posted March 31, 2005 10:10 AM         

Societal pressure, peer pressure, familial pressure ... just some of the forces that shape our expectations from ourselves and those around us.

So how do you know just exactly how to divide the Lemon Meringue Pie called Life into the share you give to each segment of yourself ... your dreams for yourself, your obligation to your fellow human beings, your quest for your true purpose, your family and loved ones, your ambition and thirst for power, your promise to yourself ... the whole shebang.

And what role does astrology have to play in it? For instance, if you have a strong cardinal bend to your chart, do you pay the maximum attention to those aspects of your life that bring out the leader in you?

I know life has a way of sending you little snail mails of epiphanies, I know often circumstances shape the person you become and often time has a HUGE role to play when it comes to dreams and ambitions and their natural evolution; but ...

If you had the choice to write your own destiny, if somebody handed you a small planner or notebook and told you that you could exactly divide your life into ordered doses of ambition, faith and compassion ... do you think you would be up for the challenge?

My point being, just how much do we actually put to practice the wonderful magic and wisdom the nether realms send us through the evolved and often misunderstood media of alternate disciplines like Astrology, Feng Shui, Reiki ... among others?

"All you can do is decide what to do with the time that is given to you."

posted March 31, 2005 10:17 AM         

I'll answer later.

posted April 01, 2005 03:12 PM         

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posted April 03, 2005 03:48 AM         

The time is right
I'm gonna pack my bags
And take that journey down the road
Cause over the mountain I see the bright sun shinning
And I want to live inside the glow
Yeah

I wanna go to place where I am nothing and everything
That exists between here and nowhere
I wanna got to a place time as no consequence oh yeah
The sky opens to my prayers

I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,

Please understand that it not that I don't care
But right know these wall are closing in on me
I love you more than I love life itself

But I need to find a place were I can breathe
I can breathe
I wanna go to place were I can hold the intangible
And let of the pain with all my might

I wanna go to a place where I am suspended in ecstasy
Some where between dark and light
Where wrong becomes right

I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,
I wanna go to beautiful, beautiful, beautiful,

India.Arie

posted April 03, 2005 04:56 PM         

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"Tara! Home. I'll go home. And I'll think of some way to get him back. After all... tomorrow is another day. "

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Tara was the name of the plantation. But I hated the film, so I could be mistaken.

posted April 03, 2005 05:27 PM         

Well one wonderful thing did come of all this time and money and that was a new girlfrend that has worked there for 5 1/2 years now. She knows that she's a crock of poo and has seen many be riped off from her practise. I also learned along the way that the little village that she works out of is not getting along with her and people are starting to complain about her. Me and my new friend are going to take some action and get busy writing letters and making some phone calls. I also heard that she has been warned already and she is on her last leg.

She has really taught me that you're not what you DO, but who you just let your s-elf just BE, without all the expectations, tiles and labels. She has more pretty tiles and labels then any one person that I have every meet, so I thought that she was offering the best that one could reserve in her line off work. Aromatherapy Medically Practioner Diploma Course!!!

Still healing from my journey!!!

Solane Star

posted April 03, 2005 07:06 PM         

It was a spur of the moment quote from one of my fav movies ... no one was impled, not even HSC.

But if thats what makes you feel better ...

posted April 03, 2005 07:08 PM         

I was hit by a very profound thought today. I realised, how I am desperately trying to cling to this reality; trying to make it my own when it never can belong to anyone ... How I am trying to mold it to a comfortable pattern, where it is the right fit for the security blanket I need to escape when the 'real' world is too much for me.

When all this time, the true happiness, the true source of strength and peace that I seek was hidden deep within me ... its amazing how I forget that fact again and again and how life humbles me and reminds me of who I am. And its so glorious, the feeling of returning to my roots, to my own identity and realizing how great it is ...

So this is a formal goodbye, to all who care to read ... it was an amazing journey through Lindaland ... I learned a lot and reaped the harvest of your wisdom and compassion and I only hope I am able to return even half of what I got - when the time is right.

I love all you guys, because of the amazingly open and giving people you are; because of this undying spirit of optimism you have to keep this place as a beautiful haven for lost souls and the shelter you offer to those who have lost their way.

I will not say I have all the answers; but yes, I think I got closer to them because of thsi place.

posted April 03, 2005 07:31 PM         

....aaand hmmm maybe someone remembered I said that I had never seen that movie.

And actually maya, I really dont know you at all.

And no, that is not "what makes me feel better". What makes me feel better is that I am not easily duped or pulled into other people's dramas.

I'll stop here before I embarass someone.

Farewell.

posted April 03, 2005 09:06 PM         

Sorry to hear another person is leaving.. I have one piece of advice for you. Be yourself and express your actual opinions regardless of others, instead of trying to accomodate and applease everyone constantly .. shortly: Be a straight shooter

Because constantly appleasing and acomodating has an element of deceit in it that I think makes ppl, including myself uncomfortable - with you it feels like you're never being yourself at all, and never truly express how you feel about ppl on here. No one asks anyone their opinion on every knowflake but you like to give a flowery "version" of your opnion which I don't believe is your actual opinion.

posted April 03, 2005 10:16 PM         

If the liberties she takes with her words appear tactless at times, it is only because she is unaware of the impure motives which others are likely to suspect her of, on account of her ambiguity.

26, I understand, and will respect your wishes. I hope there are no hard feelings.

posted April 03, 2005 10:41 PM         

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If the liberties she takes with her posts appear rather tactless at times, it is only because she is unaware of the impure motives which others are likely to suspect her of, on account of her ambiguity.

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I know that it would either be ambiguity OR something else.. In my opinion IT IS something else and she is very much so aware. If I'm wrong I applogise.. but the vibes that I get on this matter from reading posts are pretty damn strong and I'm one to trust my vibes.

posted April 03, 2005 10:43 PM         

But, I talk to Maya for several hours on the phone every day, and, as a Scorpio, I'm a pretty good judge of motives myself.

posted April 03, 2005 10:51 PM         

- Nietzsche

"Judge not, lest ye be judged."