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Topic: ETERNAL ENERGY.....this is a thread for you ๐
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Lexxigramer Moderator Posts: 7896 From: Here since March 24th.2005/..& Have been Lexagramming going on 2/3 of a century to date! LEXIGRAMMING.โฅis my Passion! Registered: Feb 2012
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posted April 11, 2022 04:03 PM
quote: Originally posted by Eternal Energy: Everything's going to be ok, you'll see... I really believe you have a lucky star lighting your path and protecting you...
I feel yes that I have protection. ๐๐ Not going to say what it is or the who all, But yes, There are protectors around. I am still rather terrified but I suppose who would not be when one has no clear answers and the doctors are all changing the diagnosis is and not to better. Will I be alive come June? No idea. All I can do is hold on and try to make it through all the surgeries and the aftermath. I cannot tell if the doctors think that I am in worse shape than they are Yell my me, or if they really do not know because this is such a rare form. Sigh.... Cannot help feeling trapped. ๐ซ
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posted April 11, 2022 04:10 PM
quote: Originally posted by Eternal Energy: I know what I would do to you if I were there! I would massage your head... I would take away all these thoughts that torture you and scatter them to the four winds...
That would be lovely!๐ Before my over 4 feet long thick auburn apricot hair A serious ginger as some call it.๐ It begin mysteriously and suddenly without warning Begin falling out in October Z019 and became this is thin 5 inch long grey scraggy matted mess, Have my hair brushed was a delight that could rival the best of orgasms.๐๐ Sadly my skin hurts to even be touched lightly these days.๐ซ๐ฝ Hugging causes much pain. Gentle stroking anywhere feels too often like needles and briars and even razor blades.๐ซ๐ฝ I miss being touched but it hurts too much.๐ซ This is very hard on my husband to say the least.๐ซ How do you comfort a person who is having terrible skin etcetera pain to even the lightest gentlest touches?๐ซ๐ฝIP: Logged |
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posted April 11, 2022 04:21 PM
quote: Originally posted by Eternal Energy: Is your head a sensitive part of yours?... Even though they say that for Pisces, like me, the most sensitive part is their feet, for me it is my head...
my entire body is hyper pain sensitive to the lightest of touches.๐ซ๐ฝ It was not always so. I use to love having my hair brushed ๐๐ I loved and cuddling and hugging.๐๐ Strange how Scorpio rules the reproductive organs and sexuality. Those are the areas of my anatomy which are trying to execute me.๐ซ๐ฝ I do not feel human much these days nor even Alive. For the past 2 q/2 years to date I complained to all my doctors that I felt like something was slowly killing me because of the rapid weight loss hair loss going bald and vomiting 24/7. No one listened. Not even the good doctors. ๐ซ๐ฝ So here I am just wondering what next?๐ซ๐ฝThank you for your kindness and caring words and thoughts dearest friend.๐ I am going down again. I live mostly betwixt bed and toilet and many doctors. I am so exhausted and feel lost and trapped Like there is no escape for me that Realistically includes living a long and happy many more years. Going to try to rest again. So tired so lost feeling. ๐ซ๐ฝ
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posted April 11, 2022 04:23 PM
quote: Originally posted by Lexxigramer: How do you comfort a person who is having terrible skin etcetera pain to even the lightest gentlest touches?๐ซ๐ฝ
With love... Only love can touch even the deepest wounds with its delicate and soft hands and take away all the pains...
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posted April 11, 2022 04:29 PM
By the way.... I found and saved as best I could, That lost thread except for page one and two. I intend to try and re-post it by using quotes for posts that are not mine. Should be able to salvage the pictures hopefully. For the moment feeling very nauseated ๐คข๐คฎ so off to bathroom and then hen bed again. ๐ฝ๐งป๐๐ค
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posted April 11, 2022 04:49 PM
quote: Originally posted by Eternal Energy: With love... Only love can touch even the deepest wounds with its delicate and soft hands and take away all the pains...
