posted May 16, 2006 07:35 AM              

I have never worked that hard in my life ( I don't mean just my job, it's everything) and although the results are good everything just seems to fall into some bottomless hole. Money seems to dissapear from my account as fast as put it there and as soon as as I am done with one project three others show up. I am far from being lazy but this is so discouraging. Plus, It affects my personal life - I just want to be left alone for the most part and while some introspection is good I don't want to become a hermit.

Just like you said when I finally manage to get something it is only to find out this is not really what I wanted and not how I wanted it. I understand, it's all supposed to be about discipline and learning experience but this is way too harsh....