

This song is from my Belief System inner-files.

Jesus had a Message of Love--
Love of God,
Love of Others as-though *they* are your-own kin.

That experience with the Cancer woman is now in my inner-Bank of Experiences during my lifetime. I have a treasure of memories-- assortments of Beautiful Humans that Exist(ed) on this planet.

In Honor of the Beautiful Souls that walk this planet, at this present time.

posted June 26, 2021 08:58 AM            

First an aside--
Brit B, Cam, I didn't realize that there were still people on my side. I'd heard some 'ugly' talk and thought all had been lost. I've been grieving. .. Along with a low-grade terror all the time in my body.

I love some of the astro-advice by <name-removed.. after an awful realization>. He had done a recent one describing differences between Fantasies (phantasms), Dreams, Visions, and Illusions. Made mention of mirages. Yup! my LL name. I assure you I *am* and have been the real deal here. LOL. I created my name, sitting at computer in a library. I had had a night dream that was a scene from a cartoon-- Bugs Bunny. It was a scene where he had been in a desert, and by an oasis. In the dream he was bouncing around in the funny way he does, and was saying, 'It's a mirage-ee it's a mirage-ee' (like miraji), and I literally woke up laughing out loud when he said that.
.. It brought me joy!
.. So when I was trying to think of a name to register by (at a different social media forum-based site, not LL), his joyful cry mirageeee came back to me, with a chuckle in my belly. Thought that it might be a cool name to use.
.. I added my calendar birth "day" number "29" to the end of it, to make it more distinguishable ~~ afterall, a mirage needs an "address"? Birth-day address?! *grin*

I love celebrating birthdays, holidays, special days.

When I got into astrology, one of the studies that had my interest for a while were the "prenatal eclipses."

Learned that your Prenatal Solar Eclipse {PNSE} is a sign of your 'universal' destiny. The energy of the Collective Unconscious that needs to be consciously Expressed on the Earth, at that given-point in Time for its own balance. It's the place where you were "dusted" with that energy, and with a Promise to spread that energy on earth-- to help with the growth and evolution of the planet.
.. It's what The Universe invested in you, and what you have promised to share during your travels on earth-- to share with your fellows, and succeed in manifesting and modeling for others. It's what you are here to 'clarify' for the Collective Whole.
[ref-- Danielle A Ricard, 2002]

"Eclipse-- reveals the hidden,
and hides the obvious."
~Punneit
Vedic astrologer

Today is Saturday Morning.

On Thursday, June 24, 2021
we had
* Full Moon in Capricorn 3.27'44".
Sun Cancer 3+ was on my Mars in H7 gemini.
{Jupiter is my Ruler of my Chart H1sag. H8 Cancer}
FM Venus was ON my "Jupiter" Cancer 27+ H8
FM Jupiter was in Pisces 2.09 (just retrograded).
.. Jupiter Pisces H(3) trines my Mars Cancer 2.36. H7gem
{I have the majority of my planets at 24-27 Degrees.
My chart is lit up like a Christmas Tree!

segue?

* My Prenatal Solar Eclipse degree is Capricorn 2.58 in my Sag H1.
* My Equatorial Ascendant is Capricorn 2.06.
* On the CALENDAR, The Holiday of Christmas falls in those Capricorn degrees.

The Capricorn Prenatal Solar Eclipse H1sag
happened (while I was still 'in the womb' and my mom was probably feeling the first movements of life within her body) while my mother attended Roman Catholic 'MIDNIGHT MASS', a High Mass that starts around 11:30 pm on Dec 24, with Choirs singing their Best!!, and goes at Midnight into The Mass which is totally chanted/sung (not spoken) at Midnight Christmas DAY.

Heck! I was in church, to Celebrate (a day, not THE day) Jesus was Born.

My future Venus Taurus was probably enthralled by all the Lights, the Highest Quality Music of the WHOLE liturgical year, the Joy that comes WITH that Season .., smell Incense, Highest quality Priestly Vestments, and the Gorgeous flowers and Creche representing the Stable (with statues) of Baby Jesus, and His Family.

Celebration of LIFE!! of Joy, of Fellowship, of Hope for Humankind.
Of Gifts, and Fantastic Meals.

