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dorkus_malorkus
Knowflake Posts: 1061
From: Hopelessly lost........
Registered: Jun 2003
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posted July 21, 2004 10:36 PM
 
Today was rough. My dad and I were lifting some stuff into his truck (his health has been faltering lately) and all of a sudden I look over and he is having a seizure. It was one of those things you don't think will ever happen, but then all of a sudden...At first, I didn't know it, I thought he was taking a brief rest like he usually does, but his eyes were rolled back into his head and he started drooling and was trying to swallow his tongue. Just as I was about to call an ambulance, he snapped out of it. I was so afraid, the only thing I could think to do was go inside and call my mom, who lives in Oregon. I came out and my dad started screaming at me and told me what a stupid thing I had done. I told him he needed to see a doctor, but he refused, and persisted yelling. I ran off crying, knowing that he was mad at me and that my mom was upset (her parents yell at her everytime I call her). I guess I realize now why he won't go to the doctor, and I feel kind of stupid. If he's diagnosed with any problems, he will no doubt get fired (he's been a cab driver for years), but at the same time I am worried and scared. I kind of feel selfish and stupid not thinking about the consequences, because of course, my mom is the type who can't keep her mouth shut. I'm just waiting until I can earn the money to move to Sacramento and away from all the pain. I'm sorry, I know I have been venting a lot lately, but ever since I graduated high school, my life has been slowly falling apart. The pain gets magnified every time my parents scream at me, and I have no one to run and talk to, being in a new city and all. I thought being out of high school would be the best thing that happened to me, because it was so rough, but I had no idea things would only get harder once I got out..... Sorry, thanks for listening,
Stacey
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trillian
Knowflake Posts: 4050
From: The Boundless
Registered: Mar 2003
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posted July 21, 2004 10:44 PM
Don't let your father or mother or anyone else rob you of your brilliance.You acted rightly.
Your parents are selfish and childish.
They should not have sacrificed a moment to be kind to their child to indulge their own insecurities. Life will take you to better places, but you will have to let it unfold and not lose your sense of self. Discover your own lust for your own life, don't rely on others to give it to you. Some of us are not born to our families. You will find yours. Peace and Light to you.  IP: Logged |
noreenz
Knowflake Posts: 1229
From: No.CAL
Registered: Feb 2004
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posted July 22, 2004 12:51 AM
Ouch....that is a really scary ordeal. Sorry you had to experience it. Please remember too that this had to be a very scary experience for him also. He may be extremely tired tomorrow, his body just went through alot. Not only is it scary for him because it is his body and health, but like you said....he could loose his job. I know of two people that had seizures last year, both lost their driving liscense. An extremely frustrating ordeal all the way around...one thing it seems that they both had in common is stress and lack of sleep which seemed to trigger an attack. Is this his first episode? Hon, I'm sorry you had to go through this. He probably yelled because he too is scared, and it has absolutely nothing to do with you. Us parents aren't always perfect, we often say and do the wrong things ourselves.  IP: Logged |
DeepIYM
Knowflake Posts: 355
From: Colorful Colorado
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted July 22, 2004 01:33 AM
Dorkus_malorkus... I know it hurts... I was recent unoffically diagnosed with Depression. It's got me down some times too. I'm 17 tryin' to get my **** together so I can go out into the real world and make my small living and way. My dad doesn't have one darn emotion that he show. My brothers been down the path of hard drugs for 10 years and counting. My family is messed up. They aren't doing you a favor by being this way. I guess all you can say is... They don't know any better. Trillion is right... Some of us aren't born into our families. I wasn't besides my mom. She's god sent. Just keep tryin' yo get out and move to a place where you feel comfertable. It's hard, but once you establish your self... I know it'll mean the world to you.RIII IP: Logged |
dorkus_malorkus
Knowflake Posts: 1061
From: Hopelessly lost........