l agree.๐ So I let my husband touch me because it is worth the pain. ๐๐๐๐ I do not even remember what living without physical pain feels like.๐ฝ๐ซ From birth to about age 26 loved with much pain. Then a time of almost pain free remissions from about age 27 to age 35 which was great!๐๐ It was all an odd glorious period ๐๐๐ of being very strong and athletic๐๐๐๐๐๏ธโโ๏ธ๐ช๐ฆต despite still having serious health issues. I was able to lift 600 pounds and was a professional arm/wrist wrestler!๐๐๐ I Won in many competitions!๐๐๐From age 17 To age 52 I had over 30 lost pregnancies. ๐ซSome twins.๐ซ So always pain and much unexplained disfunction with my female bits.๐ซ Since 1989 I have been disintegrating more and more in dozens of ways.๐ซ๐ฝ Still going to keep trying to get better ASAP. ๐
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posted April 12, 2022 04:51 AM
quote: Originally posted by Lexxigramer: Distance is From me to you!๐๐๐ 5,175 miles. This is equivalent to 8โ328 kilometers or 4,497 nautical miles. You are 7 hours ahead of me.
And 11 hours the flight duration. I know...
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posted April 12, 2022 04:55 AM
I don't know what you see, but what I see in this perfect arched route is what is called in architecture a threshold in space and time...IP: Logged |
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posted April 12, 2022 04:56 AM
Before love all barriers just break down...IP: Logged |
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posted April 12, 2022 07:27 AM
quote: Originally posted by Eternal Energy: I don't know what you see, but what I see in this perfect arched route is what is called in architecture a threshold in space and time...
Yes I see it!๐๐ Absolutely perfect!๐๐ If some of my past lives' memories and feelings are true and Was actually them..... At least 4 come to mind.๐๐ Then they plus the me now makes for 5 who love that map and your words about distances and arches and Archetecture and Time and space! ๐ Wonderful indeed!๐๐ Thank you!๐
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posted April 12, 2022 07:29 AM
quote: Originally posted by Eternal Energy: Before love all barriers just break down...
Agreed!๐ Barriers fall aside or vanish they cannot stand against love!๐ Thank you precious friend.๐IP: Logged |
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posted April 12, 2022 07:39 AM
quote: Originally posted by Eternal Energy: And 11 hours the flight duration. I know...
Actually I am 14 hr 42 min (992.1 mi) via I-75 S Farther north than the marker for me on the map indicates. I am minutes from the Great Lakes.๐ Not even close to Florida or Georgia. Love the map though With it's wonderful perfect arch! Even my being about 1,000 miles further north should I think not mess up the perfect arch.๐๐ Okay must feed my ferals๐ and rest some more. Hope your day is going well!๐ ------------------ Click here to read My Lexigramming Biography: going on 2/3 of a century to date โฅ Lexigramming!๐ โ๏ธ I shall return!๐
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posted April 13, 2022 06:31 AM
My sweet loving friend, how are you? I'm thinking about you... IP: Logged |
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posted April 13, 2022 01:05 PM
Dearest sweet loving friend Eternal Energy.๐ Please brace yourself firmly. Or please Please ignore this post as it will be very disturbing and it is being typed whilst I am in a terribly bad state of mind and spirit and body at the moment. I should delete it maybe later. Today feeling very ill from the other conditions not related to the cancers. Also cancer gynocologist surgeon and scheduling are not communicating very well at all with each other and anesthesiaology and genetic testing and they keep screwing up with Getting insurance pre-certifications for over a dozen procedures tests and physicals and much more that must have pre-approval before doing any of them and that need done before surgery. There is now NOT enough time before the surgery to get all that done and insurance pre--approval. I agreed Whilst during the phone apponinment with doctor whilst I was lying in my bed vomiting and in pain to a total hysterectomy but they claim now that I agreed to a bowel resection and removal possibly of rectum/anus and vagina And possibly more. WTF? There would be no quality of life after such an invasive butchering! no reason to bother to try to live.๐ซ And no way am I agreeing to being put in a old folks home. That is a fate worse than death.๐ฝ If I must die I want to be at home.โฎ๏ธ Or in a forest or whatever. Not in some stinking hospital surrounded by jerks.๐ I did not agree to that and nor have they proved whether it is all needed or not. They ignore our questions and just want to rush us through the surgery and hospital assembly lines But they refuse to explain or discuss or tell us what it is exactly they want to do and when.๐ ๐ซ They have not even taken down my complete history and have never ever given me a complete physical.