posted July 30, 2002 11:21 PM         

After that, she moved to another city and as I continued along in my life I expanded my spiritual beliefs on my own with astrology, tarot and meditation. As I became more and more spiritual, I realized my own abilities to "read" people and now my intuition is the only thing I use for decisions. All that I know is from first hand experience, and I have never taken anyone's word for it without trying it for myself. In addition to leaving my body, recalling past lives and seeing/feeling many other "strange" things, I have successfully used all of the above mentioned concepts and that has pretty much proven to me that there is something more than the physical.

Of course, I still have no clue as to how it all got here and don't know what came first, the chicken or the egg?, BUT I don't think that is as important to know as having the knowledge that our own karma/purpose is a real thing that we have chosen.

All in due time-space....

posted July 31, 2002 10:30 PM         

Time went passing…

One day I was with my boyfriend in a bar, we were talking and suddenly we stopped speaking, the two at the same time.
I asked him if he was seeing what I was. He told me that he had seen a man and I answered that for me …was a woman.

Little by little these visions went disappearing and for to many years I don't see anything else...but something continues.

From small, I feel something that is going to happen. Once ,I was with my former-husband and without any reason I asked on a friend of him. At this time we lived in Miami and his friend lived in Brazil. My former-husband said that he didn't speak to that friend for about 6 months and he asked me why I said that. I answered that there was no reason, it just came me that thought.

In the end of the afternoon the friend called, he was in Miami and wanted to meet us...

The time went passing and I went moving away of my "spiritual side", for reasons that I don't get more to remind. Until that 18 months ago, I had a very painfull experience, I suffered a lot, I regretted a lot,I even wanted to die...

But I didn't die ,instead I decided to learn...

I began studying about religions, for instance Kardecism. One thing took to another and I discovered that my true interest was astrology.
I am crawled but I am not in a hurry (Saturn ).

Once someone told me that "only when the disciple is ready the master appears ".

It was it exactly what happen to me...Maybe is my 8 house where I have Uranus, Mercury, Pluto and the Sun !

posted August 02, 2002 09:16 AM         

no where in all these thousands of years.

With their erogent points of views did the new world not exist untill Christofer Columbous found it??? After all, nobody in Europe had yet to see it!!!

posted August 02, 2002 06:27 PM         

I got married early, divorced early and married again.
I was pregnant without knowing , than I had a dream with a " man " that I thought extremely illuminated, but I didn't think about him as a guardian angel. In this dream I found a baby in the street and I didn't know what to do with him, that " man " appeared and I asked if he could take the baby to his house, he answered me without opening his lips, mentally, that the baby was mine, that child had come for me and I should be with him.

I woke up quite impressed with that dream, but I didn't think about that for a while, two weeks later I discovered that I was pregnant.

Many years passed and I had a very happy marriage until everything began to change.
Months before my divorce, I entered in a great depression, as if I knew that something is going to happen but without knowing exactly what it was.
To make a long history short, after my divorce , I was talking with a very good friend ,she is a spiritual medium Kardecist, I don't know if you believe in that...
Telling several related facts about my separation, attitudes that I and my husband had, my depression, problems of health and other things , my friend told me to pray.

Not the kind of "prayer" that I use to do…

posted October 05, 2002 01:33 PM         

what an interesting topic and moreso interesting responses!

I have posted bits and pieces of this in other forums but in a nutshell, I was raised in a Christian faith. But even within this upbringing, I was exposed to other sides of life, as my mother consulted tarot readers and such and my grandmother had an intuition about things similar to my own. At one time in my life I thought I was a very religious and devote person of my faith, but looking back I realize that I misunderstood the true meaning of faith. I thought if I were present every time the doors of my church opened then I was ensured a wonderful spot in the afterlife.

Once I broke up with my first husband, I came to know a tarot reader, who in her house mixed several types of faith. She even had a statue of the Virgin Mary sitting on the table that she laid the cards on. She spoke of the Bible, and different aspects of faith. At that time I thought to myself, she is a nut. How could she be a Christian and mix these things. And furthermore, what am *I* doing here, shuffling these "devil" cards and letting her read for me? When I left her house that night, she told me that I was very skeptical of her, and that I would never see her again because of it. Many years later, I have yearned to see her again, because I now understand her. But alas, she has passed on, and true to her prophecy, I never did see her again.

But, I believe that my true exposure to my ride of faith, came that night, for I have become so much like Nita, learning things about different religions. I now own a pair of tarots, that I read for myself only, because I am not that experienced in them yet. I look forward to the astrology class. And so many things have happened to me over the past few years, but most importantly since February of 2001.

In Feb of 01 I had a dream..or it may have been January, anyway, I dreamt of seeing a cross in the sky, and words being written in the sky in an ancient language. I knew in the dream what they meant, and I witnessed the hand of God writing them. I fell onto my knees and all I could say was "oh gracious God" over and over. The walls to my parents church fell in that dream, but they saved the children and the senior citizens of the church. Upon having this dream, and recalling 2 prophetic dreams I had about my own daughters birth and the birth of my now Godchild, I realized that there was something going on in my life.

I consulted a friend who read tarots for me at that time, and I confided all of this into Mark. Mark felt an urge to pull out all of his decks and began pulling cards from them all. They all told him that I was embarking on an awakening and taking me to higher level in life. To follow my intuition and trust it 100%. To follow my dreams and trust them as well, as I had been given gifts and a spirit guide and these gifts were from the highest of places in the universe.

I realized then that I could read auras of people, although at the time I had no idea of how or why I was able to read people. I also began dreaming more vividly about this guide, and he has "rescued" me several times in dreams. Came to me more recently while I dreamt of lying in a coffin. He told me to open my eyes and open my mouth and began to pour an unidentified liquid in my mouth as I watched my body and myself struggle with waking up.

So...at this point, I am still practicing Christian beliefs, for I love studying and my prayer life. But I'm learning to take bits and pieces of things I have learned and insert them into my life to make it more productive. And I have felt that this board was a step in the learning process for me. And given the nature of it lately what great lessons I have and continue to learn daily, about fear and forgiveness. Forgiveness on my part anyway. For today I feel something inside of me...and I feel the sadness of this board, full strength. I feel the urging of others, who have not come out to speak, but I feel them just the same. And I'm just as sad as they all are.

But light will prevail as the ultimate victor, no matter the religious path, light will overcome the darkness.

posted October 05, 2002 03:46 PM           

This was about the same time I discovered paganism and the Goddess. I finally had a name for my thoughts, beliefs, and feelings. It did a lot to help my state of mind. I still have bouts of depression from time to time but I have outlets now that USUALLY help if I combat the depression before it hits full-on.

I think I talked about this in the Pilgrams Progress forum, though.

I've always been fascinated in the occult, though. For as long as I can remember... but that might be because I see lots of spirits so it's always been a part of my life.