posted March 29, 2009 03:08 PM         

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...viciousness... horible... crap.. manipulation and ego... shameful... most underhanded and cruel... then beg pity when the "angry mob" attacks him.

Disgusting. I feel sorry for him,... but you have to snip people who will do nothing more than drain you of good energy for their own purposes.

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I'm glad you got that off your belly, Ghani.

Is this the "good energy" that draws my attention?

It certainly worked this time, didnt it?

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the person who actually inflicted his current emotional pain on him.

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I thought we were done with the private stuff, Ghani?

I mentioned a difficult break-up, yes.
She was a SELFISH WOMAN WHO CHEATED on me,
so I broke up with her, out of self-respect.
Maybe you know a little something about that?
Then again, maybe you don't.

It's one of many things inflicting emotional pain on me.
I've since made some peace with that person, though.
But what right do you have to latch onto that,
and use it to explain all of my behavior?

YOU want to point the finger at personal issues which
suggest a tendency to selfishness and underhandedness?
I think its worth mentioning that you have three fingers
pointing right back at yourself, -- for good, solid reasons.

But why do you want to drag us down into this sort of mudslinging?
Did I say T morphed into a rabid dog because her Dad did a number on her?
No, I didnt. And I wouldnt say something like that.
I think its way below the belt to use personal things like that,
and throw them at someone, as if it sums up all their behavior.

T was yelling "b!tch", "pansy", and "a$$hole".

What about this was not:

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...viciousness... horible... crap.. shameful... and cruel.

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My response to her, at least once,
before it was met with more venom,
was to say to her:

"Are you okay, T?
I do care, you know.
I'm not trying to make you snap."

According to you, this must be the most viciously manipulative
and underhanded response I could have made to her foaming insults.

LMFAO

You are biased and wrong.

posted March 29, 2009 07:05 PM         

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Did I say T morphed into a rabid dog because her Dad did a number on her?
No, I didnt. And I wouldnt say something like that.
I think its way below the belt to use personal things like that,
and throw them at someone, as if it sums up all their behavior.

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posted March 29, 2009 07:27 PM         

You say you respect people when they stand for something or stand up for themselves. BS. That's exactly what I'm doing here, and regardless of what is going on in my personal life, I continue to try and be as respectful and compassionate to people as I can. I am not perfect. I do not claim to always be right. In fact, if you know anything about me, it's that I will most often take all the blame for anything if it means somebody else will be less hurt.

In this instance, I can't sit here and go through it again with someone. I have had emotional vampires in my life before, one I met on this site and went through hell trying to help that person in their soul battling quest to better themselves and find peace. I can't do it with you, because honestly, I don't think you want to be saved. You want to be the martyr, to be the lonely philosopher, to be the one that says all the insightful things about spirituality and is Christ-like.

You will never be Christ-like, because he shared his wisdom and his love, and did not need for people to agree with him or follow what he said, merely listen. Did he demand proof from those that opposed his views before he deemed them worthy advesarys? Did he beat them over the head with his beliefs, and refuse to see any other way? You are the claimed expert, you tell me.

Nobody is perfect, Stephen. NOBODY.

I don't care what you think of me. I honestly don't. You happen to know more than most people on this site currently about my present situation, and knowing what you know, I don't care what your opinion is. I have admitted my faults to you. I told you I was not proud of any of it, and pretty much exactly how it all went down. I did not ask for pity or for understanding. I merely told you. You are free to feel about that whatever you want, just know that I know who I am and am learning more every day and bringing myself around to be more open with my heart and more accepting of love. I have something that is more important to me than anything growing inside me and I will take responsibility for that miracle with all the love in my heart.

Don't feel sorry for me. I KNOW WHO I AM TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY.

The people in my life know me, know what has happened, and are growing in this process along with me. I am far from needing a holier than thou beam shone on me, trust me.

I honestly wish you would find some peace within yourself and learn that you don't need another person to be whole. Maybe you think you do, or you reallllly want one, but until the day comes where you can be alone, completely alone, no internet, tv, phone, music, anything, just you and your thoughts and your heart, and be okay with who that person is, you will not have reached the place you so desperately seek.

Good luck to you in your quest. May your steps on your path not trample those around you...

Peace.

posted March 29, 2009 09:49 PM         

My response can be found here:
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum7/HTML/010928-7.html

LEXX

Great thoughts once again Ghani.