posted October 09, 2008 09:52 AM         

His Excalibur is on my IC and Excalibur.

My Guinevere is conjunct his North Node.

His Vertex is conjunct my Lancelot.

posted October 09, 2008 10:00 AM         

- you
- me
- RDJ
- Jude
- (Paul)
- Kiefer
- JP
- Did I forget someone?

I left Patrick out for a reason, I don`t feel like he belongs there. But maybe I`m wrong, because his Isolde exactly conjuncts your Galahad and what is connected with that.
His Merlin and ARthur are exactly conjunct my Guinevere (can it be he is the "ARthur" I was cheating on?)
My Merlin conjuncts his SUn, Moon and MC:
My Arthur and Galahad conjunct his Venus.

Elements we have:
Aries:
- You
- me (IC and Draco)
- RDJ
- Paul
- Kiefer, Stuart, JOaquin, who ALL have Aries-Moon!

Taurus:
- You
- RDJ
- Paul

Scorpio:
- Joaquin, Stuart, Jude
- Paul (ASC-ruler)

Libra:
- Jude
- Kiefer

Sagittarius:
- Me
- Jude
- Patrick
- Kiefer

Gemini:
- ???
- NN (RDJ), my SN

Cancer:
-???
- Jude`s SN

Capricorn:
- Jude
- Kiefer
- Patrick
- me

Leo:
- RDJ
- Paul (NN)

Aquarius:
- you
- me
(-Paul SN)

Virgo:
- You
- Patrick
- RDJ

Pisces:
- You
- Me
- Patrick
- Paul

posted October 09, 2008 10:04 AM         

OMG!!!
His Guinevere conjunct my MC.
My Lancelot conjunct his Ascendant.

posted October 09, 2008 10:11 AM         

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You didn't answer my question re: jealousy and classmates.

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posted October 09, 2008 10:12 AM         

AC has Gemini Sun and Cancer Mercury.

meta

posted October 09, 2008 10:13 AM         

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What question?

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There's one there, I promise. Before our chat yesterday.

posted October 09, 2008 10:15 AM         

I don`t, but I think that is okay, there are closer and weaker connections.

But when you talked about the car-plates, I must confess that for a few days now I can`t seem to escape the name "Paul". It`s always there, on cars, even on TV.
Heck, yesterday I was watching a political discussion, and there was not one Paul, no two of the guys had that name. lol

And this morning when I was walking along, I suddenly felt the urge to raise my head and a transporter passed me and there was "Paul" written all over it.
I was surprised and then asked: "Could you repeat that again?"
The same moment another car passed me with the letters "PK" on its plate, his initials.
I was stunned, unbelieving though, and said: "Does that mean ANYTHING at all?"
And exactly int hat moment a third car passed me with the letters "Ja",w hich means "Yes" in German. ROFL

posted October 09, 2008 10:17 AM         

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Did you see the report between MEta and Rafe. I hope she doesn`t mind if I post an excerpt here.

"You and Rafe may sometimes feel as though you have stumbled into the pages of a Barbara Cartland novel. An intensely romantic and perhaps overly idealised quality of feeling is likely to arise "

ROFL I couldn`t have said it better.

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SEEEEEEEEEE! I told you Ralph and i were soul-lovas! But no. You didn't believe. You thought, "Oh that meta girl, she's a real creeper! I pity the airplane pilot on ralph's next flight!!!!"

posted October 09, 2008 10:20 AM         

***crickets chirping***

posted October 09, 2008 10:29 AM         

Drac:

His Arthur conjunct my IC and Excalibur.
His Merlin conjunct my Chiron.

posted October 09, 2008 10:31 AM         

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meta
I wanted to ask you something - but don't recall what it is right now. Oh, I know what it is. As you are developing relationships with Sue and Tim, how do your classmates feel about that and you? I can see you being one of these people who is just stellar at whatever you do and it makes others feel insecure about their own abilities and self which could/would create competitiveness

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Well... in all honesty... i think that the jealousies were there BEFORE i started to get close to either Tim or Sue. I'M NOT BEING ARROGANT I SWEAR!!! Like yesterday, in my Improv class (taught by Sue) i performed a car accident skit in front of everyone. A nice bit of the class came up to me afterwards and expressed how moved they were. THEN, much to my demise, SUE freaking went on and on and on about MY performance to everyone!!! It made me sincerely uncomfortable. THHHEEENNN! At the end of the day, as i was walking out of the building she called to me and said "Amazing work today. Just beautiful". And of course all of the kids looked at me, since she's yelling across the room. BAHHHH... meta be not happy.

I don't want people to be jealous. I don't want people to think that they don't have what i have. I don't need the spotlight. I don't need extra attention. I just want to do what i have to do and be left alone about it. How are people supposed to love you when you make them feel bad about themselves?

