posted December 20, 2006 07:14 PM         

I wanted to apologize. You made mention that it is hard for someone to do it publically and it can't be any harder than it is considering my present circumstance. There are several people that will use this public apology against me, but I read what MysticMelody said and she had a point.

I am sorry that I hurt you. If you had said something to me I am sure we could have worked it out. There are few people that I can honestly say that I don't like. I never considered you one of those people. I believe the situation in the other thread was probably not the best for us making amends because of how things have been going. I have nothing against you. We are different and that is good- but more than anything I am sorry if I hurt you.

posted December 20, 2006 08:11 PM         

Great Work, Pidaua

posted December 21, 2006 12:06 AM         

I wasnt expecting this.
It makes me look at you differently.
I think its really cool that you did this.
It's embarrassing to admit it,
but, I really do feel gratified.
I feel like i want to cry and i feel healed.
I'm really happy that you said this stuff.

No hard feelings here now.
Just soft ones.
Whatever other objections anyone may have with you,
I hope they will respect and believe in the purity of your gesture here,
and where it came from.
Because i am a hard critic, and if i respect and believe in it,
I think they might as well too.

HSC

posted December 21, 2006 12:10 PM         

Thank you for understanding. As blunt as I am, I am also very forgiving and can look past an argument to see the real person. What you said about people being online and miscommunicating is true. People get carried away (especially fire people like me) and say things that we don't actually mean in a harmful way.

I try to find the good parts of everyone and even when I have crossed swords with them, I want to help them in a time of need or if they just want someone to talk to. I suppose that is not something many people know about me because I don't advertise it, but I wouldn't even turn away a perceived enemy if they needed help. Life is too short for that.

Thank you for your kind words and for forgiving my actions. I look forward to many more of your posts and maybe even an LL friendship (even if I am not much of a "blood and guts" writer, I do adore the passion in your words).

posted December 21, 2006 12:15 PM         

"Singing this is my best chior voice of course"

posted December 21, 2006 02:01 PM         

I try to give people the benefit of the doubt, and I hope that, even if a person is being disingenuous with me, my good-natured faith and trust in their pretty words will inspire and encourage them to contemplate the truths those words reflect, and, perhaps, the pre-conscious sincerity they really do contain. Sometimes, there is gold enough in glitter. At least, one may catch the "scent" of gold. I think it is only right and brave, to lower one's sword at the word of "Peace", especially if one suspects the speaker of ulterior motives. It is commendable, to open our hearts at the mere word, "love", or "friendship", and to show respect when the name of "God" is spoken, even by a "Pharisee" or an unbeliever. Having said that, I still wish it to be known that I am no fool. People do not respect, nor are they inspired by, the faith and trust of a fool.

I dont think, - which is to say, I cannot imagine how, - you could do so fine a job of articulating the virtues you have spoken of, if you did not also possess them in a respectable measure. Yours would have to be a truly insidious, calculating, and devlishly clever mind, indeed, to pull that off. And, as I believe (and as it comforts me to believe) that such minds are exceptionally rare, I am inclined to take you at your word without suspicion, - or, if not without, with very little then. Life is short. Too short to sleep with one eye open. I would rather sleep well and be murdered in my bed, then miss a wink expecting treason.

Thank you for adoring my passion. You have a forceful and sharp way with words that tickles me at times (I love sarcasm). Forgive me for stressing the point, but I would like it more, and more often, if it was not aimed at people's throats so much. I know it is difficult not to get carried away, when you are a passionate person. I am the same way. I've got lots of fire myself, - you already know about mars conjunct merc in sag (angular, mercury at a critical degree), and then my sun and moon are in fire houses, jupiter in leo (angular, ruler of mars/merc), in hard aspect to sun and moon!, sun closely conjunct the midheaven. Its very tempting to say witty or impressive things. And the more witty and impressive they are, the less we care to censor them for moral content (or intent). Having a lot of style can be a kind of curse, in that it continually forces us to choose between compromising substance or style. I guess we can take solace in the understanding that substance has a style of its own, and that, in the eye of a keen beholder, no aesthetic is less coarse, or more sublime, than the ethical.

That is, after all, a significant part of what makes the writings of the ancient Greek and Roman orators so admirable. They are sparse, sparing, economical, stoical, and unconcerned with ostentatiousness or pretense. The words are tailored to suit the idea, never the other way around. The writer's first concern is always to speak straight. A flourish comes, but only at the end of a true line, and the modest infrequency of its presence makes it all the more authentic, all the more desirable, and all the more gratifying, when it finally comes. Not too much tongue (if you catch my drift).

But I digress,.... and digress.

posted December 21, 2006 07:02 PM         

Calculating? Yes, I am when it comes to games (strategy) or business moves, but not when it comes to people. Evil, insidious, etc.. no, not at all. I can suffer from bouts of foot and mouth disease and at times what I consider to be downright humerous can be offensive. I made a satire about the geriatric duo because the two older ladies had pretty much threatened to beat me up, Detroit style, and that their age somehow made them so much better than me... or was it "I did this while you were still blanking your diapers". LOL...

