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Lexxigramer
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posted April 01, 2022 02:39 PM
  
ETERNAL ENERGY💖
♾️🌌🌟☮️🕉️
This poem by
Max Ehrmann
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Reminds me of you dearest one!💖
I hope you take it as
a high compliment.
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DesiderataGo placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
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Eternal Energy
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posted April 01, 2022 03:00 PM
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posted April 01, 2022 03:08 PM
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Lexxigramer
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posted April 01, 2022 03:20 PM
Oh sweetheart I did not mean for you to cry.💙
I deeply apologize for being so terribly gloomy doomy of late.
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I hope at least part of
the crying is because you
love the poem that
reminds me of you!💖🌟We keep telling ourselves all will work out in our favor.
On that note must go rest some more.
Been trying to distract myself by Lexigramming and Anagramming.
However even doing them wears me out and so must rest hands eyes and
basically all of me for a spell.
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posted April 01, 2022 03:24 PM
I'm deeply touched... There are no words that say thank you enough for this... One of the most beautiful gifts of life I have ever been given. I will never forget it. Thank you so much... You have a heart of gold that is worth all the treasures of the world. I'm hugging you tight right now... And I don't want to let you go...IP: Logged |
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posted April 01, 2022 03:31 PM
I don't care if you are gloomy or doomy... I just want you to get well...IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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posted April 01, 2022 04:53 PM
Dear precious one I am rather speechless and crying too.💖💙
You have been helping me cope more than you
May realize.💙💖
Just up to take meds but wanted to stop in to see you again and give you really heartfelt thanks and hugging you back.
Sigh......Must rest more.
For now.....
My new motto...
I shall return!💖
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Randall
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posted April 01, 2022 06:08 PM
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Lexxigramer
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posted April 01, 2022 06:24 PM
Randall💖
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posted April 02, 2022 10:50 AM
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posted April 02, 2022 02:11 PM
Nic e to know.
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posted April 04, 2022 05:35 AM
Léxi, where are you? How are you doing? Wow! Those opossums friends of yours definitely have a big appetite! They must be indeed very adorable! And looks like they have stored in their memory how much caring you are since they keep coming back to you! I love it when someone has a big appetite! Because in this way I can take care of him or her more! When does the mating season of the fireflies begin there? In May? Here it is in early June. IP: Logged |
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posted April 04, 2022 05:38 AM
Léxi?... I wanted to tell you... I know this Brachytherapy treatment... Does it apply in your case?...IP: Logged |
Lexxigramer
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posted April 04, 2022 07:07 AM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Léxi?... I wanted to tell you... I know this Brachytherapy treatment... Does it apply in your case?...
http://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/treatments/16500-brachytherapy
Possibly yes.
However there are
other issues involved
with my other
disabling conditions.
Much of the process
I may be unable to tolerate
without horrendous and
possibly immediately
fatal results.😩
Not sure yet about any
after surgery treatments.
We will not know
until after they do
complicated dangerous surgery
and see if it
has spread or not.
Insurance might not
pay for it all or any of it.
Also it would make me
radioactive and unable
to be near my husband
or cats or
children etcetera.
Not sure yet whether
I should keep trying
or just give up.
Then I broke two teeth
And need them both extracted.
The PCP who dumped me will
Not give me the pre dental
Meds needed to
protect my heart.
I have not been able to get
a new PCP yet in between
Both my and my husband's
many other doctors'
and hospitals'
appointments.
So am going to have
to have the
two teeth extracted
without the premeds needed
for my heart.
Feeling so very very exhausted
And hopeless.
The toll it is taking on
my husband who is also fighting
cancer and incurable Heriditary
Liver disease and
intractable migraines
with seizures,
is getting to be more than we
can handle even together.
I am going back to bed.
All I can get the energy to do
is up to bathroom
Going to doctors etcetera and
crawling back into bed.
I am beyond terrified.
I just want to be cured.
I want to live but things are
not looking good.
Each time I get hope
it gets stomped back down
And drained out of me.
Sorry.
Cannot think clearly.
Sorry.
Thank you for caring
dear Eternal Energy💖
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posted April 04, 2022 07:20 AM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Léxi, where are you? How are you doing? Wow! Those opossums friends of yours definitely have a big appetite! They must be indeed very adorable! And looks like they have stored in their memory how much caring you are since they keep coming back to you! I love it when someone has a big appetite! Because in this way I can take care of him or her more! When does the mating season of the fireflies begin there? In May? Here it is in early June.
yes the opossums are sweet and adorable!💖
Firefly season starts as early as June 11th here or as late as June 23rd.💖
I hope I will still be alive
and not confined to hospital then.
