posted August 23, 2003 01:55 AM           

I'm pregnant. I just found out.

I'm really scared.
I've never been so scared in my whole life.

posted August 23, 2003 05:58 AM         

Take some deep breaths! Blow out that fear with each breath. Just release it and let it go, ok?

This is wonderful news! It really is!
When two Souls, that Love each other as much as you and Jason do, are joined in the act of Love, they send a very special signal into the ethers. That signal attracts the most highly evolved Souls waiting to be re-Birthed. Such children are truly "gifts of God/dess"!
Your Love for each other can only be strengthened by this manifestation of Light.

Yes, it's very scary! But what, exactly, are your fears? That you aren't ready to be parents? That this will change your Life? That you won't be good parents? That you can't afford a child? The list can go on and on...

Trust your Higher S-elf! This is happening, NOW, for a very good reason! Even if you can't see the reason yet.

You are probably correct about the Pluto aspect. I think we tend to concentrate too much on the 'destruction' of Pluto and not enough on the 'rebuilding'. He tears down our old Life and old ways to make room for a new and amazing Life!

You and Jason's Love has manifested the greatest Miracle! The creation of Life! How awesome is that?!?

I don't mean to sound like Pollyanna. Of course, this will change your Life. It will absolutely change who you are and how you see the world. Those are NOT bad things! Only different. Different is always scary!

Calm and center yourS-elf. Relax. Listen to your inner voice. Listen to your Heart. Listen to Jason's Heart. What do you hear there?
Everything you have shared with us about this relationship has shown the "hand of Fate". You both kNOW you were meant to be together! You had already made the choice to dedicate your Lives to each other BEFORE this news. I personally feel that this is the UNI-verse's stamp of approval!

Release, relax, let go. Give yourS-elf up to the Joy of Love and Life. Then watch the Miracles roll in! It's an AWE-some ride!
And if anyone can appreciate it, it's you and your sweet Aqua!

While you are working on getting your head in line with your Heart and Soul, we are here for you!

If you want to talk, rant, laugh or cry, I'm only an e-mail away!

posted August 23, 2003 06:43 AM         

im sorry i wasnt around earlier today, wow!

i should be around today if you wanna chat. i know how scary this can be, i have had unexpected news myself.

anyway hopefully i will be around and we can chat *hugs hugs and more hugs*

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where i end and you begin there's a gap in between there's a gap where we meet where i end and you begin
and i'm sorry for us the dinosaurs roam the earth the sky turns green where i end and you begin

posted August 23, 2003 08:44 AM         

Don`t be frightened, it`s the perfect gift fron the divine to fullfill her,yours and Jasons soul journey.

posted August 23, 2003 10:45 AM         

i understand that the thought of babies makes people happy. babies make me happy too. the thing of it is, that sometimes the time is just not right, and the ONLY people who can make that determination is the people directly involved. i think that i can understand this, because i have been in a similar situation. i can only extrapolate how i think corri might be feeling, but i would ask that we all just support her right now, and try to not gush about how babies are blessings. they certainly are, but like i said, sometimes the time is just not right and the thought of a baby is enough to make some people deeply upset and torn inside.

i have no idea what corri is going through, as i havent spoken to her about it, but by reading her first post here, i dont get the impression that this is a celebration, but something that is REALLY scaring her, and something that she and jason will have to think about. they have barely started their lives, and a baby is a VERY big responsibility. it could well be that this is not something that corri and jason wanted right now, and i just think we should hold off on the congratulatory wishes until she is herself assured of her own feelings, and jason with his. just give her some space... i know that we all care about her and jason very much but honestly... she is terrified right now, i got nothing from her post that pointed towards celebrations.

please care about her and support her, but try not to gush about babies because it can make her feel guilty for her very tangible worries. we forget sometimes that the spiritual is not the only realm we must deal with, there is also the physical realm and that has many difficulties in and of itself. its all well and good to wax romantic and ponder the joys of procreation, but honestly? not all of us have the means to support a child, nor the stability that a child would need. it is a CHILD, and no amount of astrology or spiritual belief will take care of all a childs needs.

i hope that i have not offended, i have not talked to corri yet off the board, but i DO care very much about her as a person, and so i have to try to protect her feelings as best i can.

so lets just be there for her (and jason), support and love her, and let her find her own emotions about this news first, and then we can be there for her. focus on her, not the pregnancy.

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where i end and you begin there's a gap in between there's a gap where we meet where i end and you begin
and i'm sorry for us the dinosaurs roam the earth the sky turns green where i end and you begin

posted August 23, 2003 10:48 AM           

Thank you.

