posted January 10, 2002 06:30 PM         

i was born with mild cerebral palsay and through much of my young childhood (0-12) was sick and also had to wear splint around my legs which i hated and other children would tease me for, around about the time i was 12 i refused to wear splints or plaster cast anymore cause i was sick of being looked at like a freak. i learnt not to judge some one from the outside and that beauty comes from within (yay!)

i have also sufferd from anorexia and bulimia not because of how i thought i looked but because i need help from my parents and i didn't know how to ask for it.
i have finally conquerd those afflications and still have bad days (but don' t we all?) but i learnt to ask for help and that people's reactions are not always what you think there going to be

all my love
Seraph*****************

posted January 10, 2002 10:45 PM         

But you chose this for a reason, and I am so happy to see you grow through it.

posted January 10, 2002 10:54 PM         

I think your attitude is awesome.

posted January 11, 2002 01:03 AM         

And you are right...once we get over our fear of asking, we find most folks aren't what we expected

You are one 'tough'

posted January 12, 2002 06:36 PM         

you guys are fantastic!
************seraph

posted January 14, 2002 02:20 PM         

Just a thought, Endaphia, but your last post made me think of OSheen's thread in Free For All called *How to make the ego run* - have you tried that yet? It's kind of like we have a personal *in box* of things that need attending to, and just by finally signing off on them (acknowleding) they are finally *handled* or at least on their way

I think now, and what no one ever told me, the first lesson we should learn is to Love ourselves - faults and all - in the same way any enLightened soul would Love/accept/not judge another - faults and all - fully realizing no One is perfect, oursElves included... Endaphia, to accept all of us has a negative side as a part of oursElves is to understand that lives everywhere, the darkness seeking the light... so, just as you would readily and willingly help another soul in realizing the same, you can do this for yOu too In fact, I think you have already begun

An aside... This reminds me of why/how I was always so careful not to relate to my children I thought they were *bad* just because they made a mistake I think until we make a mistake, we don't have an opportunity to become more wise.

~Princess

posted January 14, 2002 03:03 PM         

1. Be brutally honest with yourself about your character. Find and admit those nasy things about yourself that you do not like ... like, are you emotionally manipulative? Do you let people walk all over you so you can feel superior deep down for being better ... do you give to charity, even silently, just to feel that you are a good person rather than just out your heart ... spill out all that you know that you would die if anyone ever found out on paper ... in detail ....it is funny how the negatives will start to pop up Well, it is a life process. I have not yet learned to Love myself ... but I do feel that it would be impossible to do if I was not able to eventually come to a point where I could be brutally honest about my shortcomings without judgement.

2.An abundance of talent and other God given gifts are not necessarily better than 'only' a few. Each gift carries responsability and from that Karma.

3.I am nothing, and I DESERVE nothing. Therefore, EVERYTHING is a gift.

4.Money is only a tool, not a goal.
(I am getting there )

5. I am starting to learn that all of the Love I focus on my Other, and all of the good things I see in him is also in me too because we are apart of each other. I am trying to see myself in that way also. For those who have not met their twin this time around, the things you love about other people are also a part of you.

posted April 13, 2002 05:50 PM         

QUITE!

posted April 13, 2002 06:01 PM         

I can sense that this is the path I had chosen before I came to Earth. I have Mercury-Saturn conjunction which means that more likely a person of this combination has either speech or hearing problem.