๐ซ๐ ๐ฑ So I am totally freaking out here ๐คช๐๐ซ up to feeling like I should just bail because all of this is stressing my sweet husband out horribly.๐ซ๐ซ He is having to arrange everything because the medical people are not doing their jobs! ๐ ๐ซ The insurance and doctors and hospital and all are not communicating with each other and not scheduling etcetera. They said that it is our job to do all every bit of paper work and scheduling and transportation involved! They point blank say that these days that all that paperwork is all the patients'responsibility and not theirs.๐ I am extremely angry and terrified and just want it all to end. I do not want to die but this is becoming more than I or we can handle.๐ซ๐ซ I kept on planning my suicide if need be. My favorite is going off somewhere secluded and setting off a few sticks of dynamite. No muss no fuss fast and painless and mo morticians required. Cheap and fast and easy. Hee hee oppossum food!๐ Sigh.... One cannot just go out and buy dynamite these days. So I must try to hold on but it is so freaking hard. I hurt so much today from the dozens of other conditions that I am afflicted with.๐ฃ๐ซ The pain is just about all I can handle even with morphine/methadone etcetera๐ค๐ฃ๐ซ I probably should not be posting all of this here.:sad::cry:You my sweet friend you did not need to read all of this.๐๐ Please dearest one just wish me good luck and that I shall survive and live on for many more happy years!๐๐ Please pardon typos or weirdness. Will fix after I chill out and try to eat and rest. I ate good yesterday but am vomiting and in pain today. Ugh.๐ฑ I shall return despite my frenzied wild losing it today ranting. ------------------ Click here to read My Lexigramming Biography: going on 2/3 of a century to date โฅ Lexigramming!๐ โ๏ธ I shall return!๐ IP: Logged |
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posted April 13, 2022 01:54 PM
One lovely piece of good news today. No enough to bring me out of this nightmare fugue, But enough to make me want to Be able to live long enough to use them all. The vision insurance got wiped out but get this..... I am getting a year's worth of night and day contact lenses For Free!๐ So I have to live long enough to use them up and buy more after surgeries that I hope insurance will cover.So today is a living hell But I can see a tiny bit better Better than in about 20 years or more.๐ Okay going to try and chill and get hold of myself. My sweet husband has virtually collapsed from the stress and exhaustion induced seizures and is sleeping now for awhile. The pain he experiences is horrible.๐ซ๐ Some neurologists have suggested Various types of brain surgery.๐๐ฑ we will know more after a brain MRI can get insurance approval. He has his own cancers worries to deal with not just mine.๐ซ Okay off to rest and try to cuddle๐ as much as possible despite the fact that cuddling is very painful.๐ซ Pardon typos. Love and blessings to you dearest sweet friend.๐๐ ------------------ Click here to read My Lexigramming Biography: going on 2/3 of a century to date โฅ Lexigramming!๐ โ๏ธ I shall return!๐ IP: Logged |
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posted April 13, 2022 04:42 PM
I apologise for my late response, but my last lesson finished at 21:30 and I got home at 22:00. I don't want you to think that I have forgotten you. I'm here now. No one is doing anything on you unless you have thought about it first and you have agreed. The last word is yours. So, don't stress yourself more with what they said on the phone about a possible bowel resection. Also, forget about deaths and suicides completely. These are totally out of the question and totally out of the plan. So, let's try to think what would be the best thing to do at the present time. I really believe you need to talk to the doctor once more. In person. To ask him all those things that you have in mind that are consuming you. To listen to him to what he has to say and if you are not sure about something, to ask for more clarifications. To start trusting him...IP: Logged |
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posted April 13, 2022 08:05 PM
Please no fret sweet dear Eternal Energy.I know you are there and know that you truly care and knowing that really does Help me cope.๐ I have no words for how much that means to me and my husband.๐ I wish there were something that I could give you having such great value in return.๐ It is just that I feel extra awful physically today and we are both beyond stressed out. Almost the entire day we have Been working on the required paperwork and trying to get all medical persons involved with this issue to communicate with us and explain things and answer questions about the why's and why nots Of it all. So far the gynocological doctor surgeon refuses to discuss anything or options if any. It appears to be his way or no way.