posted September 06, 2008 09:29 PM            

I don't mean now, at the age of 34, but before I become a burden on loved ones and shell out my savings to keep me going, when it could be put to better use.

My great gram died of alzheimer's and her daughter, my beloved Grammy, was diagnosed a few months ago with it. My mom died in her early sixties from cancer, so although she suffered, she didn't lose her mind, or suffer the indignity of having her driver's license taken away like my Gram.

I believe my reason for being on this planet is to learn, and if my mind is going, going, gone, what's the point? I'll just be racking up medical bills, while people wait for me to die.

If I don't become advanced enough to die in meditation, my next and only option is telling the doctor I'm having trouble sleeping and be perscribed sleeping pills, which won't be a lie, considering I can't sleep well now and it will become worse with age. That way, I can get all my affairs in order and write my "goodbye, no I'm not depressed letters" to family and friends, and make sure my pet(s) will have a good home. There will be no confusion over funeral arrangements and being burried, because I will leave my bidding in strict instructions within my security box at the post office. I can't risk anyone finding these things or I may be put on suicide watch in some institution.

I can't imagine using a gun, or as Stephen King puts it, "The Hemingway Solution." That's just too violent and you really have to be in a lot of pain or hate your self to use this method.

Of course, this depends on other factors not happening, like accidents or being murdered.

Anyway, check out this link. It's quite interesting.

Peace

posted September 07, 2008 01:09 PM            

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I believe my reason for being on this planet is to learn, and if my mind is going, going, gone, what's the point? I'll just be racking up medical bills, while people wait for me to die.

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