posted April 17, 2022 10:47 PM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:

Wow! I was asked that same question "Do we know each other from another life?" by a 18-year-old student from this class I was substituting for on Friday, last day of schools before Easter break. During this week he has been asking me all sort of questions you can ever imagine! He wanted to know just...everything! From where I was born to my height, my weight, my family, what do I eat, what do I watch, where do I go, everything! What a kind and sensitive heart!
In our case, my loving friend, I don't know... I don't have all the answers... I don't know you from somewhere else... This place here is where we started talking to each other... I don't know if it is a coincidence... All I know is that peoples' fates are so inextricably interwined...more than we can ever imagine... We are all so one and the same... I have written an answer to your thread-question "When did you join Lindaland? Also why?"... I have always been a very logical person. I have always kept my feet strong and steady on the ground. I always want to see the truth. This has always been my absolute strength that gives me wings to fly high up in the sky... And up there, I am free to dream... During the last few months, I have started to believe that maybe I didn't find this place here by chance, as I have written in my post...

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posted April 17, 2022 11:25 PM            

Keeping this reply short as
I must be getting a wee bit
of test before having to go
to hospital and several
doctors and departments
tomorrow's from before sunrise
and nigh onto sundown.
Long long stressful exhausting
day to deal with.😞
Ugh.
So good morning to you there
my sweet loving friend.💕
And a good night from me here.😎
If there is wifi connection
at the 3 medical campuses tomorrow,
I shall endeavour to write you
in betwixt dealing with all
the meetings and tests
and ugh ugh ugh things.

One must deal with what one
must deal with
at those times when
there are no valid nor any
logically realistic
choices left
but to do the best to
get through it all
hopefully without becoming
completely drained and be
left some coping energy left
and my sanity intact.

posted April 18, 2022 04:06 AM            

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Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
Is your mum still living in body?💖
I will be 68 on November 3rd this year.
I intend to survive to that and beyond!😎
Also that is LindaLand's birthday too!😎
I am almost 15 years older than my husband.
Was your dad older or younger than your mum?💕
If I ever met your dad it would most likely have been in Northeastern Ohio pre 1980s or thereabout.

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Yes, she's still alive! My dad was older than my mum. My dad was born in 1930. He had been to many places all around the world... I'm sorry, but I don't recall him right now talking about Ohio specifically... Maybe I can ask my mum if she remembers anything and I will let you know... What I do remember very vividly is him talking many times how he was about to start business in New Orleans and live there. Guess that fate had other plans for him.

posted April 18, 2022 04:14 AM            

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Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
By the way,
Your dad was a sea captain?💕😎
The only man I knew from Greece was in the 1970s and initials were P.K.💕
A very sweet guy.💕

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Yes... And every time he came back, he would give money and bring to the whole neighbourhood of his gifts, toys, clothes and candies from every place he went. He was very generous. Everybody knew him. And everybody loved him. That's how he met my mum. Actually he first met her mother, my grandmother, when she was pregnant to her! I remember that a constant 'fight' between the two of them at home was when my mum was 'scolding' him for giving too much money to other people.
My dear friend, that is so great that you have met someone from my country and you have such good memories of him! See...we are not so strangers after all!

posted April 18, 2022 04:23 AM            

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Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
A little something until I get
back to replying to you.💕♾️

http://arganesh3.wordpress.com/2015/05/10/eternal-energy/

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posted April 18, 2022 06:07 AM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
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Yes, she's still alive! My dad was older than my mum. My dad was born in 1930. He had been to many places all around the world... I'm sorry, but I don't recall him right now talking about Ohio specifically... Maybe I can ask my mum if she remembers anything and I will let you know... What I do remember very vividly is him talking many times how he was about to start business in New Orleans and live there. Guess that fate had other plans for him.

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Wow!😎
My dad was born
August 26th.1930!😎💕
He also talked of moving from
Ohio and Pennsylvania to
New Orleans and even Australia.
Some of his hobbies included
hot air balloon piloting
and flying ultralight aircraft.
I was long time an adult when
he got into into all that flying
after he retired.
He passed April 17th. 2020.😞
Well we must be off soon so
not much more replying
until later today.
for the over an hour drive to
get to all my many appointments.
Just thinking of the drive which
causes me much pain and
motion sickness and vomiting
Is exhausting even before it happens
And unfortunately it usually does.
Then having to spend most of
the day from daybreak to sundown
is even more daunting
We just hope that we get some
real and honest communication today
from everyone involved in my case.

posted April 18, 2022 06:13 AM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:

Yes... And every time he came back, he would give money and bring to the whole neighbourhood of his gifts, toys, clothes and candies from every place he went. He was very generous. Everybody knew him. And everybody loved him. That's how he met my mum. Actually he first met her mother, my grandmother, when she was pregnant to her! I remember that a constant 'fight' between the two of them at home was when my mum was 'scolding' him for giving too much money to other people.
My dear friend, that is so great that you have met someone from my country and you have such good memories of him! See...we are not so strangers after all!

