posted November 05, 2008 09:22 PM            

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There once was guy named Rafe,
Who wanted to dine at a buffet,
But the hunger set in,
After a mile-high gin,
And he dined in an avion toilé

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ROFL. LMAO.

There once was a guy named Colin
he asked, he pleaded, he kept on a' callin'
made him think he tamed me and made me mellow
truth is, he had me before hello
but that i'll never tell, for a like the good fight
makes a good day, but an even better night.

posted November 05, 2008 09:26 PM            

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Clolin and I must have a shared descendant - I mean that in the lineage way. Our eyebrows could make us brother and sister!!

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I hope he's proportioned. I mean, usually men who are hairy down have no hair up. So, he's probably devoid of all pubic hair. I'll let you know...........

What's your Ascendant? I never remember anyone's chart -so please don't take offense. We're still discussing his. I'm loathe to use the terminology "rising sign" when it comes to him , but errr.......

posted November 05, 2008 09:39 PM            

You need someone to help you organise yourself and your life - it will give you perspective. And you really need to listen to that person. Especially when they tell you that you have to stop seeing the Determining Mutual Feelings guy.

posted November 05, 2008 09:41 PM            

Now, I know that didn't come from the cheesecake shop!!!

My Asc is Aries!!

Dedicated to PA:

There once was a guy called Farrell,
Peace Angel was after his barrel,
Couldn't be his face,
His brows are a disgrace,
His only "cool" is scruffy apparel

posted November 05, 2008 09:43 PM            

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There once was a guy called Farrell,
Peace Angel was after his barrel,
Couldn't be his face,
His brows are a disgrace,
His only "cool" is scruffy apparel

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ROFLMAO!!!

OMG! Hysterical. Brilliant.

I have tears. Only you could think to rhyme Farrell with barrell.

posted November 05, 2008 09:47 PM            

Still laughing. You're sending me into a coughing fit. I'm still recovering from pneumonia. Don't make the girl laugh so hard.

posted November 05, 2008 09:49 PM            

Have a fun day!!! Being around a bunch of kiddies can't stop you from daydreaming!!

posted November 05, 2008 09:51 PM            

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Have a fun day!!! Being around a bunch of kiddies can't stop you from daydreaming!!

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Who's day dreaming. ***blowing air into the inflatable Colin Farrell doll*** Thankfully the air bit happens to be right at the tip of his...............

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Have a great day!!!

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posted November 05, 2008 09:53 PM            

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Thankfully the air bit happens to be right at the tip of his.........

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posted November 05, 2008 09:59 PM            

You said to cry and shower, PA- it just happens i combined them!

posted November 05, 2008 10:02 PM            

There's nothing wrong with my Transits, that i can see. In fact, i see some good stuff- tMars trine nVenus.

posted November 05, 2008 10:06 PM            

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X
We want to meet your girlfriend. Put her on when you can. Is she a member here?

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Lol! Unfortunately, I haven't even told her about this place and when it comes to astrology, the only time her interest perked up on the subject is when I showed her our synasty Lol! (Her: "Oh wow... Hell, you mean we are gonna get..." *Me: "Yeah... Lol!")

posted November 05, 2008 10:06 PM            

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So how much can you take? How much do you want to take?

What do you want from Life? What have you asked the Universe for lately?

It's there to give us whatever we desire. Damn it, because if we ask too many questions it's like we're shooting off a round of bullets, then too much comes at us.

I think maybe you have been asking to fill your soul as you seem to be a full-on person with a load of energy. You're studying, directing, spending, losing weight due to a physical routine change, your heart is being tested with your poetry professor. There's a lot happening for you!!!!

A couple of things have spun out of control concerning your car - inspection, not using your bike, hours of driving, accident and your broke! Why has this area of your life been tested, I wonder?

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I think maybe i've done this to myself. My mentality has been "It can't get any worse" for ... a while. So now the Universe is kicking me while i'm down.

I don't know what's up. But all of a sudden things just one by one started going wrong. Snowballing. And i've sort of let it happen. I haven't said, "No more. This ends here."

posted November 05, 2008 10:19 PM            

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Money is something the revolves. More always comes to you. Never as much as you would like - I'm familiar. But there's more somewhere. You just have to have the clarity to rearrange it so you can meet your needs.

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You're so much wiser than i am. You're so much stronger. You've got more knowledge in you than i could ever aspire to have!

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My car inspection is FRIDAY.

Well, looks like they'll be taking a closer look at it now. Just relax. What's done is done. Nothing you can do to change it.

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God did not grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change...

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My college account has been frozen because of some misunderstanding between the Stafford Loan people.