My mother was the first in that generation on both sides to become pregnant. Yup. I was the Child that opened the womb for the first born of my family (on both sides) generation.

My "Phantasm" LOL, Fantasy for PNSE, are the contents of two Christmas Songs. One says to Celebrate Christmas (in your Heart) EVERY day of the Year. To have the 'attitude' of Love, prizing EACH soul you meet, as though *they* are A Gift.

(music) "Secret" Of Christmas (Bing Crosby)
[3:42] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QvZzarxzxhc

Lyric
Is not the things you do at Christmas time,
but the Christmas things you DO all year through!

The other song---
Lyrics --
My Grown Up Christmas Wish.

Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you with childhood fantasies

Well I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehow
I'm not a child but my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up Christmas list
Not for myself but for a world in need

* No more lives torn apart
* That wars would never start
* And time would heal all hearts

* And everyone would have a Friend
* And Right would always Win
* And Love would never end

This is my grown up Christmas list

As children we believe
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely wrapped beneath the tree
But Heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never Heal a hurting human soul

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, no
This is my grown up Christmas list
This is my only lifelong wish
This is my grown up Christmas list!

Songwriters: Linda Thompson / David Foster
My Grown Up Christmas List lyrics © Peermusic Publishing,
Warner Chappell Music, Inc

(music) My Grown Up Christmas List
(Kelly Clarkson, list)
["4:44" ] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h1TTnPdZOZI

So... My Dream and Vision is to be part of a Loving Working Team, dedicated to Helping Humans, and supporting each-other in what we do.

I'm kind of a Resource person, a Data-Collector and disseminator. .. I took part in someone's first webinar having to do with Kindness and Gratitude. And I noticed as I eagerly waited on the first speaker, that I was there NOT just for 'me'-- I had different people (here at LL, and others) on my mind. Some of the materials being taught were not just my interest, but FOR Helping different individuals that I know.

I attend Webinars, to learn how to better-teach people the contents of whatever I attend to. I'm a natural Teacher. What anyone teaches ME how to do, it is not wasted on only one person, I SPREAD the know-how, or whatever, to other individuals that can be benefitted BY the information.

I LOVE to help others in whatever ways I can.
A lot of times, the people I help would NOT have that help -- because of financials, or lack of Connections. I .. have known people, that I recommend others to! It's a natural instinct for me.

I recall a professional job I got at a small college. I was their administrative coordinator. I was soooo nervous. I'd never received 'training' for it, and yet, I had to have faith in the person that hired me. They would have never given me that job (over all the other applicants) if they didn't think I'd been good at it.
.. After my first week, I called up the Operator/switchboard, and thanked her for the calls she passed my way. I said to her, How did you Know?.. How did you know I'd be able to answer those people's requests? .. Her answer was simple-- She said, You seem like a person that Knows Things.

And yup. I Am.
Sometimes I don't Know that I KNOW?
But I do it.

In terms of my problems here...
IF I KNEW "how" to solve MY own problems here--
I would have DONE IT.

I've been in SUCH despair!!!
Need another Good place to be, to live, to be of Help.

Like I've mentioned... to BE among people
who CARE about each other. Quality People. Smart People. Fun and Loving People. Supporting each other.

I have sooooo much to say!
Soooo much going on.
.. and some things that are frightening to me, personally.
I WISH I had Support Friends in real-life space.
I feel alone... and bearing things alone that I REALLY need Other Humans to share with.

I'm so isolated here.
Rm is not wired to be Supportive. Just the way he is. Can't fault that?

People here are from another culture, and barely speak English.

I've looked into relocation to Senior place,
with no real ability to DO that!!
My income won't let that happen.
And being here makes me physically ill.
And the anxiety inside of 'not getting out' is really mounting up, in a physical way, in my body.

Rm KNOWS (especially at that time he signed another year's lease here) that my WISH is to leave... for Medical Reasons!! *sonics +++++!!*
(Why didn't he ever get serious with me, after 14 years of my support to him here?.. He's gay. Didn't know if you all knew that. He hasn't been active in a long time. But, I am definitely not his type.
We get along together. We're a fit in that we can stand each other, in a tiny apartment. That's an accomplishment! 14 Years June 1st.

Going to close this post now.
Like I said, there's TOO much to say..
and some things I can't say.