Instead of threatening them back, I made a joke about it. Some took offense as though I was disrespecting the elderly, which couldn't be further from the truth. Getting old doesn't scare me, I am aware that our bodies will break down, so joking about it somehow lifts the taboo. But, that was a case where I used a threat and turned it into a joke- but it backfired.

You are also right in that I can be caustic with my words. Again, one cannot see my facial expressions or smile nor can they hear my tone. If so, there would be ALOT less confusion about what I have said.

I admit my faults and I work on ways to effectively communicate with others. It seems to work for me in the real world. Yet, I also think that there are certain people that will read an attack into anything that I say. They wait for the chance to accuse me of everything under the sun. I take it for a bit then finally I get p1ssed. What makes me incredibly angry is when I see the same 4-5 people pointing fingers yet NEVER accepting responsibility for their own actions. If I ask them a question, post one of their quotes, they ignore it and start in on something else.

It is frustrating at times... They are the same people that if I write anything tongue in cheek, they will find some evil connected to it and start raising hell. LOL.. but what can you do? People are weird, but in a beautiful way. Emotions cause us to act and react in so many different ways. It is facinating even while it hurts.

My Sun / Mercury are in a water house (4th) and my Sun forms a tight conjuncting with my IC (and Venus- but that is in the 3rd house).

Not surprisingly, my Moon in Aries (7th house) squares Mercury in Capricorn and opposes my Uranus in Libra (1st house - and my only singleton).

I'd love to write more, but I do have to move on.. I'll be back in the morning. I have lots to do before I leave for Washington.. Hmmm... Christmas....

posted December 21, 2006 07:29 PM         

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Sun in Libra
Moon in Cancer
Jupiter in Cancer
Venus in Virgo
Mars in Cancer
Ascendant in Cancer

posted December 21, 2006 09:19 PM         

This Virgo is under your Scorpian powers..

posted December 21, 2006 09:48 PM         

I love both of your messages to each other!!!

posted December 22, 2006 01:07 AM         

LOL, No, this doesnt happen to me in the real world. Not sure why, though. I think I'm much better looking than the pics i've posted, and my on-line charms pale in comparison to the charms i exude in person (if i do say so myself). It's a mystery wrapped in an enigma, lost between the sofa cushions, Mel.

Hey, Mel, I just had a flash of uranian insight. I bet you love "The Far Side" cartoons, right? Me too. I got the first 3 "galleries" and the "prehistory". I think maybe my favorite one in the whole world is the one of the astronaut stranded on the moon as the shuttle drifts away in the distance. Remember? He is reading a note, very intently. It says, "Dear Ted," or whatever his name is, "Where were you? We waited and waited, but finally..." I love that he hasnt finished the note yet!!

So, yeah, i dont know why women everywhere are not falling at my feet for the chance to tell me how wonderful i am. It's just one of those things, like, how do bumble bees fly? They fly in the face of natural law, that's how! Similarly, though all the known laws of physical and social chemistry demand that women everywhere stop in their tracks upon seeing me and take a moment to fully appreciate my glory, somehow, they manage to defy those laws, and pass on by without so much as a gasp for air, or a, "Dear lord, now THAT is a man!" It boggles the mind, Mel. But these are the mysteries that make life interesting, right? Right!

love to you to
(i am watching craig ferguson),
HSC

posted December 22, 2006 01:31 AM         

I still have Far Side pages from ripped calendars mixed through old boxes of memorabilia. How about the one when God is making the recipe of the world, throwing in lots of interesting ingredients, and then as an afterthought... a nice healthy shake of "jerks" just for seasoning...

Ohhh, you lift me up when I'm down

And ladies... I'm not teasing you, I understand completely!!!

ooo ooo Speaking of rockin' dudes... Hinder is on the way.......... !!!!!

Steve, *points at you* if I may so myself... "Dear Lord! Now THAT is a MAN!!!"

posted December 22, 2006 01:55 AM         

Thaaaaank you.

posted December 22, 2006 02:03 AM         

I missed Hinder!
Thats the whole reason i was watching,
and I MISSED IT!!!
I am so like that.
Aquarius Moon: the absent-minded protester.

Where am I?
Oh, right, LL.

posted December 22, 2006 11:32 AM         

Hmmmm... I was going to add more, but I think everything has been covered. Besides that, I am working on a very indepth chart for my SIL - Scorpio Sun (12th house) Scorp rising / Aqua moon. Actually she has a very interesting chart with her Venus and Neptune in Sag and Mars in Aries but NO Earth (just like my brother).

At first she was very hesitant about astrology, but I made a chart plus interpretation for my brother and she thought it was right on. That was 2 years ago and she asked me again if I could do one for her. I am up to 21 pages with beautiful scorp graphics as watermarks.

I hope she likes it

I'd like to do one for my 4 year old Nephew (another Scorp) but I worry that with his young age what is read may put him into a box. Does that make sense? Advice?

Love to all,