Then Tim, well, in Tim's class it's a bit different. He's my poetry professor, so it's my writing that is talked about. Tim pays more attention to me, but i don't think it's as obvious, since no one is constantly asking for his attention. We make a lot of eye contact, or he'll make inside jokes that no one understands but he and i, which does instigate some eye-rolling. When i read my work aloud i get a lot of complements and/or snarls, but Tim doesn't applaud or anything. He'll write it on my paper. Or he'll talk to me about it out of class.

posted October 09, 2008 10:36 AM         

His Excalibur conjunct my Sun & Psyche.
His Lancelot conjunct my Descendant.
His Galahad & Neptune trine my Psyche & Sun.

Drac:

posted October 09, 2008 10:38 AM         

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meta
That melding of souls that you mean - I wouldn't want that all the time - too restrictive - definitely sex as an expression of - but not every moment of every day.

I can see our differences now. You just want to exist for each other. I can't do that. I have too much sense of self and needs there. I was given all this Aries, so it's definitely right for me to focus on myself this time round. I have a very distinct feeling I've done the partnership overload in previous lifetimes. Time to find myself this time. Time for balance.

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I don't think you want a less intense love. I think you want a DIFFERENT love.

And you're exactly right. I want to exist for one another. I know that can come off as just a romantic fantasy and impossible to go off of, but i have experienced this type of relationship. Twice. Once with my first love, and the other with the "Determining Mutual Feelings" man. It's a horrible feeling, but it's a gorgeous feeling.

posted October 09, 2008 10:39 AM         

But I saw him and me in that "sacred marriage" thing (I know NOW that this is what it was, a ritual, but was completely confused when I had that dream) and he somehow has become completely connected with the song "My immortal" and "Hurt" for completely irrational reasons.

And after that first strange dream there was a series of 5 or 6 other dreams, very intense.

And only a few weeks after that, maybe 2 months, or so, I actually had the chance of seeing him live.
But I couldn`t. I just couldn`t bring myself to get onto that stupid train. So I didn`t go there and didn`t see him, and I guess it`s okay.

WEll, interestingly he knows Jude and is good friends with Stuart. LOL
And he is only 2 days younger than my middle brother (and yet the synastry is quite different).

OH and I dreamed of him, before I knew him, many many years ago, of this church, or rather a cathedral, which I now know to be the cathedral of Canterbury (I almost passed out when I realized that I actually had dreamed of the cathedral of Canterbury when I was maybe 13 years old and never had heard of it) and what I never understood, suddenly made sense, too.
Because connected with that dream of the cathedral, was a big yellow sun: I was confused about that symbol, but interestingly enough I read not too long ago, that he has a Tatoo in form of a sun. lol

posted October 09, 2008 10:47 AM         

I am not sure with PA, but for me my concept of love has become universal, you know Uranian type. It's not just about me now, it's about something bigger than myself or the entity that is me and my partner.

posted October 09, 2008 10:49 AM         

I understand what you are saying. But we do change - and our ideals do change along the way. It's just experience. It's not a sudden thing where you wake up one morning wanting different things. It's gradual - where you adjust your dreams or visions or ideals here and there - tweaking - until the outcome is what you want. Because sometimes what you think you want isn't just quite right. And who you are now - you can't expect to be in 10 or 20 years time because there are so many things you will experience in that time and they will shape you - and your dreams. Just one thing for you - try not to be so fixed. Sometimes when you're looking for one thing only, you miss out on a whole lot of other good things. You know that forest from the trees expression? I noted in another thread that you had/have a crush on another student - and I thought that was great - that you're open to other people and experiences.

posted October 09, 2008 10:50 AM         

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After reading Meta's post just now something clicked with me.
I am not sure with PA, but for me my concept of love has become universal, you know Uranian type. It's not just about me now, it's about something bigger than myself or the entity that is me and my partner.

Meta, don't be sad. It's actually a beautiful thing. Not downplaying love or romance. But actually transforming it into a higher form of love.

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Elaborate...

posted October 09, 2008 10:52 AM         

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So what you do - is you shine your light - because somewhere, sometime - it inspire others to shine theirs too.

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I was about to say the exact same thing, just that I'm busy eating.

posted October 09, 2008 10:59 AM         

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Just one thing for you - try not to be so fixed. Sometimes when you're looking for one thing only, you miss out on a whole lot of other good things. You know that forest from the trees expression? I noted in another thread that you had/have a crush on another student - and I thought that was great - that you're open to other people and experiences.

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Yes, but do you know what the issue is there? I didn't LIKE him. I wanted him physically and sexually, but there was nothing more to it. I truly, TRULY don't understand what's the matter with me. I feel... I feel like with males my age there is a lack of something. There is no deep connection. I may a few attractive, but that's where my feelings end. And i HATEEEEE that. I don't want to want a married man or someone 20 years older than me. But i do. I have found that the connection that i am searching for only seems to fit with certain men. And these men happen to married, or 20 years older than me.