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Topic: hi again y'all!!
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theREALfajita3
Knowflake Posts: 31
From: sunny south florida
Registered: Dec 2005
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posted December 12, 2005 08:45 AM
 
First of all I want to say that I like all the pics you guys posted of yourself. Um- I need some prayers and good energy but in a way I feel compelled to say I don't probably DESERVE them because as those of you who have known me, I have struggled with my addiction problems alot. Well this year has been good and bad. I got married to a very nice handsome older black man who took me off the street and helped me to quit smoking crack. However, due to financial situations we could not always live together and when we weren't together I was horrible and back in my whirlwind of escort services and prostituting and being homeless and smoking crack AND addicted to taking methadone and oxys and drinking like it's going out of style and I went to jail 5 or 6 times. SO my struggle now is I have been run over by a car and it crushed my lower spine the L1 part which controls your legs so even though they put a rod in my spine and put some hip bone to fuse I cannot use my left leg, I guess physical therapy will help me to walk again. So now I have to use a walker to walk (or hop on the leg that works), fall sometimes, feel so depressed and worthless that I wish the car that ran over me would have killed me and I have to wear this brace for my spine all the time and I feel locked in this cage.
Also me and my husband just want to be together but I am wondering if we are not supposed to be together because of personal reasons (also, when we met I was so messed up I didn't know what was going on, now, I'm like, I married who??). He is a pisces 2/24/56 I am 2/11/81 aqu with taur moon and virgo rising. Well anyways I guess I am rambling but I am sorry if I sound full of self pity but I can't help but ask my Father God to take home each day because I have been on the street since I was 15 and all those horrible things unfortunetly to deal with it you make it OK in your head and it's hard for me to see any other life but deep down I know it's wrong and thats why I got run over because I am bad. Well I'm not like totally given up I am taking tons of vitamins and eating only foods that reduce inflammation so that maybe when my spine is not so inflammed it will send the right signals to my leg to work. Please send light! Thanks! d------------------
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pixelpixie
Knowflake Posts: 5301
From: Ontario Canada
Registered: Jun 2005
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posted December 12, 2005 09:52 AM
I replied on your thread in Health and Healing...  Welcome Back!IP: Logged |
CancerianMoon
Knowflake Posts: 1082
From: Sydney, Australia. Cancer Sun.....Gemini Moon.....Aqua Rising
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted December 12, 2005 02:35 PM
Welcome Back!! Never give up!! There is always hope 
Sending you much love and light
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Johnny
Knowflake Posts: 2056
From: Colorado, USA
Registered: Nov 2004
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posted December 12, 2005 02:39 PM
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theREALfajita3
Knowflake Posts: 31
From: sunny south florida
Registered: Dec 2005
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posted December 12, 2005 05:48 PM
Thank you so much you all....I love you all!------------------
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theREALfajita3
Knowflake Posts: 31
From: sunny south florida
Registered: Dec 2005
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posted December 12, 2005 05:51 PM
Good to see ya Cancerian Moon!------------------
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Rainbow~
Knowflake Posts: 5927
From: The Little River Indian Reservation
Registered: Jan 2002
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posted December 12, 2005 06:06 PM
Oh goodness, gracious....you don't sound like you're full of self-pity at all...To me.....it sounds more like you're asking for help....*sigh* .....and..... ....asking for help is a step in the right direction.... There's probably more than one of us who have been lost....or seemed lost in a neubulous, unending "unhealthy" fog...from which we found difficulty removing ourselves....*sigh* Glad you came back to us and you certainly have my love, prayers, and white light.... Hang in....and I'm sure things will get better..... Love,
Rainbow
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proxieme
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posted December 14, 2005 03:34 PM
Aw, D, you deserve everything good Good wishes to you  IP: Logged |
CancerianMoon
Knowflake Posts: 1082
From: Sydney, Australia. Cancer Sun.....Gemini Moon.....Aqua Rising
Registered: Aug 2003
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posted December 14, 2005 05:01 PM
You too fajita Always enjoyed your posts b4 and looking forward to them again
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