๐ซ๐ He is supposed to be a world famous gynocological doctor/surgeon. His bedside manner is rude and dismissive. All such doctors are like him. So I am stuck with him. We are going to try again to get him to communicate and help me trust him. At the moment he is my fear base in all of this and not the actual surgery etcetera. I fear him and his attitude and lack of communication and his total unwillingness to get me to trust him. Such as him and his over jovial fake oh ha ha ha attitude of like Oh you do not need to worry ho ho You silly woman in an old guy patronizing like chortleing sexist yammering To some stupid little woman. He laughs and says things like: We will take good care of you ma'am You will just be taking a nice little nap and wake up and not remember anything and then stay in hospital a few days. I am like WTF dude???? I am terrified and angry. We both are. We have appointments in a few days there and a few days before the surgery. However they have not gotten insurance pre-approval no finished all the exams and pre-testing required. And no one is listening to us.๐ A big part of the problem is that that PCP who dumped me after almost a decade never put all my history into my records. She totally refused to do so. So these people involved with all that needs done do not have correct information nor my complete information! Mostly because of that PCP!๐๐ซ๐ So like when they sent out the pre-surgectial antibiotics they Became angry when I said I cannot take those due to dangerous adverse reactions. Response from them.... Well that concern is not in your chart records. ๐ซ๐ Yeah because the PCP refused to add them and refused to copy old style paper records into my medical file because she said Oh we cannot do that these days. Everything is computerized. I had given her a super thick file but seems she threw it out!๐ ๐ ๐ Said the records were too old and not important and she said there is no p!ace to store those old fashioned records these days. Everything must be computerized. So everything not in any computers gets thrown out And get this.... They and hospitals routinely throw out records and cat scans and x-rays and ultrasounds, MRIs and Doppler carotid and other tests including various heart tests and many more other tests which are older than like 5 years or so. So here I am in a medical records limbo and these idiots who want to gut me and knock me out are refusing to pay attention to my history! It is not in your chart so we cannot believe what you tell us....... That is a phrase I am so damn tired of hearing from the medical community. And mostly because that damn incompetent PCP refused to update and correct my record and threw out some 40 years of records I gave to her. I still have some records left but never dreamt that a doctor would refuse to add them to my compurizrd records and instead of giving them back to me she then just threw them in the trash!๐ ๐ ๐ There is nothing I can do about any of this. This freaking surgery needs done ASAP because even I can tell that the pain has increased rapidly and blood work bad readings suddenly far worse just since February and even March 2022.๐ซ Time it appears is of the essence and I feel that I am not being treated with care concern and respect nor am I being allowed choices or a chance to actually Talk with the people involved before they Just pop me open and do what that want to do. This is just so terrifying and seriously It does not have to be!๐ฝ Please you medical people please hear me and explain and discuss things and explain any options. I have read the big shot hospital's Pages about total hysterectomy with possible complications and there are several viable options including a horizontal incision Just at the public line and not the dangerous vertical slice and dice incision going from my ribs to pelvis that he is insisting on doing! Also anesthesia! There are some very important things they must take into account or my chances of stroking out or becoming blind or paralyzed or even worse.... are too high a risk factors to just blithely ignore as they have been doing because thank you idiot PCP who did not correct my chart causes everyone to say again and again, Well it is not in your chart!๐ฝ๐ ๐ซ Okay going to try and rest. Have to get possibly 4 teeth extractions tomorrow including two wisdom teeth. Yay.๐ซ Then brain scan and then next week all kids of medical meetings and then ugh ugh ugh... Yes I am terrified and freaking angry. If everyone including that damn negligent PCP ๐ I would not be having to endure these medical blunders and all these serious inconsiderate nonsense that is endangering and limiting my access to the best care and treatments for me. Typos most likely abound. My husband is losing his coping skills and has been in tears so long today. He is beyond exhausted. This is worsingng his seizures and frequency of them. ๐ซ๐๐ Okay must try to rest. I must stop babbling at you. I really appreciate with all my heart and soul your loving and caring ways to me and my husband.๐๐๐๐ I am trying to hold on. Again dear sweet precious friend Many blessings and our deepest love and appreciation for all you have done and helping me/us to hold on here.๐ Sorry to cause you so much grief and stress. ๐ซ๐ Please ignore the typos galore. To tired to fix and read again to fix themIt is like 3:04 am where you ate. Hope you are having sweet sweet happy wonderful dreams!๐๐ค ------------------ Click here to read My Lexigramming Biography: going on 2/3 of a century to date โฅ Lexigramming!๐ โ๏ธ I shall return!๐ IP: Logged |