Okay going down again.
Feels like I am looking down a barrel
Of a double barreled shotgun
Was a hair trigger that could go off any second without warning.
It is causing me to be frozen in unrelenting terror to say the least.
I have not given up yet but I am riding that thin line of feeling I cannot handle
much more and neither can my husband.
I do not want to die in hospital.
If it comes to ending I want it on my own terms under a starry sky or some
other nature place.
These hot and cold terror sweats are
Not letting up these days and nights.
Sorry again for the gloom and room rambling.
Going to try more exhaustion escape sleep again despite the nightmares that invade
My psyche in the dream realms.
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posted April 04, 2022 07:55 AM
That's why I'm asking whether you can discuss with the doctor this option of Brachytherapy treatment so as to avoid the surgery... Can your loving husband call that PCP and tell her that she has to find you a new one?IP: Logged |
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posted April 04, 2022 12:45 PM
I had to block traffic, so a possum mommy could cross the street. She was obviously nursing and had a proud look on her face as she crossed. I don't know if she had the babies on her back (it was at night), in her pouch, or was going to see them. I'll never forget that look on her face, with her head up in the air, and walking with such a proud strut.IP: Logged |
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posted April 04, 2022 12:59 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
That's why I'm asking whether you can discuss with the doctor this option of Brachytherapy treatment so as to avoid the surgery... Can your loving husband call that PCP and tell her that she has to find you a new one?
I will ask him.
However he seems
to think believe that
I need the
invasive surgery
cutting me wide open
from sternum to pelvis.😩
After that he said
there may likely
be radiation and chemo.
I will be discussing
it with him though.
As for that PCP,
Asking her to
find us a new PCP
is a bad idea.
She has already gotten
me banned from
the entire
family heath center
and refuses to say why.😠😩
We will be contacting
an ombudsman and
attorney asap.
No idea yet
why she dropped me.
Very creepy to say the
least from a doctor
who repeatedly
verbally abused me😠
when alone with me 😠
and laughed at my symptoms.
She refused 😠to do
Much needed testing
Nor fix the errors
in my records.
She refused to add
the corrected and
missing things from
my records.
Very serious things
that of not addressed
And treated make surgery
very very very risky.
So anyhow we have
absolutely no idea
why she dropped me.
Hopefully someone
can tell us what
that pcp said.
Okay going to try and eat
with the two new
broken teeth to add
to my misery.
And get this...
They refuse to do
the extractions
because
I do not have a PCP!😠
Then they got nasty
at my husband when
he said we cannot
get a new PCP in time.
He said he was freaking
out enough with handing
my medical appointments.
Get this...she said she does not have to make an appointment if he uses such words as freaking out.
WTF?
He never swore at her and she even snarled at him after he said he was dealing with my cancer issues and apologized for being stressed out and using the words "freaking out".
She just snarled and said
that my cancer is
my problem not hers,
and that he had no
reason to be stressed out
and use the phrase
"freaking out".
Then indicated
cancer patients
are not welcome without letter
from their PCP
authorizing the extractions!
I need premeds for dental work
because of several heart issues.
Then she demanded
a form signed
by a PCP or
no extractions will be done.
She also said
that only my PCP
can give me the premeds.
So now what?😩Going now.
Pardon the typos.
Ugh eating not going well.
Hopefully the
neurologist tomorrow
can help me.
But he is not a PCP
so now what? Going.
Sorry.
You are being so
supportive and sweet
Dear Eternal Energy.💞
So sorry
I am not coping well.
I am usually very brave
but with so many
medical people being
nasty and incompetent,
Yeah I am not
coping well at all.😩
Sorry again.💙
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posted April 04, 2022 01:06 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Randall:
I had to block traffic, so a possum mommy could cross the street. She was obviously nursing and had a proud look on her face as she crossed. I don't know if she had the babies on her back (it was at night), in her pouch, or was going to see them. I'll never forget that look on her face, with her head up in the air, and walking with such a proud strut.
thank you for helping her!💖💖💖💖
Yes they were probably
clinging to her tightly.
