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leo_on_fire
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posted February 21, 2007 12:22 AM
 
MMK...so here's the deal, baby's sleeping, I should be. I'm not. I've got alot going through my head right now. Mr. Taurus has asked me to move in with him, says he loves me blahblahblah (anyone who knows me knows that I'm really doing a happy dance on the inside *nods*)wants to raise our family together, and even the 'M' word came up. (YAY!) Went looking at houses today but since i'm 800 miles away I have to rely on him to pick out something nice.
Scared and nervous don't quite cover it.
This is a huge deal, very huge! But me being me, I'm still walking around with a sore spot from when we were split up and I keep hesitating when he gets all sweet on me.  ....anyone else find me annoying yet? With Sam being here now and taking up most of my time, I'm amazed I even have time to carry on a long distance relationship with his father. But somehow...we manage. I never thought in a million years that I'd be preparing to start a life with him but here we are right in the door, just gotta step through. I'm terrified and excited all at the same time. I think it'll give me a heart attack before it's all over with LOL! And I think that I'm scared mostly because I'm afraid I'll wake up tomorrow and find it's all a dream. Silver lining and all that...*sigh* MMK, drag you're beanbag chairs in and share you're own something that you just need to ramble about.------------------
Live your life without regret, don't be someone they forget. Your heart is not yours to keep, it's yours to give... Unknown IP: Logged |
Motherkonfessor
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posted February 21, 2007 01:12 AM
i am happy and hopeful for you... what an exciting thing, that he wants to have a family with you..i can imagine the feeling, the trepidation, the "this is exactly what I want, please let it be true, please please please!!"i can pull up my beanbag and chat, but my stuff is so the polar opposite of yours, i don't want to bring you down... i am bringing endings, not beginnings...i am letting go of the thing i have held dearest to me for years and years...i am accepting i will never have the life you are beginning- and its ok, really it is...its just a bittersweet reckoning of paths not taken. good luck to you leo- Mk IP: Logged |
Bluemoon
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From: Stafford, VA USA
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posted February 24, 2007 08:13 PM
The best to you and your family, Leo!  IP: Logged |
Xena
Moderator Posts: 398
From: UK
Registered: Jun 2006
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posted February 25, 2007 05:52 AM
I'm having to start with a new *baby* too, thing is, it's a business, and it demands my being social, and my quandary is, how to get through to the right people? where do they hang out? etc. etc.
Do you know how sometimes you can walk into a room full of faceless people? That's what I did last night; everything was wrong, somehow. I'm feeling a little - not desperate, but so much is going through my mind...it's easy to disappear in somewhere like London, and I just want to be recognized, I want somebody to give me a foot in the door, I don't want to be invisible.
In a sense, I am tired of "life" as it's portrayed and played out around us on a daily basis...the banality...I'm concerned that I'll be even more tired of life in a few years' time...that I won't be excited about anything any more. I just don't seem to get any reaction to what I have to offer, and it's getting to the stage where I don't know what I'm going to do, and I don't want to speak to my parents about it because my mother always tries to tell me what to do and tells me there'll always be a room free for me at home (HELL, yeah, like I'd go and live with her).
Love is on a downer - have a feeling I'm getting a taste of 7 lean years here...just can't find anyone I like...don't even really want to.
I want to hit people over the head with my presence and say, look, sod your pandering to the masses, give them something they can RESPECT for once!!  Xena IP: Logged |
leo_on_fire
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posted February 25, 2007 10:23 PM
Xena, it's the last comment you made that makes me RESPECT YOU!! LOL It's when someone walks into a room and looks like they could conquer it that gets my attention honestly. I hate it when they look totally bored though, it's the challenge that appeals. I'm so excited for you and your business...and at the same time I kind of understand it's like walking into a dark tunnel with no clue about whats in it or where it ends. Exhausting and exhilarating at the same time...Mother...don't worry about dragging me down. I started this thread just to get something out, if you need to do so also I hope that you would allow us to be your soundboard. Thank you blue. It's all kinda surreal... ------------------
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virgotaurustaurus
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posted February 26, 2007 01:45 PM
*drags beanbag chair in, rolls around in it, runs away* IP: Logged |
leo_on_fire
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posted February 26, 2007 07:34 PM
Come back!! Come back!! ------------------
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Motherkonfessor
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posted February 26, 2007 11:59 PM
ROTFLOMAO!!!!
MK
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virgotaurustaurus
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posted February 27, 2007 12:40 AM
*comes back carrying beanbag chair behind her head, with innocent face*Yeeeeeessssss?  IP: Logged |
Motherkonfessor
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posted February 27, 2007 12:43 AM
I'll bring the party favors...Jim Beam, anyone? ....falls into beanbag..... MK IP: Logged |
virgotaurustaurus
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posted February 27, 2007 01:10 AM
*brings candy* woohohoo!! IP: Logged |
leo_on_fire
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posted February 28, 2007 05:07 PM
Yay!! did someone bring chocolate? If not I got plenty------------------
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virgotaurustaurus
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posted February 28, 2007 06:23 PM
I brought Dove chocolate? And Twizzlers.  IP: Logged |
Bluemoon
Knowflake Posts: 4456
From: Stafford, VA USA
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posted February 28, 2007 06:33 PM
How about some CHips and dip??  IP: Logged |
leo_on_fire
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posted February 28, 2007 11:17 PM
Nummy Nummy!!! I haven't eaten in a while lolol little man's kept me on my toes------------------
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