Thank you to everyone else, too.
Your support does mean a lot, but I'm mostly just frightened off my rocker right now.

posted August 23, 2003 11:05 AM         

May the Stars and your Higher-Selves guide you in the right direction

posted August 23, 2003 11:14 AM         

i know that you will make the right choices in life, and no matter what happens, i am always your friend and will support you no matter what.

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where i end and you begin there's a gap in between there's a gap where we meet where i end and you begin
and i'm sorry for us the dinosaurs roam the earth the sky turns green where i end and you begin

posted August 23, 2003 02:53 PM         

Are you sure? Like Sure-Sure? Did you do a home test? Cuz a false positive is much more common than a false negative, you know...Also, anything could happen still. This is a very precarious phase of a pregnancy. How does J feel about it?

I knew he was destined to be the father of your kids...it's that recipricol venus/moon conjunction. And you'll make a beautiful baby together.

But, you do have options. Just know that statistics show that couples who ...ahem "excersize the other option" are 80 somewhat percent likely to break up as well. It leaves a big yucky spot in the relationship that is very difficult to get past. These are stats I was given when I was in your predicament, and I suppose they could have been slanted by the pro-life
people. There's always adoption too, but I think that's hard on a relationship too. And individuals as well.
Once you're in this state, there ARE no easy solutions. Even the ones that seem easy weigh very heavy on the soul sooner or later, if chosen. The only option that doesnt leave you with regret is having the baby and keeping it. Sounds like an atomic bomb being dropped on your life, I know.
But as for the financial part of it, I'm sure his family wouldn't let you guys be out on the street or anything like that. And you're such a cool chick, and a sweetie pie that I'm sure they'll grow to adore you as much as J does, if they don't already.
And your fam would be there for ya too, right? I mean, think about it Corri. It's not like you're 15 or something for Heaven sake. Sure you're young, but look at it this way. By the time you're (how old are you? about 22?) by the time you're 35, your kiddo will be old enough to look after her/himself, and you'll still be young enough to have fun and enjoy the independance. I believe it's best to get child rearing over with early, so you can still relate to them when they're teens, and there's not such a generation gap between you's.
Yes, there's alot to consider. You have plenty of time. That's why we carry for 9 months...cuz it takes about that long to prep for them. But you'd be amazed how helpful and actively involved people become when you're an expecting mom. I honestly don't think you have anything to worry about, except of course, no more rock-star partying for you, and you have to travel less lightly, of course. If you breast feed, you don't even have to pack bottles around. If you're young and strong you can put them in a papoose or kangaroo harness dealie and carry them everywhere you go, and still have your arms free. At least when they're really small.
So, when would it be born?

I know it's a real head rush, Corri. But in a relatively short period of time, the idea will set in quite nicely and the panic will ease. Babies have a way of taking their place in the world and it's like they were always meant to be there. And then you wonder what the heck you would do without them. LOL. It's true. They fill you up with so much poingnent gut level feelings of love and protectiveness, it chokes you up just watching them sleep.
On the other hand, I can only speak for myself. If someone has alot of their own personal issues plaguing them, and they're too busy excersizing their own demons, maybe they're unable to nurture a child. They're still trying to figure out how to nurture themselves. Maybe they feel emotionally bankrupt, and they have nothing to give a child. Then, in that case the other options may be right for them. But Prox, I don't think this describes you.
Some people are just to self absorbed to take the attention off of themselves. They'll resent having to cater to a child. They'll resent being inconvenienced in any way. The only child who's important to them is theirself. I don't think this describes you either.

Sometimes life deals you a crazy hand. What can you do, but take what you're dealt and play the hand as best you can. Whatever you decide to do, it'll have a life long impact on you. Just be sure you can live with whatever that is.

Have I been of any help to you? Probably not. But I've been there. I had the baby. She's 13 now, and gorgeous. She's a royal pain in the butt more often than not, and my phone rings far too much,(hey, she's a teenybopper) but she's a good person, and I love her to peices. And she doesn't need babysitters anymore..whoohoo!

posted August 23, 2003 06:18 PM           

Thank all ya'll.
I was being just a lil' bit flakey this morning (OK, I was being a lot a bit flakey, and have now been downgraded to only moderately moderating flakiness), because - hey - it's a shocker, y'know?
(The odd part about that being that I think that I've kinda known for a couple weeks now...fuh-reaky).

I'm still profoundly twitchy about it, but think that Jase got it right when he said that one one hand his mind was racing about how nuts it is, but on the other something inside is still and calm saying, "It'll all be alright."
That's how it is for me, too.

