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Topic: love-child spawn of GODZALA
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meta_4
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posted February 08, 2009 03:03 PM
 
WHAT??????? NO! The answer is NO, you should NOT leave LL! Why would you even think about that?!?!IP: Logged |
darkdreamer
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posted February 08, 2009 03:35 PM
I don`t know, I`ve had that feeling for a while now. I don`t know if I will really do, even though some people would be glad if I did, I guess.Maybe it`s just the ecclipse on my Moon and Psyche that makes me say those things. But it`s all so complicated.
And just having read the latest threads, they stink of hatred (I am not talking about Godzala of course), stupidity or abstruse / obscure theories about spiritually, dressed up as fact, and it just starts to remind me of a "sect", and I do not want to belong to such a movement.
And even though I want to accept anyone`s opinion, I feel, there is something very wrong here; and I feel, the more I read about those "theories", there I feel like those completely unspiritual people, unable to understand what it`s all about.
Is this spirituality I am reading here, or is it just illusion, people want to believe in? I`m not like that anymore. Maybe I never really was. I do believe there is the probability that other life form exist on other planets, maybe even having visited earth. Yes, I can buy that.
But I don`t know, I just can`t bring myself to believe that some souls among us stem from a different solar system (why is ours not enough?).
If we are yearning to go home (oh and I know this feeling very well, I want to go home so much that it hurts), isn`t that a longing to feel fulfilled?
Doesn`t that show that there is something lacking?
Butn ot an interstellar home; we do not have to look that far. The hole is in our own soul. There is where the lack sits. And there is where we can find our home. If we somehow manage to fill that hole again. What is fate? I once had a clear answer to that. My fate is to face reality and find a place in it. Everyday. But when I am reading too much on here, I feel like I lose contact to reality, and yet, it also feels as my perception is being "deformed". There is a lot of manipulation going on here (maybe even with the best intent), and I am not immune to it.
Also, I`m tired of reading endless asteroids lists; they don`t mean anything at all, if you do not interprete them, see them in context.
I`m just tired of it all. And most of all it hurts me t hat I WANT to believe, but I can`t. There are thing being talked about here, where I just feel that is not true, but only masks the wish for a fairy-tale becoming real. To be special.
And yet every human is special just because they are. I`m ranting on, but actually I do not know what to say.
So many things here just feel so out of touch with reality.
But I feel like I`m the only one seeing it this way.
Maybe I am wrong.
Or maybe I am just at the wrong place at the wrong time. I guess I should delete that post here, cause it is a bit confused I believe. lol
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koiflower
Knowflake Posts: 1851
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Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 08, 2009 04:16 PM
You're not going anywhere, DD  IP: Logged |
LEXX
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From: Still out looking for Schrödinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion!
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 08, 2009 04:20 PM
darkdreamer 
I hear you. 
And I understand and can relate to what you said.
Where is the discernment and common sense?
Sect like, cult like.....
Too many touting new age concepts or worse yet, la la do dah as fact....
Uh huh....
And anger and arrogance being displayed too.
Disappointing and disturbing.  ------------------
Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain. IP: Logged |
darkdreamer
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posted February 08, 2009 04:36 PM
Lexx,yes, you sum it up perfectly. That is how I feel. And I do not want to waste my time, but on the other hand I know I can`t stay away fromt hese threads.
Also, I feel a bit dis-illusioned.
I had an image of certain people in my mine and now have to adjust it in the light of more recent talks.
I`m not dealing well with those changes. I have a fixed moon, even if it is in Aquarius.
Koi,
no, if ever, I`ll be flying. IP: Logged |
LEXX
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From: Still out looking for Schrödinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion!
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posted February 08, 2009 04:56 PM
darkdreamer
It has been much worse in the past
(you have perhaps noted that too)
I have taken month long hiatuses from here and one 6 month one.
I almost took another awhile back but decided to stay for various reasons. I am simply not posting or trying to share/offer, as much as I used to in my internet/forum naivete' days.
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Lara
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posted February 08, 2009 04:58 PM
quote:
And just having read the latest threads, they stink of hatred (I am not talking about Godzala of course), stupidity or abstruse / obscure theories about spiritually, dressed up as fact, and it just starts to remind me of a "sect", and I do not want to belong to such a movement.
DD, can you tell me which threads please? I'd like to look at them. I am not about to tell you not to leave because l know you haven't asked me for my opinion, although i'd like to say that your personality and persona on LL would be sorely missed and could you think about it after the eclipse in Aquarius please?  IP: Logged |
LEXX
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From: Still out looking for Schrödinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion!
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posted February 08, 2009 05:00 PM
Full Moon too.
Arrrgggghhhh!
I try not to fall to quick or rash decisions during them and for a couple days before and after. Five days I just try to chill as best as
I am able to.
Luna is not in the word lunatic for nothing! 