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posted April 13, 2022 08:15 PM
No apologies sweet friend.๐๐ Please enjoy your Thursday!๐๐ Looking forward to the day when we can laugh and be happy after I get through this medical nightmare rollercoaster. I have lightning bugs to see and cats and Opposums to care for! Some ravens too. And mostly my beloved husband!๐๐๐ I want to get a heavy duty manual treadmill once I survive all this current and pending medical things. I want to walk again. I want to continue to live! We both each have several manuscripts still in the works that we want to get published and some made into movies live action and or chi.๐ Okay good night from here to you there precious friend.๐๐ค------------------ Click here to read My Lexigramming Biography: going on 2/3 of a century to date โฅ Lexigramming!๐ โ๏ธ I shall return!๐ IP: Logged |
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posted April 13, 2022 08:16 PM
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posted April 14, 2022 04:22 AM
My sweet friend, if the doctor is known to be one of the best in his specialty, then you can ease your mind, at least to a considerable extent, because you are really going to be in very good hands. Even if he's being dismissive, as you said, you shouldn't care about it at all at this present moment. You want him to do the best job and everything looks like that he is indeed going to do so. Once you go to him in a few days, you have to tell him all those things that are not filed in your medical record because you are the only one who knows them and I'm sure that he will definitely know how to procceed from that point on doing only what is best for you.IP: Logged |
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posted April 14, 2022 10:29 AM
Dear sweet friend๐ Thank you for replying on your busy day.๐ Quick reply here as I am off soon for teeth extractions. Not sure how many today. One to five but at the very least Wisdom tooth that broke the other day. I hate getting my face numbed. Rather get extractions done without being numbed. I prefer fast as possible and no pain numb injections. Ok must finish getting ready.Oh yes, one thing is that this world class doctor Will probably not be the surgeon chopping and slicing into me.๐ It will be a bunch of students and he will not be supervising them unless something goes very badly. This is the biggest danger of being operated on in a teaching hospital.๐ฝ๐ Students do all or most of the surgery prep and surgery and finishing up. Often some or all may have only operated on dead bodies for practice and not living people. So yeah I am still freaking out.๐ฝ๐ซ A few times for other medical procedures in the past These kind of students have almost killed me More than once by doing really stupid mistakes.๐ฝ๐ซ๐ So not happy about these novices playing doctor on and inside of me.๐ซ๐ฝ๐ Okay must go. Hope the rest of your day and then night goes wonderfully!๐๐ ------------------ Click here to read My Lexigramming Biography: going on 2/3 of a century to date โฅ Lexigramming!๐ โ๏ธ I shall return!๐ IP: Logged |
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posted April 14, 2022 02:32 PM
Please bear with me. Today is more nightmares on top of more nightmares.๐ฝ๐ซ๐ Almost could not get the screaming pain broken wisdom tooth pulled.๐ซ Seems that freaking sticking PCP never signed the dental form authorizing me to get any dental work.๐ I had to threaten to pull it myself or just Commit suicide because the pain was more than I can keep having like the past several days. Finally got it pulled. Call Fo It broke off in 14 or more pieces as she was trying to extract it.๐ซ I am home now in more pain and we got a Phone call from the nurse to have a 40 minute visit so she could go over all the pre and post surgery details. Over half of those things are impossible for me/us to do accommodate.๐ซ Absolutely no message from the doctor. Nothing no communication with him. The meds are mostly all ones I cannot use. The cathiters are very dangerous for me due to certain external and internal skin issues which means the cathiters can damage me beyond repair. Seriously if we live in a state where euthenasia is legal I would be sorely tempted to go for it.๐ Now both me and my husband are feeling beyond overwhelmed and talking suicide.๐ซ We are getting absolutely no respect and no compliance g with the Americans With Disabilities Act. And why? All because that rotten PCP never put my being disabled since 1989 Into my medical file!๐ So this batch of doctors keep on saying Well your chart does not mention anything about being disabled at all. So here we are and everyone ignoring my physical state of being.๐ okay must go. The Lidocaine is wearing off and the pain is jumping horribly high and deep and adding more suicidal ideation to the mix.๐ซ๐ฝ All over today the pain is so very very very nightmarishly bad.๐ Even Morphine is not cutting it much at all. ๐ซ I will try to hold on for the next 24 hours or so. Do not know what else to say. So very sorry for more gloom and doom. Pain and agony must lie down and try to pass out.------------------ Click here to read My Lexigramming Biography: going on 2/3 of a century to date โฅ Lexigramming!๐ โ๏ธ I shall return!๐ IP: Logged |
