Posts: 3831
From: New England
Registered: Mar 2003

posted June 04, 2004 09:59 PM         

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Oh pixel, my heart goes out to you honey. My grandpa died with Alzheimer's ten years ago. He was wonderful beyond words. Salt of the earth. Sounds like your grandpa was too. But I had the same problem as you. I backed off emotionally in the end. It's just ... that wasn't my grandfather. People always say that we face our mortality when our parents die. But I found losing my gramma and grandpa made my feel as though I had lost my childhood. And that was almost worse.

Nephthys is right though. Even though he didn't know my name or his own in the end, I'd give anything just to sit next to him in that awful nursing home. I have no family left now but my sister. Cherish every last drop.

tink

Oh and ditto what trill said. I finally took a peek at everyone's pictures. You're gorgeous! And just the sort of mischievous glimmer in your eye that I expected. Does your grandpa have that glimmer too?

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From: Ontario Canada
Registered: Jun 2005

posted June 04, 2004 10:12 PM         

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I definately inherited that glimmer from someone......
Thank you. Your statement about grandparents and losing your childhood sure it how I feel. You nailed it.
Thank you.

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posted June 08, 2004 09:10 PM         

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Dearest Opal,
So that is why you were quiet. I could sense something was wrong, but didn't know what. My dearest Pixie....I know what you are going through. I may not be able to feel exactly as you are feeling, but I have suffered loss as well....several losses. There is this poem that goes, "The art of losing isn't hard to master"...and goes on to say that if you get into the habit of losing something everyday, you'll become so desensitized to the experience of loss that losing something precious, in the end, will no longer be a "disaster". I disagree. The loss of the people that you love and hold dear is always painful. All the more painful is to watch them them fade away, little by little, everyday.
I take comfort in the idea that they will be going to a better place ...a place, I hope, is better than this one...more serene...more peaceful. Someday, our time will come too. Till then, we must keep holding on.

And here I would like to tell you how much your care and support has meant to me. You took out time for me when your own life was going through turmoil. You are a beautiful selfless person, Opal....you are just like your name...a true gem.
Lots of love and light to you.....may you and your grandpa find peace...

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From: Ontario Canada
Registered: Jun 2005

posted June 08, 2004 11:28 PM         

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Thanks honey. You're a sweetie.

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