posted June 25, 2004 04:53 PM         

if there's anything you want to talk about we're pretty good here at LL at brainstorming - or just listening to where you are on your path.

posted June 25, 2004 05:05 PM         

Great string. Lots of loving wonderful thoughts and people here.

posted June 26, 2004 03:40 AM         

This is a major lesson for me to learn in this life. That each is on their own path, and as much as we want to we can't make them change.

I'm not sure what to say to you, that won't sound like things everyone has probably already told you before. Except I understand and it hurts.

posted June 26, 2004 11:46 AM         

I can only say, I can relate, I really can, I'm sorry I can't got into it now for you, but it is the worst things that help you grow. Sometimes I've thought the '29' in my date of birth has been more than significant. However with reaching out, self learning, and forgiveness, the definition of 29 in star signs becomes true - this is for everyone, not just entities with the 29 vibration of course. It is strange how LL seems to bring out reality and similar experiences and so good that we can share, hurt, heal and grow together.

As 26t mentions lessons (26- ) this is true to you, and has been for me. However, when the scars are healing from the last battle, go within yourself and see it for what it is. Don't let people blame you.. carrying baggage is so very hard when you're trying to heal I am grateful to my greatest teachers for making me see

I'm thinking of you maven it makes me sad since I feel your pain, on the level I understand anyhow.

You'll be fine because you're here - I mean that in more ways than one

With love and hope
Sp

Come visit the 'Happy' page on Global Unity,
*Irish accent* "Come visit Happy Land.. all I'll charge ya is a smile.."

posted June 26, 2004 03:33 PM         

Anyone who has read most of my posts... especially the ones about my childhood knows that I haven't had an easy time about life.

29...

Grace Under Pressure

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The number 29 is a number of perhaps the heaviest Karma of all. It tests the person or entity it represtnts for spiritual strength, through trials and tribulations echoing the Old Testament story of Job. The life is filled with uncertanties, treachery and deception from others, unreliable friends, unexpected dangers -- and considerable grief and anxiety caused by members of the opposite sex. It's a number of grave warnings in every area of personal life and career. When 29 is the Compound Key Number in the name, it's obvious that the spelling of the name should be changed to lifet this difficult vibration, unless one is a masochist.

If 29 is the birth number, and thereby unaboidable, conscious effort must be made to dilute and eventually negate, neutralize, or erase this karmic burden. It can, to a great extent, be eased by choosing a new name (or spelling) with a strong positive Compound Key Number. Further than this, the person born on the 29th day of any month should do everything advised in Chapter 4 concerning Karma and reincarnation.

In the specific instance of the 29 vibration (bringing with it also the secondary vibration of 11, which should also be read regarding the way to relieve the karmic burden)-- remember that the development of absolute faith in goodness and the power of the Self... the constant and energetic cultivation of optimism... will act as a miraculous medicine for the problems of the number 29.

After all, Job's burdens were finally lifted, when he had learned to accept full responsibility for his troubles, and not to blame others or seek revenge for the hurts he suffered. Not only did his long bad-luck streak end at last, he was given back everything he'd lost, several times over. So, if you were born on the 29th, change the vibration of your name to a powerful number, such as 19, follow Job's example, and soon you'll be as happy as -- or happier than-- anyone else. Interestingly, the name "job" equals the powerful compound number 10 -- a difficult vibration to defeat.

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posted June 26, 2004 06:25 PM         

You will have to cut loose of your family to achieve any kind of peace of mind.

Believe me. Family is not defined by blood.

posted June 26, 2004 07:02 PM         

But your story touched me. Really, really deep. I can't relate to the abuse that you grew up taking. I can't relate to your family situation.

But after we chatted yesterday I somehow feel close to you, like we were meant to meet up and talk about what we talked.

You surround yourself with toxic people because you have not yet learned your karmic lessons.

Just know that you have friends here at LindaLand with much more words than I have at the moment to help go through this and give you all the moral support you need.

When you're ready you will find the way out of this desperate situation. But it is only you that will know the exact moment and the exact actions needed to be taken.

We are here only to give you a different perspective of what you already know and can do. When you are ready.

posted June 26, 2004 11:49 PM         

LibraSparkle, I have the same no.s as you, 29/11 and my name adds to 27.. so much I wanna post here too but have to come back tomorrow now. Until then

posted June 28, 2004 08:45 PM         

I'm sorry to hear about your sister

I wish you continued clarity cos you're coming at obstacles from the heart

posted June 29, 2004 11:27 AM         

but maven, i echo good ol' ariestiger in that you also have to learn to build your own boundries. are you truly working from a place of love and acceptance, or do you coddle your family to make them look like hypocrites - so you can say, oh, poor me, they treat me like crap and i'm so good to them? i know this is blunt and probably sounds hurtful (aries moon - sorry), but i've seen it many times and it's SOOOOOO damaging to the person who takes on this martyr role. and you may be doing no such thing. but just in case, please be sure to protect yourself. you'll be no good to your own family if your birth family drains all your energy. and like trill said, blood doesn't make a family, just like sperm doesn't make a dad.

posted June 29, 2004 05:19 PM         

good to hear from you again. sorry if you thought i was implying you were a "poor me" - just trying to understand where you're coming from, as before. i hold my family together also - have for years - so i empathize with your situation, and i guess that's why i replied in the first place. some people do need to walk away, others can handle it - it seems like you know yourself extremely well. that's a huge strength in itself.

and i agree that negativity is all around us - and we can only control how we react to it.

i look forward to talking with you some more.

xb