posted December 06, 2005 04:35 PM         

Except I feel so trapped. I can't click so well with 'normal' people my age. My friends are pretty much all eccentrics and the only guys I fancy are 5 years older than me. Why don't I want to just say gross slang words like 'fit' and hang out with pubescent boys?! Is this nature's sort of way of thwarting me by making want to flirt maturely (gotta be Merc in 8th) with 20 year olds then preventing me from getting anywhere because of my age?

And why if apparently I'm 'very pretty' (not my words, I don't love myself that much) do I not have legions of guys begging me for a kiss? Why have I never had a boyfriend???

Aghh, I'm sorry for littering the forum like this, but I really just needed some release.

I wish I could just enjoy the last year of my childhood instead of just wishing I could lose it ...ahem... without any heavier hinting. God, that sounds bad.

posted December 06, 2005 04:49 PM         

Here's a hug ( okay, add nine years and some estrogen, but it's still valid)

posted December 06, 2005 04:58 PM         

*hug!*

I'm off to enjoy, well sulk, through yesteryear... which incoincidently happens to be my today!

Ah...

posted December 06, 2005 05:04 PM           

It's difficult.
I never quite fit in, either, with those my own age when I was a teenager.
Much of what interested my contemporaries seemed so petty, so pointless, too vacuous to even try to contemplate.
I found some friends with a very few like myself, but...yeah.
I know what you mean.

And I didn't date.
It just didn't happen.
Most of the boys were so...*crosses eyes from the thought*

I didn't...ahem (not technically, anyway ) until I was 21, and then only because I chose a male friend and said, "OK, enough's enough. You."

posted December 06, 2005 05:26 PM         

You know, I bet that you *are* very pretty, and it just intimidates the boys you know. Of course, most 15 year old boys are so dumb that that's probably a good thing, really.

posted December 06, 2005 06:03 PM         

Sorry about that thread you referenced earlier. I went and checked it out. I don't honestly remember it, though I can see why you would. I never went back to that thread (at the time) either. If I had, I would have commented back then. So I'm sorry once again.

posted December 06, 2005 06:07 PM         

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Gemini sun, Cancer rising, mercury in Gemini, moon in Taurus *29, venus in Taurus, mars in Libra

posted December 07, 2005 06:20 AM         

You once said my literary romantic made you sick [in jest ofcourse , I think?], and exactly 33 days later you crave romance? Good! So you have finally become a woman from a girl! You have learnt the art of contradicting yourself and thinking illogically

Anyway, I wrote that in the string where you were curious, then you forgot about it. So I will rewrite it. Imagine that your dreamboat wrote it to you. Maybe it will kill the bad moods. Atleast it will make you laugh

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To MNF,
Do you know the value of your smile? It is more satisfying than the cool water of an oasis in a blazing desert for which a traveller may have crawled for miles using bare hands. Your beauty can take breath away yet make a man glad to be breathing and living so that he can be destined to see your face.
Stay away from the Sun, for it is jealous that you outshine him. Stay away from the Moon, for she is jealous that you beat her in beauty in all her mystical phases.
Stay away from mirrors, they will shatter from the sheer joy of allowing them to reflect your fantastic features.
Stay away from the flowers of spring who will wilt due to shame because they cannot match your loveliness. Stay away from the ground, it will melt when it feels the touch of your pretty feet and the mud could spoil your ankles. Stay away from water, it will turn to steam. How can it withstand the heat of passion that your gaze can generate? Stay away from mountains for they would crumble to dust as they get stunned into submission on looking at your perfection.
Now if you are to stay away from all these things, where can you stay? Stay safely inside my heart.

posted December 07, 2005 01:40 PM         

proxieme- aw, thank you... somehow knowing that someone else felt the same makes me feel a bit better. Though I hope I don't have to pick someone randomly when I'm 21 hope stuff worked out for you fine.