Registered: Jun 2003
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posted July 22, 2004 03:43 AM
Thanks everyone. Deep, hang in there. I too have been diagnosed with depression, and it's hard. I can relate to a lot of what you're saying. Things can only get better though, that's what I always tell myself. I may be something of an idealist, because so far things haven't gotten better, only worse, but I have to persist with that positive attitude cos it' what keeps me going.Noreenz, I always lose sight of the fact that parents are only human and they make mistakes like everyone else. Thanks for reminding me. IP: Logged |
Rainbow~
Knowflake Posts: 5927
From: The Little River Indian Reservation
Registered: Jan 2002
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posted July 22, 2004 05:26 AM
Stacy(aka Dorkus).....you DID do the right thing....You had to have been terribly frightened to have seen you father that way...and to call an ambulance was only the natural thing to do...As noreenz said, your dad was probably frightened too, not to mention the fear of losing his job, but please, please don't feel selfish and stupid thinking about any consequences as far as your father's job is concerned! There are possible consequences of another kind however, and that is what could happen with your father behind the wheel of a cab. He could endanger a passenger one day (not to mention himself) should he have a seizure while driving, which you're already aware of..*sigh* I realize that the prospect of losing a job is not rosy, but it would still probably be best all around if your dad did get to a Dr. for a dianosis...maybe soon, he'll realize that. Tell you what Stacy....Trillian has EXCELLENT advice.....listen to her... Hope you can get to Sacramento soon....and start a brand new life where you can be appreciated...  Love,
Rainbow
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Sheaa Olein
Knowflake Posts: 2864
From: London
Registered: Jul 2004
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posted July 22, 2004 05:31 AM
Stacey & Randall (Deep) *BIG Saggie hug* htt p://www.hallmark.com/hmk/Website/Shopping/Greetings/nfg1316_receive.jsp?BV_SessionID=@@@@2073560212.1090488516@@@@&BV_EngineID=gadclceegjfjbedcfchcgf.0&fromPage=/Websit e/greeting.jsp&sku=nfg1316 Thinking of you, with love,
Sheaa  PS. Thanks Prox for the site link, forgot about Hallmark  IP: Logged |
Rainbow~
Knowflake Posts: 5927
From: The Little River Indian Reservation
Registered: Jan 2002
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posted July 22, 2004 05:31 AM
DeepIYM....hugs for you too... It's good to know you have your mom by your side.... Love,
Rainbow
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Rainbow~
Knowflake Posts: 5927
From: The Little River Indian Reservation
Registered: Jan 2002
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posted July 22, 2004 05:40 AM
Sheaa.....how sweet  Love,
Rainbow
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Sheaa Olein
Knowflake Posts: 2864
From: London
Registered: Jul 2004
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posted July 22, 2004 06:15 AM
Rainbow ~ whilst looking for a rainbow for you, you enabled me to stumble on an old memory - Rainbow Brite & the Color Kids! 
http://www.80scartoons.net/toons/rainbow.html So thank you.. ahh I loved that land!  Sheaa IP: Logged |
Sheaa Olein
Knowflake Posts: 2864
From: London
Registered: Jul 2004
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posted July 22, 2004 06:39 AM
Dorkus & Deep - how are you today? IP: Logged |
Rainbow~
Knowflake Posts: 5927
From: The Little River Indian Reservation
Registered: Jan 2002
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posted July 22, 2004 06:54 AM
I LOVE that picture, Sheaa, as well as the website....thank you so much....Love,
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Aphrodite
Knowflake Posts: 4992
From:
Registered: Feb 2002
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posted July 22, 2004 11:08 AM
Dorkus  I know exactly how you feel. I really do. If you ever want someone to talk to, and I mean this --- you are always welcome to write to me. Do you still have my e-mail? Aphrodite IP: Logged |
proxieme
unregistered
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posted July 22, 2004 12:01 PM
I'll echo Aph on this one:I know that, as far as Sun-Sign astrology is concerned, we're polar opposites; but if you'd ever like someone to talk to, I'll put my e-mail up so you can get it. (Or you can go through Randall...I think that he has one that I check sometimes.)
Just let me know if you've done so. I wonder how coherent the above is...
I just finished scrubbing our kitchen floor with bleach...
kinda dizzy. IP: Logged |
dorkus_malorkus
Knowflake Posts: 1061
From: Hopelessly lost........
Registered: Jun 2003
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posted July 22, 2004 04:07 PM
Aph, no I think I lost your e-mail  But if anyone wants to reach me, I'll just post mine here: neo_bahamut96@yahoo.com Thank you all Edit: Shucks, Sheaa I can't get the link to work. *cries* IP: Logged |
Aphrodite
Knowflake Posts: 4992
From:
Registered: Feb 2002
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posted July 22, 2004 04:54 PM
You've got mail.IP: Logged |
Sheaa Olein
Knowflake Posts: 2864
From: London
Registered: Jul 2004
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posted July 22, 2004 06:01 PM
Oh dear.. well it worked before, that's Prox territory! I'll try again IP: Logged |
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