I know what you mean about her
proud look and poise!💖😎
They are one of the most
ancient animals on Earth
To survive longer than most
Who are long extinct.😎
Thank you Randall for
sharing that lovely experience!💖
If you had not helped she could have played dead and gotten run over.😞
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posted April 04, 2022 03:22 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Randall:
I had to block traffic, so a possum mommy could cross the street. She was obviously nursing and had a proud look on her face as she crossed. I don't know if she had the babies on her back (it was at night), in her pouch, or was going to see them. I'll never forget that look on her face, with her head up in the air, and walking with such a proud strut.
You are a hero...
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posted April 04, 2022 03:23 PM
See now why I tell you that you are the most beautiful man in the whole world?...IP: Logged |
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posted April 04, 2022 03:35 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Lexxigramer:
As for that PCP,
Asking her to
find us a new PCP
is a bad idea.
She has already gotten
me banned from
the entire
family heath center
and refuses to say why.
Ohhhhhhhh, I rarely get mad at people, but this woman here really gets on my nerves!
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posted April 04, 2022 04:46 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
See now why I tell you that you are the most beautiful man in the whole world?...
Yes he is a hero 💖
and that mamma opossum
Seems to have appreciated his helping her! 💖
Most people would go out of their ways to run them down.😠
Most people fear or hate them.😩Thank you again Randall!💖😎 IP: Logged |
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posted April 04, 2022 05:30 PM
quote:
Originally posted by Eternal Energy:
Ohhhhhhhh, I rarely get mad at people, but this woman here really gets on my nerves!
Update!
We have communicated with
one ombudsman today.😎
She was totally freaked out at
how that PCP treated me and us.
We will be talking with more
higher ups and ADA advocates
Because we who are both totally disabled
are not being accommodated.
They need to realize that we cannot simply drive 2 hour round trips 2 to
several times a week and we
cannot once there just walk because
We cannot walk more than a
few feet even with a rolliators.
And lately I have lost the ability to walk
Even with rolliator walker.
Also with the meds we both must take one or both of us have cognitive issues because
We need to heavily medicate to even be able
to keep all the appointments
They also need to realize that I am nearly blind and cannot fill out forms
or read them even with a huge hand held magnifying glass.
I require my disabled husband
to be with me because he is the only one
Who knows how to move me and all without causing me to stroke out from bone spurs
Slicing and puncturing veins and arteries.
Anyhow hopefully the Americans with Disabilities Association
will help us out.
My fears are not a joke
as the PCP believed and even
laughed about and did not believe nor document the dozens of times I reported
What was or had been getting worse.
Like the bone spurs cutting my carotid
fear. Well I have had at least 3 relatives died sudden deaths from such bone spurs stabbings and cuts into veins and arteries.
Aunt age 44 died jumping up roo fast and turning her head during a bingo win and died instantly from a ruptured carotid artery.
My grandmother age 28 died suddenly whilst
suffering a fall while dancing
from what they
thought was a stroke but was later
Found to be a bone spur in her neck
Puncturing her spinal cord and arteries.
My father had at least 2 strokes from bone spurs cutting off blood supply
to his brain and causing swelling and clots.
I have already had strokes and TIAs and
Bone spurs digging dangerously close
To my neck arteries and 100s more from head to toes encroaching into the neurological
systems network.
Just in the past few months medical techs have damaged my shoulder and arms trying to position me.
Now my arms and shoulders
are more messed up and having more paralysis episodes as a result of them being helpful
without taking into account my severe
Osteoarthritis and Rematoid arthritis
Various other bone/spinal
and neurological issues.
If they lie me flat more than 5 minutes
I often become partially paralyzed from
Neck down.
Hence how does anyone operate on me?
Also pressure on my face and head brings on blindness and unconsciousness.
So yeah
I am a person requiring special accommodations due to my dozens of disabling rare conditions.
Strange thing is how so many doctors just
say things like "oh that's rare,. Don't worry very few people have that".
Wow!
Then they get scared when they
find out that I am a prime example
Of a person with rare and multiple disabling comorbidities.
Those things are so rare that few doctors even know of them.
In fact the type of cancer I am fighting is so rare and often lethal
That they only realized that it is
a new kind or one they had not even
recognized until late 2020.
Barely 2 years!.
So in essence I feel like a
lab rat in their experiments.
Okay rambling on here again.
Apologies.
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Opposums love peanut butter cheese crackers!😎
They hate boiled eggs from what I have seen.
They love strawberries and cereal.💖😎
On that happier note going to try to get paperwork and myself ready for trip
To my Neurologist and also hospital for dozens of blood tests.
Very weak and tired but got to keep going somehow.👣
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posted April 04, 2022 06:06 PM
http://opossumsocietyus.org/general-opossum-information/
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