posted January 30, 2006 11:15 AM         

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Anywaaay........

If it makes anyone feel better, I wont be posting on LL anymore. I asked Randall to take my name off as Moderator. There are many reasons for this and I feel it's the best choice for me right now. I've grown alot since I've been here, learned alot, made some great friends, had alot of laughs. But lately....or for awhile now, I feel like I dont really have much to say anymore and I've been letting my negative side come out too much. Letting things get to me. I feel off center, like I've gone off track....though I know deep down I havent. Some of that could be 'planetary' stuff going on, or just plain growing out of something, needing to retreat.....to go back (with)In....rewriting how I want my story to go......finding out exactly what that is.......many things. I'm at one of those points where I need to break away or let go of some things. And this time, I'm feeling very good about that.
Anyway, I just dont feel connected to this place or the people here the way I used to. Nothing against anyone! It's not you, it's me. I'm sure we've all gone through it to some extent. But the 'music's over'. And when something's over for a Taurus, it's over. I've allowed this place to take up too much of my time, energy, thoughts.... it's not conducive to my growth anymore.

There are alot of you that I'll miss very much. Youve touched my heart and been lights in some dark times. Some of you know that I dont have really have a family. Dont speak to my mother, father or the other members and havent had contact with my brother in well over a year. So in an odd way, that's what you were to me and I'll miss that. But this is a good thing. Change always is (yes, a Taurean just said that. hahaha).
I'm seeing big changes on my horizon and looking forward to them all. Eager to break down some of these walls and hop over a few hurdles. These are happy times, mixed with a bit of sadness. Yet a strong knowing that I'm where I need to be. A calm amidst some passing storms....

Soooo, just thought I'd give an explanation before I go....done enough dissapearing acts in this lifetime.
You deserve to know. And now you wont be worried. Life is good friends. To the few of you who emailed me, SC, pix, trill: thank you - I will get back to you.

Bright Lights to you All on your paths.
Thank you for sharing yourS-elves with me.

Geez, what a windbag!! lol
Giving it a rest,
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posted February 03, 2006 01:13 AM         

But the good news is she still goes on line from time to time...so we still get to chat occasionally

I'm so glad I got to know her, she is just so amazing, I'm sure I'll know her for long time to come.

posted February 07, 2006 01:12 PM         

Thank you for your concern, Iqhunk. I'm doing good right now. Have ups and downs, you know, like everyone.....Just something I have to live/deal with. I'll be fine.

posted February 08, 2006 02:14 AM         

Hope you'll be back when you sort things out;

Back or not, you will always find support and sympathy here anyway...

posted February 09, 2006 01:08 PM         

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