posted October 25, 2008 04:28 AM
This is a really out-of-this-world idea, but it came to me when I was looking at photos of me as a child last week.When times were tough as a kid, I would pray so hard for protection and help. I was told at a Sunday School I briefly attended that god looks after us, etc, etc....
So, in all earnestness, I would look toward the sky and pray that I would be okay. That nothing could really hurt me. That there was someone there watching over me.
While looking through a few photos of me as a child, my adult heart swelled with compassion for that little girl in the photo - the one that had gone through X, Y & Z, the one that had prayed for safety and love, the one that knew someone was looking over her.
Suddenly, I felt that I was the one looking over me!!! The future me looking over the present me as a child. I was now the adult looking back at the child, knowing I was always there for myself. I would make sure I was safe. I would make sure I felt love. I was my own Guardian Angel all that time growing up!!!
This may not make any sense to you. But it gave me such an amazing feeling!
In a way, me as the child was reaching into the future looking for safety, and me as the adult looking back knowing I was always here for myself.
What a brain spin that is! Oh well, that's my story for today!