Johnny- Why, thank you Johnny, I delight in priding myself on my eloquence. Yup, boys my age are dumb. Even the smart ones, sadly.

WaterNymph- Yey! I would just love a Sag boy in a box! Could you do that for me? (I'll settle for that cute squirrel if there's none left).

AG- Ah, of course... all forgotten, otherwise I wouldn't speak to you right? You're a doll

posted December 07, 2005 01:41 PM         

Iqhunk- Thank you for your manly hug! lol of course in jest! How could I diss love infront of a Cancer?? 33 days? Wow, well truth be told, I craved romance then too.. maybe more now... but I have always been and shall be both a girl and a woman... as well as a bit of a man .
You're obviously very imaginative! That's not a run of the mill compliment... very poetic. I enjoyed reading it, even if common sense forbids me from believing it.

Stargazer- How great to hear from someone with the same 3 as me! You're right and I know I shouldn't waste my youth... not that there's much chance of that right now anyway. No one will have me! Ah well, thank you, in any case.

Thanks everyone

posted December 07, 2005 01:44 PM           

And I discovered that I don't like sex w/o Love.

In all seriousness, it may very well be that the boys are intimidated (re: why guys aren't flocking to you).
You're beautiful, you're obviously intelligent - they're probably scared to death.

I found out from a second hand source (in my early 20s...bah) that there were a number of guys back in HS who wanted to ask me out, but either
a) just didn't get up the nerve
or
b) tried to do so through a guy friend of mine (who never relayed the message).

posted December 07, 2005 02:51 PM         

That's exactly what I was thinking.

I wanted to comment earlier... I'm at work so......

To be honest, I'm right there along with proxie.

For a while I thought there was something wrong with me.

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Scorpio sun, venu, mars, mercury, and uranus
Libra moon, pluto, and asc.

posted December 07, 2005 02:55 PM         

Probably not much consolation (and I could be wrong), but Queen Elizabeth was a Virgo with Aries rising; whether or not the title "Virgin Queen" was a misnomer or not was, of course, anybody's guess.

BTW, we all need romance. All of us. Even those in stale unsatisfactory relationships who can't wait to get out of them. But if you've never experienced it, there is an especial, certain motivation to do so.

posted December 07, 2005 03:39 PM         

Maybe when I'm 50 I'll start liking younger guys

Yes, I know about Queen Elizabeth I... Well, that's reassuring...

posted December 07, 2005 03:59 PM         

You'll find em' I'm confident that they are going to be one lucky person. I mean that... not just blowing smoke.

proxie: I'm still oblivious I need a big sign saying "Hey You"

When the Cappie I was seeing told me he was interested..... I about fell over... how could I be around someone for that long (months) and not even have a clue.
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Scorpio sun, venus, mars, mercury, and uranus
Libra moon, pluto, and asc.

posted December 08, 2005 10:22 AM         

I know it’s hard but the best thing you can do is having patience… In a couple of years, 22nd year olds will give you a chance… They must be scared of getting into trouble because officially you are still a child… But you won’t be in a few years…

I’m 28 now and I like men over 35… When I was 25 I had a relationship with a 39 year old… Now, that is worrying, because at that age men are either married or phychologically damaged after a traumatic divorce.

You are still in time. Don’t worry, you have a chance and plenty of time… You are so young that you’ll catch your dream older man still undamaged and single. In the meantime, you can hang out with those gorgeous 20 year old and slowly let them know that you have brains and a wonderful personality, something that many girls in their twenties would envy… Yes, I bet you scare them off (I bet I do too...)

posted December 08, 2005 12:28 PM         

quote:

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Oh, I need a hug. Preferrably from a hot 20 year old.

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will one from a cold twenty five yrs. old work ?

posted December 08, 2005 12:44 PM         

Granted no one ever approached me to ask.

I went camping in the mountains instead.

posted December 08, 2005 12:47 PM         

Oh, cancerrg! That would do just nicely!
Big big hug to you too, hunny.