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posted April 18, 2022 06:17 AM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
And yes! If you find yourself somewhere in a Wi-Fi connection, do write to me and tell me how it is going. I will be here...

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posted April 18, 2022 03:14 PM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
You do not have to proofread anything! I love your writing as it is! Give me more of that! Forget about typos! I don't see them anyway!

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Well anyhow we are back home. they were able to do my echocardiogram heart test sooner
so we were able to get home earlier.😎
However we are beyond exhausted physically and psychologically.🥱😴💤

Not sure what is going on or not concerning the pending surgery yet.👽
Virtually no one at the medical campuses involved in my case are bothering to communicate with each other and us.
Things have become very creepy in too many ways. 👽
So suffice it to say we are in a holding position until everyone communicated and
we all come to mutual agreement on all involved in my situation.
I need to rest at the moment sweetheart.💕
My husband is doing his best to fight for my legal and ethical rights but when staff is clueless and doctor feels he is a god.....
and thinks we are just two impoverished idiots.😠
Too much for a doctor specialist
who makes millions a year
to even bother to consider the validity
and intelligence of people like us
who live on in a year most likely what he makes in a day or so.👽😠

posted April 18, 2022 04:01 PM            

I AM DYING
👽

posted April 19, 2022 05:46 AM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
I don't know what they told you, this is totally insane! Nothing is going to happen to you, do you hear me???

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very very clear that even with intense invasive surgery and radiation and chemo that
the odds of surviving much longer is so slim it is not worth the things needed to gain a few months to a year or so.
Time would be spent lying in bed unable to move vomiting and hairless and that would be for the remainder of my life.
I refuse to end like that.
See the treatments would leave me bed bound and unable to move and leave me with a high chance of being blind and stroked out. Brain and other cancer too.
My other pains would also not be addressed. So if my insurance would even authorize it;
I would be unable to do anything but lie unmoved in bed unable to see or think or even type as I am doing now.
I would be severely crippled from the surgery and treatments.
In essence I would die in a stinking hospital unable to move lying in my wasted tubed and totally alone.
Yes alone.
With COVID here I would not be permitted to have my husband stay with me.
We have set up an appointment for a second opinion but I am not counting on them being better and leaving me still able to leave my bed.
I do not know what else to say at the moment.
Damn fancy cancer doctor just laughed and said to my husband that if I want to cancel the surgery to let him know so he can open up the time slot for someone who wants his help and surgery.
Then he laughed again and said that if I change my mind just call him and message him.
WTF?
And get this....
He told my husband that he being the doctor never answers his phone or mail but some nurse would talk with me if I change my mind about doing what he wanted to do.
I am so exhausted and my breaking point has been shored up so many times that I cannot tell how bad it is.
This jerk would not and could not answer our questions. He has no idea why the thing he thought was a huge tumour vanished mysteriously.
It disappeared on newest cat scan.
Tumours do not just vanished.
And he said he has no idea what survival rates are because he does not track patients after he does surgery on them.
WTF?
Must take meds and test more.
Hopefully we can sue several idiots for negligence and malpractice etcetera and give my husband an income after I am gone.
He has no way to survive without my income.
Too out of it to
Type more at the moment.
Thank you for your love and kindness dearest Eternal Energy💕💕💕

posted April 19, 2022 11:22 AM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
You should definitely get a second opinion.

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Good! now we can Ha ha ha
open up the surgery slot
for someone who wants it!
Bye!

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Okay break time.

posted April 19, 2022 11:31 AM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
I don't understand why the doctor was laughing. Really.

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posted April 19, 2022 11:37 AM            

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Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
The doctors had told us that my father would not last more than a few months, but he made it through many years because he was too strong, too proud and too determined to let this beat him down. You are also that strong and determined to live and I know that you can make it. So no, I don't care what that doctor said.

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I intend to keep fighting
until I am unable
to do so unaided.
I refuse to be gutted and die
in a hospital
blind and paralyzed.
If I must end I want it's
on my own terms in a place
I love and can feel peaceful in.

Okay break time.
I know you tell me to
not worry about typos
But some get very strange
especially with damn autofill
Typing in words like hate
instead of heart or hear
or whatever.
Okay break time