So, uh, yeah.
*still stunned into incoherence*

Day Dreamer, albescence, super_bull - Thank you. I may not quite know what's happening yet, but thank you.

Kat - Thank you; I see none of that in myself ( ), but it means something that you'd pop-in and say that.

Aphrodite - Thank you, again. You always provide the right support when needed.

anafaery - Thank you for sharing your insight w/ me; you said a number of things that I needed to hear, and acted wonderfully as a patient soundingboard.

juni - Thank you. Part of me isn't frightened...the rational part, however, is (and I'm talking the purely rational, can't-see-the-forest-for-the-trees part here).
This is wonderful in every sense of the word.
I'm still scared, though.

Loony - It has in a way already strengthened us. Our first reactions - our initial gut responses -, respectively and mutually, were to go and cling to the other, to seek comfort and guidance from them - which is a wonderful thing, in my opinion, and not entirely expected.
I mean, I know that's how we react under normal circumstances, but this - frankly - is not normal. It's something bigger than we've ever faced, and so far we've been very mutually supportive and concerned.

Calm and center yourS-elf. Relax. Listen to your inner voice. Listen to your Heart. Listen to Jason's Heart. What do you hear there?
Everything you have shared with us about this relationship has shown the "hand of Fate". You both kNOW you were meant to be together! You had already made the choice to dedicate your Lives to each other BEFORE this news. I personally feel that this is the UNI-verse's stamp of approval!
I know that we've felt the "hand of fate" throughout all this, and maybe you're right about the last bit.

posted August 23, 2003 06:45 PM           

Come Dancing Wit Jah
and
DJ Fred and MC Ginger
are the best.

posted August 23, 2003 08:15 PM         

*hugs* im so happy you are feeling better!

i very much need to talk to you, could you go on IM at all soon?

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where i end and you begin there's a gap in between there's a gap where we meet where i end and you begin
and i'm sorry for us the dinosaurs roam the earth the sky turns green where i end and you begin

posted August 23, 2003 08:51 PM         

Whatever you decide is the right decision. Whenever you decide to be a parent, your child will have interesting, intelligent, unique and loving parents. So long as there is money for the basics, not much else is needed.

I will wish for you as I see fit, from my own heart, and so I wish you many happy blessings...

posted August 24, 2003 01:20 AM           

I'm doing better...a bit "AAAAAAAA!!!" still, but good. Oddly calm.

Jase's being so funny.
He started talking to my stomach (well, the uterine area).
"Hello.
My name's Jason, but you can call me Dad, or Daddy...or Sir. Or Papi or Pops or Pop or Abba if you're feeling...Jewish.
This isn't how I normally sound, but my nose in pressed into Mommy's tummy.
We're going to go to Bug shows, and tool around, and have a great time in general.
*blows on stomach*
That's a zerbert - that's what I love to do to Mommy's tummy..."
It went on for a while...
my Goofy, Goofy Aquarius.
And he kept...I dunno, giggling and getting completely excited: "I'm going to be a DADDY! Hi, MOMMY!
*jase giggling*
(To stomach) You, down there - you behave. Groundings'll start early."
*jase giggling*
He keeps asking if I think he'll be a good Dad; he's really concerned about it.

I love him.

We keep both just saying, "This is so weird!" and getting all grinny and saying, "We can do this."

Heh.

posted August 24, 2003 01:33 AM           

Anafaery did clear her post with me first - she's looking after my best interests, and I thank her very much for it

posted August 24, 2003 02:01 AM         

Well Life sure has swung you both into the full boogie dance, has it not!?

Frightening/fun/fantabulous/freakout/fun/frightening/fun/fantabulous/freakout/fun/frightening/fun (...and so on...)

{{{{{ hugs proxieme & scatbug }}}}}

I'm doing a little lunadic dance for you guys, under the light of a full Mars!

Like ana and others say, there's the old challenge of knowing whether the Persons Pregnant need to hear "congratulations!" or "tough luck!" So I'll congratulate you both on your love -- whatever is to follow!

Myself, I think a little Soul has decided that the time is right to manifest in some way -- who knows what kind of journey it will be -- the two of you have choices, and the travelling Soul has choices too. I wish you all well and hope for the greatest possible good in the outcome, whatever you decide is best.

Part of the most frightening thing about parenthood, is the absolute loss of the illusion of control -- that seems to me to be the deepest shock. The shift in dynamic is another matter entirely -- suddenly couplehood is triplehood, but always remember, the individuals in the pairing, and the pairing itself, are primary.

Lots of Light to you both! Woo!