Take care of this one NOW. Tomorrow. In this list of things to do - make this one priority. Ask the Universe to help you before you go in there - ask for the perfect person to help you.

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Ok, i will.

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I see my "Determing Mutual Feelings" man every weekend.

We'll come back to this one. I need to ask you. Are you involved? Otherwise, why would you be seeing him.

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The play i'm directing is in my hometown. I see him everytime i go down there- without fail. In fact, if we're being honest, he's the reason i took the job. Hopes of seeing him. But i never expected to see him as much as i am. Seeing him was supposed to make it easier, ya know? But it's just prolonging an inevitable ache.

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I'm infatuated with my f*cking poetry professor.

It's a passing crush. Nothing more. It's just that your feelings inside yourself are so intense, and you desire love so much, that you are making it more than it is. It's a crush - that's all - and one that will pass - they always do.

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Yes, i read what you wrote about this situation. I agree. This is a crush. However, i should tell you that i feel the momentum. I'm not being silly here, i mean this. Do you ever feel like something's building up? Like something is bound to happen? Like something is GOING to happen? I feel this unspoken momentum. I'm letting things get out of hand- as usual. Things are getting personal- i mean, why would he tell me about his wife? I don't know. This is a troublesome situation, and if i'm smart i will realize what I'M doing. What I'M trying to substitute him for (which would be the Determing man).

You're right. I cannot pursue this. But there is definite momentum. Undeniable.

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I've lost 20 lbs in less than 3 months (mostly of muscle, i used to bike everyday for 2 hours!)
I can't sleep.
I'm not hungry.

Unhappiness does that to a person.

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But i'm not unhappy. I'm just not... i'm just in a state of nothing right now. It's not anger, or hatred. It's vacancy.

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I don't like being with people anymore.

You're highly confused. And feel like you have nothing to offer them. Besides, you're so exhausted that they're a drain to you right now as well. And the thing is - that when you put so much energy into who you are and how you're seen - you're going to exhaust yourself. Now, this is where you start learning to do things for yourself. And that's the good part. Take away the need to be who you think others want you to be or making things the way you want them to see you - and it frees you - you have the freedom to just stand there in your own truth and be who you are. Let it all go.

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It's not that i feel i have to please everyone, it's that i feel like they have nothing to offer me. That they cannot fill the void. They fall short. They can't lift me out of this state i'm in. I'm looking for someone who is capable of deepness, and i haven't found anyone like that yet. So i just want nothing to do with anything.

That's very harsh of me. I think i just explained that to myself when i wrote it to you.

I need to go lay in a field of daisies!

posted November 05, 2008 10:36 PM            

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You need someone to help you organise yourself and your life - it will give you perspective. And you really need to listen to that person. Especially when they tell you that you have to stop seeing the Determining Mutual Feelings guy.

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Ok, let me try to explain this to you. Imagine if you met RDJ. Imagine this. You connected. Instantly. You spent hours and hours and hours together and you just GOT each other. There was that feeling of "home" in him for you, and you for him. Now, the relationship never went on to the physical level. No love making. Still, you may not have had sex, but you were certainly having an affair.

Say this lasted for two and a half years. And then all of a sudden, he had to move away. Just leave. Like that. Quicker than a blink.

How would you handle that? How would you handle having your soul removed from your body? Literally. I'm being sincere.

I'm not trying to be mean, at all. I'm trying to explain to you how deeply embedded this man has become in me. When i wrote earlier that i was thinking "it can't get any worse" i was thinking that initially because of this person. Stupid? Yes. Immature? Definitely. Selfish? Without question. Forgettable? Never.

I need to stop this and MOVE ON.

...let's not talk about this. Too gloomy. Too focused on me. I had a thread about this. I got what was coming to me. I need to zip it.

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Guaranteed that that will take away a lot of the burden, even if it doesn't feel like it at first. If you don't, I promise, it will snowball. The pain of ending it willingly is nothing like the pain that it will end with later. There's one thing worse than seeing other people make the mistakes that you've already made - and that is them not heeding your advice from your experience. But you need to go through what you need to go through. No judgement. So no matter what - I'm here for you - no matter what. Remember that.

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PA... i just can't do it... how do you walk away from someone you're in love with? How can i do that? Not only to him, but to me?...

I saw him today. For a moment. He called for me, i walked by him. STUPID ME!! But even still. Hearing that, seeing him light up because of ME is worth losing thousands of dollars and car crashes and weight loss and exhaustion.

This is my Karma. I'm being punished for not moving on.

I know you're right. You wouldn't tell me any of this if you didn't mean it and if you weren't looking out for me. I know. And you know i love you and thank you for this.