It affects us all!IP: Logged |
Lara
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posted February 08, 2009 05:08 PM
very true. I've had a headache all day and almost told my guy to eff off today lolTime to take deep breaths and just be still. IP: Logged |
SecretGardenAgain
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posted February 08, 2009 05:12 PM
Dear Zala Sent you an email 
Hope you get it But I sent it from my hotmail so it might go to your junk mail. SGA  IP: Logged |
spunknini
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posted February 08, 2009 06:07 PM
DD
I understand that you are weary & just plain worn out!!!
But selfishly, I don't want you to go! I will cry I promise you.
Take a break from here & take care of yourself. Do something that nourishes & refreshes your spirit, then come back to see us or at least keep in contact via email please? I am very fond of you & appreciate all your effort & friendship. I would hate to lose it or you.
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LEXX
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From: Still out looking for Schrödinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion!
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posted February 08, 2009 06:54 PM
DD
My e-mail is at L.O.L.------------------
Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain. IP: Logged |
Azalaksh
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From: New Brighton, MN, USA
Registered: Apr 2009
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posted February 08, 2009 07:45 PM
DD ~ quote:
And just having read the latest threads, they stink of hatred (I am not talking about Godzala of course), stupidity or abstruse / obscure theories about spiritually, dressed up as fact, and it just starts to remind me of a "sect", and I do not want to belong to such a movement.
You're not the only one to feel this way (Lexx <3 ).....
But it's like anything else in life: you read, you talk, you experience, and you take away from those experiences ONLY what resonates FOR YOU. You know what is right for you right now, no matter what self-appointed experts who have "studied for decades" say.....
YOU know what feels right inside yourself
If it feels uncomfortable, or sounds improbable/insane, then it's not for you.
LL is the world in a microcosm -- you find all kinds here We can't escape these "worlds" -- if we shut the door, they come in the window, if we turn off the TV, they come in thru the computer. All we can do is work on our own filters, and filter out the useless chatter which may be important to some, but inconsequential to where we are now.
Hang in there DD -- we need you here SecretGardenAgain!!!
Ladies, SGA is an old friend from several years ago here at LL, the cutest lil Gemini you will ever see (now, now, I still love you blue moon  )
I rescued your email from the junk folder, love -- but I probably won't be able to get back to you for a day or two..... Loves & Hugs,
Mme Z IP: Logged |
sunshine_lion
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posted February 08, 2009 08:02 PM
DD - if you need a break i understand, but your knowledge and common sense answers to threads will surely be missed. I enjoy reading your posts.IP: Logged |
LEXX
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From: Still out looking for Schrödinger's cat.........& LEXIGRAMMING... is my Passion!
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posted February 08, 2009 08:25 PM
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PeaceAngel
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posted February 08, 2009 10:51 PM
meta quote:
Thank you. And if i have ever done this to you, or anyone here, i am sorry.
No, no apologies. I've done that to people in the past and where you think that you're doing them a favour and they'll appreciate it - they don't. Just speaking from experience. I don't mind the strip and search with you - it's kind of where we dwell in many ways. IP: Logged |
PeaceAngel
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posted February 09, 2009 03:43 AM
DDI understand. And Zala's reply was brilliant. Just take what fits with you. I know that you are asking questions and seeking genuine answers and it can be hard when you are bombarded with things unfathomable - especially when they are presented forcibly and as fact, rather than personal experience or opinion or belief. So just take what fits with you. There are times when I think you are very diplomatic in situations and with people I wouldn't bother with. You can see in the threads how much respect these people garner compared to the amount of people who revere you and all you have to say. The difference is stratospheric. Your presence is brilliant and the know it alls have a lot to learn from you. Just take what's right for you - and ignore the rest - albeit theories or people. IP: Logged |
Lara
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posted February 09, 2009 04:33 AM
hahaha @know it all'sWhy don't you guys just call me by my name - it's a lot easier and to be honest if you are going to be snidey about me l prefer you use my name!!! IP: Logged |
PeaceAngel
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posted February 09, 2009 04:38 AM
ROFL. I was thinking laraheartone might work better.Oh man. I crack myself up. IP: Logged |
koiflower
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posted February 09, 2009 04:42 AM
PA - I hope your day was great today!!! Won't be around tonight. Am planning a lesson about the Moon, Earth and Sun's orbit and spin! Geez, even I have trouble working it all out!!! LOL!!!!Wish me luck!!! IP: Logged |
PeaceAngel
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posted February 09, 2009 04:46 AM
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PeaceAngel
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posted February 09, 2009 04:49 AM
koiYeah. My day was great. I was nervous most of it. But got through it okay - with renewed confidence for tomorrow. Not cocky - just quiet confidence. I made a friend who fits in with Godzala like you wouldn't believe. She even knows that she's Sag Sun & AC, but can't remember her Moon sign. We'll get it down. IP: Logged |
PeaceAngel
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posted February 09, 2009 04:54 AM
She thinks I'm the devil in disguise.***PA ponders for a moment***
Hmmmm, she could be right. She just could be right. ROFL. IP: Logged |
PeaceAngel
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posted February 09, 2009 04:58 AM
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PeaceAngel
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posted February 09, 2009 05:00 AM
DDSanity suggestion: Maybe just not venture over to Astro2 for some time. Like a nice little holiday. IP: Logged |
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