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posted April 14, 2022 02:35 PM
PS. This sucks I am allergic to cotton. Guess what? Must keep wads of cotton in my mouth and bite down to help socket stop bleeding. Yippie skippie.๐ซ๐ฝ What a nightmare.Okay must go. Pain is driving me. I am rambling too much. IP: Logged |
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posted April 14, 2022 02:57 PM
My dear friend, you have returned! I'm so glad! Ohhh, I tried to distract myself by writing in some other thread, but the truth is that I was thinking about you and your today's visit with the dentist. Please, try not to think all these things now that you are in pain! Leave them for tomorrow... Try to be calm, will you please?...IP: Logged |
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posted April 14, 2022 05:43 PM
Up to take more Pain meds. Aspirin and Methadone. I hate taking so much meds for pain. I usually take the bare minimum to just try and take the edges off of the clutching stabbing agonies and throbbing. Today is a full dosages day not a day be brave and take as little as possible. Definitely a make the agonies go away let me try and rest kind of day. Teeth pain and burns have got to be some of the worse pains. And the suicide pain I get too often is an added nightmare. Actually slang wise it is called the suicide pain syndrome I think. Also think my collar bone snapped and shoulder joint is messed up because of all the pressure required to do the complicated wisdom tooth extraction. I have a brain head cat scan tomorrow and will drop into the express care and get requisition for x-rays of my shoulders, clavicles and upper arms and possibly sternum. Then we can go to radiology and get all those films at same time as the brain/head cat. With the lat st 4view of cervical spine and The cat for brain/head tomorrow and other x-rays. That should give the surgeon and anesthesiology technictions a more detailed look at why they cannot just lay me flat or move me without taking many precautions to prevent strokes and blindness and paralysis etcetera I am a complex patient and most medical people do not want to or do not know how to accommodate my bodily limitations and these issues must be taken seriously or they could injure me or paralyze me or worse. So as much as I do not feel comfortable having so many X-rays in my life to date, It is all more often nessessary than it is not. Wow...I tried to figure out how much radiation I have had in my life to date and numbers are mind staggering!๐ฝโข๏ธ I have literally lost count! I was one of the kids who was part of government radiation experiments in the decades following the Great Depression and WW2. Some was actually quite fun to do but in retrospect Al that excess radiation in my childhood could well be the cause of all The myriad types of cancer and the rare autoimmune afflictions.๐ฝ I got to dance and play for long period of time whilst undergoing full body fluroscptic Testing. As a child seeing my Skeleton was just way too cool!๐ But sadly probably has left me a mess health wise some 65 or so years later to date.๐ฝ๐ซ๐ I wore weird radium painted "jewelry" that the researchers have me to wear. The sound of Geiger counters was not unknown in my personal life as a child. My hair fell out a few times and I would get bad sunburns but not from any sun!๐ฝ They came in white or black windowless vans and worse masks and hazmat hods and other Kinds of gear to protect themselves from all the toxic things and I suspect maybe even me. Our house was under qurrranteed once and only me and my dad were allowed to stay there. We both lost our hair. Well anyhow there I go babbling again.๐คชThank you again sweet loving friend!๐๐ You are helping us cope more than you may realize.๐๐ In many ways you have been and are instrumental in saving our lives.๐๐ I am sad though ๐๐ Because all this dealing with me must be very very exhausting for you.๐๐ I wish there were a way I could give to you all that you have given to me so selflessly.๐๐ You are precious dear friend beyond my words to express my sincere thanks and appreciation.๐๐ You need to rest up too dear Eternal Energy.๐ Please do not exhaust yourself dealing with me.....okay?๐ Wow I sure got to blithering again. Blame it all on a desire and serious need for distraction at this time and my opioid psuedo mania. Bye bye for the moment. Meds kicking so might be able to actually sleep awhile.๐ค๐
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